CHAPTER 13

Why?

Dream:

"Serena I'm in love with you can't you see that."

"Jeff you know I don't like the 'L' word. Don't say it if you don't mean it"

"SERENA! When are you going to believe me? I LOVE YOU!"

Serena sat up in bed. Why in the hell was she dreaming about Jeff?She looked over to the alarm clock that read 5:05 am. She groaned and put her face in her hands.

"Stupid Dream, why did you have wake me up" Serena rolled out of bed and went into the bathroom. When she flicked on the bathroom light she had too shield her eyes.

"Damn light" She mumured to herself and uncovered her eyes as they adjusted to the brightness. She turned on the water and splashed it on her face. She grabbed a towel off the towel rake. Serena looked into the mirror. She had bags under her eyes and her hair was a mess. When had she become so unoragnized? Serena walked out of thr bathroom and into thie living room where it was dark and the only source of light was the kitchen light and the moon. She made her way into the kitchen and found a note on top of the counter. It read.

Sere,

I tought you might be hungry when you woke up so I took the pleasure of buying chinese if you want some it in the oven. Just put it into the microwave. You do know how to work that right? Anyways don't forget that your house tour is tomarrow at 5:00 and Serena plz don't eat to fast I don't want to come get you tomarrow and you've choked on the food.

Always

Sam

Serena grinned and went over to the oven and got out the Chinese that sam had said that was in there. She looked in the bag and found a small carten on shrimp flomag. Serena smiled to herself. How did he knowthat this was her favorite?

"How could it be your favorites if mother never let you even have Chinese?"

"You again" serena said talking to herself.

"Whats that's suppose to mean? Oh plz don't tell me that your still mad at me for making you a admit that your in love with Darien."

Serena smriked and put her Chinese in the microwave. She put in on for a minute. "Umm last I checked I didn't say I was in love with Darien I said that I liked him, not loved. I don't believe in the 'L' word, not until I really mean it and someone else means it"

"Of Course I know you don't believe in the love your talking to yourself here, but come its silly!"

Serena went to take her food out of the microwave and took a fork out of the drawer. " Would you shut up already. I trying to eat" Serena walked into the living room and turned on the T.V.

"Whatever, but don't come crying to me when you start to falling for him"

"OK why would I come to myself I have friends for that kinda stuff"

"What friends? You left them back in New York remember?"

"UM like I said I have friends to go to like Raye, Lita, and Mina and when I start working for Raye I probably get more friends. The people I left in New York were not my friends. And will you please shut up I feel like I'm losing my mind" Serena flicked through the channels and finally came a decision to watch 'Star Update'.

"In other News Ken Washington, Daughter Serenity Washington is still missing"

"You feel your losing your mind"

"SHH"

"Ken Washington is the President of the famous compnay called 'stars and entertainment', daughter Serenity Washington is still missing and he says that his family and him are still griveing. Here is Jon Ace in exculsive interview with him.

The T.V switched to a handsome man in a blue shrit and black blue jeans.

"Mr. Washington how are you and your family doing a this tough time?"

"We are getting through it, but it still hasn't clicked that she even ran away." Serena saw the pain in her father's face. She wanted to cry. Her father only wanted the best for her. Why did I even runaway.

"You ranaway because they were always controlling you remember! They wouldn't even let you open your own business like you planned to after college!"

Of course she remebered why she ranway! But looking at her father on the news looking destroyed that she ran away.

"…Mr. Washington do you have any idea to why she would runaway?"

"I think she was just thinking about herself" Serena turned her back to the T.V when she heard her father say this. She was thinking about herself! That was so far from the turth! It was always about him nothing was ever about her. She went to that stuipd pravite school because he wanted her to! She broke up with Seyia because he wanted her too! He was not about to turn this on her! Her father wasn't worried about her! He probably didn't even care that she ranway. He was only doing this to get people to think that he was this loving father and she was the troublsome child!

"Why would you say that?"

"Because Serenity was always the type to only think about herself, but me, her mother, her boyfriend, and her loving friends loved her through all of that."

"So are you some what happy that she runaway?"

"NO! Not on my life I love serenity with all my being" The reporter smiled at this. But Serena only frowned. What the hell was happeing! Didn't she get any say in this!

"What are you doing to sreach for Serenity?"

"Well we have agents all through out the country looking for Serenity. She could have gone anywhere. She has her own bank account and has unlimted cerdit card. We are hoping to track her down by looking through her credit card uses." Serena smiled at this her dad really thought that she was a stupid bimbo. "We haven't found any yet, but if I know Serenity as well has I think I do shei can't live long without using her credit card. So it's only matter of time until she slips up." Ken smiled at this. Serena smiled even brighter when he heard her father's last words. She would fool her father and the rest of her family. They had no clue how smart she really was.

Serenity or "Serena" was always known as the stupid one in her family. Her family could never understand why she never did well in school. They hired tutor after tutor and she still never did well in school. She nearly failed highschool she passed with a D average. It wasn't that she was stupid or anything she actually really smart, she just never found any interset in school. The only reason she got into a well-respected college was because her father was bestfriends with the Den of the school. It was in that college that Serenity found interset, in the world of business. Her parents never really knew of her complishments in college. She had graduated with 3.7 in the school of business. Her parents always thought that the only reason that she didn't get kicked out was because her father kept paying for her to stay. But all in all her parents, her friends, and boyfriend never knew how smart she really was. She hid it well from all of them. She would go to the library and would stay there for hours reading books and when someone called her cell phone she would say she was at the mall shopping for a new purse or colthes.

"Is there anything that you would want to say your daughter if you tought that she was listening?" The reporter asked her father. Ken turned is head towards the camera and smiled into it.

"Serenity we will find you soon so stop this maddness… Jeff was going to propose to you the night that you left" Serena drop her Chinesse on the floor when her father annocment. The camera turned back to the reporter.

"Will you heard it first from the Washington family. We will kept you update through out this week" The screen went to the main reporter and she signed off from the show. The screen went blank for a minute and then went to some kiddy program. Through all this Serena sat on the couch with her mouth wide open. Then with a pirceing scream Serena shouted:

"WHAT THE HELL!" Serena throw the remote at the T.V. and ran into her room. She tore the covers and sheets off her bed. She picked up the vase on a table in her room and through it into the wall, where it smashed into a million pieces. By this time Serena was in tears. She ran into the bathroom and pulled the curtains off of the windows. She was about to run into the bedroom when she slipped on a bar of soap and hit her head on the counter as she fell to the floor. A minute she layed on the floor. After five minutes on the floor she pulled her self up off the floor and she found herself face to face with her reflection. As she stared at herself she noticed that her eyes were puff from crying and there was a cut on the top of her head from where she hit her head on the counter. Her lip was also busted, but she had no clue when she had done that. Serena contiuned stared at herself in the mirror. She hated the way she looked. Why was she even crying? Was it because Jeff had lied to her parents and said that he wanted to marry her or was it because she her father was making her out to be the bad guy in this whole thing? She had no clue which one it was, but at his moment she was disguted to look at herself. She was starting to pity herself and she would not have it! Serena stood up to her full hieght. She drew her fist back and punched the mirror. When she did the broke in the center. Serena look down at her hand, which was covered in blood. She smiled alittle and stumbled out of the bathroom and into the kitchen. She opened the drawer of silverware grabbed a hand full of forks and spoons and smashed them onto the floor. She went into the dish cabient and took out some plates and smashed them onto the floor. She made her way over to the refeigator when she opened it she smiled. She pulled out a bottle of vodkia. She opened and walked over in her bedroom she walked over to her balcony. She pushed the sliding door open and walked to the corner of it. She slupped down into and took a giant gulp of the vodkia.

"Why did you have to do this to me Jeff?" serena cried. She took another swig of the vodkia and ran her blood hand through her hair. For the rest of the morning she stayed like that drinking her vodkia and crying.