WOOO!! Anoda chapter yet again! Hahaha, hope I didn't make you guys wait TOO long. I worked as hard as I could on this one. So I hope you like it!
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The Deep End
I leaned against the wall of the hospital and glared at the hospital bed where Sasuke lay. I had heard what the doctor said and wished that I had never even walked into the room in the first place…but then that would mean that Sasuke wouldn't have even been breathing at the moment…was that such a bad thing?
"What's wrong with him doctor?" I questioned the doctor as he flipped through the sheets that was given to him. The doctor looked me over and then looked at Sasuke laying on the bed.
"Who is he to you?" the doctor questioned me. I blushed at that and looked away.
"He's my boyfriend," I mumbled.
"Well…I shouldn't really be telling you this,"
"Please doctor…" I pleaded, giving him my best puppy dog eyes.
"Well…we found traces of heroin in his body. Which is what made him pass out. It was a minor overdose and you were lucky you found him when you did," the doctor told me. My eyes widened as I heard the name of the drug and looked at Sasuke again.
"He…Heroin?" I questioned him in disbelief.
"You didn't know about this?" the doctor questioned me incredulously.
"I guess I don't know a lot…"
I heard Sasuke stirring as I continued to glare daggers at his head. I saw his eyes flicker open and try to focus on everything around him. I saw his eyes lock on me and he looked around himself trying to figure out obviously what had happened.
"Wh…where am I?" Sasuke questioned stupidly. I growled on my inner self and looked away from him.
"If you weren't already in a hospital…I'd strangle you myself," I threatened him.
"What are you talking about?"
"Heroin Sasuke?" I told him, finally turning my gaze on him. I saw him visibly stiffen at that and scoffed.
"I can't believe you…" I seethed at him.
"Naruto…please, you gotta listen to me-"
"I don't have to listen to SHIT! You do drugs Sasuke! Does that even register with you?!"
"I wanted to protect you…"
"Then you should've protected me from yourself," I mumbled to him angrily. I saw Sasuke's eyes flicker with something that could be called betrayal.
"I never meant for you to find out like this…" Sasuke murmured to me. I scoffed and continued to glare at Sasuke.
"So how was I exactly going to find out Sasuke? When it got in the tabloids? Or when you were dead?"
"That's not how I meant it,"
"Just shutup…I have nothing more to say to you," I told him while walking out of the hospital room, leaving Sasuke there alone.
"So you finally found out huh?"
I looked to the side and saw Itachi sitting there with his head down as he glanced up to look at me. I fixed him with the same glare that I had fixed Sasuke with and looked at the ceiling.
"You knew all along…" I told him.
"He's my brother…of course I'm going to know," he responded. I closed my eyes and held in all the emotions that were threatening to boil over.
"Is this some kind of sick joke to you all?!" I screamed at him turning towards him. Itachi opened his mouth to speak as I interrupted him again.
"What's wrong with you people? Here I am, joining YOUR band and all you guys can do is just sit there and watch me go through my misery without even a helpful hint!"
"THE SIGNS WERE ALL AROUND YOU!" Itachi shouted at me, rising from the chair and stepping right up in front of my face.
"The scratching, the mood swings, the fatigue…and I'm pretty sure that there WERE things that he refused to tell you. But that didn't even ring a bell in your head,"
"That…all of that didn't mean anything. It was just coincidences," I told him starting to feel the tears want to ebb from my eyes. Itachi continued to look me in the eyes as I saw his eyes soften then. He leaned into my ear as I looked past him and over his shoulder.
"Ignorance is bliss," Itachi whispered into my ear. He brushed past me and into the hospital room where his brother was now laying.
I groaned to myself, running my hands through my hair and went to go leave the hospital and ended up being mobbed by reporters. I blinked in shock and tried to maneuver my way out of them.
"NARUTO! NARUTO! WHAT IS THAT STAT OF SASUKE'S CONDITION?!"
"NARUTO! WHAT IS WRONG WITH SASUKE?!"
"NARUTO IS SASUKE OKAY?!"
I shoved past them all and ran in the opposite direction from them. I ran into an alley to see if they would leave me alone. I heard them disappear and walk off in another direction. I looked to the side and decided it was safe and walked towards the hotel that we were staying at so that I could just go to my room.
I knew for a fact that I was definitely not going to tell Sakura this… and positively not going to tell Kiba this. The last thing I needed to hear right now from Kiba is the ever evident "I told you so".
In a way, I knew what Kiba was saying was true…I guess I just never really wanted to listen or believe him. I guess that I just had this vision of Sasuke and anything unlike my vision is just…not real I guess. I guess like some people have selective hearing…I have selective vision.
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I realized that I had been sleeping when I woke to see that it was day outside. I sat up in bed and noticed that I was also alone for the time being. I put my hand to my head and groaned remembering the events of last night.
I swung my legs over the bed and decided to not even bother with changing my clothing and just leave the hotel. If somebody wanted to find me…they could easily call my cell phone. But for the moment…I was M.I.A.
I walked the streets of 42nd street in a blindness that had never overcome me as people passed me gawking and snickering to themselves. I walked to the local Virgin Records store and decided to surf through the music titles to see what trash they were selling.
I walked downstairs and looked through the Rock albums and saw a few albums of Konoha Legend and The Legendary Sanin and a few others that I had never heard of. Like this American band called Crossfade. I picked up their self-titled album and smirked seeing the cover, which was quite interesting.
Turning the CD over, I saw some of the CD titles and smirked to myself. This probably wasn't that bad of a band. And if I didn't like their music then I could just throw away the CD.
I walked over to the cashier and put the CD down in front of him. He looked up at me as I looked away from him and then back. He gawked and then smiled happily realizing who I was.
"Dude! You're Uzumaki Naruto!" he said as I smiled at him.
"Well would you look at that…I guess I am," I told him smiling ever more and realized that I had said something that the bastard would have probably said.
"You are freaking amazing! I saw your concert yesterday, you shred on the guitar," he continued to say.
"Thanks…uhm, how much is this going to be?" I questioned him. He smiled at me and thrust the CD toward me.
"Just take it man. As long as you give me an autograph," he said. I continued to smile at him as he gave me a Konoha Legend Album that was lying on the counter. I opened the cover and signed the CD for him and handed it back.
"There you go,"
"Thanks,"
I left the store then, thumbing the CD in my hands and wondering where I should go next. After all it was only about 12:00 in the afternoon and I really didn't want to go back to the Hotel.
I continued to walk around 42nd street and went into random stores like Billabong, Quicksilver, the MTV store, and then some tourist shops. I ended up not buying anything and by the time that I looked at my watch again I noticed that it was about 2:00 and decided to head back to the Hotel.
I walked into the room and saw that Sasuke still wasn't back and thanked every God in the universe for that. The last person I wanted to see was him. I opened the CD and looked around to see if the Hotel had a CD player and sure enough they did. It was like some sort of Alarm clock-CD player device.
I popped in the CD and looked at the back cover and saw a song called The Deep End and raised an eyebrow and liking how the title sounded. I flipped it to Track 6 and laid back in the bed just listening to the intro of the guitar and then the singer started to sing as the bass and drums came in behind him.
I built my life like my bike on a rigid frame
Nothing bends it only breaks into…
Pieces and Pieces
I wait for hope to arrive but it never came
Leaving me with only pain inside
I'm going off the Deep End!
I built my life like my bike on a rigid frame
So nothing bends it only breaks into…
Pieces and Pieces
I wait for hope to arrive but it never came
Leaving me with only pain inside
I'm going off the Deep End!
I stiffened feeling the words take hold of me and realizing that this song was almost talking about my life, and not just this one moment with Sasuke.
Holding on is harder than it seems
When you're reaching for
So much more
Seems so much easier to just give in
When you're reaching for
So much more
I got up from the bed and started pacing, not being able to sit in the same spot for too long because this in fact was just to much to take. How is it that a song could just describe everything that had happened in 21 years and 24 hours?
Another wasted Saturday so here I stay
Where nothing seems to ever change anyway…
Hey!
All this hype about life being great
Where's the love for me these days?
I'm going off the Deep End!
I groaned and sat down on the bed, finally realizing that coming on this Tour was the greatest mistake of my life. Kiba was right…unfortunately.
Holding on is harder than it seems
When you're reaching for
So much more
Seems so much easier to just give in
When you're reaching for
So much more
The song went into a mini-guitar solo as I heard the door being opened. I looked towards the door and saw Sasuke walk in and look at me stiffly. I growled on the inside and looked away from him.
"Naruto…can I talk to you please?"
I continued to ignore him as the song continued to play. I didn't feel like dealing with Sasuke at the moment, seeing as how he had basically liked to me this entire time.
"Naruto please…"
Holding on is harder than it seems
When you're reaching for
So much more
Seems so much easier to just give in
When you're reaching for
So much more
The song continued to play a bit with the same melody and then cut off. I heard Sasuke growl and stop the CD player as I glared up at him.
"I really have to speak to you," he told me once again, holding my gaze.
"Then talk," I told him, continuing to glare. I saw Sasuke soften as he continued to stand and backed away from me.
"I didn't tell you I was doing drugs because I didn't want you to leave,"
"What makes you think I won't leave now?" I questioned him.
"Nothing, if anything I wouldn't particularly hate you if you decided to leave…" he said. I scoffed and rose up from the bed, glaring at him.
"Sasuke…you told me that you loved me when we had sex. When you love someone you tell them everything and you trust them because if the person loves you back then they will accept it. So do you really love me or was that the lust talking?"
"I have never felt this way about anybody before…if it isn't love then I don't know what it is…I don't even give explanations and yet I'm standing here giving you one…and the fact that you are even here with me right now strengthens those feelings because honestly…I was expecting to see an empty room when I got back…"
"What if I chose to leave right now?" I questioned him. He looked at me and then away. I continued to stare at him and then he looked into my eyes.
"You can't leave…" he told me with tears in his eyes. I gulped and prayed that Sasuke wasn't going to cry. Because to see an Uchiha cry was something I would never want to witness.
"I'll leave…if you don't get off drugs…" I told him.
"Fine…I'll stop. I'll quit, I won't touch it anymore," he told me. I looked into his eyes and believed him for that moment. Maybe it was the tears in his eyes or the love that I had for him…but something inside of me told me that he was telling the truth.
"You will?"
"Yes," he answered me. I walked over to Sasuke slowly as he looked down at me, seeing how he was a god head taller than I was. I leaned up, putting my hands at the back of his neck and kissing him slowly. He put his hands around my waist cautiously and kissed me back and I could tell that everything was going to be okay for now.
I separated from him as he put his forehead against my own and smiled weakly. I curled my hands in his hair at the nape of his neck and leaned in kissing him again shortly.
"Don't ever scare me like that again," I told him. He nodded against me.
"I need to hear you say it,"
"I'll get off it," Sasuke told me, looking in my eyes. I don't know if it was the fact that I was in love with him…or maybe it was the fact that when he looked me in the eye I could just feel a sense of peace taking over me. But I believed him. The only thing that I had to figure out once and for all was the truth. And Sasuke was going to tell me whether he liked it or not.
I separated from him then and sat on the couch with him sitting next to me. I looked down at my hands and then back over at him.
"I want to know the truth," I told him.
"I told you the truth,"
"No…I mean the truth about everything else,"
"I…I don't understand,"
"How did you get involved with drugs? What would happen when you were high…Everything," I told him. Sasuke smiled uneasily at that and then rubbed at his chin.
"You really want to know all of that? Are you sure?"
"Yes…I don't want there to be any more secrets between us," I answered him back. Sasuke put his hands on his thighs and got up from the bed and started pacing the room.
"It all started when we released our first album. Itachi and I were extremely happy because we were finally realizing our dream. What we didn't realize is what came with it. We were at our album release party and one of the artists came to come talk to me. He was all pumped and really excited about everything and he seemed even MORE hyperactive then usual. So I asked him about it, and he started telling me like about all these different drugs. At that point I told him to shove off and leave me alone but he wouldn't budge and he wanted me to try something. So just to shut him up I took something from him and I got high. I did a lot of stupid stuff while I was high and when I came down from it Itachi gave me the usual lecture and told me never to do it again…I evidently didn't listen to him."
"I met with this guy again and he got me harder stuff each time. That's when he introduced me to Heroin and he told me that I could either snort it or inject it. I figured I didn't want Itachi on my back anymore than he already was, and that if I snorted it, it would be incredibly obvious. So I decided to inject it. He taught me how too. Then I stopped speaking to him long after that. The only problem was that with Heroin I would get withdrawn often times and then other times…I would get moody, and loud, obnoxious, and sometimes…abusive. Since I wasn't thinking straight when I was high…I would often have one night stands with people. Or go and sleep around without even caring about the person. I never got attached to anybody… until I met you," Sasuke finished and looked at me as I was sitting on the bed.
I continued to look away from him while drawing all of this in. This couldn't be possible. Itachi and Sasuke had made Konoha Legend when Sasuke was 16 and it took 2 years for them to come out with their first album…so he was basically telling me that when he turned 18 he was in the drug game. But here he was standing at 21 and nobody had ever found out about it. And here he was also telling me that he was basically a whore before he met me…and he was okay with it.
"Naruto?"
I looked up to see him looking at me unexpectedly. I saw him scratch at his arm and then I looked away from him. I guess I hadn't wanted to know after all.
"Yeah?" I told him, still looking at the wall. I heard him take a few steps towards me and then grab my chin gently in between his fingers, coaxing me to look at him.
"I'm hoping this doesn't change anything between us now…" Sasuke told me. I continued to look in his eyes and nodded.
"Of course not," I reassured him.
"Are you sure?" Sasuke questioned me.
"Yeah…it's just a lot to take in right now," I answered him. He leaned in and kissed me on the lips, letting his fingers smooth out and palm my cheek, deepening the kiss. I separated from him and smiled, so that he knew that I was okay with everything.
"Can I take a shower and sleep on it?" I asked him. Sasuke nodded at me and nodded, letting me go so that I could get my stuff from my suitcase and into the bathroom.
Once I got in the bathroom I collapsed onto the floor with my hands falling limply at my sides. How is it possible that I had gotten myself into this mess and not even have known?
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Well then, seems our poor lil Naru-chan is having doubts about whether or not he should have joined Konoha Legend in the first place. DON'T WORRY NARU-CHAN! ALL SHALL BE FINE! This chappie was more of a filling in the questions chappie. So I hope that I did justice with it. Review if you read it and let me know what you think.
BONUS if anybody can guess who the "friend" that got Sasuke into drugs is!