The letter Raven wrote to Alex. A little extra for those tho reviewed. It meant a lot to me.
My dearest Alex:
By the time you receive this, I will be gone, either in death, or lost in the quest to bind my father away from the worlds. I hope that you have found your redemption in the time it took for this letter to reach you. If not, I pray this letter then may be your salvation. So many events have passed since that fateful day that drove you from me, but no words may convey to you the depth of my sorrow at the horrible pain I have caused you.
You must realize though, that not one of the events that have occurred by the time you read this is your fault. It is but my own, and the accursed one who placed this curse on me.
A curse long hated reviled and long fought against. Though nothing compared to what you have endured. You, big brother, were my only reprieve from the emptiness it caused me to dwell in. It was with you that I found for a short while solace, peace, comfort, and affection. You showed me such joy I never could have imagined, and paved the way for me to finally find true happiness and love. For that I thank you, so much. Those times, I will always remember.
If it hadn't been for you, I wouldn't have lasted as long as I did. I would have long ago lost myself to despair. You helped me gain some normalcy in my life, some peace. You showed me what it felt like to be loved. You made me acknowledge that I wasn't doomed to be cast away, nothing but a tool for my accursed father, but loved. You helped me to know the simple pleasures that life can bring. So do not for one second believe that you failed me. Alas, it is I that failed you I fear.
I did not pursue you enough to tell you what was in my heart. So much time lost, and for that I apologize most sincerely. For what it may, I forgive you with all of my heart and soul, for everything in the past. I had never, for one instant, held those actions against you. I had forgiven you almost as soon as you committed them; always knowing that it would never be more than an accident.
I cannot possibly convey all my love and regret through one simple letter. It is impossible. You must know though that I will love you forever, no matter what boundaries keep us from one another. Not even death can stop the love I hold for you, by beloved big brother.
Alas though, it is with regret that I bring this letter to a close and say a final goodbye. Thank you for being there for me, when I needed it the most. Nothing will ever change that, and what we had in the past.
Goodbye my Alex, and know that no matter what I will always love you, just like I always have; no matter what. I will always love you, and I will find you somewhere. I promise you. Remember that.
Raveayanne Melangell Arella Valtroth,
Votre Petite Amethiste.