Disclaimer: Am I the only person still writing these things after eighteen chapters? This isn't even a disclaimer, it more of a…vague rambling.

Okay, the reason you're getting the early chapter is to bribe you into looking at the new RPG. Actually, it's pretty dull right now (Er...it has two members, and both of them are me. I don't know how I accidentally crwated TWO usernames, but...I did). Link's in my LiveJournal, and the link to that is on my profile page. And I say this all again at the end of the chapter, maybe because I like talking to myself, maybe because I have something to talk about. Maybe both. Maybe I just wanted something to boldface. Maybe you're still reading this. Who knows?

Oh, well. On with the ficcage!

Dear Diary,

Guess what? I'm back! Well...I never really left, so I'm not literally back, because I was never literally gone…unless you count the time I spent in the hospital…

Okay, I'm not really proving to you that I'm not insane anymore, am I. Well, technically I never was insane…it's more of a metaphorical insanity…I'm just gonna…walk away now, and come back when I have something better to write.

Okay, I'm back (shut up)! It's great, after I remembered Sirius again; everything else just…fell into place. Now my life is back to (ahem) normal, and I can focus on what was happening before the accident. I was wondering whether or not I was in love with Sirius. I'm actually still kind of scared about it, which totally isn't like me. Isn't that awful, though, how I still don't feel safe trusting him with my heart?

Metaphorically speaking, of course.

Love,

Adriyana

P.S.—Wait a minute. I've got to talk to him. I just realized that there's still something very important about him I don't know.

Dear Diary.

I do NOT have a crush on James Potter.

…Wow...that worked. Badly. Agie said that if I wrote that down and stared at the sentence for a bit, I'd believe it. Subliminal something or some kind of thingy. I don't know, really, all I can see is that it didn't work too well.

And I mean ALL I CAN SEE. Never stare at a piece of paper for nearly an hour if you want to have clear vision ever again.

-Lily

Sirius sat at the top of the Astronomy Tower, his arms wrapped around Adriyana. He'd never really been up here during the day before. He'd only gone to midnight Astronomy classes before, but it was kind of nice, now that it was warm enough to want to go up there on yor own free will, and not spend the entire time muttering about which parts of your anatomy were freezing off.

Beside him, Adriyana sighed. "Sirius…I can't believe it…."

"What's that?"

"Well, you know it's March now…and that means we've been together for…about six months."

Wow. Had it really been that much time? "Bloody hell. I never thought any relationship I had would last that long."

She smiled. "I'm really glad it did, though," she said, grinning at him.

He nodded. He didn't mention to her that about a month of it didn't count because she'd had amnesia and they weren't exactly dating during that bit, but if it mad her happy to think it, then—

"Hey Sirius? I know this is kind of random and…well…really personal. But if our relationship's going to keep being this strong, then I think it might be important…soon." She bit her lip.

Sirius looked up at her. "What is it, Agie?"

"Um, It's actually like….well it's just…I'd tell you if I'd…" whatever it was that she was about to say, she looked really scared to say it. He just pulled her closer and smiled in what he hoped was a comforting way.

"Okay…have you ever…sleptwithanyone?" she said quickly, her face turning red.

He just stared at her, shocked at first, then confused. What should he say? Well, he obviously didn't want to lie, but…

An image popped in to his mind. He told her about what had happened last year, and she'd just get up and run, leaving him alone.

No, he couldn't stand that. He'd just got her back, for Merlin's sake! He couldn't lose her again, not now.

Of course, it was just like what usually happened with them. Once everything felt like it was back to normal, or as normal as it could be, something like this happened.

Adriyana had to be asking him for a reason, right? So…then that reason must be…well, she wouldn't ask him if she'd be happy with both answers, obviously. Clearly, one answer would make her happy and one wouldn't.

That made sense, right?

So he told her, "Yeah, I am."

Adriyana looked mildly shocked for a second, but Sirius thought that, judging by the way she was staying put, he'd given her the right answer.

It wasn't true, but it seemed to be working.

And when she shook her head, smiled happily and gave him a kiss, he felt awful…but still couldn't say he regretted it.

Lily walked down the hallway, alone, for once.

Being single and confused was definitely not fun. Why did all her friends have to have boyfriends, except for her? Well, Amber technically wasn't with Remus; she was studying in the library, but still...

Lily was just wondering why her usually lovesick friend had been avoiding her boyfriend lately, when she was distracted by a flash of shaggy hair.

She smiled, walking over to Jeremy. He'd kind of been avoiding her since what had happened the other day. "Hi, Jeremy," she said, smiling at him in what she hoped was a flirty way.

He looked at her, a little shyly. "Hi, Lily Evans. I thought you weren't talking to me."

Her eyes widened. "Why would I be doing that!?"

"Well, you're boyfriend didn't like it much last time, did he?"

"James…my boyfriend?" she asked. He was joking…right?

Jeremy nodded. "Sorry, I didn't really know you two were dating, but—"

"WE'RE NOT!" Lily yelled, angrily. "I wouldn't date him after doing something like," she motioned to Jeremy, and he winced. "That. I think he's just jealous, or trying to watch out for me. Or something like that."

"So, what…is he like, channelling your dad's spirit, or something?"

Lily laughed and shook her head, "I hope not." She did, too. Who thought about their father the way she sometimes thought about James? Well, how she used to think about him. Maybe.

"So…what were you doing before I bothered you?" she asked him.

"Oh, just…you know, walking. Helps me get where I'm going…you know, to places?" He said, grinning. "You're not bothering me; by the way…It's really great spending time with you…even if I do lose my shoes over it."

Lily blushed. "Yeah? I'm sorry about what happened with Potter, it's—"

"Not your fault, at all!" he finished.

"Are you sure? Because…I would've made it up to you…Maybe with some new shoes? Or a…Potions book?" She held up the textbook she was holding.

"Well…" he said, looking right into her eyes and smiling, "How about a date?"

She blushed even more, grinning. "That's what I really wanted to give you."

His eyes widened. "Really?"

She nodded. "But…since it isn't my fault...I guess I'd better not."

"Does that mean…you'd say yes if I asked you to go with me on the next Hogsmeade trip?"

Lily smiled. "I could do that."

"Will you?"

"I will," she said, nodding. "Meet you here at noon next weekend?"

"I'll be there!" he said. "But right now, I have to go."

"More walking?" she asked, still unable to wipe the grin off her face.

He nodded, and she raised her eyebrow as she watched him go.

That was probably the most bizarre bit of flirting ever spawned, she thought, and ran all the way back to Gryffindor Tower with that stupid smile still on her face.

James slumped on the couch right by the fire in Gryffindor Tower, lazily twirling the Golden Snitch he'd nicked from the Quidditch supplies shed in 4th year between his fingers.

Sirius and Adriyana were sitting nearby, building a card tower out of Exploding Snap cards.

"Potter," Frank said, walking up to him from across the common room, "What is it with you and that thing? You don't even play Seeker."

James shrugged. "S'fun, mostly."

"Yeah, he can't show off nearly as well with a Quaffle," Adriyana said. James glared at her, and she ducked back behind the card tower.

"I just like it, is all. It's one of the nest things to do to entertain yourself, second only to the 'Stop Hitting Yourself Hex'."

"The WHAT?" Frank asked. Sirius and Peter smirked. Why did they always ask?

"You asked for it," James said, shrugging again as he pointed his wand at Frank and muttered a spell. Instantly, Frank's hand came up and he slapped himself across the face.

"Stop hitting yourself!" James, Peter, and Sirius chorused, mirth shining in their eyes.

Remus just bit his lip and buried his head deeper into his book.

Several more slaps and "stop hitting yourself"'s later, Frank yelled, "ALL RIGHT! I GET IT!" and stormed away, face red (though only half of it was because of anger).

Remus looked like he was about to inhale his book, he was hidden so far inside it, and Adriyana was about to fall into the tower, because she was laughing so hard.

"Agie!" James turned at the sound of Lily's voice, seeing the redhead running towards him—well, towards Adriyana—grinning like mad.

Lily, flustered, waited for Adriyana to stop laughing, and whispered something in Adriyana's ear. She listened for a minute, then Lily got to a point in the story that made Adriyana's mouth form an "o" shape, and she jumped up and down, clapping her hands.

"Lils, that's GREAT!" James heard Adriyana say. "Now I won't feel as guilty about spending three Hogsmeade trips in a row without you!"

Lily smiled. "I know, plus, I really like him."

Wait. WHAT did she just say? Some guy…had dared to ask Lily out? And more importantly, he possessed what ever it was Lily was looking for in a guy, because she'd said yes.

Frank, who had returned doing his Charms homework at a nearby table, looked up, and all of them started laughing again (except for Lily, who had no idea what was so funny) when they saw the bright red handprint on his face. "So tell me, Lily…who's the lucky guy?" he said, in a scarily accurate interpretation of a gossipy girl.

"Oh….it's Jeremy," Lily said, grinning.

"Yeah, he's pretty cute, plus, he's a Ravenclaw, which automatically makes him smart. And. He's nice, because he hasn't beat up James and Sirius for that thing…yet." Adriyana said, ticking off Jeremy's best qualities on his fingers. "I hereby deem him worthy of a date with Lily!" she said, giving up counting on her fingers and throwing her arms around Lily, who rolled her eyes, but still couldn't stop smiling.

James sat there in disbelief. What he'd done to Jeremy—had actually made Lily more attracted to him? That was awful.

What did Howes have that he didn't?

Um…Lily, James thought. Or that other thing…that boring stuff…maturity.

James sighed sadly. I'll bet she thought what I did to her boyfriend was REAL mature….brilliant job, James. I'll bet you've messed up your chances with Lily forever.

And that part felt worse than Lily going mad over some other guy; because part of him knew it was true.

Wait a second. He'd waited this long, he wasn't going to give up that easily! No!

Maybe he didn't have to take away the thing Jeremy had the attracted Lily to him. Maybe…maybe he just had to get that, too.

He turned to Remus.

"Hey, Moony. Carmichael ditched you for next Hogsmeade weekend, right?"

Remus let out an annoyed sigh.

"Right. Don't worry, mate, I think you're a lot more interesting than Potions Essays…plus, I'm going to need your help."

"Why do I smell another loosely thrown together plan to woo Lily?"

"I'm serious! Peter's got detention, Sirius had plans with Agie, and you and I…are going to—"

"Stalk Howes and Lily?"

"Not 'stalk', exactly…" James sighed. "More like 'watch over', kind of."

A/N—Sorry it's so short! I've got one more important plot point/twist thing still coming up in their 6th year, and then I'm going to do the whole summer in one really long chapter. I think there'll be three before that one.

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