I Know I'll Never Love This Way Again

Disclaimer: I own nothing of CSI.

Note: To those that have reviewed thank you very much. My angst muse is working overtime. It is now 12:41, Tuesday June 5th. My brain is working overtime. LOL. Once my angst muse has gone to sleep, I will be working in that serious fluff (like in my story "Grissom's Nap" ) Not to worry, the angst will fade at some point.

Catherine had taken over the supervisory role of the Graveyard shift of CSI. Gil Grissom was way too over emotional to tend to his duties as supervisor. Conrad Ecklie gave him a few weeks off to relax and calm down.

"I don't want to relax and calm down Conrad, I want to work on this case! I need to be around my colleagues" Grissom said to Ecklie.

"Gil, your performance is slowing down because you are worried about Sara. Do us all a favour and go back home and relax. Do it now before you worry yourself into an early grave!" Ecklie was being actually sincere when he was talking now.

"But Conrad..I can't" he protested.

"Griss, come and leave Ecklie alone, we have to talk" Warrick said to him.

Grissom grimaced and followed Warrick out. "What is it Warrick, couldn't you see I was in the middle of something.

"Uh yes, but we have reason to believe that it was a man named Rudy Vahn that kidnapped Sara this time."

"How do I know that name, sounds familiar?"

Warrick rolled his eyes and waved his hand "I don't know, Greg and Mandy are working on trying to locate an exact address.

Grissom followed Warrick to where Greg and Mandy were looking up Rudy Vahn and his address. Not very easy to locate.

"C'mon guys find him find him, I want Sara back before they try to kill her again"

"Who's they" Mandy asked. She wasn't filled in on most of the case.

"Uh Greg will fill you in." Said Warrick and then he pulled Grissom out of the room.

"You got to get a grip Griss, calm down and let them do their job. We will find Sara."

"Just like last time when we found her, she had been violated Warrick, they had violated her!" he began to get angry again.

"My question is how does this Rudy fit into it?" Grissom asked.

Nick came running into the room. "Rudy Vahn is involved as a cohort of Oscar and Al Johnson. Those two along with Charlotte are in jail and I guess on one of the visits, Rudy came and a deal was made somehow"

"With guards watching their every move and hearing their dialogue, how the hell did they plot a kidnapping and possible murder!"

"Code words" said Mandy suddenly, she had entered the break room where the others were.

"Code words?" asked Grissom.

"Yeah some kind of fake language or something that only they understand. Fools the guards that way." Mandy said.

Gil Grissom turned red – with intense anger. "Lets go have a chat with those morons in jail.

"You are not in any condition to go anywhere Gil" said a voice.

Grissom turned. It was his mother. Although deaf, his mother could say a few words.

"Who the hell called my mom" Grissom demanded and blushed because he swore in front of his mom.

"I did Gil, I was worried about you" Catherine said.

"As soon as I heard about this I came right over!" his mom signed.

"I'm a grown man mom; you do not need to worry about me"

"You love this girl Sara don't you?" his mom asked.

Now he was even more embarrassed as she was asking him this in front of everybody he worked with, including Conrad Ecklie. But before she let him answer she put her hand up to stop him and signed very quickly. "Mind you business you people, let my son talk about his lady-friend in peace"

Jim Brass, who also saw all this was able to read lips and translated what she had said and waved everybody back to work.

"To answer your question mom, yes I do love Sara. I've been in love with her for too long now to give up." He said and explained to her all about the misunderstanding and the kidnapping, her almost-murder and the second kidnapping.

"Gil take me back to you home and we'll talk more there" she said. Gil took his mother back to his home and they had a long mother-son talk about his worry about Sara.

Meanwhile, Sara had woken up and found herself bound and gagged in the trunk of Rudy's car. The vehicle was not moving any more, it hadn't been moving for a while now. She somehow by the grace of God got herself untied and she yanked the gag off her. She then felt around in the darkness of the trunk for the trunk latch. She found it rather quickly and grabbed the tire-iron which happened to be in the trunk too. She knew she had to use a weapon on this Rudy person. She had no idea of who he was, but figured he somehow was involved with those goons that had kidnapped her originally.

Sara, her tire iron in hand opened the garage door. So far so good, no body heard the door opening so no one followed her out. She was a mess, and she had no money (again) she had no idea this time where her purse had gone and she wasn't about to go back to Rudy's car to find it. She heard noises.

"Hey! Where the hell do you think you're going?" demanded a voice. It was Rudy.

"I'm going back to the man I love!" she said and took the tire iron and used it like a bat and hit Rudy across the head with it and it knocked him unconscious. Then she took off down the street. She had some coin in her pocket so she jumped on the bus that was coming down the street.

"My goodness girl, don't you ever pretty yourself up before going out" the driver admonished.

Sara gave him a withering glare. "As if it was any of your g-damn business I have been through hell and back. Some a-hole has kidnapped me and kept me captive."

"Oh are you Sara Sidle?" the driver asked.

"Yes as a matter of fact I am" she said.

The driver got on his radio and radioed in that Sara Sidle was on his bus. Since there was no one else on his bus, He took Sara right to the police station.

At the police station were all Sara's friends and colleagues.

The one person that she wanted to see was not there. Gil Grissom, at his mother's request had taken some sleeping pills and had gone to bed. She had been worried about him so she encouraged him to take the medicine.

"Where's Gil?" she asked.

Catherine took Sara aside and explained to her where Grissom was and Sara, knowing how much he loved his mother understood, she also understood that she was the reason for his worry and stress.

Sara knew what turned her lover on. She knew what kind of things made him smile in that Grissomy way . She had a plan to give him the best night of his life. All she had to do was wait for him to come back to work and she'd show him how much she missed him.

The next day, she was almost ready…she had heard Judy welcoming Grissom back to work and once Sara heard that she got ready.

Grissom turned on the light to his office as he was talking to someone.

"Surprise Griss!" she said and she wore the teeniest of outfits she'd ever worn in her life.

"H-Hi Sara" Grissom said and behind him was his mother, staring in shock at the young woman who just before heard nothing but praises from her son.

They were left staring at each other with a mix of embarrassment and shock.

TBC.

Now comes the fluff – More to come but now it's 1:17AM and I think I damn need some sleep. My muse is working overtime I suppose.