I just have to get this out of my system:
Taylor Lautner. Taylor Lautner. Taylor Lautner.
Okay, now I'm good, here we go.
Demi Lovato: Until your mine
My state of mind
Has finally got the best of me,
I need you next to me.
I'll try to find
A way that I could get to you,
Just wanna get to you.
The world I see is perfect now,
You're all around.
With you I can breathe.
Until your mine,
I have to find,
A way to fill this hole inside.
I can't survive,
Without you here by my side.
Until you're mine,
Not gonna be,
Even close to complete,
I won't rest until you're mine.
Mine.
Alone inside,
I can only hear your voice,
Ringing through the noise.
I can't find my mind,
Keeps on coming back to you,
Always back to you.
Wanting something out of reach,
It's killing me.
You're all I see, yeah.
Until your mine,
I have to find,
A way to fill this hole inside.
I can't survive,
Without you here by my side.
Until you're mine,
Not gonna be,
Even close to complete,
I won't rest until you're mine.
Mine.
Just stop wondering,
If we were meant to be.
Forget about fading, just hold me.
I'm ready to begin,
The waiting has to end,
Right now,
Today,
I've got to find a way, yeah, yeah.
Mine.
Until you're mine.
Until your mine,
I have to find,
A way to fill this hole inside.
I can't survive,
Without you here by my side.
Until you're mine,
Not gonna be,
Even close to complete,
I won't rest until you're mine.
My state of mind
Has finally got the best of me,
I need you next to me.
I couldn't say I love Chad again, because I don't even know if I do. I don't want to get hurt again but I can tell I'm falling.
Slowly, but I am. I'm not his yet.
I ambled through my apartment without a cause or care. I waltzed into my room and kicked a shirt out of my way. My mom was out at work and she wouldn't be home until late. I am one hundred percent bored.
I let out a breath as I sat down on my bed. "Uh." I groaned and threw myself backwards onto my warm sheets.
I closed my eyes hoping that this was just a dream. Not what I'm doing right now, just the whole getting back with Chad.
"Stupid girl." I muttered and shook my head slowly.
I jumped when the house phone started ringing. I rushed out to the living room to get it but I couldn't see the phone anywhere.
"Um… hello?" I said in a normal tone, hoping that the phone would magically go on speaker. Again, stupid girl.
"Fine." I huffed and searched under the pillows on the couch and underneath the cushions. I looked behind me to see that the phone was exactly where it should be.
I grabbed and pushed the 'talk' button in a rush. "Hello?"
"Sonny?" a familiar voice came from the other line.
"Hey Chad. What's up?" I sat on the couch and grabbed the remote to the TV.
I flipped through channels as he talked about going out tonight.
"Um, sure." I smiled. Why are you smiling!? That stupid voice pitched in.
We talked a little until he had to go to set or something. I groaned again and leaned back. Completely forgetting that I wasn't on my bed, I hit my head on the backboard.
"Ow."
I watched the set for hours until I looked at the clock. I ran to my room and grabbed the first thing I saw.
The same outfit that I was wearing when Chad broke up with me. Seems appropriate.
I frowned and threw it back into my closet. I rummaged through my closet and found the perfect outfit.
I pulled on the black skirt and black leggings, then stared in the mirror trying to decide on which shirt to wear.
"Red, yellow? Red, Yellow? Red… yellow." I threw the red T-shirt back into the closet and it landed in a heap on the floor.
I slipped into the yellow tank top and grabbed my black, leather jacket. As I slipped into the sleeves my cell phone rang.
I picked it up calmly and frowned when it was Tawni, "What are you wearing?"
I looked down and then back up, "Clothes?"
"Wrong." I could hear her smile as the doorbell rang. "You're wearing this." She held out a clothes bag and put her phone down.
"Tawni, no offense, but what are you doing here?" I took the bag from her and tried to peek inside. Nothing.
"Well, I know where Chad taking you and I know exactly what you should wear." She clapped and looked up with a victorious smile.
"Okay," I stuck my hand in and my tongue out, digging until I found a scarf. A scarf? Really?
"Tawni, what's this? And why do I need it?" I looked outside and saw a light snow falling.
"Well, you are going for a walk." She smiled as I pulled out a sharp set of tweezers.
"Why?" I held them away from my body.
"Because, you're walking through a park at night silly." She smiled and pushed me into my room to get changed.
I pulled out a set of dark blue skinny jeans and a long-sleeved, grey sweater. It was a v-neck and the sleeves were slightly too long. I continued digging and pulled out a white tank top.
"Okay?" I looked at the clothes in my hand and felt a smile forming. "At least she didn't go over the edge.
I pulled off my jacket and yellow tank top in exchange for the white tank top and grey sweater. I switched out my pants and pulled on a black pair of Ugg boots.
Right when I opened my bedroom door Tawni pulled a scarf around my neck and nearly choked me.
"Whoa." I jolted backwards and steadied myself.
"Perfect." She smiled and linked arms with me. Pulling me out the door, she asked the question that I refused to ask myself. "So, do you love him?"
I took a deep breath, "No." I lied. Subconsciously, I knew I lied.
I don't think that passenger,
Has ever looked this good to me.
He tells me about his night,
And I count the colors in his eyes.
He'll never fall in love, he swears,
As he runs his fingers through his hair.
I'm laughing cause I hope he's wrong.
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind,
He tells a joke, I fake a smile,
But I know all his favorite songs.
And I could tell you,
His favorite colors green.
He loves to argue,
Born on the seventeenth.
His sister's beautiful,
He has his father's eyes.
And if you ask me if I love him,
I'd lie.
He's looks around the room,
Innocently overlooks the truth,
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know,
That I've had him memorized,
For so long?
He's sees everything black and white,
Never let nobody see him cry,
I don't let nobody see me,
Wishing he was mine!
I could tell you,
His favorite colors green.
He loves to argue,
Born on the seventeenth.
His sister's beautiful,
He has his father's eyes.
And I f you asked me if I love him,
I'd lie.
He stands there,
Then walks away.
My God if I could only say,
'I'm holding every breath for you.'
He'd never tell you,
But he can play guitar.
I think he can see through,
Everything but my heart.
First thought when I wake up,
Is 'my God he's beautiful'
So I put on my make-up,
And pray for a miracle.
Yes, I could tell you,
His favorite colors green,
He loves to argue,
Oh and it kills me.
His sister's beautiful,
He has his father's eyes.
And if you asked me if I love him,
If you ask me if I love him…
I'd lie.
Taylor Swift: I'd lie
Okay, there is chapter four and I'm not as proud as my other chapters (even if those stunk) it just is kind of… blah.
Idk, R&R!