"Have I told you lately, that I love you. Have I told you, there's no one else above you." Fiona sang to the baby before noticing Roger standing in the doorway of the baby's room. "Hey Baby." she smiled looking up at him.
"Why did you stop?" he asked smiling at her.
"I didn't realize you were in the doorway." she smiled looking up at him.
"You're really good Fee. How come you don't sing more often?" he asked looking over at her.
"I don't know. You're the singer in the family, not me." she smiled as he approached her.
"But you're really good. Caleb seems to like it." he smiled looking down at her.
"Yeah well, music always calms him down. But I'm not you." she smiled as the baby slept in her arms.
"Yeah well, no one could be me." he laughed quietly leaning down to kiss her.
"And you're so modest too." she laughed quietly. "I'm gonna put him down." she smiled looking up at him.
"Are you OK Fee?" he asked looking up at her as she got up and put the baby down in his crib.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just really tired." she said looking up at him.
"Why don't you go lay down for a little while? Little man has been keeping you up every night since we got him home from the hospital." he suggested looking down at her.
"Yeah and big man has been keeping me up the rest of the time." she laughed looking up at him.
"I'm sorry Baby. I just like spending time with my wife." he smiled leaning down to kiss her.
"I know. I like spending time with you too. I just need some sleep." she said wrapping her arms around his waist.
"I'll take care of little man so you can take a nap, OK Baby?" he asked looking down at her.
"OK, thanks Baby." she smiled looking up at him before going into their bedroom.
"I love you Fee." he said looking down at her.
"I love you too Roger." she smiled before closing the bedroom door.
"Where's Fee?" Mark asked looking over at Roger who was sitting on the couch in the living area watching tv.
"She's sleeping. Little man has been keeping her up every night. And there he is now." he smiled getting up and going into the baby's room when he started to cry. "Hey buddy, what's the problem? Daddy's here." he asked quietly as he leaned into the crib to pick him up.
"Is he OK?" Mark asked rushing into the nursery from his room.
"Yeah Mark, he's fine. Baby's cry. It's how they communicate. Little man just needed some company. Didn't you?" he asked looking down at the baby as he felt the baby's diaper to see if he needed to be changed. "And a diaper change." he laughed putting the baby on the changing table starting to change him.
"This is so weird." Mark laughed amused as he watched Roger in full dad mode.
"What's weird?" he asked opening the diaper.
"Seeing you with him. I never thought I'd ever see you as a dad and now that you are one, you're really amazing with him." he smiled folding his arms across his chest as he leaned against the wall.
"Can you keep a secret?" he asked looking over at Mark before continuing to change him.
"What's up?" he asked walking towards him.
"I never wanted a kid. I always figured I'd be a shitty dad. I mean, I was so consumed with my music and with my HIV, I figured I wouldn't be around much for my kid, but now I can't imagine my life without him. Him and Fee are my life Mark. I don't want to leave them." he said picking the baby up from the changing table to hold him in his arms.
"Yeah, kids have a way of doing that to you." he smiled looking over at him.
"Mark, you don't understand. I don't want to leave them ever. I want to live forever for them. It's making me regret everything I've ever done in my life that is gonna prevent me from being with them until I'm old and gray." he said looking over at him noticing Fiona standing in the doorway with tears in her eyes. "Fee, how much of that did you hear?" he asked looking up at her.
"All of it. Baby monitor." she whispered holding the monitor in her hand.
"Mark, can you...?" he started before handing him the baby.
"Sure. I'm gonna go make him a bottle." he answered quietly before taking the baby and leaving the room with him.
"I'm sorry Fee. I know you don't like when I talk like that." he said walking over to her.
"I can't imagine my life without you either. Me or Caleb, but he's my part of you. When you're gone, I'm still gonna have a part of you with me. And he's gonna know what a great man his father is." she cried looking up at him.
"Baby, I'm not going anywhere yet. And if I can help it, I'm not going anywhere for a long time. I promise." he whispered taking her in his arms.
"How can you promise that Roger?" she said looking up at him.
"I'm gonna do everything I can do to be here for as much of Caleb's life as I can be." he said looking down at her.
"But Roger, you know as well as I do that you can't control this disease. It controls you." she said looking up at him.
"Fee, I'm gonna do whatever I can do to be here for you and Caleb for as long as this disease let's me." he said kissing her head as he held back his own tears.
"I'm sorry Roger. I shouldn't be acting like this. I've known about your HIV since we met. It's not like it's anything new." she said looking up at him.
"Baby, it's OK. It's not fair that I'm gonna be taken away from you and Caleb sooner than I should be. I'm just happy I get to share what's left of my life with the woman I love more than anything in this world and our son. That's got to be enough for me now." he said leaning down to kiss her.
"Roger, every minute with you is enough for me." she smiled through her tears.
"Come on. Why don't we let Uncle Mark feed the baby, we can go out and grab something to eat. I want to take my wife out and spend time alone with you." he smiled looking down at her as he wiped her tears from her face.
"OK Roger. I'd like that." she smiled looking up at him as he leaned down to kiss her again.
"I love you Fee." he whispered looking into her blue eyes.
"I know Roger. I love you too." she smiled before they left the baby's room to tell Mark they were going out for a little while.
"OK, so I was thinking. I want to go back to school." he said looking across the table at her as they sat in the Life Cafe.
"You want to go back to school? Really?" she asked confused.
"Yeah, I liked going to school. I mean, before I got my ass kicked and we had to drop out. I was thinking we could go back together. You're too smart not to get your degree." he said looking down at her.
"I don't know Roger. I mean, I got the baby now. Who would take care of him while we're in school?" she asked looking up at him.
"Mark. I already talked to him and he said he would love to do it. He'll take him to the park with him and you know how much he loves spending time with his nephew. And when he can't do it, you know Maureen is at his beck and call. I swear, for a chic who hates men, she sure loves Caleb." he laughed looking over at her.
"You've got this all worked out, don't you?" she asked smiling up at him.
"Yeah I do. I want to finish school." he smiled looking over at her.
"OK. We'll do it." she smiled looking over at him.
"Really? That was easy." he laughed looking over at her.
"Well we have no shortage of babysitters and we both want to go back to school, so why not? We can do it." she smiled looking over at him.
"Yesss. Thanks Baby." he smiled leaning over the table to kiss her.
"Well who am I to keep you from going back to school?" she smiled looking over at him.
"Maybe we can take a couple of classes together too." he smiled looking over at her.
"Oh yeah, I see you in philosophy class." she laughed looking over at him.
"Or maybe you can take some music classes." he smiled looking over at her.
"That sounds like fun. Maybe we can write songs together." she smiled looking up at him.
"And maybe we can perform together." he smiled looking over at her.
"Are you serious? Us perform together?" she asked looking over at him.
"Baby, you have an amazing voice." he told her moving next to her.
"But Roger, why didn't you ever say anything about it." she asked as he put his arm around her chair.
"Well, at first we were hiding out from Jake and then we were planning the wedding and then you got pregnant with Caleb. It's been a busy couple of years Baby. But now that Caleb's here and we don't have to worry about Jake finding us... I want to sing with you." he said looking down at her.
"Are you sure? I mean, really sure?" she asked looking up at him.
"I'm positive Baby. You sing amazing. It's the only thing that can calm Caleb down sometimes." he smiled looking over at her.
"OK Baby, I'll do it." she smiled looking over at him.
"This is gonna be awesome Baby, you'll see. We're gonna have so much fun." he smiled leaning in to kiss her.