I know ever since chapter 2 of Troy/Ryan Slash stories I've been writing things have been going super fast. I apologize about that. I had no intentions of ruining that. I am extremely disappointed with chapter 2 and now I have to find a way to try and slow it down. I regret writing chapter 2 the way I did, but I have to live with it. I tried my best to try and slow down the pace of the story in chapter 3. I hope the this chapter will be somewhat better than the last two.
Here's a little background information:
Also, I really appreciate all the reviews, including all of the constructed criticism. I know I've made Ryan and Troy seem to only care about themselves and no one else. I didn't really mean for it to come out that way. But there's something you have to understand and that is: When I write these stories, its like another way out. My own way of escaping reality. I don't have a bad family life or anything, but I am gay and not out to my family and most of my friends. And I've been experiencing some pretty tough problems. A majority of my friends don't really know about my sexual orientation so I have been keeping it a secret for quite sometime. And since they all have boyfriends and girlfriends and I'm usually left alone all the time I write down what I would want to experience and feel. I know it sounds cheesy and dramatic, but please believe me it is hard. And the few friends that do know about my orientation, well they say they care and there always there for me, but not exactly true. But basically what I'm saying is: When I write these stories I put a lot of what I would want to experience. I am trying to put myself in Ryan's shoes. Me and the character of Ryan are nothing alike, but I would love to experience what he is experiencing with Troy in my story. Well the good stuff at least. Thank you for hearing me out. I hope I at least made some clarity to my writing.
This has been an "emo-Jason" moment. haha
I WANT YOU TO KNOW…
Troy's P.O.V.
BEEP… BEEP… BEEP… BEEP…BEEP…
God, I hate the sound of alarm clocks. There so freaking annoying. It's 6:15am and it's time to shower. I yawn and stretch. Then I head towards the bathroom and turn the shower on and walk to the sink. It's a somewhat mild morning. Not too bad. I pick up the toothbrush and put toothpaste on it, then start to brush. As soon as I finished that I used mouthwash and gargled. Daily routine. God it takes so long. I just want to sleep. I pull off my t-shirt and then my boxers and throw them to the side. I step into the hot water shooting out of the showerhead. It feels so good. As the hot water trickles down my back and I start to think of Ryan. I just saw him last night and I miss him. I just want to be with him… and even shower with him… My hand started to sink lower and lower…
"Oh god… Ryan… oh Ryan… I want you so bad… Ryan….. I'm about to cuuuhhhhh ughhhhhh…" Troy moaned.
As soon as I finished I realized I the water was still going and I still had to finish showering. I wash my hair and body wash. After about 15 minutes I get out of the shower and dry off. Hmm what to wear what to wear? I want to look good for Ryan… As if a jolt of lightening hit me, I remembered. Chad! The phone call! What if he finds out about me and Ryan? He'll never forgive me. I need to talk to him. I'll call him after school and we'll talk. I really don't want to hurt him. It's 6:45am. Shit I'm running late! I pick out a dark blue polo-shirt and blue jeans. I put on my socks and shoes and run to my car and rush off to school.
Ryan's P.O.V.
I fell asleep like 15 minutes after Troy left. I then woke up at 5:45am. I walk into my bathroom and yawn. Sharpay then comes in and starts talking.
"So… Ryan… What did you do last night?" She asked.
"Nothing, why?" I replied.
Oh shit. Crap this isn't good. But we were so fucking quiet! How could she know?
"Ryan, I'm not stupid. I know Troy was here. There's something your not telling me and you going to tell me now." She demanded.
SLAM! I shut my bathroom door in her face. God I feel so bad for doing that. I'm going to have to tell her sooner or later… Hopefully much later… The door flies open and Sharpay is standing there with angry eyes. She then yells
"Oh hell no you did not just do that!"
I couldn't help but laugh to myself. She totally sounded like Queen Latifa when she said that. Hmm I'll try the ever so famous Ryan Evans Puppy Face. My lips and eyes start to sadden and Sharpay then says
"God Dammit Ryan spit it out! That doesn't work!" She yelled.
Shit! What the hell do I do know. I'm all out of ammo. Crap crap crap crap! I guess I should just tell her the truth.
"Fine… you got me Shar…Well… Troy and I… we're kind of well together." I said.
"Did you guys have…" She was about to ask, but I interrupted
"No! We weren't ready. He kissed me. He kissed me so delicately. It was wonderful Shar. I don't think you understand how happy he makes me feel."
She looked shocked. It was like it was all too much at once, but now the expression on her face is changing. It's not exactly sympathetic, but not pissed. It's more calm. She smiled at me and then said
"Ryan, please, and I'm begging you, please be careful. I love you and you know that, but if he hurts you, I swear to God I will be on him like a fat boy on cake!"
I loved how she used a 50 cent lyric to show how dedicated she was to trying to protect me.
"I will Sharpay. Thank you for being so understanding. I love you sis." I said and reached in for a hug.
"I love you too sweetie." she said and opened her arms allowing me to hug.
I don't think I could have asked for a better sister… even though she can't make smoothies for crap. Sharpay walks out of my bathroom and heads into hers. I start the shower and start to do all the oral hygiene requirements. By 6:30am me and Sharpay were both on the way to school. I head towards my first period class excited to be with Troy. As I walk in he's not there. Where could he be? Well class doesn't start for another 5 minutes. I take my seat and pull out my stuff on the desk. During the five minutes the class starts to fill up, but still no Troy. Okay I'm a little worried. What if he didn't make it home last night? Oh shit. About another 2 minutes later Troy barges through the door and the teacher says "Nice of you to join us. Take you seat Mr. Bolton."
Troy sits down and he and I both laughed at his tardiness.
Troy's P.O.V.
God I hate being late. But once I sat down I felt so much better because I was with Ryan. One look on his face makes me forget all of my problems. Me and him kept passing notes back and forth. I told him to meet me up in the Science Gardens during free period. He said he would.
The day went by pretty fast. Really fast. Once free period came around I headed towards the gardens. As I reach the glass doors at the end of the stairs I see Ryan standing outside looking around at the different flowers. I go behind him and cover his eyes and say,
"Guess who?"
"haha Troy!" He says with excitement.
I pull my hands out of his eyes and he turns around and kisses me on the lips. Chad! I need to tell him about Chad!
"Hey Ryan, Chad called me last night. And he told me that he was gay and that he loved me." I said.
"Oh…" He sounded disappointed.
Ryan's P.O.V.
As I was standing in the gardens hands cover my eyes. I know who it is instantly.
"Guess who?"
haha Troy!" I said with excitement.
He uncovers my eyes and I kiss him. He looks a little concerned, but happy to see me at the same time. He then says,
"Hey Ryan, Chad called me last night. And he told me that he was gay and that he loved me."
"Oh…" I said.
He wants to be with Chad doesn't he? I should have known this was too good to be true. I then sadly say,
"I understand Troy. It makes sense to me. Don't worry Troy I won't interfere."
"No! It's not that at all!" He says and grabs my arm as I try to walk a way. "Ryan, I am telling you this because I am afraid he's going to make a move on me if he finds out I'm gay. I just want you to know that. Because if you ever walked in at the wrong time… well you know. But Ryan, my heart belongs to you and only you. I love you."
It was like the butterflies in my stomach were running to the walls. It felt so good when he told me he loved me. I'm glad he told me about Chad.
I then say, "I love you too."
He reaches down to kiss me. Are tongues start to intertwine, except this was sweeter, more passionate, and even more beautiful than any other kiss he has ever given me. It's like I'm flying. But then Troy all of a sudden breaks a way. Except this time he didn't break a way from the kiss slowly. It was sudden and hard. Something's wrong. I then turn my head and see Chad standing there staring at us. Oh shit.
"Troy! How could you! You no good fucking liar!" Chad yelled.
Troy's P.O.V.
I broke away from the kiss as I heard the glass doors slam. It was Chad. Oh shit. Chad caught us! He started to yell,
"Troy! How could you! You no good fucking liar!"
In the calmest voice I could possibly make I said, "Chad, I didn't lie to you."
"What? Your so full of shit! You practically told me you were straight. And then I go and find you with this fucking piece of shit!" He yelled out.
"Don't you dare call him anything like that!" I started to get angry. " I never told you I was straight. I remember the conversation clearly. And I said I can't be with you. It's not right. That's what I said. I didn't say I wasstraight.Look Chad,I'm in love with someone else."
"Your in love with this no good fashion freak! Why him? We have something so much better. We have a lot more in common! We've been best friends ever since elementary school!" Chad continued to yell.
Ryan just held on to me tighter. He was scared. I could feel it. He won't hurt you Ryan. I won't let him. Ryan know you can't read my mind, but I love you and I will always protect you. Ryan Evans I love you with all my heart.
"Look Chad, I'm sorry. I'm sure there are other guys out there. Ryan has my heart and Ryan only. I'm sorry…" I said.
His facial expression looked envious, jealous, and angry. He started walking towards me and Ryan. Ryan's grip starts to tighten. I do my best to try to pull him behind me, but its no good. Chad throws a swing at what I think is me. I guess I deserve it, but I never ment for it to be like this. It's like slow motion. I watch his fist head towards my face, but then heads into a different direction. Then all of a sudden everything went fast. I tried to block the punch, but I wasn't fast enough. Chad's fist hit Ryan on the side of his head and I felt Ryan's grip loosen and watched his body fall to the ground. Chad then stomps out and leaves the gardens. I forget about Chad and worry about Ryan. I kneel down next to him holding him feeling where he got hit and stroking his hair.
"Ouch… that guy can punch.." Ryan says in a low tone.
"Oh my god Ryan! Are you okay?" I asked him.
Ryan's P.O.V.
Everything had happened so fast. First I see Chad staring at us, then next thing you know him and Troy are yelling back in forth and lastly His fist goes for the side of my head. God that hurt.
"I'm fine Troy, Really I am." I said. He kissed me on the cheek.
Troy then lifted me up and we walked towards the bench. He started to say,
"Oh God Ryan, I am so sorry, I didn't want you to get hurt. I was hoping he'd find out lightly and take it lightly. Ryan I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you. I'm so sorry…"
Next thing you know Troy was holding me. His grip had gotten tighter. Even if he couldn't protect me from the punch I still felt safe. I was in Troy's arms. It didn't matter because I was with the guy I loved.
"Don't worry about it Troy. I'm okay I really am. And you did protect me. You are now too. Troy it's okay. Really it is." I said trying to calm him down.
The bell rang. It was time for me and Troy to part from each other. I hated this part. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and told him again that I was fine. We walked down the stairs and headed for our classes. I walked into my history class and sat in the back where my seat was. Next thing you know I remember something. Chad sits in front of me! Shit! Chad walks in giving me the dirties look I've ever seen from someone. He takes his seat in front me and says in a whisper,
"Fuck you Ryan Evans, Fuck you for ruining me life and stealing my one love…"
(End of Chapter Four)
I totally had no idea where I was going with the last chapter. And I thought of the idea of making Chad gay. It gives me more of a story to work with. I'm pretty sure that some people were thinking that Ryan was going to catch Chad kissing Troy… nope. Well I would love to thank all those who left reviews. I take all of the reviews into consideration. Especially the ones who leave constructed criticism and there opinions. I really appreciate it. It means a lot.
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