Unloved
As I lay here on our bed questions run through my head, questions that will not be answered no matter how many times I ask. "Why? Why did you do it? Did I do something wrong? Do I really mean so little to you?" I thought we were happy together. You never showed any signs of regretting our relationship and I never did anything to push you away. ( At least I don't think I did.) You were always smiling and saying you loved me. Was that a lie? Did your love for me fade away, or was it never there in the first place? I wonder what happened to our love. ( Mine is still here.) I still love you, and that's what makes this hurt so much more. Knowing that you're with some one else, happy and in love, cuts through me like a blade. It spills out my love for you like blood, wanting to be noticed by you. ( But you ignore it, ignore me.) I am dying, slowly. You were the only one who understood me. ( And now your gone.) I've had thoughts of suicide. ( I wonder how you would react.) They run through my head, around and around. ( Its like a never tiring track runner.) I can't live without you. You understood how my mind worked. You always knew what I was thinking, what I was feeling, and you would cheer me up when I needed it. I loved that, because I knew that you cared about me, but now your not here. ( You didn't even want to be friends with me.) Now that I lay here like a forgotten doll, I realize that nobody will love me, ( You didn't even love me anymore.) and as that settles into my head, I get up and walk into the bathroom. I find my old razor that I used for cutting the posters I needed for projects, and as I stare at its cold, metallic beauty pictures of you pass through my head. Tears slide down my cheeks as I push the blade deep into my flesh, slashing at it. ( You were the only one who cared about me and now you're gone.) As I stare at my bleeding arm I start feeling dizzy. I soon collapse. My body shuts down and I feel the numbing coldness of death wash over me. I take me last breath and slip into a deep, eternal sleep. ( Alone, Abandoned, Unwanted )
Naruto's body is found in the bathroom of his and his ex girlfriend's house. On his arm, spelled out in jagged blood crusted lines, is the word
UNLOVED.