A/N: Okay, soI figured out how to update an already posted chapter, so you don't have to answer that questoin! Okay, so this chapter could have gone on FOREVER, butI stopped it where it was. Are my chapters too short? Cuz I can go for WAY more if you guys want me to. Tell me what you think!

Disclaimer: Twilight does not belong to me, it belongs to Stehpenie Meyer.

"Wow." I said, awed at Edward's now transformed room.

Where his couch used to be was a small table. Now if I were human, I would think that as a place to have a romantic dinner to match the romantic room. But I highly doubted Edward brought an already hunted deer to eat. On the ground was silk fabric with red rose pedals sprinkled everywhere. Also on the ground were millions of candles lighting up the room. Each one was a different width or height. But to me, the most amazing thing was Edward. He was lying on the bed, which also had pedals on it, in loose jeans and a black shirt. Again, I felt the awe of how beautiful he was.

"Hello." Edward said, a smirk on his face. He got up slowly and came over to me. He put his hands on my waist and pulled me in. We kissed for an immeasurable moment, but when he pulled away, I felt as if I wanted more. He saw it in my face.

"Don't worry. More of that later." He winked, sending shock waves up and down my body. He took my hand and led me to the table. There, he pulled out the chair for me to sit.

"Thank you, young sir." I said sarcastically and sat down. Edward chuckled slightly and sat on the chair across from mine.

"So, what's all this?" I said, looking around that the vast decoration of the place. All so romantic. Just then, it hit me. Edward's room off limits, lingerie, and Alice all giddy. They were all signs of what I was pretty sure of Edward setting the "mood." I couldn't have gone into Edward's room because he had asked Alice to make sure I didn't see his decorating. But I'm sure that Edward wouldn't tell her to get me lingerie. That was not the gentlemanly Edward I knew. But that only explained why Alice was so giddy. She knew that tonight would be my first, our first, time… "Doing it." I felt like a retard saying it, but it was true. But Edward most defiantly did not tell that to Alice. She must have seen it in a vision. That must have been a disturbing vision! Then something else hit me. I was wearing ridiculous underwear!

I must have had a worried look on my face because when I felt Edward's stone hand on my shoulder, he looked concerned.

"Bella?" He asked.

"I'm fine." I blushed, looking at him now. If only he knew…

"What?" He asked. He leaned in and brushed my cheek softly.

"Nothing, nothing at all." I was set not to let him squeeze this thought out of me. So to change the topic, I asked him again, "So what is all this?"

"I wanted to be with you. Alone." He said simply, and brushed a stray hair out of my face.

"Alone?" I asked, hardly able to breath.

"Yes, everyone is out of the house tonight." He said.

"For us?" I asked, astounded.

"Not only for us. Today, I made it designated take-your-sweetheart-to-dinner day." He giggled.

"Out to dinner?" I wondered, knowing for sure that none of the Cullens would eat human food unless they had to.

"We just call it that. But let's not get into the details…" He trailed off, looking deeply into my eyes. I wanted to turn away, I was not used to people staring at me, but I couldn't. His butterscotch eyes captured me, not letting me go. Suddenly, I thought of the bars that were painted on walls of that store I had gone to. I shook my head, not wanting to think about the handcuffs and whips.

"What did you do today?" Edward asked, reaching across the table to take my hand in his. He set our hands on top of the table and looked at them.

"I went unwillingly to shop with Alice." I said, making a mock angry face at him.

He laughed slightly, but tried to contain himself, "I'm sorry. I had to ask her to do it. How was I supposed to do this if you were in here?" He smiled.

"But this probably took you a second!" I refused, angry I had to go to some stupid lingerie store while I could have been here with him.

"Yes, but then you would have wanted to go sit in my room, and you very well couldn't do that. So I asked Alice to occupy you." He kissed my hand and all my anger faded away. I was sick of being across the table from him. I got up and sat down on his lap. He smiled as I laid my head on his shoulder, breathing in his beautiful aroma. He kissed my hand and then a few places on my arm. Then, he trailed up my arm with small, quick kissed. He got to my shoulder and started to follow the line of my collarbone. I shivered with happiness as he kissed up my neck and finally, my lips. Once he was there, I kissed him fiercely back. And the best part was, he did the same. I was in heaven. After the kiss lasted for a few minutes, I felt Edward pick me up in his arms and start moving toward the bed. I remembered what I had figured out earlier and I stopped. I opened my eyes and saw Edward pulling away, feeling the stiffness of my body.

"What's wrong?" He asked, an anxious look on his face.

"Nothing." I said curtly and lunged back into his lips. He kissed me back with all his love and desire for me. We were now on the bed. His hands were on either side of my head and his body was off to the side, not on top of mine. He unbuttoned the buttons of my shirt slowly, keeping his now black eyes locked on mine. Once he was finished with the buttons, he took of his shirt. I saw his bare, white chest greet me with pleasure. But then, I looked up at him and saw he was smiling and looking at my chest. My first instinct was to cover my self up, but then I looked down and remembered my flimsy underwear.

"Edward, let me explain…" I started to say, but he was already unbuttoning my pants, so I assumed he did not care. When my jeans were finally off, he started to laugh hysterically.

"What is this?" He said between gasps of air.

"This is what Alice forced me to do. To buy this." I pointed at my tutu. I was trying to explain to him that I didn't have any part in the decision to get this, but he wasn't taking it. He laughed loudly. I just sat up and put my hands over my chest, trying to look as if I wasn't embarrassed at all. But, of course, my cheeks failed me. They were burning hot from my humiliation. Once Edward stopped laughing, he looked at me, his eyes sparkling with joy.

"Don't be embarrassed. I think it's cute." At this, he ruffled the small fabric for the tutu. We both laughed and I sank back down to lying position. Edward came back on top of me, kissing me fiercely. He started taking my bra off when I started feeling the giddiness of the moment ware off. What was happening? This was actually going to happen. Of course, I wanted it to happen, but why was I suddenly so scared and nervous. My stomach had a strange, tingling feeling in it. I stopped kissing him and I felt Edward's hands immediately drop from my back. He looked at me and gave out a huge sigh, but immediately stopped himself. He didn't want to look disappointed. He had seen my face, which was scared, and he saw my hands, which had been pushing him slightly off me. I was looking the other way, hoping he wouldn't see my sudden terrified feelings.

"What's wrong?" He asked. He got off the top of me and sat down next to me. I shook my head, not feeling like looking into his worried eyes. I heard Edward mutter something under his breath in the way he talked to his family. His mouth moved quickly in a small whisper. I was sure he said, "I mean, when you were human, you wanted more and more. But now, you don't want it!" I was outrageous at his words.

"I can hear you, you know?" I said, my face becoming red with anger.

"Well, then what's wrong?" He asked, throwing his hands up in the air. He did not understand why I had rejected him.

I really didn't understand either. I looked around his CD filled room. The candles on the ground looked so nice and romantic. Why had I ruined this night? I love Edward. What am I doing? I looked back to Edward's face, which was impatient. His face reminded me of what we had been talking about.

"You aren't hurting me, of course not." I smiled before I said, "I'm a vampire, and almost no one can hurt me." I held up my arms, flexing them comically. Edward smiled, but it did not stay long. "I'm not sure why I can't go any further. I just can't seem to." I looked down at my hands, ashamed that I made Edward change me and now I couldn't even show that I had really wanted it. I had REALLY wanted it being a vampire and I still am so extremely happy that I was now to be forever with Edward. The thought of it made me elated and all giddy inside.

Edward wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer. "It is okay. I can wait till you feel right. Don't forget, we have all the time in the world." Edward chuckled. I smiled, happy he wasn't mad at me. "I can wait a million years for someone as heartfelt and beautiful as you." Edward caressed my cheek with the back of his hand.

I blushed strongly, and Edward chuckled once more. He kissed my cautiously on the lips.

"I'll be right back." He whispered and disappeared out of the room.

A/N: Hoped you like it. I will try to update as soon as possible.

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