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Trials Of The Heart

By: Alunamai

Chapter Five:

Crash And Burn

Jasper POV

She kissed me. This perfect stranger kissed me and what did I do… I kissed her back. How could I feel anything for a woman who has just told she fantasized about me her entire life? I must be going crazy. But then again, I felt she needed me. Like I was to guide her through this monstrous existence. Like we were meant to be together for eternity. That's when I remembered a very faint memory from another lifetime.

Flash back

"Jasper, you will know when you find her. When I met your mother, I knew she was the one. Although, she did play hard to get, but that changed after a while."

End flash back

As soon as I had returned the kiss, she abruptly ended it. She leapt up off the ground and ran into the near by barn… if that could be considered a barn.

"Alice, I'm sorry! I didn't mean…"

"It's not you." I heard her call. "I just lost…"

"Control of your emotions. I know. I felt it!" Yes I know I have no room to talk when it comes to the dark gifts.

"You felt… what I was feeling?" she looked at me in awe. "How is that even possible?"

"How are you able to see the future?" I asked. "Why is the grass green and the sky blue? Why have we been brought together?"

"I don't know the answers to those questions." She gave me. " I suppose you don't either."

"I don't have an answer. But I can feel the emotions of others. But yours come in crystal clear. It's like I am supposed to be here with you."

At least that's what I thought was true. I hadn't felt like this in so long. Actually, I never felt like this. The depression I had felt since 1880 was now gone. Maybe she was what I needed. Of that I was unsure.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

I rose from were I sat in the grass and made my way to the barn she had gone into. She sat up in the loft hugging her knees. She rested her head on top of her knees and she stared down at the ground. Her angelic face looked sad, but she was unable to produce a single tear. I joined her. Only I wrapped my arms around her shoulders, in which she turned around and wrapped her slender arms around me. I brought her into my lap as she laid her head under my chin.

"Jasper, where do we go from here?"

"I don't know. I truthfully do not know." I answered her as I began stroking her short spiky hair.

I don't know how long we sat like that. All I remember is when she finally stirred the sun was just starting rise over the horizon, signaling that a new day had started. She pulled way slightly from my chest to look me in the eye. I stared down into her beautiful gold eyes and wondered at what our lives would be like together.

"We need to go." She said suddenly. "We need to find someone." She jumped up and grabbed my hand. "we need to be on the next train out of here."

"Alice, where are we going?" I asked her quickly.

"Any where but here." She said quickly. "They know what we are." She jumped down from the high loft.

-x-x-x-

Canada December 31, 1949

"When are we going to stop traveling?" I asked as we left off the train with about four large suitcases. Only one of which was mine.

"They're here. He's here. We don't have much time." You know, after two years of this you would think I would know who in the hell we were looking for and I have yet to find out. "We need to find an Agatha and Seamus. They should be able to tell us where to find this Carlisle Cullen."

"Could we get a hotel so we… I don't have to lug the luggage."

"Jazz, we will find them before the hour is thru."

"How do you…"

"There they are. Agatha and Seamus let me stay with them back in the mid 1930's until about 1945."

"Oh." I followed her towards a red haired couple.

"Mary Alice! It's been a while." The woman said happily. "Now is this the young man you wrote us about? My, he is handsome. Say, what is your name?" her Irish accent was still intact. She couldn't be much older than myself.

"Jasper Whitlock."

"The great Civil War Major that disappeared after being wounded." The one I gathered to be Seamus spoke quickly. "I thought you were turned. That Maria was so infatuated with you that she followed you around. When I heard you were turned I knew who had done it."

I looked at Alice a moment hoping she would be able to explain what in the hell he was talking about.

"Seamus knows the history of almost every person in the world. But there are very few exceptions to that power. Agatha and I are some of them. And he speaks as if he knew you at that time. And Agatha is gifted in the department of healing. She can heal just about anything. Except for polio, the flu, and anything else that could be deadly."

"So tell me child, what brings you to Canada?"

"We are looking for Carlisle Cullen." Alice answered quickly. "At least I think that is his name."

"Carlisle! We were going over there for a New Years Eve Party. You should come with us." Agatha suggested.

"That sounds wonderful."

"Let's get the two of you cleaned up." Agatha started towards the exit of the train depot.

-x-x-x-

We arrived at a huge house that was set way back off the road. We all stepped out of the car and walked up the steps. As soon as we reached the top step the door flew open and out stepped a blonde man. He had a wide smile as he saw us all step out of the car.

"Agatha, my dear, how have you been?" he sounded British. "And Seamus, my man, how's the married life?"

"Very well, Carlisle, very well. And how is Esme and the kids?" kids?

"Esme is fine. Rosalie and Emmett are living in Vancouver and Edward is, well, Edward."

"Very good." I wasn't sure if Seamus was answering Carlisle's first question or just saying very good for Carlisle's statement.

We had entered the house and were told to take a seat. And as soon as we did, in came a man and woman.

"Where are my manners?" Agatha cried. "Carlisle, this is Mary Alice Brandon and Jasper Whitlock."

"Nice to meet you. This is my wife Esme and this is Edward." Some times I wondered why people felt so uncomfortable meeting others.

"They've been searching for us." Edward stated quietly.

How could he possibly know that we have been…

"I can read minds." He stated quickly.

"Well, they are more than welcomed to stay here." Esme said as she hugged Alice. " You are in need of a mother figure." She said quietly to Alice.

-x-x-x-

We were given a room to share. It was small, but it would do. We most likely wouldn't be here long. Alice sprawled her self across the bed and motioned for me to sit beside her. I obliged and sat beside her. She was upset about something.

"Jasper?" she called quietly.

"Yes, dear?"

"Do you love me?" she asked me. It sounded like it was more to herself than to me.

" Yes." I hadn't even hesitated. I did love her. With all my heart. My world revolved around her very being.

"Am I beautiful?"

"Yes."

"Tell me."

"Alice, I am desperately in love with you. You are more beautiful to me than the sun in the sky." I stopped a second. "You can rely on my from now until the end of eternity."

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

"That long huh?"

"You can rely on me. I will always be there for you."

She sat up and threw herself on top of me. This surprised me, for I didn't expect it. She lips attacked mine and I laid us against the bed.

"Marry me, Jasper?" she asked after a few moments.

"Of course." I answered as I flipped us over and she lay beneath me.

-x-x-x-

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

"Jazz," She whispered. "Don't leave me. Please don't ever leave me."

I looked at her. She was having a vision. Why would I ever want to leave her? I had no reason to.

"JASPER!" she bolted up out of my embrace and stared down at me.

"Alice, are you alright?" Her eyes looked down at me and I saw the fear in her eyes. I brought her close to me and rubbed her back.

"Please don't ever leave me. If anything were to happen to us, please don't ever leave." She whispered so fast that I almost didn't catch it.

"I will never leave you. I would have to be crazy to leave you Alice. You're my life. You always will be my life. Don't you ever forget that."

She clung to my body as I told her this. Sometimes her visions would frighten her enough to threaten me or to accuse me of things that I would never understand. She never told me what she saw in her visions, unless it involved looking for something. Like the time she led me on a wild goose chase looking for a pair of shoes she saw in a vision. I think, that it wasn't a vision at all, but that's me.

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

"Jasper, just promise me that you will always be there for me. No matter what happens."

"I will never leave your side."

A/N: Okay, now on Tuesday I will get on the train and get the original chapter five and make that chapter six. I hope you all liked this one. It only took me four hours to type! Other things easily entertain me and I was kind of procrastinating. Oh sorry the songs on italisized on the page but I had some problems.