I Know I'll Never Love This Way Again

Disclaimer: Same old same old – I don't own CSI.

Sara rubbed her temples. How in the world does this happen? How or why does this happen to her. She had been through a lot of crap these last few weeks with her kidnapping and that misunderstanding, almost getting killed in that fire and life being a general mess for her. She comes back and reunites with Grissom – only to put him in the hospital after an encounter. She hated life so much now and ultimately wished she could just end it all. Well she didn't really contemplate suicide – it was more of a feeling of embarrassment.

"Miss Sidle, Dr. Grissom said he will see you now. He has recovered and will be released from the hospital soon. Doctor Brody (the attending physician) said.

"Thank you Doctor" She replied and went into the room where Gil was sitting on his bed, fully dressed, looking out the window.

"Gil" she said, using his given name. Grissom turned to face her, his cheeks feeling a little hot at the sight of her.

"We have to talk Sara" he said and motioned for her to come and sit beside him.

"What's wrong" she asked in a panicked voice.

"You know I love you dearly and our interludes are fantastic" he said and thought about one of their interludes where she was mimicking Lady Heather then, back in the present sighed.

"Are you telling me that our sex has to stop?" she demanded

"No I am not telling you that at all."

"Then what is it?" Sara said "you worried me Grissom! Here we were having a fantastic romantic y'know and suddenly you stop and pass out!"

Grissom put his hand up and looked away then back at her. "I know it is going to sound horribly dumb Sara, but…I was having an allergic reaction, anaphylactic shock. The doctors pumped my stomach and they found the cause, something I am deathly allergic to and never knew about." He looked at her sheepishly.

"What was it that you ate that you were allergic to Grissom?" she asked.

"Our favourite meal, Scallops." He said. "the doctor said I was lucky that I only had a few otherwise I could have died"

Sara's eyes began to tear up.

"Sara, it's ok. D-did you think that we, having sex made me react this way?"

Sara nodded. "Oh Griss, I was so scared for you, for us – it was a horrible feeling"

"Was it you that got me dressed?" he asked.

"I put your boxers on, that was all I had time to do." She replied.

Sara and Grissom finished the discharge paperwork and headed home to the townhouse. Grissom was perfectly healthy to go back to work and when the others asked him what happened he just told them "Allergic reaction"

Two days later in the break room. Catherine, Warrick, Nick, Greg were sitting around talking about the Sara/Grissom ordeal of the past few weeks. It seems that they were always in the middle of some kind of situation, with Sara's kidnapping and almost death and just recent with Grissom's almost fatal allergic reaction. They were chatting about how relieved they were when Ecklie entered the room.

"I don't believe for one moment that an allergic reaction caused his situation." Ecklie said smugly.

"What are you talking about Ecklie, the doctors made a conclusive statement that he had an allergic reaction to scallops!" Warrick said.

"Well I'm telling you they are not totally correct, there is another reason why he had that reaction and it doesn't have anything to do with food"

"What the hell are you trying to do to us Ecklie, destroy our reputations, ruin us or embarrass us" said a voice.

Everyone turned to see Gil Grissom and Sara Sidle standing there glaring angrily at Conrad Ecklie and whatever papers he had in his hand.

Ecklie turned to face Grissom. "I am going to prove that your ailment had nothing to do with food Grissom and that you and little Sidle here were together and that's what caused it.

With that Ecklie stormed out of the room leaving the rest of the team standing there in annoyance.

"Alright everyone back to work. We'll ignore Ecklie for now." Grissom said to the team and handed out the assignments.