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Dear Diary,

Wow, this is awkward. I just spent, like, two hours reading this thing and the only thing I've retained is that for some reason, I like writing in purple ink. I haven't remembered anything else, and I'm still having a hard time with names…who are Remus and Sirius? Those are some strange ones…

Though I must say, I hate feeling completely naïve (like my two-dots-on-the-i action?) about everything…I freaked out in History of Magic because I didn't think anyone else noticed that our teacher was dead. You know, now I can't spend time with this boyfriend I apparently have but whose name I STILL cannot recall, and now all I can do is pester Lily about why she's acting all weird and happy.

Love,

Adriyana

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Diary,

Jeremy Howes. He's my answer. Okay, that sounds totally stupid, but HE is the way I'll finally forget about that guy I can't forget about…don't make me write it…please. At least I have Jeremy now, and I think he likes me or something…Plus, he makes me smile and laugh like nothing else…well, in Transfiguration, Agie called McGonagall "McGoogles," and I cracked up pretty hard at that…

McGoogles caught me and Black laughing, though. I'll tell you how my first detention goes.

-Lily

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If someone were to walk into the Gryffindor sixth-year boys' dormitory at that moment, they'd probably be knocked to the ground by a madly pacing Sirius Black. Sirius liked to stalk while he was thinking, usually while planning a prank.

This time, though, it was different. This time, his plan wasn't going to land him in detention, but—hopefully—get Adriyana's memories of him back. He was still really confused over why he was one of the last people she remembered, and he was trying really hard to convince himself that it wasn't because Adriyana didn't like him as much as he liked her.

But his plans almost always worked, and boy, did he want this one to.

"Lily Evans! Hey, Lily Ev--"

Lily heard someone's voice behind her, calling her name. She stopped abruptly and turned around.

WHAM! Someone ran into her. Again. And from the looks of it, it was the same person. "Hey, Jeremy," she said, smiling warmly at him.

"Hi, Lily Evans."

She giggled. "I love that, how you say my first and last name…why, though?"

"Oh, it's a long story. My friends…you know them all?" She nodded. "Well, they have this thing…anyone in the school who's good-looking enough…well, you have to call them by their first and last name. You're lucky yours is so short…my brother, Steven, used to like your friend, Adriyana. Now he's afraid Black will kill him, but could you imagine, having to say her full name?"

She laughed. Wait. Did he just pretty much come out and say I was cute?

"Anyway, now it's weird to call you anything else…the stupid berks got it stuck in my head." Jeremy raked a hand through his sandy hair.

She didn't know where or how she suddenly got the nerve came to do it, but she found herself touching Jeremy's arm lightly and saying, "So, do you feel better after that Quidditch accident?"

He looked at her hand on his arm. "Oh, yeah, I'm fine…" he said, standing up straight, which made him wince a little.

"Such a man, Jeremy Howes," she said, giggling.

"You used my full name," he said. Well, he was a Ravenclaw, so she wasn't shocked he'd figured it out. "Does that mean you think I'm cute?"

She giggled…again. "Maybe." Merlin, why was she acting like this?

"Well, then, Lily Evans, can I ask you something?"

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Sirius walked through the halls, a bunch of red roses clasped in his hand. Where was Adriyana?

Peter walked up next to him. "What'cha up to, Padfoot?"

"Hey, Wormtail. Moony said I should give Adriyana some of these flowers. They were the reason we started going out, right?"

"Yeah…sure…that," Peter said nervously.

"She remembers you, doesn't she?" Sirius deadpanned.

"Kind of?" Peter said, his eyes darting back and forth…usually a telltale sign he was lying. "Well, she remembers my name, and that I'm Prongs' friend…but that's it, I swear!"

"I don't care, man. As long as she's getting better," Sirius said, a part of him not believing his own words.

"Looking for her, then?" Sirius nodded. "Isn't that her over there?" Peter said, pointing to where Adriyana was indeed standing, which was also dangerously close to a gang of Slytherins, and kept glancing up at them, as if daring them to come over. Well, it was good to see she was getting her personality back. The "scared of everything" Adriyana was driving him crazy.

"Hey! Adriyana!" he called to her. She looked up at him. "Got you these," he said, thrusting the flowers into her arms.

She looked down at the flowers for a while, then looked up at him. "Thanks…." she said, trailing off.

"Adriyana, you still don't remember me, do you?"

She looked at him for a while. "…No, but you seem to know me, so….you can call me Agie. My friend James…do you know him?" Sirius sighed, nodding. "He came up with that one before he could pronounce my actual name."

He smiled, having heard this story before. "So you really don't remember me, do you?"

She shook her head and held up the roses. "I've seen these somewhere before, though."

"Yeah! From your dormitory! I gave you those too!" Ha! Now we're getting somewhere!

"Did you now? That was nice of you," she said vaguely, then smiled, walking away.

Or…we could be stuck in the same bloody rut we've been in for two weeks now…

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"Hey! Lily!" James called, looking over at her, talking to that…thing. Their heads were pretty close together, too. "I need to talk to you about something!"

He didn't, really…but we won't speak of this. Anything to get Lily away from a boy who wasn't him. Besides, she couldn't hear him, anyway…that blond prat was apparently saying something very interesting

He walked up to them. "I was just wondering, if you're not doing anything—" Jeremy began, but James pulled on Lily's arm, pulling her away.

"What are you doing!?" Lily said sharply through gritted teeth.

James tried to start his next sentence several different ways, all of them a failure. "I was just—I thought that—you have to—but I!" he wailed.

James knew what Jeremy was going to say, he just KNEW it. NOBODY got to ask Lily out but him. Lily didn't see it that way, of course, so before Jeremy could open his mouth again, James grabbed Lily's arm and pulled her away.

That's it…Jeremy Howes wasn't on the list…he WAS the list.

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Sirius watched Adriyana walk away, roses still in hand. "Padfoot? What're you doing?" Someone behind him said. He recognized the voice immediately.

"I'm brooding, Moony. Talk to you later."

"You know…it probably would work."

"What are you talking about?"

"I'm saying you should kiss Adriyana. That's probably what's going to work…what can you lose?"

"Her trust," Sirius said instantly. "If she doesn't trust me, she'll never remember me. "Merlin. This was definitely the WORST possible time for this to happen. I mean, we had so much, and now…"

"Don't go all girly on me now, Padfoot." Remus warned.

Sirius sighed. "Yeah…I'll just ask Lily later. We have detention together."

"I told you not to laugh, didn't I?"

Sirius snorted. "…McGoogles…"

"Well, you didn't need to roll around on the floor for ten minutes like you did!" Remus said. "Would it kill you not to act like a total arse for once?"

"Yes it would! And it would all be your fault. Do you want that on your conscience, Moony?"

Remus laughed, and Sirius tried to laugh along with him, but as he watched Adriyana turn the corner (she knew the way to the common room now, thank Merlin) he realized that there was something he needed to do before he could be truly happy.

Now all he needed was the courage to do it.

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"POTTER! What the BLOODY HELL is wrong with you?" Lily screamed at him, her face as red as her hair, probably from the strain of holding that scream in until they got back to the common room.

What was wrong with him? Now that he was facing a VERY angry Lily, he wondered why he'd even been compelled to randomly pull her away from Jeremy.

No, he knew…it was that look she'd been giving him….that look that was reserved only for James…well, it was in the sanctity of James' mind…but her giving that look to someone else drove him CRAZY with rage.

He could never tell her that, though, so he settled for acting like a complete dithering prat.

"Lily, I'm sorry. I know you don't believe me, but I am. I deserve whatever you're going to yell at me, so I'll just shut up and take it."

And he did. He stood there, letting Lily ream him out, not saying anything…because he agreed with every word. They just…hurt a thousand times more coming out of her mouth.

Finally, she stormed up the stairs. All he could do was sit there, thinking about what a complete idiot he was.

He was pretty sure he'd just lost the girl of his dreams forever…and it really wasn't a good feeling.

Lily stomped up to her dormitory, nearly in tears for absolutely no reason at all.

Well, she just made a complete idiot of herself in front of her crush, then verbally assaulted her other crush, and now she was all alone, but that was it, really.

She pushed open the door. Hard. Unfortunately, Alice happened to be standing on the other side, getting ready to leave, and the door smacked her nose.

"OW! Wuzzat fuur?" Alice said, clutching her nose. Lily waved her hand in apology. Alice, sensing one of Lily's "episodes" coming, just ran out of the room quickly.

Lily collapsed on her bed, picking up the book on her nightstand. The book sprang open at her touch, and she picked up a quill and began to write.

Dear Diary,

That's it. I'm going to die alone. I mean, I'm too much of a complete SPAZ to have a boyfriend anyway, so why bother? Relationships are too damn confusing anyway…at least I don't have amnesia.

One thing, though. If I don't like James anymore, why did it make me feel so bloody awful to tear him up? I've been waiting for him to let me crush his ego like that for years, and now that I did do it, I just feel like a total bitch. I can't still like him, can I?

Damn.

-Lily

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James sat into the common room, playing chess with Adriyana as Sirius watched them…or, more accurately, watched Adriyana, a longing look on his face (she was pretty much ignoring him, not intentionally, but more likely because she'd forgotten who he was again). Sirius had detention with Lily in a few minutes. She was still hiding upstairs, but all of them were positive that someone like Lily wouldn't miss her first detention ever.

James waited for her to come down. Hopefully she was still okay. He didn't see why she wouldn't be, but he was still concerned for her. It wasn't like her to be late for anything.

He looked up at Sirius and Adriyana, his face finally cracking a smile. He was hoping Adriyana would remember Sirius soon, and it looked like she was a little closer. They were getting on pretty well, at least, having their first real conversation in a while.

Sirius checked the clock on the wall, frowning at it. "I really wish I didn't have to go right now…I can't be late though." He got up, and James noticed he was holding Adriyana's hand. She was looking up at him, dazed, starstruck, giggly, and VERY un-Adriyana. In fact, she'd looked a lot like she had at the start of the year, when she first started liking Sirius.

At least, if she never remembered Sirius, they could start fresh. She looked like she was starting to like him again, or something like that.

"I can't wait for Lily anymore. Just tell her I'll meet her there," he said, stepping closer to the exit before finally stepping out. Adriyana gazed at the back of the portrait hole, still in her daze.

"James?"

"Yeah, Agie?" Maybe they'd finally get somewhere.

"Was Ringo Starr really just talking to us?"

Or maybe she was just getting worse.

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A split-second later, they heard heavy, quick footsteps from the steps to the girls' dormitories. Lily bolted out, so fast she was practically tripping. James had an urge to run and catch her, but thought the better of it. She turned to look at them briefly before running out to her detention, but James noticed she was purposely avoiding his eyes.

Detention, for Lily, passed by in one awful blur. Not only was she thinking about how awful she'd been to James the whole time, she had to polish about fifty million trophies with the surname "Potter" on them, and about half of them were James'.

She had talked to Sirius some, and she agreed with what he'd said Remus had told him to do. He should kiss Adriyana.

It made sense, right? It really was basically the only thing he hadn't tried so far.

She sighed. If only a kiss would make everything better with James.

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That's it. Sirius was tired of waiting, tired of being the only thing missing from Adriyana's life…tired of secretly wondering if she liked it better like that. James and Lily (on separate occasions, of course) had told him about how Adriyana felt terrible that she didn't remember him. That she actually wanted to remember him.

James, in an all-too-common burst of insensitivity, hadn't left out the part where she'd mistaken him for a celebrity…a Muggle celebrity he was surprised she even knew of at all…and she'd still recognized him before Sirius.

James found it hilarious. Sirius didn't.

Nevertheless, he gathered up all of the Gryffindor courage he had, and set off looking for Adriyana.

"So…you were flirting with James…just so that you could…remember him?

"Yeah," Adriyana said, nodding. "You see, when I first woke up, I sort of recognized his face…like in an 'I must have bumped into him in some shop sometime and said hi,' kind of way. Then, I don't know…my mental, amnesia-altered brain rationalized that flirting with him would help me remember him."

"Fine," Lily said. "Just…don't do it again."

"Why not?" Adriyana asked, then her face broke into a smile. "Oh, Merlin! You like James!"

"NO! No I don't! It's just…tearing Sirius apart, is all," Lily lied.

"Who?" Adriyana asked, confused.

"He's your boyfriend…the only person you DON'T recognize as of now?"

"Oh…always hanging out with James, Remus, and Peter? Gave me some flowers and this box of candy?" Adriyana waved the already half-empty box in front of Lily's face.

"Yeah…that's the one…"

"Oh, him!"

"You remember him?"

"Yeah! He's the one I can't seem to remember….but that's the only thing I know about him," Adriyana sighed. "Believe me, I feel awful…it's not like I'm losing anything by having him not remember me, but it looks like he is…and he's bloody hot, and doesn't look as hot while depressed."

Lily just squinted at her, saying nothing, but clearly displaying an "Are You Crazy?" look.

"What!? There's…a missing piece to this puzzle…and we need to find out what it is."

"Agie, it's okay, it'll happen if we just wait…" Lily said, knowing Adriyana wouldn't fall for it.

"Lils, he might be the sweetest, nicest, guy I've ever met." Lily snorted, rolling her eyes. "Well, judging by how he's been treating me, I don't know what he's usually like. In the last few days…he's given me flowers, candy, practically all of his attention…This is awful. I want to remember him more than I've wanted to remember anything so far, so how come I can't!"

"I don't know Agie, I really don't…Hey! What if—"

"Isn't that him?" Adriyana asked, pointing down the hallway. Lily looked in the direction Adriyana's finger was pointing. It was indeed, Sirius, hurtling toward them, with a determined look on his face.

He stopped right in front of them.

"Black, what are you doing?" Lily asked, but he ignored her, Stepping closer to Adriyana. He whispered something Lily couldn't hear, then put his hand on Adriyana's cheek.

"What're you playing at, Bla—"

But Sirius had already put his lips on top of Adriyana's, and Lily couldn't really think of anything to say to that.

A/N—I'm really sorry! Really, really sorry in a voice that suggests she's not very sorry at all…Okay, maybe not, but the next chapter will come really soon!

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