Summary: SEQUAL TO: BROKEN INSIDE. Of course nothing perfect can last, and now 18-year-old Lilly finds that out first hand. What will she do when her savior leaves her and everything starts getting worse in her once-improving life?

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Joe.

Joe. Joe? Joe! Joe…

So many mixed emotions course through my veins as I turn to see him standing in the doorway. He looks like hell, worse than Miley. His eyes are bloodshot, dark rings line his eyes, hairs a mess. Yet, he's never attracted me more than he is right now.

"Lilly…baby," Joe says as he collapses next to me on my bed, sobbing. He hugs me tight, and with his single embrace I could literally feel my insides patching up. I feel my body racking with sobs in time with his now as we held each other so tight.

"Joseph, what are you doing here? What about tour?" I choked out through my tears.

"Oh baby no, nothing is more important than you. Lillian if I had lost you…" Joe's beautiful brown eyes are glazed over with tears as he looks deep into my faded blue eyes. The sadness I see soon turns to anger, raging anger that makes me flinch away.

"Joe…?" I tremble. He looks at me, his eyes burning into mine. "How could you be so fucking stupid?" he spits his venom at me. His words make my tears fall harder.

"Joe…I-I don't know. It's just, with you leaving me and all-" I began. But he interrupted.

"No. Nothing can fucking justify that you almost killed yourself, Lillian. Do you know how selfish you are for that? Don't you know I fucking love you so much? I would never fucking leave you. But then you go and attempt fucking suicide?" Ouch. That hurt.

"Joseph…I'm so, so, sorry. I didn't cut to die, I swear. I only knew I wanted to die when I was at the brink of death. B-but I don't ever want to do that again Joe, I promise," True as it was right then; I know that it might not be true a month from now, a week from now. Because when I hit low, I really hit low.

He looks at me and I see the anger fade from his eyes. He kisses me with so much passion that I feel my pain leave my body instantly, physical and emotional. He puts his hand behind my head to deepen the kiss and I arch my whole body into his. Tears pour from my eyes and I remember how good this really makes me feel; my savior.

"Ahem."

Joe immediately jumps off of me and we both turn to see Miley, Dad, and a nurse standing in the doorway. All three couldn't help but smile.

"Ms. Truscott I would highly recommend to abstain from that behavior while you're still in pain," the nurse says, the smile still slightly visible on her face.

"Yeah, damn girl, control those hormones!" Miley laughs, as Robbie gently smacks her arm. I smile.

"Sorry Nurse Reinhardt," Joe says sheepishly. Miley and I laugh at his embarrassment.

In this moment, I swear I never felt so alive.

XoXo

It's a week later and I'm finally home from the hospital. It's been the best week of my life; Joe hasn't left my side since he came to the hospital from tour.

I'm feeling better both physically and emotionally. But I can't shake the feeling of depression that's going to hit me when Joe has to leave again. I'm trying to live in the moment, but the anticipation of it is getting to me more than anybody knows.

Oh, God did that feeling just go away. Joe is on top of me, kissing my neck, hands roaming my body leaving trails of fire after every place they touched. Oh...fuck.

"Lilly, I love you," Joe whispers into my ear between kisses. I moan softly in response.

Joe and I haven't had sex yet. I'm not ready, after the whole Blake Goodman/estranged father incident, and he respects me for that. I know Joe wouldn't ever hurt me like they did, but I want to take it slow.

Or at least I did. Until….

"Lilly...I want you so bad….baby, do you want to?" Oh shit, fuck me. How can I possibly refuse this?

Before I have time to respond my shirt is over my head, my pants on the other side of the room and I'm working on his clothes.

XoXo

Beautiful. I've never felt more love and compassion for one person than I do for Joe. I've never experienced sex as anything more than a father's misplaced love, or a cheap fuck from a guy because I needed something out of it. Absolutely fucking beautiful.

Joe is asleep next to me, holding me close to his sleeping frame. I feel his chest move up and down on my back. I feel so at peace just knowing he's right there, next to me. I wish it would never end.

Joe's phone rings, making him jump awake. I giggle at him as he scrambles for his phone, hair a tousled mess, clothes not on his body.

"Hello?" His husky, half-asleep voice answers the phone.

I climb on top of him and start kissing his neck and chest slowly, teasing him, making it hard for him to concentrate. Hah oh, to be in control.

"H-hey Dad, what's g-going on?" He tries to push me off of him but it doesn't work out to well, especially when he doesn't really want me off of him.

"Yeah, no I'm just at Lil's. Yeah she's doing b-b-better." I moan softly in his ear and grind my body slowly against his.

"A-ah, nothing. N-nothing's wrong. So, w-what exactly do you n-need?" Oh, I am torturing this boy.

But suddenly he jolts upward, making me get off of him quickly. "WHAT!? Are you serious? Wow dad, that's great, wow. When?"

I look at him, questionably, and he raises a finger to me signaling one minute. "Wow, yeah of course. I'll be there as soon as I can! Okay. Okay. Okay, bye." Oh fuck. My heart just sank down to my feet.

"Lillian you're not going to believe this!" I can see the excitement in his eyes. "What Joseph?" I half-heartedly ask.

"My manager just called my dad; a new label wants to pick us up! It's the hottest label in California and they want us! Can you believe it?! They already want to send us on a four continent tour around the world starting at the end of this month!" Excitement lined his eyes still, but not in mine.

"So you're going?" I asked, trying to keep my voice steady. "Baby I hope you understand how important this is! If I do this it could mean big things for my band, and for me and you," He tried to hug me but I pushed him away.

"When do you leave?" I asked, the trembles coming out more. I am unable to keep it under control now. "My dad said I should probably get back as early as tomorrow Lilly," I can see the confusion setting into his eyes, "aren't you…happy for me?"

"I can't fucking believe you Joseph!" I scream, losing all control. "I just fucking gave myself up to you, and you're going to leave not even fucking 24 hours later?"

"Lilly, I'm sorry baby, but this is such a great opportunity and-"

"No. Save the fucking bullshit Joseph. I just gave you my fucking everything and you're going to give it all away again. No, fuck that Joe. You're supposed to be my savior, the one who's ALWAYS fucking there for me, not just part of the time."

"Lilly, I love you. You know I love you. But I can't just pass this up baby. I'll always be your savior, I'll always be yours. I will always and forever love you."

"I'm not so fucking sure anymore, Joe."

I feel my heart get past the temporary glue and shatter into a thousand pieces as I get off the bed, let my tears fall once again, and open my door. Before I leave I turn to him, "Get dressed and get the fuck out."

XoXo

As soon as I'm outside my room I hear him yell "Lilly no come back!" But I can't. I need to get away now. I realize that I am still naked so I run fast into Miley's room and slam the door.

"Uh…Jake? Let me call you back. Okay, love you too." She hangs up the phone. "Damn girl, get my robe!" Miley says with a smile. I turn and grab her robe off the back of her door.

"So you and Joe finally did it, eh? Don't lie to me either girl because it sure SOUNDED like you enjoyed that shit. Ha-ha! The walls are paper thin babe," Miley laughs, but as soon as I turn around she stops. "Whoa, Lils, come here. What's wrong babe?"

I fall to the floor, back against the door, and put my head in-between my knees, sobbing. Miley immediately comes over and sits down and embraces me tight.

She whispers, "What'd the fucker do this time?" My best friend always knows.

"Miley, I just had sex with him. I just fucking gave him something that I never gave to anybody else. Not Blake, not that bitch of a father, not fucking anybody. And now he's just going to leave? Just like that, because of a fucking new label that wants him. Miles, I love him so fucking much and he's just going to leave again," I choked out through my tears and anger. Miley's arms left mine and I felt her stand up.

"Where the fuck is he, Lilly?" Miley asks me through gritted teeth. "No, Miles don't, he's really fucking not worth your time," I try to reason with her.

"Anybody that fucking hurts you is worth my time Lilly," She says and opens the door. I move away from it and watch her leave. I lean back against the door and it shuts quietly. Miley opens the door to my room angrily and the screaming begins.

I collapse on the floor and just cry. I can do nothing but cry my insides out.

Joe…

Two updates in two days? How cool! So I wanted to make a happier chapter after that whole depressing third chapter. But of course it can't stray from the depressing for too long. So why is Joe such an asshole? Geeez. Haha review!