This Feelings Like No Other

Ryan's P.O.V.

Sharpay and I finally got into the car. God I'm so nervous. Oh crap… now I'm starting to shake. I hate that. Every time I get myself into some situation that makes me nervous, I shake. I shake violently sometimes too. Lets just hope Sharpay doesn't take notice. The car starts and we head for home. It's a really pretty day. Clear skies, lots of sun, and its not too hot or too cold… it's just perfect…. Like Troy Bolton. He's so cute. I could just think about him all day. But I'm scared. I'm scared that I rushed things a little too fast. What if I tell him I'm not ready… Will I break his heart? Will he just leave? I can't let that happen I just can't.

"Hey… you still there Ryan?" Sharpay said.

I didn't realize that we were in our neighborhood.

"Woah… sorry I just dozed off for a little bit haha" I replied.

"A little bit… more like the whole car ride home haha." Sharpay added.

We both got out of the car and headed into the house. Sharpay headed towards the kitchen for her usual exotic fruit smoothies. God I don't get how she can eat papaya. That shit is so fucking nasty. Ugh I feel like puking from the thought of it. I headed up stairs toward my room. I sat on the bed and just stared out my huge ass window. Then Sharpay walked in.

"You want some?" She said then took a drink of her smoothie.

"I'm okay." I said.

God I'd never drink that. Ever! Seriously someone needs her to make her smoothies for her… or at least teach her how to make a decent one. I remember the first time I tried one I was practically gagging to death. Ewww the thought of it is killing me.

"Well, I will be in my room studying." She said and walked out.

Ha. Sharpay studying! Maybe studying herself in the mirror. She'd practically die without one. It's kind of funny. Man I'm tired. I started for the covers looking at the clock. It was 1:35pm. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

Troy's P.O.V.

I headed towards my car. Right as I am trying to open the door, I swear to god I hear the voice of Satan calling:

"Troy! Wait up! Troooooooooooooy!"

It was Chad. Dammit. What do I have to do now? Run to my car? God he's so fucking annoying sometimes. Wait let me correct myself. ALL THE TIME.

"Ya Chad? What do you want I'm kind of in a hurry?" I said bitterly.

"Lets hangout today. See a movie or even possibly play some hoops?" Chad asked.

"Sorry man, I can't I've got plans." I answered.

"What? With who? Doing what? When? Where? I thought we were best friends?" Chad said.

"First of all Chad I have other friends. I don't always have to be around you. Anyways I'm kind of in a hurry. I'll talk to you later. See ya man." I said.

"Fine…" Chad said with a slight bitter tone.

Wow he wasn't to happy to hear the reality of our friendship. Whatever he's going to have to find out sooner or later that I can't stand him. I got into my car and headed for home. I finally get home and pull into the driveway. I turn the car off and headed inside and towards my room. Lets see what do I have for homework… surprisingly nothing. Well it is the first day of school. I looked at the clock. It's 2:21pm. Wow 7 hours… Why am I so worried? It's going to be perfect… Well I hope it will be. It's only the first freaking day of school. How can this be perfect. Somehow rushing into something like this worried the crap out of me. Thinking about this gets me pretty tired. I climb on top of my bed and drift off to sleep.

I woke up a couple of times during my nap, but I always ended up back asleep…

RING… RING… RING…

My cell phone wakes me up… Holy shit I slept for a long ass time. It's 8:55pm! Whose calling at this hour? Not that its late I just hate talking on the phone. I look and its Gabriella. Oh man this is going to be awkward. I pick up the phone and answer.

"Hey Gabi" I said.

"Hey Troy… I didn't see you at school today… How was your first day?" She asked.

"It was interesting. But nothing out of the ordinary. What about yours?" I asked.

I hate lying to her. We had a thing last year, but it ended fast. She never knew about my sexual orientation or even hinted at it either. It just didn't work out. It never would have lasted considering the circumstances. So in the end we just became good friends.

"Well lets see… I'm in all honors classes. I hate it Troy. Why can't I be like normal instead of this freaky genus girl." Gabi said.

"Your not a freaky genus girl. I thought we went over this? You should know better. No one really cares about cliques anymore. So what if you're a little smart. I think it's cool and plus you'll get into a bunch of great colleges!" I said hoping to get her off this ridiculous topic.

"Ya I guess your right. Well I better be heading to bed. Goodnight Troy." Gabriella replied.

"G'night." I said back to her hanging up the phone.

God is that all she wanted to call for? She's almost as bad as Chad. I mean don't get me wrong I love Gabriella, but she can be such an idiot sometimes. Oh shit… that conversation was a little bit longer than expected. It's 9:20pm. It takes me a good 20 minutes to get to Ryan's house. I run to the bathroom and fix up my hair. God I don't think I can go through with this. I'm so scared and I don't even know what to do or how to do it… Troy heads down the stairs quietly sneaking out the front door so he wouldn't wake his parents. He made it to his car and started for Ryan's house.

Ryan's P.O.V.

I woke up suddenly. How long was I asleep for? I looked at the clock and it said 9:35pm. Oh shit… wow… I got up and looked in the mirror and my hair was all messed up. As if right then and there as I made eye contact with myself I remembered… Troy!… Crap Troy's on his way probably! I ran to the bathroom and freshened up. I don't think I can go through with this. I pushed things way to fast. Why am I having all these doubts all of the sudden? I finish getting ready and take glance at the clock. It's 9:45pm. I go to sit on my bed and right as I sit down my phone rings. It's Troy. I pick it up and answer.

"Hey… I'm here answer your front door." Troy said.

"Okay I'm on my way down." I said back and hung up.

I walk down stairs. My heart starts to beats faster and faster. God I think I'm making a mistake, but I need to keep Troy happy. Even if that means giving myself up. I get to the front door and open it. Troy is standing right in front of me. We stare at each other eye to eye. He leans in and gives me a hug and a light kiss on the lips. I love it when he kisses me on the lips. It feels so beautiful. I grab his hand and we head towards my room. We start up the stairs. Finally after what seemed like a million stairs we head into my room. He goes and sits on the bed and I close and lock the door.

Troy's P.O.V.

Fuck I'm scared. I don't want to break his heart, but I don't think I can go through with this. I mean it was hard enough telling him how I felt, how the hell am I supposed to make love to him. I mean don't get me wrong I want too, but I don't think I'm ready. We headed up the stairs and into his room. I sit on his bed as he closes and locks the door.

"Troy? Remember when I made you promise that you wouldn't hurt me?" He asked.

"Ya. I ment every word." I said back.

"Troy, I'm not ready… I'm sorry. Don't be mad or disappointed. If you don't want to speak to me I..."


I interrupted, "Oh god Ryan, don't even think like that. I was thinking about the same thing. I don't think I'm ready yet. I mean this is all happening so fast you know? Look I personally feel that we should at least get to know each other a little better before we rush into something like this. Don't you think so?"

He looked so relieved once I said that. And with his reaction I felt relieved also. It was like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.

"Thank God. I'm so glad you feel this way too… Thank you Troy… thank you for being so understanding." Ryan said.

"You don't need to thank me. I will always wait for you. I love you Ryan." I said sweetly.

Ryan's P.O.V.

With those three small words I just had to kiss him. I leaned in and before our lips were about to touch I said:

"I love you too Troy Bolton."

And we kissed. It was about a good 7 minutes when he slowly broke away from the kiss. And Troy started to speak.

"I guess I should get going."

He stands up and stretches. I get up too. Now we are staring eye to eye. Oh how I love his eyes. There gorgeous. I give him another kiss on the lips and a hug. His grip is so firm. It makes me feel so safe and loved. I don't ever want him to let go of me. I stare at him, my chin resting on his chest.

"I love you, be careful driving home." I said.

He looks down on me and says, "I love you too. And don't worry I will."

He then kisses me on the forehead. I walk him down quietly to his car. And watch him drive away. This night ended up better than I expected. Oh how I love him.

"Goodbye love" I whispered to the him in the car as he was driving away.

Troy's P.O.V.

I love him. I can't live without him. Ryan is my light, my life, and most of all my love. I finally make it home. I sneak up to my room. I didn't realize I had my phone on silent and I had one missed call. It was from Chad and he left a voicemail.

"Hey Troy, It's Chad. Sorry about earlier. Troy I need you to call me back as soon as possible. I really need to talk to you. It's pretty urgent. Please call me back as soon as you can. Bye."

Wow that was weird. He sounded really serious. Ha Chad? Serious? I laughed at the thought. I glanced at my alarm clock. It's now 10:45pm. I guess I'll give Chad a call. I mean he says its urgent. I pick up my cell and call Chad's phone. It only took one ring until he answered.

"Troy! You called!" Chad said enthusiastically.

"Ya. Sorry I took a while to respond. It was on silent. So what is it you need to talk to me about?" I asked.

"This is really hard for me Troy. Please don't hang up on me. Just please listen. I'm gay Troy. I have always known about my sexuality. And I love you and only you Troy Bolton." He said.

What the hell? I was practically paralyzed. Also kind of disgusted at the same time. Ew Chad has a thing for me. But that wasn't the point. I don't see why I didn't see it the whole time. His obsessive compulsiveness he had with me. Wow this is awkward. I really don't know what too say. I stayed silent for a while. What the hell am I supposed to say. Oh sorry Chad I'm taken by a wonderful guy named Ryan Evans and I'm madly in love with him. That would probably kill him. But I still can't get over the fact that it's Chad. The guy who annoyed the crap out of me all summer and today. The guy who made fun of Ryan for being gay. The fucking hypocrite. But then again I guess I kind of understand the situation. But this is really fucking weird. But all I can think about is Ryan. He deep blue eyes, his angelic facial figures, his light blonde hair, and his flawless body. Oh how I want Ryan to be with me right now. But it's Chad. The silence is broken when Chad speaks.

"Troy? You still there?" He asked.

"Ya I'm still here. I'm just a little shocked and all. Chad I don't know what to say, but… Chad look I don't want to break you heart or anything, but Chad… I can't be with you. It's not right." I said.

I tried to put that as lightly as possible. God I wish I would have known that this was coming. Oh I can't wait to tell Ryan about this.

"I understand. Lets just pretend this never happened okay?" he asked.

Dammit. I still want to tell Ryan. I want to hold Ryan and kiss Ryan. I want to do it in front of Chad so he can understand why I can't be with him. I know it sounds mean, but there's no other way he would understand.

"Alright. Don't worry about it man. I won't tell. We'll just pretend this never happened." I said. "Hey I have to get to bed. I'll see you tomorrow k?"

"Ya, of course. See ya man. Bye." Chad said and then hung up.

I hope he's okay. But I have this sudden urge to be with Ryan. I mean more than ever. I really want to tell him about this. Incase Chad ever tries anything on me. And Ryan happens to walk in at the wrong place and time. With my luck I bet that will happen. I want to call Ryan up right now. I want to tell him, but my angel is probably asleep. I get into my boxers and I put on a white t-shirt and crawl into the covers.

"What a night… Ryan I know you probably can't hear me, but I love you baby. Sweet dreams." I whispered and drifted off into a well deserved sleep.

(End of Chapter Three)

Ha… I bet you guys were totally not expecting that. I'm totally sorry for the last chapter. I was sort of in a rush to right that one. It was right before I had work and all through work I kept thinking about how bad it was. So I decided to slow things down a bit. I hope you liked that little twist I put in there… I love it! Oh and I would like to thank everyone for warning me about the sex scene. I'm not sure when I will put one in yet. But There will be one I promise! And when you want it I will email it to you.

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