A/N: Hello everybody! So sorry for the late chapter. These past two weeks have been chaotic, and I didn't have time to upload.

I'm awful at thinking about titles for the chapters. I'm definitely regretting not choosing to leave them as "Chapter 1, 2, 3...". There are some decisions we make that are just braah!

Anyway here's the 4th chapter!

Warning, as always:

- English is not my first language. So, feel free to warn me of any mistake you find along the way.

- You can also find it on Wattpad and Archive of Our Own under the same name. So, you can choose whichever platform you're more comfortable with.

- SMUT: Solo Masturbation; Language (as in every chapter, someone should come and cover my mouth sometimes).

The house was dark except for the light coming from the lamp on Ohm's nightstand table.

Nanon was pacing around the room, forward and back. He was having insomnia and anxiety. One hour ago, he took an anxiolytic pill, which made his chest feel less heavy, and he was able to breathe properly again. So, he was not feeling like he was going to be crushed anymore, but still, the thoughts remained.

Since Ohm left with his manager to go to the hospital a little bit past dinner time, Nanon had eaten dinner, worked for 2h on the next solo event he had and on some papers for the group work he was doing for one of his classes, tried to sleep, failed on that, watched a movie, tried to sleep, failed again, felt his chest was being crushed, took a pill, and gave up on all this sleeping business.

Who needs it anyway?

Nanon looked at the last messages they exchanged.

Ohm: They will put me on liquids so it will take some time. Don't wait up, okay?

NNN: Okay. Try not to be a stubborn arse.

Ohm: Sure thing! I'll save my stubbornness for you. *sticker*

NNN: Oh, lucky me! Goodnight, take a rest.

Ohm: Night, Non. *sticker*

The abusive use of those huge stickers annoyed Nanon to his core. Another thing about him that was annoying…

This was the first time he was alone without Ohm since all of this began. That made reality closer to him, like what he was experiencing with Ohm was more of a dream than reality. Like the Nanon he was when he was with Ohm wasn't, in reality, him.

Well, more or less…

After the last events they had, people told him he seemed more confident and more assertive. The truth is that he was feeling more comfortable around Ohm and even around other people. He felt more protected and freer to be himself. He guessed that showed up as confidence.

But what the hell were these feelings?

"How can you be so calm?"

Ohm was sitting on the opposite side of the couch, facing me, with one foot on top of it. He had taken off the t-shirt he was wearing because of the heat after the… Aham… Activity we had just done. His chest and abs shone with the drops of sweat that were resting there. Shia, he looks… Mouthwatering. Literally. Aaaah, what is happening to me?! I'm literally drooling for him! My eyes travelled down through the line of his abs until the hem of his shorts. I felt my cheeks burning and tried to refocus my mind away from the thoughts of what was underneath those shorts. I have to control this feeling or he will be cockier than ever! It was not the first time I'd seen him naked! But that didn't happen as often and definitely not like this…

Wait, he's talking!

"… and damn, we don't even have time. Actually, I'm having fun." Ohm paused, looking at me, "Did you listen to me? You're so red. What are you thinking?"

I didn't know what to say.

"Can you stop being cute? We are trying to have a proper conversation here." he laughed.

"Stop being an asshole and repeat what you were saying. I was distracted." I defended myself.

Ohm smiled at me.

"I said I don't think it's that big a deal, that we are both young and famous, so we can't hang out with anyone we feel like because it's risky, and we don't even have time for that." Ohm looked at me, "As I was saying, actually, I'm having fun. How do you feel about this?"

I felt a little nervous with the direct question, but decided to be honest, "I think I'm a bit confused. I mean, we are friends. On top of that, you are a guy."

Ohm smiled, pressing the lips together.

"Well, I think that's some of the things that make this good."

I was surprised, "What do you mean?"

"Well, I'm very comfortable with you. That makes it possible for me to be with you in a different way than how I've been with other people."

I thought about this from my side. I had a girlfriend back in high school. So, she was my first. Apart from that, I had a few one-night stands with other celebrities. It's easier because I know that they won't want to expose that to the world, too. But, sometimes, that complicates the relationship afterwards. I know Ohm has a similar experience, except he had never had a long-term girlfriend.

"In what way do you mean that?"

He adjusted his position as the coach.

"First of all, because you are a man, I feel more comfortable touching you and being rougher towards you."

I felt a warm tingle in my centre. Sometimes, he's too direct, no?

"Because you are my friend, and we already play hard with each other, I know mostly how much strength I can use and what you can bear, and I feel you know as well regarding me. But also because of these two reasons, I know that maybe if I, in the heat of the moment, pass a little bit of what is acceptable for you, you won't break, and you'll be comfortable enough to tell me directly that I have to slow down if I don't understand it by what your body is telling me. More than that, we talk and understand each other well enough to be able to handle this in our private and public life."

Nanon remembered the conversation they had three days ago. He had spent the next days mostly with Ohm, at events or the house. There was one day he left to have lunch with Noonie and Mama Ning, but then they both had meetings for their solo series on the company and came home together.

He was enjoying these few days. It was comfortable staying with him, at his condo, though they would get into fights and mostly didn't match their habits. Somehow, he felt comfortable with him doing what he wanted, even if sometimes it was against Ohm's will, and being himself without barriers. He has never felt this level of comfort with anyone. This is something that intrigues Nanon. He doesn't usually feel as comfortable staying so much time with someone, except his sister and mother.

Though he is an extroverted person, he has some peculiarities that he doesn't like to show to everyone, like his melancholic and anxious mood. Ohm knew already about it and had faced it before, and he was able to give him the space he needed without pressuring him into talking.

Nanon imagined that, sometimes, it was himself that had some difficulties giving Ohm the space he needed. Ohm needed more quiet time to recover his energy, and Nanon liked to blabber.

"What an amazing new way to shut you up!"

Ohm had said this to him the day before as he pinned him against the table after he had blabbered for quite some time to a very tired Ohm.

Nanon sat on the edge of the bed, feeling the familiar warm feeling driving through him. This was strange. This was not normal. They were friends! Well, now they were friends who liked to play with each other.

"So, what are you suggesting? Like, we are friends. What are the rules?"

Ohm laughed.

"What do you want, Nanon? To sign a contract? We are just friends who are making each other feel good, friends that like to play with each other." Ohm laughed, "We can be together when we want, if we don't we can say it." he looked confused, "I don't know, Nanon. I think I am confused, too. But I also know I'm enjoying it too much to give it up. Aren't you?"

His foot started caressing my leg, making me goosebumps.

"I like how we are exploring each other, how we can learn new things, it's fun..." Ohm's eyes were intense once again, "Don't you feel like that?"

I looked back at him, seeing his smile reappearing, and felt my heart beating faster, knowing too well I'd already accepted the deal.

Remembering it made Nanon even more flustered. Those little sentences had started a whole make-out session. The hell with this man and his words! Nanon liked being intimate with Ohm. It was comfortable but, at the same time, exciting and new.

He laid down on the bed, rolling to Ohm's side and feeling Ohm's smell surrounding him. He grabbed the bolster Ohm normally used to hug to sleep, though that space has been occupied by Nanon recently. It smelled like him so much, his chocolate and his wooden scent were so warm. He squeezed the pillow and felt all that warmness travelling through his body until the end of his members. The familiar heat warming his centre.

The last time they had... Were intimate with each other was last night. Today, Ohm was feeling worse in the morning, and Nanon had a solo event. When Nanon came back, Ohm was much worse and hadn't eaten anything all day. Nanon hoped for Ohm to be okay and arrive quickly. He didn't like to be alone. And he was missing his presence and his laugh around the house.

I miss him now? How ridiculous is this?

His heart was beating fast. This was reminding him of their first night on that bed, he remembered how Ohm pushed his leg forward while Nanon humped it, his hip going up and down. He remembered the soft skin of Ohm's thigh on his hand while he pushed it to his crotch.

Nanon put one leg over the pillow and grabbed it against his already half-hard member. A little moan escaped him while he craved his nails on the pillow.

He remembered how it felt to be this close to him, how he moaned his name for the first time.

"Fuuck, Nanon…"

That sound echoing in his thoughts made something tremble around his stomach. Breathing unevenly, he broke the contact just long enough to get rid of his shorts.

Mental note to clean this pillowcase. Ohm won't like this mess.

But that didn't matter now. Nanon continued rubbing his dick over the pillow, pressing the bolster to him. He wanted to feel Ohm's hands on him: on his waist, on his back, on his belly, on his chest… He took his t-shirt and felt the soft fabric against his belly and chest. His nipples were hard, and he could still feel Ohm's tongue on them as it was the last time they touched each other. That nipple play he did to him was truly amazing. Nobody has ever done that, and he liked it a lot. He, especially, liked his breathing against them and...

Arghh, just arrive already!

Soon he would have spoken, sooner it would have happened.

Nanon stopped everything - every touch, every rubbing, every noise - when he heard two different voices coming through the door.

A/N: Thanks to those that took the time to read it.

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