OK so i know i said i wasnt going to update in ages, but i just really felt like writing a new chapter, i dont know why, i just did, so enjoy it.

Also i did take a section from New Moon and used it in here as a flashback - all rights go to

BPOV

There was still so much I needed to know from him, still so much I wanted to ask, but that night when we were discussing things I had decided it was time to stop, I didn't want things to become too much for either of us, I mean, I hadn't even touched the whole Tanya story.

Unfortunately, I don't think I could avoid that topic much longer, why you might ask, well because I made the mistake of telling Tanya all about it. I had decided to ring her one night so we could catch up, I thought, well what's the harm right? I told her that the Cullen's were back and she went into this whole over-dramatic thing.

"Oh god Bella, that must be so hard on you, what are you going to do?"

I hesitated slightly deciding on how to answer her question, she is my friend, my sister even. she should be happy for me right?

"Well actually, Edward and I have worked things out, and were kind of back together now…"

"WHAT!" she all but screeched, seriously, she sounds like a banshee. Haha, that's actually kind of funny, I think I could picture her as a banshee, feeding of others pain, yup, that's Tanya.

"What about everything he did to you, he used you Bella!"

I rolled my eyes at her comment, pfft, what did she know anyway?

"Regardless, we're together now."

"That's it, you give me no other choice Bella, I mean clearly he has brainwashed you with his lies again, I'm coming down there, and that's final."

And then the phone clicked shut. Oh joy.

Seriously, she is just asking for trouble, I didn't want to bring the whole thing up with Edward, because looking back on it, it seems like such a stupid thing to believe and such a stupid thing to lose faith of him over, I mean it is obvious now that she was lying, but I didn't know that then did I?

Oh well, might as well get this over with.

I walked up to his bedroom knocking on the door lightly.

"Come in"

I opened the door walking in. He was lying on the bed reading a book, and he looked stunningly beautiful like always, and when I say stunningly beautiful, I mean I was actually stunned, and shocked into stillness for a second or two, before coherent thought came back.

"Hey love" He smiled that breathtakingly beautiful crooked smile at me and I all but melted. Gah, stupid sexy, beautiful vampire and his hypnotic powers.

I walked over to the bed and sat down next to him, crossing my legs and turned so my body was facing him. He closed his book putting it down, noting the seriousness on my face. The title of the book was Blood moon, something which I had yet to read, I will borrow it from him one day, if we make it through this conversation of course.

I know I am being ridiculous, because I know that something as stupid as this wouldn't be enough for him to be mad at me or leave me or anything stupid like that, but I have always been overly paranoid, its just the way I am.

He sat up crossing his legs also, facing me in the process. I sighed heavily.

"Tanya is coming to visit me, well, you, well, us, I mean, ah! I don't even know anymore."

"Why is this a problem?" He asked clearly confused.

"Because!" He looked at me expectantly and then sighed.

"Were not going to get anywhere here Bella unless you explain."

"Ok, ok, just promise you won't get mad at me"

"Silly Bella, of course I won't, I can never be mad at you."

"Ok, so when I was staying with Tanya and the rest of her family, well my family I guess," He raised his eyebrows at my obvious rambling. "Anyway, I had stayed with her for about two years, and then one day I kind of snapped, I decided that I was going to come and find you no matter what, I had packed my bags and I was just about to leave when Tanya stopped me at the door.

"I didn't realise why at the time, but she was trying so hard to stop me from leaving and finding you, she eventually told me that you always did this…"

I took a shaky breath, even though I knew now that none of this could be true, it still hurt to think about it, and to think about how much it hurt me just to hear that.

"She said you always find some poor girl who will easily fall in love with you, and that you drag them along constantly, pretending to fall in love with them too, but then you would get bored of them and just leave them. She said you did it to her too."

He looked shocked.

"And you believed it?" He didn't sound angry, no, angry would have been good, but instead he sounded hurt, really hurt.

"Well it just made so much more sense, I mean the way you left me Edward, you gave me no real reason, you said you didn't want me anymore, it just made sense ok! I didn't want to believe her, but it just seemed to fit in with everything. I hated you for it too, god I hated you so damn much Edward."

"Oh" Was all he said.

"Excuse me" and then he got up and walked out of the room.

"Edward, wait!" but he ignored me and kept walking.

I stared at the door for almost an hour before I got up. I walked out of the Cullen house in a daze, I faintly heard Alice asking me if I was ok, but it didn't really sink in. I kept walking, jumped into my car and drove home.

I didn't think he would react like this, I mean I know I lost faith in him easily, but honestly, he couldn't really blame me could he? If he were in my position he probably would have done the same thing, and it's not like I stopped loving him, clearly I got over it, it just hurt.

I walked into the house and sat down on the couch staring at the blank TV screen.

"Come for a walk with me," he suggested in an unemotional voice, taking my hand.

I didn't answer. I couldn't think of a way to protest, but I instantly knew that I wanted to. I didn't like this. This is bad, this is very bad, the voice in my head repeated again and again.

But he didn't wait for and answer. He pulled me along toward the east side of the yard, where the forest encroached. I followed unwillingly, trying to think through the panic. it was what I wanted, I reminded myself. The chance to talk it all through. so why was the panic choking me?

We'd gone only a few steps into the trees when he stopped. We were barely on the trail – I could still see the house.

Some walk.

Edward leaned against a tree and stared at me, his expression unreadable.

"Ok, let's talk," I said. It sounded braved than it felt. He took a deep breath.

"Bella, we're leaving."

I took a deep breath, too. This was an acceptable option. I thought I was prepared. But I still had to ask.

"Why now? Another year –"

"Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."

His answer confused me. I thought the point of leaving was to let his family live in peace. Why did we have to leave if they were going? I stared at him, trying to understand what he meant.

He stared back at me coldly.

With a roll of nausea, I realized I'd misunderstood.

"When you say we –" I whispered.

"I mean my family and myself." Each word separate and distinct.

I shook my head back and forth mechanically trying to clear it. He waited without any sign of impatience. It took a few minutes before I could speak.

"Ok," I said. "I'll come with you."

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going… it's not the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"I'm no good for you, Bella."

"Don't be ridiculous." I wanted to sound angry, but it just sounded like I was begging. "You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is not for you," he said grimly.

"What happened with Jasper – that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!"

"You're right," he agreed "It was exactly to be expected."

"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay –"

"As long as that was best for you," he interrupted to correct me.

"No! This is about my soul, isn't it?" I shouted, furious, the words exploding out of me – somehow it still sounded like a plea. "Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you – it's yours already!"

He took a deep breath and stared, unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment. His mouth twisted the tiniest bit. When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder – like the liquid gold had frozen solid.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.

There was a pause as I repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.

"You… don't… want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.

"No"

I stared, uncomprehending, into his eyes. He stared back without apology. His eyes were like topaz – hard and clear and very deep. I felt like I could see into them for miles and miles, yet nowhere in their bottomless depths could I see a contradiction to the word he'd spoken.

"Well, that changes things." I was surprised by how calm and reasonable my voice sounded. It must be because I was so numb. I couldn't realize what he was telling me. It still didn't make any sense.

He looked away into the trees as he spoke again. "Of course, I'll always love you… in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm… tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human." He looked back and the icy planes of his perfect face were not human. "I've let this go on much too long, and I'm sorry for that."

"Don't." My voice was just a whisper now, awareness was beginning to seep through me, trickling like acid through my veins. "Don't do this."

"You're not good for me, Bella." He turned his earlier words around, and so I had no argument. How well I knew that I wasn't good enough for him.

I opened my mouth to say something, and then closed it again. He waited patiently, his face wiped clean of all emotion. I tried again.

"If… that's what you want."

He nodded once.

Honestly, could you really blame me for believing Tanya, the way he left me, he just gave up, and left, and didn't give me reason. I had two options with what I could believe about him, the first was to believe Tanya, and the second, was to believe that he really did love me once, but then grew to resent me because of the fact that I was a fragile human.

I wasn't paying attention to anything, just thinking, hoping, praying that he wouldn't be too mad when I saw him next, so when Emmett plopped down on the couch next to me I almost jumped out of my skin. I was still staring at the TV screen vacantly.

"Oh man! I love this show!" he said gesturing to the blank TV screen.

I looked at him blankly for a second, and then back at the TV screen, then back at him, and back at the TV.

And then I laughed, I had too, because the look on his face, plus the idiotic joke and the way he said it, I just couldn't help it.

"You know" he started as he put his arm around my shoulders.

"He isn't mad at you, he talked to me on his way out. He was kinda hurt that you didn't have more faith in him, but it's to be expected. The reason he walked out was because he was so mad at Tanya for saying that too you, and he didn't want to accidentally take it out on you, so he went for a run."

"Really?" I asked in a small voice.

"Yeah, just thought I should tell you, cause you looked kind of… dead when you left… no pun intended."

I laughed again, relieved that Edward wasn't mad at me.

"Thanks Em"

"Hey, anytime lil sis." He said punching me in the arm playfully.

"So I was thinking on my way over here, Tanya coming here is just gonna cause more drama, you know that right." I nodded my head dumbly. "She has always had this weird obsession with Edward, and when she found out he was in love with a human she was so insanely jealous. So don't let anything she does or tries to do get to you. And don't ever think that Edward would do anything to hurt you, or ever cheat on you, because I'm almost certain she will stop at nothing to break you two up. And if a situation looks bad, believe Edward over her, ok?"

"Yeah, ok, thanks again Em."

"It's cool, it's what I'm here for… hey do you wanna race back to the house?"

"Sure, why not?"

"Sweet" he replied walking over to the door, standing on the porch.

"Ok, ready, set GO!"

And then we were off, running through the forest, pushing each other into things, trying to get the upper hand. I pushed forward on the last 100 meters and just beat him across the line of the forest.

Alice was sitting on the front porch.

"Bella won!" She yelled excitedly.

"Damn it!" Emmett yelled. I laughed at him and he turned to me with an evil smile on his face.

"Oh, you are so going to pay for that!"

He charged at me, and I didn't have the chance to run, he threw me over his shoulder and then chucked me into the creek. I laughed and swam around the creek, Emmett walked inside with a satisfied grin on his face and Alice followed him laughing.

Then I heard footsteps coming from the forest.

"What are you doing in the creek… fully clothed?"

Edward asked looking at me confused.

"Would you like me to lose the clothes?" I asked half joking, but kind of serious too.

He just laughed and shook his head.

"Emmett threw me in because we were racing back to the house and I beat him."

"Oh, I see."

There was a silence as he sat down on the bank of the creek.

He sighed heavily before speaking.

"When is she coming?"

"In a day or two." he nodded his head, and I swam over to the bank, pulling myself up so I was sitting next to him.

"I'm sorry if I worried you, I'm not mad at you Bella, it just took me by surprise is all."

I smiled at him and pecked him on the cheek.

"I know, Emmett came and talked to me. I was freaking out at first though, and then after staring at your door for an hour, I went back to my house, but Em decided to come over and straighten things out for me."

"I just don't understand why you would believe her"

"I guess it just made more sense to me. And it hurt less to think that than it did to think that you did love me, but then resented me because I was human. It was just easier all around, I was looking for a way out, and she gave it to me."

"I'm sorry." Why is he sorry? He didn't do anything wrong this time, it was my fault for believing her.

He got up and extended his hand out to me. I placed mine in his eagerly, standing up, and walking into the house with him. We went up to his bedroom and he grabbed me a towel and I grabbed a change of clothes and walked into the bathroom to dry off and get changed.

I walked back out of the bathroom, noticing that Edward was gone again. I sighed heavily. I had really hurt him, I didn't mean to lose faith in him, it's not like I ever expected to see him again, seriously, and that was what, 98 years ago? Oh well.

I walked down the stairs finding Emmett watching some random sport on the TV. I groaned audibly, and he turned around smiling at me creepily. That guy seriously reminded me of a bear sometimes, it's kind of freaky.

Where did Alice go?

I walked out into the garage, and saw Rose, or her legs at least, sticking out from under one of the Cullen cars. I kept walking, and walked out the back to where the river was flowing. Alice was sitting on a rock, enjoying the serenity, so it seemed. I walked over to her and sat down.

"What do you do?"

I was slightly confused by her question, and the fact that it came out of, well nowhere.

"Huh?"

"What did you do, like to make money? You had to have a job of some sorts."

"Oh right, a job. I write songs and artists by them off me and sing them."

"Oh, that's pretty cool. Anything I would have heard of?"

"Depends on what you listen to."

She rolled her eyes at me and pushed on my shoulder lightly. I smiled at her before standing up and starting to walk away.

"Bella" she wined "Why don't you ever answer my questions?"

"Because, you're just way to fun to annoy." I replied and walked into the house.

I felt a pair of strong arms encase me.

"You write songs?" He asked in that unbelievably beautiful voice.

"Didn't your mother ever teach you it's rude to listen in on other people's conversations?"

"What kind of songs?"

I rolled my eyes… again, and started to walk away from his grip.

"Where are you going?" He asked disappointedly.

"To show you what I write."

He followed me out of the house, and I started running towards my own house, which is basically only used for storage these days.

When we reached the house I opened the front door, walking into my office.

I picked up my guitar, checking that it was in tune.

Then I started to play the song. He sat on the ground watching me with wide eyes, like a child, it was quite amusing to say the least.

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

He frowned when I finished the song.

"I never forgot about you Bella, I never will."

I smiled lightly.

"I know that now. Besides, it was just my way of venting."

"Well regardless, it's an amazing song, you are truly talented."

"Thanks." I replied timidly, I'm really glad I can't blush anymore.

"Can I hear another one?" he asked eagerly.

"Um… maybe another time."

That song was really hard for me to sing again, and I don't think I am completely ready to show him my other songs yet, besides I need a piano. He'll get a kick out of it when he sees that I learned how to play the piano as well.

"Ok" he said smiling.

"Do you want to go home?" I asked sweetly.

"Can you bring your guitar?"

"Uh… sure, I guess? Why?"

"Just in case." he replied smiling.

AN --

the song is Demi Lovato's Dont Forget - i dont own it.

anyway, i probably wont be updating after this for a while, except for revisions.

so enjoy.

and yes there will be Tanya drama.