Time After Time.
A Harry Potter based fanfic by MCGEEandME.
Disclaimer: I don't own Severus Snape, or Lily Potter or James or Harry. But I do own Rose Griphons, but of course you do not know her yet. And I own these events (well, most), and the actions these wonderful characters perform.
Severus awoke that morning, groggier than ever. And then the memories came flooding back in of the night before and how he betrayed Lily once again.
"I was. I would have done. I never meant to call you a Mudblood, it just—"
"Slipped out?" There was no pity in Lily's voice. "It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends—you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you?"
He opened his mouth, but closed it without speaking.
"I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine."
And Severus awoke again; he had drifted off yet another time, this time lasting for most of the day….
-x-
He found himself standing on the bridge in London. He couldn't remember the name of it, but he wouldn't care. No longer would he care about these things. He was a goner. He hated this life just as much as he hated his last. It was to be over soon enough. He couldn't handle this anymore….
"I wish I were dead…"
"Sev, I know you'll find what you're looking for…."
"It's always taken you a bit to find the right path, but once you find it, you stick to it…."
"Hey, look! The Mudblood Evans is in Hogsmeade with Potter. Mudbloods and Bloodtraitors were always great pairs…" snorted Avery.
His mind flashed back and forth with those thoughts, repeating themselves over and over…. "Wish I were dead…what you're looking for…right path, stick to it….Mudbloods, Bloodtraitors…."
And then he knew what he wanted to do.
-x-
Severus had never used a telephone before, but he had once heard one of the Weasly children referring to it, their father always had an interest in the odd objects.
And then there it was, her number…Rose's number was sitting on a card in his room, next to the phone. Instantly, italicized words began to appear under the number…. 'Type them onto the phone…' It seemed easy enough.
And soon, Severus' heart was pounding faster and faster, beating hard, reaching out for something that he didn't even know would be there….
"Hello?" The sound of her voice sounded so peaceful, but it made his heart pace faster. He could hear her beautiful voice echoing in his head….
"I'd like to take that offer now," he responded shyly, clinging to his chest. He was taking a leap, but this time, he would not fall….
-x-
"Hi, I was just baking," she said as he walked over the threshold and into her beautifully decorated room. He could smell a delicious smell drifting in from the kitchen.
"First time using the phone?" she asked.
"Yes." They were just pleasantly chatting, but he loved it. Every word that came out of her mouth was a blissful miracle….
A ding went off and Rose shuffled to the kitchen. "Brownies are done!"
She brought over a tray and Severus took a brownie. The flavor filled his mouth. It was delicious, fudgy, creamy, and soft.
"Do you—do you want to be a chef?" He couldn't help himself, these were exquisite.
"No, I mean, I love to bake, but, well, I'm more interested in…don't laugh…" He nodded quickly to show he wouldn't do such a thing. "I—I wanted to be a journalist. For the prophet or something. Nothing horrid like Skeeter, but…well, I actually wanted to create my own paper one day…"
"You wanted?"
"Yea, well, I wasn't offered a job there…so, that's why I'm in between business's now…." She looked down at her feet to avoid his eyes. Severus was sure she was an amazing writer, he didn't know why, he could just feel it….
"So, tell me about yourself."
"What do you want to know?"
"Everything."
He hesitated. He would not tell her everything, not yet. But, nonetheless, he began talking. She looked in his eyes with every word he said, but he looked down at the floor. He started with his abusive father and went on to talk about the first time he saw Lily Evans on the playground with her sister. She was a princess, so beautiful… He recalled every incident they had together in the early years. The days the spent in the woods down by the creek, the first time he visited her house, the day they got their letters, the many times he hurt Petunia and Lily claimed she wouldn't talk to him again, the train ride to Hogwarts, the sorting, Lucious Malfoy and Avery and Mulciber, the day they ran in the rain, and how Lily's friends gave him a hard time. But then he got to James Potter, and he stopped.
Severus had been walking in the halls. It was his sixth year and he was coming back from the Halloween feast. He thought he had seen someone and heard someone behind him, but he shook it off. He watched his dirty shoes walk along the corridor, dragging him along inside. But then he felt something hard against his back, and he turned around—
"Hey, Snivelly." It was James. He had grabbed the shirt on his shoulders and shoved him against the wall, looking deep into his eyes, with that fierce stare piercing threw him. "Don't have Lily Evans here now, do you? Stopped talking last year, I noticed. It may concern you, it may not, but I've taken a lot of interest in Lily over the last few months. Do you want to know where she is now? She's back in the common room, waiting for me." He grabbed hold of Severus' shirt tighter and shoved him against the wall harder. "Incase you didn't know, me and her, we're a pair now. We've been together for a bit. She finally got some sense knocked into her and let you to yourself. She was just ever trying to be nice to you. But then she realized no one could make you change."
Severus struggled for his wand but James didn't loosen his grip, not yet. Finally, Severus found his voice. "Well, if she's waiting for you, you better go to her, then."
"Oh, it's fine, I'll just say I ran into you I the corridor and you reached for your wand. It's not a lie."
"Gert offer me!!!" bellowed Severus. Finally, he shoved James off of him and took out his wand, but James potter was quicker. But before they knew it, people had arrived: Lily was first, tears streaming down her face. "James!" she screeched. And then Mulciber and Avery were there, and Sirius was in back of James, and Lupin was in back of Sirius. Hexes shot everywhere.
Mulciber was first. He shot a hex directly at James, sending him backwards, hitting the wall hard. Lily ran over to James, still crying hard, but James shove her off and got up on his own. Avery then shoved Lily to the ground. But Severus just watched, terrified that his Slytherin friend was brutally hurting the one he loved so dearly. More hexes flew threw the air, but James dodged them and went for Severus.
Severus stuck his wand out and James took his out as well. Both their eyes narrowed. Suddenly, Lupin came up behind James and pulled him back, trying to calm him down. And Sirius was behind him as well, muttering something along the lines of, "He's not worth it."
And Sirius and Lupin stalked off with James, his arm around Lily, who was still very teary.
Then Severus saw Avery and Mulciber behind him.
"Hey, Bloodtraitor Potter! Why don't you go snog your Mudblood girlfriend!" screeched Mulciber. Avery let out a harsh laugh but Severus just stood there, anger and hatred boiling in his stomach towards James. But, oddly enough, not towards Avery or Mulciber, although they did their share of hurting Lily.
"When the Dark Lord instates us, Potter and his buddies will be the first we kill," snarled Avery.
And Severus couldn't help but to let out a screeching laugh. What was wrong with him?
"And we'll through in the Mudblood girl as well," hollered Mulciber.
"I can't tell you any more," said Severus shyly. He could feel his eyes begin to water up.
Rose took hi hand. "You can trust me."
He stood up, and Rose did as well. He thought she was going to ask him to leave, but instead she leaned in, her lips asking for a kiss.
"I'm sorry," Severus blurted out, and he grabbed his jacket and walked out the door, slamming it behind him and leaving Rose to her thoughts.
-x-
He walked down the avenue alone, glaring up at the night sky. He was depressed and outraged at the same time. He was furious with himself. And for the millionth time, that thought swept back into his mind. I'm not cut out for love.
Then, in one fluid, swift motion, he turned around and sprinted back.
-x-
Severus shoved open the door he had just passed over. And instantly, his eyes found Rose, sitting on the chair adjacent to the door, silently weeping. At the sound of him opening the door, she looked up.
"Se—"
"Shhh," he replied as he put his index finger over her lips. Then, before thinking it over again, he move closer and planted his lips upon her, deeply and passionately kissing her.
Her lips felt amazing against his, and after what seemed like an eternity, they broke apart.
Softly, she whispered, "You chased after me."
"I know," was all he said.
Beauty queen of only
eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there
to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for
miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so
many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending
everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the
girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And
she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock
on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to
get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always
rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My
heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you
want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in
the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask
her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will
be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know
all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye
means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every
time she falls
Song taken from maroon 5 (She Will Be Loved)
R&R again. I know it was short! But please, tell me what you think!