*I do not own Code Geass or any of the characters!!!!
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"I'm not ready for this..." I gazed around the darkness- hearing my own thoughts run wild.
"Of course you aren't."
"Huh?" I looked around seeing no one, not even myself. "I must be going crazy..."
"You're not 'going crazy' per se." the voice chuckled and the empty space around me vibrated at that instant.
"Oh? I'm not going crazy? Could have fooled me...I'm left dying in what appears to be purgatory talking to a voice that doesn't seem to be coming from anywhere...I'm crazy."
"Crazy isn't really the word I would have chosen, maybe something more like- confused, or lost. But either way, Lelouch, It's not your time to be here or anywhere other than alive- so- for now- I must say goodbye."
"Wait! Who ar-" I tried to gasp for air as the blackness faded to the mixture of black and red that was behind my eyes. "Why can't I breathe!? Why can't I breathe!?" I began to panic but soon realized that I was breathing. Before I knew it, I was coughing and choking.
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"He's breathing! We got him back, get me some oxygen."
"He's back!?" I wanted to see him, but I didn't want to prevent people from doing their job of saving him. The minutes had gone bye and we had lost him a total of five and a half minutes. The longest, five and a half minutes of my fucking life.
The bleeding in his chest had slowed, if not stopped- but he had lost a lot of blood which made his skin nearly as white a pillow. Eventually, after they ran a lot of serious tests on Lelouch, they hooked him to an IV and a bag of blood. After a while, I was able to convince the doctors to tell me what was going to happen and if he was alright. The blade that was thrust into his chest missed his heart by a hair but pierced his lung, (hence the reason for him spitting up so much blood). The fact that he was alive was a miracle in itself- but there was no reason to get any hopes up about his recovery process. His body could go into shock, he could reject the blood they were giving him, or- with the amount of time that we'd lost him- he could have brain damage and be knocked into a coma for a few hours, days, weeks, months...or years... But I knew Lelouch, he was a fighter, not so much physically, but mentally. Some internal drive would keep him going- but right now, he wasn't waking up...
I ran my hands through his hair and knelt down next to the bed he was laying on with the many machines he was attached to.
"Lulu..." I whispered and hung my head.
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It'd been three or so days and no one had come to visit Lelouch yet and he was still asleep. Lelouch had begun breathing on his own after two days and no longer required a tube to be down his throat, but they still had him hooked up to a lot of things.
Due to what had happened, I supposed there were meetings going on and security updates back at home. Hopefully. But that didn't stop me from making a phone call to Prince Clovis. His highness was overly excited to hear me call him and rushed right over to visit with me and our Lelouch.
"Suzaku!" Prince Clovis ran into the room and flung his arms around me before turning toward Lelouch.
"Your highness..." I was shocked by his sudden outburst.
"I-is he going to be okay? What do you know? Oh...he looks terrible!" I ran him through everything that I had heard and what had happened. "Oh..." he frowned and looked up at me. "How are you doing...? I'm so very sorry that I couldn't be here sooner! Oh I've had Rolo and Nunnally and so many things to do and I've just been so worried. But please, continue." the look on his face was that of true concern.
"I'm...okay. How are you doing? I'm sorry that you've had so much stress put on you."
"I'm fine, no more stress than usual I suppose except for those two little siblings! What happened to the man that did this?" he gestured toward Lelouch.
"I-I shot him..." I grimaced and looked at Lelouch. "It was worth it...Anything for Lelouch's life, is worth it..."
"Thank you."
"Huh?" I looked up and saw a pleading look on Clovis' face.
"Suzaku...I'm truly grateful to have you around...My baby brother means the world to me and, as you already know, I approve of you one hundred percent. You've got him totally blind to the world and I can see it...The way you handled that, I couldn't have done it any better myself. Again, I must say that I am grateful...Who knows what that man could have further done?"
"You can...tell that he's like that...? T-thank you, your highness..." I bowed at the waist.
"Yes. He's got this cute little dazed look on his face most of the time when you leave the room to do something. He keeps his composure around you so well. I can say that he's not as graceful anymore, tripping all over and stuff when his mind is wandering...Oh but he's so serene when you come back into the room!"
"...Not always." I slyly admitted.
He laughed and smiled at me. "Look...once all of this, drama, is over with...I want you and Lelouch to get some 'alone time'. I know you two have been waiting a long time for that but haven't been able to get there- so that's why I'm going to send you two on sort of... a honeymoon!"
I blushed and looked away. "Honeymoon? J-just the two of us...?"
"That's nice of you, Clovis..." we turned and looked at where the whisper came from. Lelouch had his eyes closed still but was talking quietly to us.
"Lulu?" I stood up and was at his side in a blink. "H-how are you feeling?"
"Like shit..." his voice was weak, but when he took my hand- his grip was weaker. "M-mostly tired..."
"Is there anything I can get you?"
"Water..."
"I'll get the nurse." Clovis stepped out of the room.
Lelouch looked at me and pursed his lips. I smiled and leaned down, kissing him gently. "I'm glad you're alright..."
"I'm glad you found me." his voice broke.
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"They said you can't have water, just ice chips." Clovis thrust a cup at me and smiled. "You okay?"
I nodded and winced at the pain in my chest. "I guess I could use some painkillers..."
"Back to the nurse!"
"Just press the button, stupid."
"But she's hot. It's best if I go to her." he winked and left again.
I sighed and held my small white styrofoam cup of ice. Suzaku took the spoon and lifted a chip of ice up to my mouth and smiled softly. I opened my mouth and sucked on the ice. Suzaku fed me another piece of ice as the nurse walked in with Clovis trailing behind. The nurse was young and blonde with blue eyes and large breasts. She looked oddly familiar but I was too tired to try and place her face and- body.
"Okay Lelouch, how are you feeling? Glad to see that you're awake finally." she smiled and injected some morphine into my IV. It started to hit me quickly.
"Alive..." I closed my eyes, not even acknowledging how she addressed me so nonchalantly.
"Oh~! Well, get some rest Lulu!"
"Uh-huh...see you later, Milly." I blinked one eye open. "Milly? What are you doing working here?" my voice cracked like a teenage boy going through puberty- causing me to clear my throat.
"Oh! I volunteer several days a week." she smiled.
"Hm..."
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Lelouch was trying his hardest to stay awake and that made me smile. "Get some sleep, you can talk with Milly later." I leaned down and kissed him hearing Milly say something along the lines of "Awe how cute!" as she left.
"Hm..." I smiled. Lelouch was truly a fighter. "L-lay-"
"Lay down...?" He didn't respond- instead, he just laid there sound asleep.
"Want me to take off? I'll let you two have some alone time tonight before Nunnally and Rolo barge in here in the morning to see him." Clovis stood up and walked over to where I was standing by Lelouch.
"You don't have to, I don't mind..." secretly in the back of my mind I was screaming for him to leave.
"Ah, no. You want me to leave." he smiled and hopped to the door. "Besides! I'm hungry. Goodnight, Suzaku." he winked and left.
"Goodnight, your hi-"
"Nope~! You call me Clovis now! Or brother."
"Okay. Goodnight, big brother Clovis." I crawled into bed with Lelouch trying to be careful not to hurt him.
Lelouch's chest rose and fell slowly- his breath a little shaky on the way out. I wanted so bad to reach over and touch him, hold him; feel his warmth...But I couldn't. It pained me to lay near him. He'd lost a lot of weight in a week, his body was covered in bruises and there were several tubes in his arms. Still- safe or not- it was my fault that he was like this...If I hadn't left him alone for that short amount of time- if I had told him to come with me- if I was just thinking- he wouldn't have to be in pain, he wouldn't have almost died...Nether the less, it was my fault and I can never make it up to him...How stupid can I get that I would let my prince, my boyfriend be left alone when I was put in charge of protecting him...But I wasn't the only one at fault. How come none of the outdoors guards noticed Lelouch's body being dragged away by some slime-ball? If anyone else was at fault, it was the rest of the people that worked around us. Letting someone take blueprints to the building- blueprints that directed toward the breakers for the lights, toward Lelouch's bedroom. Letting someone get in and carry him off like he was a prize won at a carnival.
I groaned quietly to myself as my thoughts danced around the room, leading me into another direction. What would become of me? I killed the man- would I be in trouble? I'd never killed anyone before. I suppose- worse than the penalty for killing someone- I would have to deal with Prince Schneizel. By this point it was clear that Clovis liked me, but I wasn't too sure about Schneizel. Whether Lelouch was safe or not, I had lost him. The last thing I wanted was for Schneizel to separate us, again.
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I gasped in my sleep and woke up in major pain. The wound on my chest was burning gravely and until I opened my eyes, I didn't know that the doctor was cleaning it. I hissed in pain and dug my nails into the bed.
"I'm sorry, did I wake you? I tried to be careful." the doctor was an older Japanese man. He was balding and wore rectangular shaped glasses. I glanced over his shoulder seeing Clovis smiling.
"N-no it's fine. You have to do your job."
"You seem to be feeling much better, is sleep all you needed?" he smiled and removed an IV from my arm.
"I guess." I cleared my throat. "I'm hungry, is it alright for me to eat now?"
"Yes, I'll have the nurse bring you in some breakfast."
I nodded and heard a sound that sounded a bit like a snort. I turned to find Suzaku laying next to me, fast asleep. The bags under his eyes were terrible. I felt bad that I'd put him through so much over the past- how long had I been there? How long was I locked up?
"Clovis...how long have I been away from him?"
"You were held by that man for about four days or so, and then you were asleep for three days."
"Oh..." I frowned and placed my hand on Suzakus head. "Did you mean what you said?"
"About...?"
"How you approve of Suzaku...I know Schneizel doesn't, but I told him what I think about that..."
"I did mean it." he pulled a chair close to me. "You're my baby brother and I want you to be happy."
"You know...I've never been to fond of you. Mostly the way you act...But you are my brother and I think I'm slowly learning to stop being such a brat and accept that you're family and, somehow, related." I reached my arms out, giving into what he wanted.
"Really Lelouch?!" he gasped and hugged me. "Oh! You never hug me!" he giggled. "Would it be too much if I kissed your cheek?"
"Yes." I playfully shoved him away as a new nurse came into the room with a tray that held two things of covered food. I opened the large container and saw a small mound of scrambled eggs, rice and ham. In the smaller container was cornflakes cereal that Clovis snatched up right away. I started eating my eggs and rice, saving my ham for last.
"You're no fun, Lulu. You let Suzaku kiss you all over but not your own brother? And even after I was worried sick about you!"
"Worried sick about me..." I looked down then back up at him. "Okay..." Clovis was the only one that came to see me since I'd woken up, I wasn't sure who had come to see me before hand- if anyone.
"Awe!" he leaned over, kissing my cheek. "Now there's the sweet little brother that I love."
I shoved my food away and laid down. I was tired again and didn't feel like eating anymore.
"Are you okay?" he pouted.
"Yeah..."
"Lelouch?" Suzaku sat up and rubbed his eyes. "How are you feeling?"
"Okay..." I bit my lip. I knew I had a softer side, I never liked to show it though. Suzaku had obviously seen that side more than once and Clovis knew it was there now more than before, so why not give in for a day to the people that I loved?
I pushed Suzaku down and laid my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes.
"Brother!" Rolo gasped as he stood in the doorway with Nunnally.
"Do I look that bad?" I frowned, looking toward the door at my brothers shocked expression.
"S-sort of...I'm sorry. That was rude." he blushed.
I laughed slightly, "No, it's fine Rolo. Hi Nunnally."
"Are you feeling well big brother? We can come back when you are better and not so sleepy."
"Never been better Nunnally, I just woke up, so it's fine. Have you two been behaving for Clovis?"
"Yes, brother. But most of the time we were with Euphie and Cornelia. Clovis wouldn't stop blubbering." Rolo smiled.
"You two were blubbering too!" Clovis stuck his tongue out.
"Yes but you're older and should be more self-collected than us younger siblings who are obviously going to be distraught over the loss of our brother." Rolo stuck his tongue out back at Clovis.
"Well...It's a little obvious that he's definitely your brother, Lelouch." Clovis smiled.
"Who knows, but what I do know is that I'm ready to just go home or something...I'm sick of sitting around here, I think I could get a better nights sleep in my own bed." I turned to Suzaku and smiled. "Could you take me home?"
"Yes, your highness. That is, if it's alright with the doctor."
"Screw the doctor." I stood up and winced. "Ah...but, have him fill out a prescription for me?"
"Of course." Suzaku stood and walked from the room, bowing to Nunnally and Rolo with a smile.
"You want to go home so soon? You just woke up yesterday, that's not so long of sitting here for recovery." Clovis stood beside Nunnally and Rolo, placing his hands on their shoulders.
"Yes, well, it smells bad here." Nunnally and Rolo giggled. "I suppose I'll see you three at home then?"
"Yes brother." Nunnally and Rolo said in sync and waved bye.
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I walked until I found a nurse speaking to the doctor that had taken care of Lelouch for the past few days. "Excuse me." I looked at him. "His highness wishes to go home and also to have a prescription written for some pain medication."
"Yes, of course. Does he have someone to care for him at home?"
"I would care for him and if I am unable to, he has a family doctor that can come and make sure he's doing fine. We also have a woman who cares for his younger siblings who is a registered nurse."
"Alright then, I'll leave him in your care." The doctor smiled at me, writing up a prescription and sending a nurse to have Clovis sign release papers, considering Lelouch was still a minor.
I wheeled Lelouch out of the hospital and we were soon on our way home.
I walked him to his bedroom and began to open the door but was stopped by him. "I-I don't want to sleep in there today, Suzaku..." he looked to the floor and held onto my hand gently as I supported most of his weight.
I was puzzled for a moment but then the realization hit me- he was recalling events from the night he was taken that lead up to his near death experience. I nodded once and walked him into my room, placing him onto my bed.
Once Lelouch was settled into bed with a cup of tea, he grabbed my arm and smiled. "Thank you."
"For what?"
"Everything."
I nodded and looked to the floor, waiting for a dismissal. But before long a question popped into my mind relating to something Lelouch had said a long time ago. "Lulu?"
"Hm?"
"You said something...a while ago...something, something mon coeur...?"
"Oh," he thought for a second, "toujours dans mon coeur."
"Yeah that, what does it mean?"
"You're always in my heart...But now I suppose I would say something more on the lines of, je veux passer la reste de ma vie avec vous." Lelouch smiled and took my hand in his, linking our fingers together.
"And that means...?"
"I want to spend the rest of my life with you..."
I smiled and kissed him gently. "I want to spend the rest of my life with you as well..." I sat down and caressed his hair. "Tell me when you're better so I can have your brother rent us a room...I want it to be romantic for us."
"How about we have dinner and make out and then-"
"Brother!" there was a knock on the door that caused me to jump. Clovis noisily entered the room without an "O.K." from neither me nor Lelouch. "Ah! Suzaku!" Clovis smiled and pranced over with a new cup of tea, taking the old one from his younger brother. "You weren't in your room so I assumed you'd be here."
"Thank you." Lelouch mumbled and took the teacup. "Is this all you wanted?" Lelouch looked at his brother with that cold, emotionless face of his.
"Mm, I guess...Just wanted to see how you two were doing." he winked and glided back to the door. "Just tell me when you're ready for that and I'll get you the best place I can find~!" Clovis nearly sang as he left with a wave.
Lelouch sighed and looked at me with a frustrated stare.
"I'm sorry." I apologized and looked down.
"Sorry? Why are you saying sorry? You apologize too much. Cut it out, it pisses me off." he frowned and sipped his tea.
"I'm-"
"-Don't you dare say it."
I bit my lip and felt the heat rise to my cheeks, forming a blush. He huffed a sigh and leaned over me to set the tea down on the nightstand. His fingers moved gracefully from where he had placed the tea to my lap. Everything he had done was obviously carefully planned out in his head.
"You should get some sleep, my love." his voice was gentle and soothing.
"I slept enough today. I seem to be fine and awake enough to keep you company until you're tired again."
"I don't suppose I'll be tired anytime soon, this tea isn't decaf." Lelouch smiled softly and kissed my cheek. "Hm..." his hands moved to his stomach and he looked down.
"Are you hungry?"
"Yes, I guess I am." Lelouch's stomach suddenly made a gurgle noise. "Oh!" he blushed.
"That's so...cute..." I laughed and stood up. "I'll find you something to eat. Is there anything you prefer?"
"I'll have anything."
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Suzaku left the room smiling and returned five minutes later with a turkey sandwich.
"Looks good, did you make it?"
"Yes, thank you." he sat down and handed it to me.
"Would you like half?"
"No thank you, eat up."
"Have some." I frowned and thrust half of the sandwich at him.
He sighed, took a bite and pulled away with a large leaf of lettuce hanging from his mouth and I couldn't help but laugh.
"There, now I'm happy." I smiled and finished my sandwich. "Maybe you and I could runaway together sometime."
"Really? That would be quite fun."
"Yeah, but I can't leave Nunnally and Rolo behind...But it sure as hell wouldn't be running away if they came with us...so...not really an option." my smile faded and I laid my head in his lap and mumbled.
"I'm sorry. Maybe you and I could just live here, it's like having our own house...with the exception of your brother barging in whenever he wants to. I guess that's what family is for. Right?" Suzaku toyed with my hair and trailed his fingers down my side, resting his hand on my hip.
"My chest hurts..." I whispered and closed my eyes.
"Mm...you would like some pain medication?" he reached next to him and handed me an oval shaped white pill. "You only have three more so use them sparingly until your prescription is filled."
"Uh huh." I payed no mind to him as I popped the pill into my mouth with a sip of tea.
The rest of the day dragged on with random visits from various siblings and workers. It's funny that the simple action of sitting and listening to people ask you the same questions over and over could wear you our more than running a marathon. Well, that is, any normal person. That aside, I was glad to have some alone time with Suzaku, at around ten that night...The warmth of his body pressed tightly against mine as we slept, kept me totally content in my dreams of a knight in shining white spandex, saving a beautiful dark haired princess from her captor that held her chained in a dungeon...
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Sorrrryyyyy it took so lonnngggg D:
It's your own decision who Lelouch was talking to in purgatory. I won't debate with it. Maybe it was a "higher power", maybe it was God, maybe it was himself, maybe he WAS going crazy...your decision. But if you come up with anything that's uber creative I'd love to hear it! Haha!
Again, not the end! The next chapter might be the end though... I've already started a new story and it's just gonna be kinda short and stuff..Figured I'd wait for that one rather than upload two at once... REVIEWS PLEASE!!!! :D
Ah! one last thing: I've had several requests to write a Mpreg...Who thinks that I should? I'm not really for that, but if it's going to keep everyone coming back..... hmmm....