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Wish I were here
I waited at the door with my entire luggage and my sunglasses placed on my face to remain inconspicuous to onward gazes. I heard ruffling in the apartment and sighed to myself getting rather impatient. Finally the door opened to me and I saw Sakura standing there in awe her mouth agape.
"Nar…Naruto? What are you doing here?" she questioned me in disbelief. I shrugged and sidestepped her to get inside the apartment and put my luggage down in the middle of the living room.
"Wanted to see you guys," I told her without looking into her face.
"Wanted to see us my ass. Something's going on…Naruto what happened?"
"Nothing happened. Why does something have to happen? Why can't I just be here to see my friends?" I questioned aloud still not looking at her. She came over to me and spun me around taking my sunglasses off of my face and seeing that they were bloodshot.
"Why have you been crying?" Sakura questioned me gently. I looked away from her face and shrugged feeling the tears well up in my eyes again.
"Same shit, new day," I whispered to her. She didn't say anything as she wrapped her arms around me and let me rest my head on her chest. I wrapped my arms around her midsection slowly as her hand patted soft gently caresses on my head. A single tear fell down my face as she held me tighter and I remembered exactly why in fact I was here.
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Sasuke continued to keep the ice on his head as his brother looked at him from where he was standing. Sasuke said nothing as he looked away from the criticizing gaze of his brother.
"You know what I'm going to say don't you?" Itachi questioned him. Sasuke grunted and turned away from Itachi.
"As usual, big brother has to be the fucking saint and tell little Sasuke what he's done wrong," Sasuke answered in a snide tone. Itachi grabbed Sasuke's shoulders and spun him around to look into his face.
"What is the MATTER with you? Are you so emotionally fucked that you can't even see the people who care about you staring you in the face? You wouldn't even give a fuck if everybody left your life!"
"I GUESS NOT! WHY THE FUCK DOES IT MATTER TO YOU?!"
"BECAUSE YOU ARE MY BROTHER AND YOU ARE FUCKING UP YOUR LIFE AND IT'S MY JOB TO MAKE SURE YOU DON'T!" Itachi shouted at him angrily. Sasuke said nothing and looked away from his brother as Itachi moved back and ran a hand through his hair.
"You're going to fix this…you know that right?" Itachi questioned him.
"What are you talking about?" Sasuke questioned him.
"All this shit with Naruto…you're going to fix it. I'm not going to let you half ass this one. Sasori can finish the tour out and then when the tour is over Konoha Legend will take a break and you're going to fix this,"
"And who made you the boss about all of this?"
"I'm your older brother. Guess you can say I have seniority," Itachi answered him.
"Then big brother, what are you going to do about damage control?"
"Absolutely nothing. You fucked it up…you'll fix it,"
"Excuse me?"
"You'll deal with the paparazzi and all the questioning. I gave Anko direct instructions not to do anything about it," Itachi answered him as he walked away. Sasuke growled to himself and threw the ice against the door after Itachi had closed it.
Putting his head in his hands Sasuke needed time to think and everybody breathing down his back was not helping in the least bit. Getting up from his position he went over to his bag and pulled out a small packet of a white substance.
Clearing everything off from the table he took out a razor carefully and dumped part of the contents onto the table. Taking the razor carefully in his hands he separated the piles into a few neat stacks. Being careful not to breathe on it as he held his breath steadily and his eyes widened hungrily for the intake.
Sasuke lowered his head to the table and inhaled the stream through his right nostril and breathed heavily once finished. He adjusted his nose and smirked. He leant down to the table again and inhaled through his left nostril and did the same thing feeling the rush go straight to his head.
He knelt back on the couch behind him and smiled. This was euphoric…sometimes even better than sex. How could Naruto not understand that?
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I finished explaining to Sakura everything that had happened as I was sitting on the bed that was once and still mine. She looked at me and didn't say anything just looking at the floor and then back up at me.
"Are you okay with the fact that you left him?" Sakura questioned me. I didn't answer her seeing as how I wasn't quite sure how I felt about the entire thing. I looked away from her and towards the box that was still on top of my unpacked luggage.
"You haven't opened it?" Sakura questioned me. I shook my head and looked over at her.
"I can't bring myself to open it," I answered her solemnly.
"You're going to have to…maybe it'll help you with your Sasuke problems,"
"What could possibly be in there that would help me? I don't think anything could help me with the issues that I'm facing with that bastard,"
"I think you just need some sleep," Sakura told me. I smiled weakly at her as she got up and kissed me on the forehead walking out the room and leaving me with my thoughts. I laid down in bed and tried my best not to think. This was making me insane.
In an instant lightning flashes
And the burst might leave me blind
When the bolt of lightning crashes
And it burns right through my mind
I turned over on my side not being able to get comfortable at all. He just kept running through my mind.
It's like someone drained my brain out
Set my frozen mind to thaw
Let the lethargy and pain out
While I stood and watched in awe
I sat up in bed and rubbed my head in agony. This was not going to be an easy night at all. I could already tell, and I definitely didn't want to start crying again, but I felt tears coming on. What the fuck was happening to me?
I am riding on the brightest buzz…
I am worlds away from who I was…
And they told me it would change me
Though they don't know how it does
(Thought they don't know how it does)
Sasuke sat up from his place on the couch and stumbled across the room in pure fits of giggles. He ended up tripping over a stool and groaned at the pain of which he didn't even feel.
I have lived a life of clouds a grey
But this is crystal clear
Wish I were here… (Wish I were here)
Sasuke got up and tried to walk to the door but failed only falling again as his limbs ended up feeling heavier. A grin was plastered on his face at this, realizing he could barely move.
I imagine it's remarkable
Exuberant, Austere
Wish I were here (Wish I were here)
Wish I were here (Wish I were here)
I got up from the bed and put on my shoes and one of my leather jackets walking out of the house. Air was the only thing that would clear my mind at this point.
It's euphoria, its anger
It's the winter wind, its fire
(It's the winter wind, its fire)
And it kills my deepest hunger
As it fills me with desire
As I walked I shoved my hands deep into my pockets not being able to do anything with them because I knew I would start punching the walls which wasn't the best of ideas.
I'm the light and heat of every sun
(I'm the light and heat of every sun)
I'm a bullet from a magic gun
(I'm a bullet from a magic gun)
And I'm trying to enjoy it
But I'm missing all the fun
(I am missing all the fun!)
Sasuke tried to move but found that it was harder than before. As he tried to breathe he found that it was also harder seeing as how he couldn't get any air into his lungs…this was new.
Am I feeling what I think I'm feeling?
The hope, the heat, the fear?
Wish I were here… (Wish I were here)
Itachi shot up in bed knowing that something wasn't right. He rushed out of his room and ran to Anko's knocking on the door like a madman. As she finally opened the door Itachi was breathing heavily and had no idea as to why.
"We have to go to Sasuke, call 911,"
Is this someone else's head trip?
Do I just disappear?
Wish I were here… (Wish I were here)
Wish I were here… (Wish I were… here)
Itachi banged on the door and received no answer. He kept banging and finally rammed into it with his shoulder 3 times and bust it down. As he walked in he was greeted with a sight he had wished he never would have to see.
Plug me in
And turn me on
And flip the switch
I'm good as gone
I stopped walking then and felt something pulling at my heart and realized that something wasn't right. Looking around myself I saw that nobody was around me and I was alone on the street…but that eerie feeling wouldn't let me be.
It slips my skin
And trips my brain,
I feel the burn
But I don't feel the pain
Itachi ran over to Sasuke and shook him a few times getting no response from his younger brother and growing more worried by the second.
"Come on Sasuke…don't die on me now!"
Is my brain reborn or is it wrecked?
In freedom or in fear?
Wish I were here… (Wish I were -)
Have I blown my mind forever? (Oh!)
Is cloudy my new clear? (Oh!)
Wish I were here… (Wish…I…)
Wish I were here… (Were…)
Wish I were!… (Here!)
I walked by a store that was selling televisions and then saw a breaking news update and stopped to see what they were talking about.
"Just in, Uchiha Sasuke, lead singer of Konoha Legend has just been hospitalized after found unconscious in his hotel room. Sources say that he was not breathing at the scene and was rushed to medical facilities at once,"
Can I hide my stupid hunger?
Fake some confidence and cheer?
Wish I were here
Wish I were here
Itachi sat in the hospital waiting room with his head in his hands gripping at his hair angrily. Anko sat down next to him and rubbed his back as he looked at her.
"I'm getting sick of hospitals," Itachi told her.
"It's almost over…he's going to cave sooner or later," she told him.
"How can you say that? You know Sasuke! He wouldn't cave! EVER!" Itachi shouted angrily. Anko placed her hand on his forearm and pulled him down to sit, seeing as how he had stood in his anger.
"Babe…it'll get better. Just hold on," Anko told him. Itachi nodded and leaned in kissing her slowly. She leaned back and leaned her forehead against his own.
"Yeah, well…my grip is slipping slowly," Itachi told her. She palmed his cheek and smiled into his face.
"Don't give up…you're the only one he has left. The only real family. If you go…who knows what'll happen to him. Just keep holding on. Push him hard…until he goes over the edge. Then be at the bottom to catch him before he hits the ground," she whispered to him. Itachi nodded and reveled in these moments. These tender moments that not many people saw of either of them.
Itachi got up from where he was sitting and walked over to where Sasuke was laying down in bed wired to machines and motionless. Itachi walked in slowly and quietly not bothering to make much of a sound.
He looked at his brother and the respirator that was helping him breathe until he was able to breathe on his own again.
"What's wrong with him?" Itachi questioned the doctor after they situated Sasuke in his room.
"With all the heroin that he has been inducing into his body each time has only made it worse. Since the drug is a depressant what ends up happening is that it shuts down his central nervous system. By doing this each time he uses it, it causes to be much more deadly,"
"So what happened this time?" Itachi questioned.
"It depressed his respiratory system…thus not allowing him to breathe…which is why he became unconscious. He shall be fine in a matter of days…but I do recommend therapy, rehabilitation. This isn't a good thing at all for him,"
Itachi snorted and looked at the doctor, "You don't think we've told him that before?"
Itachi continued to stare at his brother and let a single tear fall down his cheek.
"Where did I go wrong? I was just supposed to look after you…why did this happen?" Itachi questioned himself not being able to believe what had become of his life and his brother. Itachi turned away and sat down in the seat that was occupying the room.
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I sat in front of the T.V. not believing what I was hearing. I wanted to rush to the hospital and see what was wrong with him…see what he had done to himself. I wanted to be by his side and tell him that everything would be okay and I wanted to be the first one he saw when he woke up.
But I knew that wasn't possible. I had left and there was no way I was going back to him. I had to make a point…and this would defeat the entire purpose if I went back to him…no.
Lying back down in bed I turned off the T.V. and turned onto my side trying my best to fall asleep. Sasuke would not rule my life…I wouldn't let him rule my life.
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Sasuke started to choke at the tube that was shoved into his mouth not being able to breathe. Itachi rushed up from the bed and helped him remove the tube from his mouth. Sasuke coughed a few times and then looked around himself and then over at Itachi remembering finally what he was doing there finally.
"I want to go home," Sasuke said weakly. Itachi looked at him and didn't say anything. Sasuke looked around himself again and beat the bed angrily.
"I WANT TO GO HOME!" Sasuke shouted this time tears steadily streaming down his face from anger and frustration. Itachi walked over to him and slapped him angrily.
Sasuke's eyes widened and looked at Itachi feeling the sting of the slap. Itachi had never laid a hand on him before. He never tried and he never liked that way of discipline at all.
"Get a grip. It's not all about you," Itachi told him slowly. Sasuke didn't say anything and looked at Itachi, holding his gaze.
"You have no idea what I feel," Sasuke growled out at him.
"THEN EXPLAIN IT TO ME SASUKE! BECAUSE I WANT TO UNDERSTAND!"
"It isn't the same without him…I don't want to sing…I don't want to do the rest of the tour…refund everybody…I just can't,"
"What the fuck Sasuke? We can't keep stopping tours and productions of music videos because of your personal problems!"
"YOU'VE NEVER LOVED SOMEONE! HOW WOULD YOU KNOW MY PROBLEMS?!" Sasuke shouted at him. Itachi said nothing and nodded at him.
"Wow…never thought I'd see the day that my empty shell of a brother grew a heart," Itachi said to his brother emotionlessly. Sasuke held his gaze and then looked away. He let a tear fall from his face and hated the fact that he was crying…let alone in front of his brother. This was just disappointing.
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I walked around the house only in my pajama bottoms waiting for everybody else to get up. Surprisingly I was the first one to wake up, seeing as how I'm usually the last. Then again, maybe it wasn't so surprising seeing as how I couldn't sleep all that much because thoughts of Sasuke were just running through my mind repeatedly.
I walked over to the couch and sat down turning the T.V. on and turned to the entertainment network, which seemed to become my new life what with the entire Sasuke drama.
"Updated reports have shown that Uchiha Sasuke has checked out of the hospital and has called off the rest of the tour that the band was on. After once delaying the release of MakeDamnSure fans are starting to question what is going on with Konoha Legend. As well as the leave of guitarist and love interest, Uzumaki Naruto has seemingly dropped off the face of the Earth after this display where he brutally slammed a guitar over Sasuke's head. Where has this lovable blonde gone to now?"
I groaned hearing what they had just said and not believing the fact that Sasuke had called off the rest of the tour. Whatever had happened must have been bad if he decided to cancel the rest of the tour.
"You're watching this trash again?"
"It keeps me updated,"
"You know that stuff isn't the truth," Sakura told me. She sat down next to me, crossing her legs and changing the channel to Spongebob Squarepants and immediately started laughing at Patrick's stupidity.
"Will you ever grow up?" I laughed. She laughed with me and moved my shoulder.
"Oh please…I'm friends with you I doubt that," Sakura answered laughing.
"What's for breakfast my youthful friends?" Lee questioned as he exited Sakura and his bedroom.
"We have no idea," Sakura answered him.
"Pancakes?" I questioned them
"Yeah…we haven't had some Uzumaki pancakes in a while," Sakura answered me. I laughed at that and walked into the kitchen feeling that I would be well on my way.
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Sasuke started to walk slowly up the walk to his house. He stopped walking seeing that his wallet was in the front yard. He bent down to pick it up and looked inside seeing his cards missing. He got up with an eyebrow tilted and walked into his house gasping at what he saw before him.
Everywhere along the walls the paintings were ripped off and thrown on the floor angrily. The statues which he bought were all on the floor dismantled and broken. As he walked up the stairs he noticed that there were holes in the wall that he didn't remember being there before.
He walked into the room and saw lipstick, which was once used for a concert smeared on the mirror and in bold black that read "Fuck you". Cologne bottles were overturned and the bed was not in place as he once knew it to be.
All the clothes were scattered over the floor as well as on the stairs of which he disregarded. Walking out the bedroom he sank to the floor not believing what he had just seen. Realization dawned on him and he ran into the garage and sank down to the floor in disbelief.
Everything was gone. Sasuke looked up and saw that he keys were indeed not there. And the keys to the house were missing as well. Leaning his head against the wall he groaned and realized what he had to do. Getting up from the floor he called a taxi and told the driver where to go. Pulling up to the building Sasuke walked out slowly and scowled not ever believing he would ever come to a place like this in his life.
Walking into the door Sasuke immediately regretted his decision but knew it was the only thing he could to set his life back in order.
"Welcome to California Rehabilitation Center…how may I help you?"
"Uchiha Sasuke…I'd like to check in here please,"
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The song I used in this chapter is from one of the most AMAZING musicals on Broadway right now called "Next To Normal". I recommend that if you are ever in New York and it is still on Broadway you go see it. AMAZING!
WELL THEN! What do you think? I am finally getting alone with it so dang happy WOOP WOOP! So you kno da drill. Review mii darlings ! =]