Okay this is the next installment of Stars! Yay for the plot monster! WOO!
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Out of Control
I was getting ready as I buckled a belt lopsided onto my waist seeing as there was already one in my pants belt loops. I looked over at Sasuke as he smirked at me since this was our first tour since…then. Somebody handed me my guitar as I walked over to him and smiled at his expression.
"So what does it feel like today?" I questioned him.
"Full house…raging fans…I say we give them a show,"
"Let's," I answered him looking him over.
"You sure about this?" Sasuke questioned me. I continued to look at him and leaned against the wall.
"If I wasn't sure about this do you think I would have come all the way down to god knows where to put on a performance? For the hundredth time Sasuke…I'm fine!" I told him. He smiled down at me and kissed me. I kissed him back not bothering to wrap my arms around him as he leaned back and raised an eyebrow at me.
"You're feisty aren't you?"
"The Uzumaki charm I guess," I answered him. He laughed and ushered me outside to start the song since today that Sasori was on the turntables since we needed someone to do that part for this song. Our new sound was nothing to what the crowd was used to I can tell you that much.
I started playing the beginning of the song on the electric acoustic since this song was definitely not for a full loud electric guitar. The crowd went wild when the turntables went and the drums along with the bass came in to the song. Sasuke then stepped out, mike in hand and smiled at me as he began to sing.
Sometimes, I feel the fear of
Uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help myself but ask
How much I let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before
And it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel
I smirked at him as he came over to me and put a hand on my shoulder singing out to the crowd.
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
I'll be there
I kept playing remembering why we wrote this song in the first place, it being my first step into recovery.
So if I
Decided to waiver my
Chance to be one of
The hive…
Will I…
Choose water over wine?
And hold my own and drive?
Aah Ooh
It's driven me before
And it seems to be the way
That everyone else get's around
Lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself
My light is found
He moved away from me then as he prepared to sing the chorus and moved to the front of the stage to sing out to everybody.
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
I'll be there
There was a moment then as we all merely played and Sasuke played to the crowd. Everyone smiled at each other as this point came since it was one of the best parts of the song. Sure it was unlike anything we've ever done before…but that's what being an artist is. You take chances.
Would you choose…
Water over wine?
Hold the wheel and drive…
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
I'll be there
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
I'll be there
Do Do Dooo Do Do Dooo Do Do Do Do Do
Whoa Whoa Whoa Do Do Do Do Dooo
Do Do Dooo Do Do Dooo Do Do Do Do Do
Whoa Whoa Whoan Whoa Whoa Whoa
Sasuke stopped singing then as the crowd roared with excitement. I smiled to myself and then at Sasuke as he pretty much saluted the crowd. We kept playing the show and ended with MakeDamnSure which sent everybody into a frenzy of excitement.
As we made our way off stage Sasuke came over to me and put his arm around my shoulders to lead me towards the bus. I glanced up at him and said nothing until I finally had to ask him a question that had been burning me for the longest time. The whole backdrop of Konoha Legend and I Just couldn't understand a certain part about it.
"What's up with the music?" I questioned Sasuke as he looked at me oddly.
"Huh?" he questioned me.
"Why has you guys style never been the same from one song to the next? Why does it always differ? Nobody can classify you guys into any kind of rock except rock. One minute you guys are heavy metal, the next you guys are punk and now you do songs like Drive…what's the deal?"
Sasuke looked at me for a minute, just holding my gaze and then smiled as he looked away from me and into the night sky. He took his arm away from my shoulders, shoving his hands into his pockets and then looked back at me.
"We're different. Every single person in this band is not 'normal' as the common world likes to put it. We don't fall into one category because to do that would be considered 'normal'. Why should we fall into one category anyway? What does it matter? Let us have a different style every single time we do a song. Who really gives a fuck. It's only music, and at the end of the day nobody really cares if you're alternative, heavy metal, Christian, punk or ska. It's just music…and if it has the ability to change a life…then I think we've done our job for the day," Sasuke answered me finally looking at me again. I held his gaze and walked up to him looking him in the eye as he continued to stare me down.
"So you're telling me you honestly believe that shit?" I whispered onto his lips as a smirk slid over his features.
"I would hope so…it's kinda what get's me up in the mornings," he whispered back at me.
"I was hoping I did that,"
"You do, but you haven't always been in my life,"
"And now I am," I whispered to him rolling my eyes down to his lips and back up to his eyes. He reaches up cradling the sides of my face as he leans down and kisses me then. I reach and grab at the stomach of his shirt kissing him back as he snakes his tongue into my mouth.
I snaked my tongue out to caress against his as his fingers played with the hair at the nape of my neck. I wrapped my arms around my torso then holding him in a vice grip, bringing him ever closer to me. We separated then as he looked at me through half lidded eyes.
Sasuke brought his hand up to my forehead and brushed a strand of hair from my eyes as he continued to look at me. I looked up at him and couldn't believe that we had come this far after all. Despite what everybody had been telling me from the beginning we somehow had managed to stay together.
"You don't style your hair anymore," Sasuke told me then. I looked away from him knowing that he was right. I in fact didn't style my hair in an upwards fashion like I used to before…that day. I more preferred to keep my hair in my face as it came naturally and since then my hair had grown a lot compared to its once short length.
"Oh…I guess I didn't notice," I answered him playing stupid. He smirked down at me grabbing at the long hair on my head and pulling my head back as he gazed down at me.
"I like this new hair, plenty of things that can be done with this," Sasuke whispered into my ear. I laughed shoving him away and finally getting onto the bus where the others were waiting for us.
"Took you guys long enough," Deidara said waggling his eyebrows at us. Sasuke scoffed as Itachi was behind the wheel with his head resting in his hands. Sasuke walked over to him and said a few things to him as Itachi only glared at him and looked back out the windshield where he was seated. Sasuke's eyebrows twitched as he just turned away from him and walked back over to me.
"What was that about?" I questioned him as he made his way over to me and we both sat down on the couch.
"It was nothing," Sasuke answered me. I looked at him non believingly and just rested in his comfortable embrace as the bus started to move to our hotel which wasn't to far. Ever since we had joined back as a band and recorded the rest of the album I saw now that Sasuke and I just weren't on the best terms. Maybe it was because of the fact that I still had not opened that box that Kiba had left me in his will, or maybe it was because of the fact that maybe I still wasn't over it…it could've also been my apprehensions about Sasuke.
I looked over to him and saw his nose red once again from the many times that I have seen it that way. It was starting to make me wonder as I frowned and looked away. I had a feeling of what was going on so why couldn't I bring myself to just do what I knew I had to? I knew that he was back on the stuff…I would have to be an idiot to miss that, and I may be blond and slightly (1) stupid but that didn't mean I didn't know what was going on right under my nose.
I felt Sasuke hand tracing my shoulders which meant for me to look at him. I lifted my head up to look at him as he looked down at me.
"What's wrong?" Sasuke questioned me. I shrugged and looked at him oddly.
"Why would something be wrong?" I questioned him playing stupid once again. Sasuke continued to hold my gaze as the bus stopped and he leaned into my ear.
"We'll talk when we get upstairs," he whispered into my ear. I didn't acknowledge this as I got up from my seat and walked off the bus and towards the hotel entrance.
"What's up with him?" Sasori questioned Sasuke as he got up slowly.
"I have no idea," Sasuke answered him. Deidara came in then laughing as he looked at Sasuke.
"I think loverboy here isn't satisfying his lover anymore," Deidara answered making hip thrusts laughing.
"Sasuke knows exactly what's bothering Naruto…he just thinks Naruto is an idiot who doesn't see anything like everybody else surrounding him," Itachi said aloud. Sasuke shot him a death glare as he stepped off the bus to go find me upstairs.
As I was walking into the elevator Sasuke walked in behind me and pressed the floor for our room. As the numbers climbed we finally reached the 18th floor and Sasuke punched the fire alarm button stopping the elevator immediately. My arms were crossed over my chest as Sasuke turned to look at me.
"So…what?" Sasuke questioned me.
"What are you talking about?" I questioned him back.
"Why are you mad at me? You haven't been the same lately," .
"What? Because I'm not urging to fuck you at every turn I haven't been the same?"
"No. You know that's not what I mean. You're just distant…and for some reason you look like you're mad at me 24/7. I'm not an idiot Naruto…something is bothering you,"
"NOTHING is bothering me. But right now the only thing bothering me is that I want to get upstairs and you aren't letting me quite do that,"
"You want to get upstairs so you can get away from me! That's what it is!"
"Why do you think I want to get away from you? How about you stop for a minute and maybe realize that it's just me!" I shouted at him then. He looked at me not saying anything as he just stared.
"What do you mean?" he questioned me not knowing what I meant.
"Maybe I just need to figure some things out and that's what's been affecting me," I answered him spewing total bullshit through my teeth.
"Then talk to me about it…that's why I'm here," Sasuke told me. I growled and sidestepped him releasing the fire alarm button and sending our elevator going again. I stood in front of Sasuke and felt his arms wrap around my waist as his breath ghosted over my neck. I hated when he did that…he knew that it could make me forget everything for that one moment and make it all about him.
"I love you…you know that right? I don't say that to many people," Sasuke whispered to me, kissing my neck lightly holding me tighter to him.
"I don't know what I would do without you now that I've found you," Sasuke whispered to me again. I didn't react knowing that's exactly what he wanted me to do. Instead I just stayed perfectly still until we reached our floor and I moved out of his arms. So what if I was being distant, that didn't stop the fact that he was still doing drugs.
"Are you really going to be like this the entire time?" Sasuke questioned me as we made our way into the hotel room. I glared at him over my shoulder and then turned around fully.
"Are you ever going to quit and tell me the truth for once?" I questioned him back. He looked at me confused since he did not know what the hell was going on with me.
"What?"
"You know EXACTLY what I'm talking about and yet you act like a fucking fool!" I shouted throwing a pillow at him. He flinched as the pillow hit him and he continued to look at me getting a bit angrier by the second.
"What the FUCK are you talking about Naruto?" Sasuke questioned me oddly.
"I'm SICK of this Sasuke! STOP LYING TO ME! I've HAD it with the LIES! I told you ONCE and the fact that you've LIED to me AGAIN means that you don't give a flying FUCK what I think!" I shouted at him angrily.
"What is this ABOUT?"
"Oh that's right Sasuke, play coy about everything. Act as if you have no clue what I'm speaking about. That's right play the Uchiha charm because you think it's going to work so well with me!" I shouted at him sarcastically. He looked at me and didn't say anything to me after that. I shook my head and went over to my suitcase grabbing a few things of clothing and walking towards the door.
"Where are you going?" Sasuke questioned me tiredly.
"Away from here that's for sure," I answered him as I opened the door and slammed it walking down the hall trying to remember Itachi's room number.
I walked to the elevator remembering that it was on a separate floor and made my way over there since it was better to be with a different Uchiha brother than the one that I was currently with. As the elevator came and stopped on his floor I walked over to his room and knocked on the door waiting. I heard some ruffling in the room and then saw the door open to see Itachi shirtless staring at me in the doorway.
"Hey," I spoke lowly. Itachi said nothing as he opened his door wider to let me in. I walked in quietly not saying anything as I sat down on one of the beds and he shut the door to turn around and look at me.
"Where's Anko?" I questioned him. He looked around the room and shrugged.
"We both got our own rooms this time," Itachi answered me.
"Oh.." I said stupidly.
"Don't mean to sound rude but why exactly are you here…with clothes in your arms?" Itachi questioned me then, scratching the back of his head in the process.
"Sasuke and I got into an argument…and I kind of can't sleep in that room tonight…do you mind if I crash here?" I questioned him.
"Sure…you can sleep on the other bed…what happened…if you don't mind me asking," Itachi questioned me. I laid down on the bed and looked at Itachi and then down.
"A misunderstanding I guess. Or maybe it wasn't. I have no idea," I answered him shaking my head.
"Well let me tell you something about my brother. He will never tell you he's wrong or that he's sorry. To him that's like a curse. That boy has NEVER said he's sorry to me, and I'm his brother. IF he does say it…it's either without emotion or he's being forced to say it," Itachi told me. I cuddled closer into the covers of the bed and turned on my side away from Itachi.
So Sasuke never said sorry…and he never admitted that he was wrong. That was a good thing to know. Especially in this time.
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Opening my eyes I remembered that we had a show later tonight. That was just fucking amazing seeing as how I definitely did NOT want to perform. Getting out of the bed I was occupying in Itachi's room. I changed my clothes for the day and made my way out of the room since Itachi was not there. When I got downstairs I immediately saw Sasuke and did my best to avoid him.
"Naruto…"
I heard my name called and kept walking and soon heard footsteps making their way towards me.
"Naruto,"
My name was said more firmly but I still didn't look at him until he came over to me and gripped my arm. I glared down at his hand, a scowl set in place as I looked at his face.
"What?" I questioned him snidely.
"Speak to me…please," Sasuke told me. I continued to look at him and moved out of his grasp to keep walking outside finally.
"Naruto come on," Sasuke said to me as he pushed me into an alley lightly so that we could have some privacy.
"Why should I speak…when my words mean so little to you?" I questioned him softly. Sasuke stopped moving and looked at me.
"Is that It/ Do you think your words don't mean anything to me?"
"That's EXACTLY what I think Sasuke. I mean if my words actually meant something then you would quit! I know you haven't! You're snorting it now and think that I don't notice. IF I MEANT ANYTHING YOU WOULD LISTEN! WHY AM I EVEN HERE? AM I JUST YOUR LITTLE FUCK TOY?!" I shouted at him quite loudly and angrily. I saw Sasuke's face change drastically from soft and nurturing to angry and rough.
"Is that what you think? You think you're just a little 'fuck toy?' You think I don't care? Then why the fuck ARE you here?! ARE YOU THAT MUCH OF SLUT THAT YOU'LL GIVE YOUR VIRGINITY TO ANY GUY WHO WHISPERES SWEET NOTHINGS INTO YOUR EAR?!" Sasuke shouted at me. I gripped my hands into fists and punched him square in the jaw and walked out of the alley.
I started running to the performance space not bothering to wait for the bus and just make my way to the performance space by myself. I didn't are that it was far and I was running I just need to get away. He was such a hateful bastard! How could he say something like that?
I stopped running then and started to walk as I felt my heart clench furiously in pain. I stopped and felt the tears that were threatening to fall since I left the alleyway. I cried and just stopped in the middle of the street and continued to cry. This was unbelievable. I couldn't believe that he could do this to me.
I kept walking and finally found my way to the performance space. I showed my I.D. and made my way to one of the trailers and walked inside. I let myself finish crying until I heard commotion outside and knew I had to pull myself together.
I sniffed a few times and washed my face so that I would be able to leave the trailer in one piece. The minute I stepped out the trailer and into the questioning eyes of the band members.
"Where were you?" Deidara questioned me.
"I walked here," I answered him solemnly.
"You WALKED?" Itachi questioned me in disbelief. I nodded at him and saw Sasuke walking in my direction with a now solemn look on his face. I walked away from the group and heard him following me.
"Naruto…listen what I said -,"
"What you said was the truth. I shouldn't be surprised,'
"Come on Naruto,"
"OH YOU COME On! YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE THAT'S THE PROBLEM!" I shouted at him. Walking away from him I grabbed my guitar and waited to get on stage. Sasori stood next to me and heard the count off and started playing, I realized what song we were playing and grit my teeth in anger. Sasuke walked by me and started to sing while keeping his eyes on me.
I've done everything as you say
I followed your rules without question
I thought would help me see things clearly
But instead of helping me to see
I look around and it's like I'm blinded
I glared at him as he continued to stare at me.
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
(GO!) Where should I go?
(GO!) What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
(GO!) Cause I don't know
(GO!) If I can trust you
I don't
understand what you want from me!
I continued to play, stepping up to him and he continued to look at me as the crowd egged us on.
I feel like I'm spinning out of control
I try to focus, but everything's twisted
And all along I thought you would be there (thought you would be there)
To let me know
I'm not alone
But in fact that's exactly what I was
I'm spinning out of control!
Out of control!
I'm spinning out of control!
Out of control!
(GO!) Where should I go?
(GO!) What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
(GO!) Cause I don't know
(GO!) If I can trust you
Or all of the things you said to me
I strummed loudly as Sasuke glared back at me.
And I may never know
The answer to this endless mystery
(GO!) Where should I go?
(GO!) What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me!
Sasuke walked up to me and sang into my face, our chests nearly touching.
It's still a mystery!
It's still a mystery!
Spinning out of control, out of control
Spinning out of control, out of control
I'm spinning out of control
OUT OF CONTROL!
I'm spinning out of control
OUT OF CONTROL
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I'm spinning out of control!
Where should I go?
(GO!) What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
(GO!) Cause I don't know
(GO!) If I can trust you
Or all of the things you've said to me
I moved back behind Sasuke as he continued to sing and already knew what I was going to do.
And I may never know
The answer to this endless mystery
(GO!) Where should I go?
(GO!) What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me!
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control
I took my guitar off of me letting Sasori carry the ending as I held the neck in both hands.
I'm spinning out of control
Out of control!
As the last chord played I lifted my guitar above my head and smashed it over Sasuke's head as he fell to the floor in a helpless heap.
I heard screams coming form the audience. Some of surprise, others of just pure not knowing what the hell was going on. I let the neck of the guiar go seeing as how it was the only thing in my hands at the moment. I saw Sasuke trying to move and he looked at me.
I knelt down to him, grabbing his shirt in my fists while he blinked a few times.
"I'm nobodies' slut or fuck toy. And I never will be… I quit!"
I let him go and walked off the stage, leaving him behind.
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I looked out the window of the airplane that I was currently in and tried not to even seem excited that I was back in California knowing that I had to stop at the bastards house before I left to go anywhere else.
I made my way out of the airport and into a taxi cab where I gave the driver specific directions on where to go. He looked me over and I could tell he knew who I was, not that I really cared much.
The driver pulled up to the mansion as I paid him and he sped off. I made my way up the drive and opened the door seeing familiarity automatically come and capture me in its grasp. I walked up to the room and gathered my things and shove it into a bag.
Walking along the house I started to put my things inside of bags that I was taking with me, including clothes, photos and other memorabilia. I stopped upon the end of the closet where Kiba's unopened box still lay. I grabbed it and walked downstairs and set it with my stuff aside.
Looking around the house I saw the perfection that was in it, just like Sasuke. I could only imagine how long it took him to get everything into place and how much he paid for everything. My eyes set against a photo of me and him that he took one day and had framed.
Walking over to it I picked it up and fingered it seeing the gentleness in our eyes. His arm was locked around my neck as I kissed his cheek and he smirked at the camera. I frowned at the picture and the next thing I knew it was out of my hands and thrown at the wall.
The glass shattered along with the frame as the picture fell lifelessly to the ground. I started breathing heavily and growled once again taking a painting and ripping it off the wall and breaking it.
Sasuke would be in for a pleasant surprise when he got home.
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WOO!
(1) I love blondes and mean nothing by that comment. Some of my friends are blonde in fact. Lolz. I do not mean to offend anybody.
I know Sasuke was a big meanie in this chappie but it had to be done. So did Naruto's emoness. =[
I'm so sorry it took so long to get that out. The plot bunnie wanted carrots and it took me a while to get some. SO yesum. There's the next chapter. You know the drill. Review pls =]