Racing through the halls Micah tried his best to keep up with his sister, but at the moment was failing miserably. "She's...a...fast...walker." he panted out trying to catch his breath as well as his twin. "Oh...man...I'm gonna pass out." Leaning against a wall he took deep breath trying his best not to fall on his face. Once again failing he hit the floor in a uneasy 'thump.' "Ugh! Just leave me hear to die!" he wallowed in his own self pity as he rolled around the floor. Standing he started off again, this time he was walking and not going anywhere fast, "Kami! Kami wait for me!" he yelled after her hoping she would listen.

On the contrary Kami didn't even hear her winded follower, she was already far ahead of him. Not one to rush she set her pace at a fast agitated walk, making sure to keep her footsteps silent. Rounding another corner she growled in annoyance to find she had gone in a complete circle. Turning again she stopped at the end of the hall and smiled to herself, stepping forward she moved to look out the enormous window in front of her. There was a casino in the distance showing off all the bright neon lights, undoubtedly advertising for beer, money, and girls. Shifting her gaze she spotted a cross high up on a far off hill, there were spotlights illuminating the fine craftsmanship. Her gaze began to seem further and further away as she moved to a spot inside her own mind, losing herself deep within thoughts.

'I guess I should really apologize to Rei again. I didn't mean to yell at him, I just hate when people pry. It's as if they're trying to force their way into my life. But I know his intentions were good, and his heart was in the right place. Actually I should be thanking him, for his help all those years ago.'

/Flashback/

"Why? Why did Kai have to take Black Dranzer back?" sighing Kami slammed her fist against a nearby wall. "Mother help me." she spoke aloud to the spirits, although in the back of her mind she knew they wouldn't reply, they never did. Shutting down she crawled back inside her head to think, 'All those years ago, you told me to do my best. You told me to go out in the world and make something of myself. You made me promise to always stay true and do what was right. You made me vow that I would use Macoah, my gift from you, to show the world that people like us can do good things. That even though we may have a dark nature we could still be kind and gentle, that we could still be true and just. I'm breaking my vow to you, everyday that I go along with this charade it's as if I'm stomping on your grave. But what about my other promise? I am bound to it as well. I made a promise the night of your death that whoever loved me first, could have me. And Kai, Kai was first to love me. First to care. My own grandparents hate me and yet he accepted me. How? How can I follow Kai yet keep my vow to you? I can't. Not like this. He wants me to use Macoah to steal other sacred spirits, steal bit beasts to fuel an evil that I helped to create. Using a fraction of Macoah's power of the darkness mixed in with raw power Black Dranzer was created. And now Kai is using him for evil, the same evil I vowed to never take part in. Why can't Kai see? He is breaking me. Tearing me apart.' Opening her eyes Kami looked down to see her hands shaking uncontrollably. She tried her best to calm herself but nothing helped. "Somebody, please. Help me."

"I'll help you." like an angel of light the voice surrounded the panther causing her to turn.

"What?"

"I said I'll help you." the voice floated gently across the air, followed by the sounds of footsteps. "If you let me."

Kami stared at the figure, her eyes trying to pick out who it could be, who would care? Then he appeared, taking a step closer he left himself vulnerable.

He came to her when she needed a miracle, he entered her darkness.

/End Flashback/

Letting her head fall into her hands Kami opened her eyes, looking around she found herself to be back in the hotel. When she felt alone, felt hurt or scared. She would leave the world and go into her own, a place where she didn't have to think, didn't have to feel, didn't have to fight or hurt anymore. She was free. Even if it were only for a second she was free of the bonds that held her, and for that she was grateful. Sighing she pushed herself from the wall she had been leaning on for support and started back down the empty halls. She didn't know how long she had been away this time, it could've been minutes it could've been hours. But right now she didn't care, she just wanted to be alone. She wanted to be free again, she didn't want to deal with Micah, or Tala, or even Kai.

Stepping into the elevator the only thing running through her mind was, 'You don't always get what you want.' She leaned against the wall and waited for the voice she knew was coming, the one she was dreading at the moment. When it didn't come she decided to break the thin ice and start first, "You always did know how to find me. Even when I didn't want to be found."

"Yeah well I guess I have a knack for strays." the usually cheerful voice was cluttered with mixed emotions. "Kami I-" faltering the boy seemed to be searching for the right words for such a tense moment. "I didn't want to upset you. I just wanted to see you again, just wanted to be with you. Your my sister and I love you."

"Micah." she breathed out the word closing her violet eyes, "I wish I could reply in the way you want me to. But I can't, not now anyway. Maybe someday I will heal, maybe someday I'll be able to tell you I love you back. But today isn't that day, and I don't know if that day will ever come. I'm sorry but things have changed, I've changed. I'm not the same little girl I was all those years ago."

"But Kami why can't you be? Why can't you love me too? Why? Just tell me why we can't pick things up where we left off?" his voice was filled with a desperate hope. Hope for a second chance, hope for love.

"It's just the way things are. Some people aren't meant to be happy." Violet eyes flicked open, void of any emotion. Those that were once bright and full of light were now dull and diminished.

"But you are! You're meant to be happy, just like me. And just like dad!" his voice was filled with concern as he watched his sister struggle with life itself.

"Don't you dare bring him into this Micah. You know I don't want to hear of him." her eyes turned deadly and her tone was stern, red lips pursing into a straight taught line.

"Why? He loves you Kami! And so do I, we just want you to come home and be happy." the male practically begged his sister his pleading eyes matching his voice.

"Home?" was the only solemn reply submitted from the dark damsel.

"Yes. With me, and with dad! We're your family."

"No Micah." she remained calm, "My family died a long long time ago. As did my love for either of you."

(a/n I'm trying to cut back on drama but I label this as the breaking point...so leave me be. :P)

Blue eyes flared with anger, "You stubborn girl!" he yelled reaching over and slamming the 'stop' button on the elevator keypad. The carrier was now immobile leaving the two stranded until somebody selected another destination. Moving forward Micah grabbed his fragile doll of a sister and slammed her against the wall. "That was a long time ago, let it be and leave it in the past! I mean really Kami they're gone, just let it g-"

"You weren't there!" The female exploded in anger, all her feelings festered up and finally she popped. Turning she flipped the situation and slammed her brother painfully against the wall. "You weren't there when a two year old lay dieing alone in a hospital bed! You weren't there when depression over took a mourning mother and she gave in! You weren't there, and he sure as hell wasn't there! But you know what? I was there! I was stuck there. I still am." sinking to the floor she fell to her knees fighting to hold back tears. Crawling backwards she pushed herself against the opposite wall and let her head fall to her hands. Her eyes were filled to the brim but she wouldn't give in, she wouldn't cry in front of him. Letting out a heavy sigh she shook her head in dismay. "I'm so lost Micah."

Micah stood with his mouth open, his body was shaken and he was in a state of utter amazement. The first feeling he felt was pain, but it wasn't physical, it was his heart. It ached with pain for his sister, she was right. They had left her alone and now she was ruined. All those years while he was living life to the fullest she was stuck in a sea of pain and misery, she was drowning. "Kamia I-"

"Just push the button. I don't need pity Micah, and I don't need help." standing she took the task upon herself and slammed the nearest button.

Micah backed himself against the wall. For the first time in his life he didn't know what to say, he was at a loss for words. Like a toaster the much needed words popped into his head and without thinking he sputtered them out. "They were my family too. I lost a brother and a mother also."

Kami seemed taken off guard, looking up she couldn't help but stare at him incredulously. "You know what, you're right. How selfish of me to keep them all to myself." She laughed a foreign laugh. "They were ours to share right? Well since we're in this whole "sharing" mood how about you take my life." using air quotes on the word sharing her brother watched skeptically as her eyes turned dark with irritation. "Because I sure as hell don't fucking want it." She snapped.

"Kami it's not like I had a choice! I was four years old for Christ's sake, and dad needed me!"

"I was four too Micah." Standing up she stepped away from him acting as if he had a deadly virus. "No. Mom needed you. Jerrod needed you. An-and I needed you. But you were to busy being selfish." As if on queue the moment the words left her lips the elevator let out an obnoxious 'ding' and the doors slowly slid open. Spinning around Kami cringed to find the rest of her team standing there staring back at her, "Oh that is just how my life goes." she grumbled pushing her way past the Russians not even giving them a second glance. Storming away she instantly froze at the sound of her full name her whole body clenching.

"KAMIA SYRIA KOTAI!" the voice sounded cold and out of place.

Spinning around she glared darkly at her slightly older brother, he hastily returned the look. "This conversation isn't over yet!" he hissed furiously.

Grinding her teeth together she didn't care to register the looks coming from behind her fuming brother, "Yes. It is. I do what I want, when I want. And I'll be damned if some spoiled brat with a temper is going to tell me otherwise." she used the darkest tone she could muster, even to hear her own voice it seemed out of place. Turning away again she got but two steps before the voice started up again.

"KAMIA!"

"Ya know what. What don't you just leave? It's what you're good at isn't it?" the tone she choose this time was like ice, cutting a deep wound in the other. This time when she turned away she didn't stop at the voice, she just kept walking. Leaving it all behind.

"FINE! BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT? I'LL SEE YOU AT THE TOURNMENT TOMORROW! AND WHEN I FIGHT YOU I'LL SHOW YOU! I'LL SHOW YOU THAT I'M JUST AS GOOD AS YOU!!" the owner of the voice glared at the retreating back of his loved one, his breath harsh and erratic from all the fighting. His mouth was open and he was letting air flow in and out making a loud panting noise. Turning he found the group of Russians still standing behind him, curious eyes penetrating his existence.

Laughing nervously he smiled. A big cheesy forced grin. "I'm guessing I have some explaining to do…."

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Kami slammed the door to the hotel entrance open, stomping down the steps she could only play her brother's last words repeatedly through her darkened mind. "We'll see Micah."

'We'll see.'

A/N

Yay a new update for you! I'll be honest I didn't think this chapter would come out like this, in fact I didn't plan on this chapter at all! But since I can't sleep in my room thanks to my stupid aunt who overtakes everything! -swears- I'm sleeping in the livingroom and my brother's computer is out here. So I started this chapter and it was going really well and I was using different words for once so I just couldn't stop till I got it done because I didn't want to loose my groove! Hope you liked it even though it was so dramatic and there weren't really any scenes with Kai or Tala. Or Spencer or Bryan. (I wasn't going to say their names right there but they'd feel so left out so I couldn't help myself!)

Either next chapter or the one after I'm going to have a face off in the pre-tournament between Kami and Micah. Ying and Yang! But anyway this chair is so uncomfortable because it's my mum rocking chair. So my ass is sore and my neck and back still hurt from the couch last night. Besides that my older brother is gonna get up soon to leave and don't want him to find me on here and then want to read it or whatever. It's 2:41 a.m. and he is leaving at 3:00 don't ask me why cause I don't know. But usually he works at like 9:00 to 2:00 a.m. unloading trucks at Lowes and stocking shelves. (In the lighting department.) He used to be in lumber but when he got his friend Ben a job they gave Ben the lumber job and moved him to lights...bummer. Although I don't know why cause Ben is literally like 5'1" or less than that and he's 21. Ya know I've never typed bummer before so it's really weird that I did, I mean of all the words why would I pick that one? Well like I said I was in a 'using new words' groove so I guess I'm still there.

Sorry for all that blabbing, it's probably cause I'm so tired. Ya know like when you start saying random stuff, I guess you also do that when typing. But I really should just quit if I'm so tired so I can sleep. Whoa it's now 2:46 meaning I blabbed for like 5 minutes...I must be a really slow typer. But it's probably because I have this habit of when I misspell something I erase the entire word just to change one letter, I could just click on the spot but noooo, I have to do things the hard way. Anyway I'm gonna leave now before I think up something else to type. It seems that every word just brings up something new I could say, and most of the time I do! (Like I just did!) Anyway catcha' later!!

This is Tawnie trying to keep her eyes open. -holds eyelids up-

p.s. I didn't do my usual face that I usually do at least once so I had to. . (see I'm blabbing again! Damn it all!)

p.p.s. I just checked and this authors note is like half a page! Well it's more like three quarters but whatever. Oh and I always wondered if it was 'p.p.s.' or if it was 'p.s.s.' Well I'm pretty sure I've done it both ways before but right now all I can remember is on Family Guy when Stewie goes to London and leaves Brian a letter and you can hear Stewie's voice reading it. (you know how they do that in movie's and stuff) And it says 'p.p.s.' so that's what I'm gonna use. Ya know if you read this whole thing I definitely congratulate you! Just tell me if you did or not k? And I'll really know cause if you did you'll of known to do that cause that means you read this telling you to do so. Okay I'm gone.