disclaimer I do not own anything but the plot

"Riley after I rejected you once woulden't you take it as a hint ?" I said coldly .

Riley shot up , I could see the anger in his face , "Peter you were the one who made a move on me"

"I was drunk! you should of stopped me"

you keep leading me on in the car you freaked out when you touched me , so sorry to tell u it seems that you don't know what u want and im getting sick of it"

"I don't like"

"shut up Peter" he interrupted , he grabbed his cloths and went into the bathroom when he got into the bathroom i went into my room , I opened my dresser carelessly and took out some random cloths out got dressed . Slamming my dresser shut I fell onto my bed , a few moments later I heard Riley come out of the bathroom , he was stomping his feet around , I heard the door slam . Good i wanted him to leave . My mind was overflowing with thoughts about riley . why did he sleep with me? why did i seem to like to wake up next to him? why , why , why ?! that's all i could think about . why do I hate him and want him and want him all at the same time? "maybe its anger..." I thought to my self . I was so confused about what happened last night . what happened in the car? I just lay there confused , angered , nervous and I had butterflies . I wanted to know how he felt really bad but I couldent have everything I wanted could I . If I dident want to get a big long talk I better clean up . I went down stairs it wasent that bad . I took the liquor bottle and threw it in the dumpster out back of my loft . I spent a little while cleaning up , then i looked at the couch . scared i went over to it and sat down why dident i talk about it with riley ... Im such a jerk! I was beating myself up but the thing is i felt i deserved it .

......................................................................FLASH BACK..............................................................................

Hey little girl lost shouldent u be getting home now

"Im not lost" manney giggeled she dragged me up to the bathroom " have you ever known a girl that had a boob job or is gunna get one" she said sounding like a five year old

"I hope you dont mean you" i said

"see thats what i said i said my boobes were fine but the docter said no"

"well maybe you need a different opinion"

" maybe we need to make a little movie because camras never lie"

"your right manny camras never do lie"

Why dident i beat myself up for that i deserved it I was such a jerk I jumped up and ran up to my bed and shoved my face into the pillow . Why am i so stupid?

I almost wrote a message to riley saying sorry but i saved it to my drafts im so stupid I thought to myself riley dident want to talk to me I layed on my bed until I fell into a deep sleep . I was dreaming of Riley chasing me telling me I wrecked our friendship "ahhh" I jumped my heart beating fast this is going to haunt me i need to talk to him to try and make it right.

At lunch Riley wasent evan looking at me , but he had a look of embarresment on his face

"dude im really sorry" I walked over and told him sincerly

" just go your dead to me " he dident evan look at me when he spoke

"Rie can we just talk please" I begged

"NO" he got up and left I followed

"Rie wait please"

"Peter leave me alone" he grabbed me by my shirt and threw me against the wall I looked in his eyes and saw the anger he truely hated me and it was all my fault