Note: Hi, sorry for the delay. I'm just so busy with school -again- and I have such little time to write. Finally finished this chapter though. Please enjoy! xx.

8.

Catherine left Gil's house that afternoon about an hour before her shift would start. She drove home so she could take a shower and change into another pair of clothes. Her mind was constantly drifting off to Gil and Tony. She knew she loved Gil. The things that had happened that morning made it very clear to her that living without Gil was something she couldn't possibly do any longer than she already had. But hurting Tony would be so hard. She knew she would hurt him eventually. She sighed when she got out of her SUV and in to her house. Telling Tony about everything would be terrible.

Meanwhile, Gil was still laying in bed. He could still smell Catherine's scent. Gil moved himself so his head rested on the pillow Catherine had been laying not too long ago. He knew Sara would probably be at his place in an hour. He also knew that he had a lot of explaining to do, and, most of all, he knew that he was going to hurt her more than anyone could ever could hurt her. But telling Sara about his true feelings would be best for both of them. Gil was sure about that.

When Sara stepped into Gil's townhouse that evening, she found the man she loved laying on the couch with his eyes closed, and the soft tunes of classic music filled the living room. She looked at him for a couple of seconds; he looked so cute. Gil suddenly opened his eyes, and seemed a little disorientated until he saw her standing a couple of feet away from him.

"Hey. I didn't hear you come in." Gil sat up straight immediately and turned the music down.

Sara smiled and dropped her purse on a chair near the dining table before walking to the couch. She sat down next to Grissom and said: "I bet you didn't. You looked kinda cute, you know?" She lend in to kiss Gil's lips, and she was surprised when Gil put his hand on her shoulder and said: "We.. Well," he cleared his troth before finally continuing, "I… I think we need to talk."

Sara looked surprised when she answered: "About what?"

Gil shrugged and said: "Well, I guess I need to talk to you."

Sara noticed the determination and somewhat guilty look that was on Gil's face when he looked into her eyes, and she suddenly started to get the feeling that something was wrong. Very wrong.

"Sara, I.. I just want you to know that this has nothing to do with you… It's all my fault, and I know I'm probably going to hurt you, but continuing living the way we are right now isn't an option for me. And it's not fair to you."

Sara's eyes turned a little darker than usual when she firmly said: "Gil, what on earth are you talking about?"

Gil was almost afraid to look into her eyes when he said: "I'm sorry, Sara. But I…. Don't think that I don't love you, because I do. I just.. I know I can never give you all the love you deserve. I can't give you all that love, because… There's someone else, Sara. I guess there's always been someone else. I was always too afraid to admit that though. But I can't continue to pretend that she's not around."

Gil stopped talking and looked at Sara, who was gapping at him as if he was talking Chinese. She then suddenly closed her mouth again, and Gil was almost thinking that she wasn't going to say a thing. But then she started talking. "I'm not sure that I understand what you are saying." She laughed ironically before she continued. "Because I have this strange idea that you're telling me that you want to break up with me.

Sara looked at Gil as if he was making a joke, but all he could do was shrug and he said: "I'm sorry, Sara. I really am."

Sara got up from the couch and walked to the chair where her bag was. She couldn't believe with Gil had told her. He loved someone else? Who could he possibly love more than her? He hadn't been seeing any other woman than her for an extremely long time now. She was already reaching for the doorknob to leave the townhouse when Sara realised something. She turned around again and marched back into the living room, where Gil was sitting, his eyes closed and his fingers rubbing his temples. "It's Catherine, isn't it?"

Gil opened his eyes again and looked straight into Sara's dark, angry eyes. "Excuse me?"

Sara almost stamped with her feet as a six-year old that wasn't allowed any candy when she almost yelled: "I said, it's Catherine, isn't it? You love Catherine, don't you?"

Gil gave her a sad smile and said: "Does it really matter who it is, Sara?"

"God, you're such a man, Gil!" Sara threw her hands in the air while she said that, and then continued. "What makes her so much better than me? Seriously, what is it? Because I certainly don't get why you're able to love an ex-stripper. Besides, she's taken!" Sara was yelling when she reached the end of her sentence.

"Sara, that's enough! Please, just go." Gil got up from the couch as well. He felt migraine coming up. He wanted to walk to the kitchen and grab his medication, but Sara blocked his way. Tears were forming in her eyes.

"Gil, please. I love you. Don't do this. Please."

Gil looked into the eyes of the brunette as he said: "I'm sorry. You should go, Sara. If there are any of your things laying here I'll put them in a box and bring them over tomorrow."

Those were the last words Gil said to Sara before going to the kitchen and grabbing his pills. He then walked out of the living room and headed for his bedroom. A stunned Sara looked after him, with tears silently falling from her face.

*

That night, Catherine was halfway through her shift when she heard her cell phone beep. Her night had been pretty hectic; every single person on the grave shift had his or her own case; it seemed as if dead had washed over Las Vegas that evening. Despite being busy, she was too curious to not look at her cell phone. She opened the message, and saw it was from Gil. I told her. Can you meet me after your shift? I love you. x.

Note: And now what.. Is she going to see Gil? Or is she going to be a smart woman and be on her own for a little while? I'll tell you all a little secret... I'm still not sure ;-).
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