CHAPTER 3

Joe's Bar

After their shift

Meredith is now on her third shot while watching her friend being miserable. She knows Cristina is good in keeping her emotions but she's her friend and Cristina can't fool her by showing everyone that she's totally fine. It is obvious to Meredith that Cristina misses Burke.

"At least you're free now." Meredith immediately regretted what she said when she saw Cristina's reaction.

"What I mean is you can focus now on your career like you used to do…" Meredith can't bear to continue what she wants to say she didn't have an idea what her friend would be thinking right now.

Cristina is so lost on her thoughts to even think to reply to what Meredith told her and the background song is getting into her. Cristina finish her shot and told her Meredith that she needs to go to do something. Meredith offered to go with her but she refused.

I only think of you

And it's breaking my heart

I'm trying to keep it together

But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element

I'm throwing things

Crying

Trying to figure out

Where the hell I went wrong

The pain reflected in the song

Ain't even half of what

I'm feeling inside

I need you need you back in my life…

Alex is on-call tonight, George and Izzie is just on the other table when Cristina left. They hurried to Meredith to catch up on her latest gossip. Before Izzie could speak, Meredith interrupted her, "She didn't told me anything and even if she did, I'm not going to tell anyone of you. It's not my personal life to just tell."

Izzie can't help but feel sad, why Cristina and Meredith are so distant, and she's left with George or with Alex. She knows that the five of them are a team but if you split them into two. She's sure that Cristina and Meredith would be on the other side and she'll be with Alex and George. An additional to that is her bestfriend George seems to need Callie more than her since his father died and Alex is been hanging around a lot with Addison. Not that she has something to be jealous of, she's just alone.

"I don't get it. I've always thought that Cristina and Dr. Burke had a weird relationship but even so, I envy them. They've been together and have gone through a lot of things. When I lived with them, I never thought I could see Cristina being involve with anyone because of her selfishness and Dr. Burke being so soft, nice, and patient compared on our first day when I'm his intern. They certainly brought out the best to each other and I could really tell they're so in love."

George's description of Cristina and Burke's relationship made Meredith envy them so much. It's like they were born and made of each other. Cristina and Burke had work only on their mind until they became a couple. Cristina even became a much better person and she is very happy. While Dr. Burke is one of top Cardiothoracic surgeon, she never thought Cristina is his only weakness, remembering their conversation when he asked her if Cristina told her that she moved in with him. She just realized how much Burke loves her bestfriend.