Avoiding Voldemort or Not
Author- LilyHeartsJames
Disclaimer- Really, dude if pigs COULD fly then I'd own Harry Potter. "Oh look! A fat pig" Gets a wand and points it at the fat pig. "Wingardium Leviosa!" swishes and flicks. The fat pig stays on the ground and doesn't move. "Aw! Dammit! It was supposed to work!" Sobs uncontrollably.
Dedication- To my best friend Belinda. You know who you are! ;)
Notes- Well, as a few of you may know, I got HP5 on DVD and yes, I do feel special. Hehehehe. Thanks so much to the reviewers of the last chapter and the ones for Love Me or Hate Me it's still an Obsession.
Anyhoo, onto the fourth chapter! (Excited fans jump and scream excitedly
Chapter four:
Lily Evans rolled over in her sleep, snuggling down into her sleeping bag.
She opened her eyes and yawned. When she sat up, Sirius was lying next to her but James wasn't.
She frowned. Where did James go? She wondered.
She could smell something from the kitchen, and she could also hear talking. Familiar voices.
She got up, making sure not to wake Sirius and walked over to the door and peeked around it.
James was standing at the stove, making something and Becky and Emm were sitting at the table, a big, rectangular present sitting in the middle of her mother's polished beloved table. They were drinking cups of coffee and were watching James with interest.
"I didn't know you could cook" Lily said softly, alerting them to her presence.
James smiled at her as she walked in.
"Yeah well… mum taught me. Besides, you're parents left this morning. They said they were going to see Petunia. So I decided to make you some breakfast" Lily nodded and glanced at her two best friends who were sitting there, looking at the floor.
Emm looked up, and Lily could see that she'd been crying.
"Lily, I'm so sorry! I really am!" She said and Lily smiled.
"What's life without a few mistakes?" she asked and Emm got up and hugged her tightly.
"I'm sorry too. We said some things that we didn't mean" Lily said as Emm stepped back.
"Lily…" Becky said standing up and Lily looked at her. Becky had said the most hurtful things to her, but all the same she forgave her.
"I'm really…" she broke off. Becky was known for not being able to say how she really felt. She wasn't very good at apologies either.
"Can you forgive me?" she asked looking up.
Lily saw a tear slip down her cheek, and Lily knew this was a big thing. Becky barely ever cried.
"Only if you can forgive me" Lily replied and Becky nodded.
"Come here" Lily said and pulled her best friend into a hug.
"I love you both so much… I feel really bad for ripping up that photo" Lily said softly as Becky pulled away and wiped her eyes.
"Don't be…" Emm said, taking hold of Lily's hand and squeezing it.
"But it wasn't my photo to rip and-"
"You were angry Lily, I understand. We all were." Emm told her and Lily nodded.
"I should've listened to you Lily. And I shouldn't have said those things about you and Sirius, and I shouldn't have warned Emm that you'd steal her boyfriend. I was outta line. I guess I just… didn't… I dunno! I was just being a bitch" Becky said and looked away.
"Hey, we're all bitches sometimes. We're girls" Lily said and Becky laughed.
"Yeah…"
James cleared his throat.
"Does this mean you're dumping Remus for Becky and Lily?" James asked Emm and she hit him on the arm.
"Oi! Oh come on, it was a joke"
"Very funny" Lily said rolling her eyes. He winked at her, making her heart beat faster.
"So, are you going to open you're presents or are we going to make you?" Becky asked smirking.
"Well, I would open them but Sirius isn't awake, and you know I don't like opening presents when someone's asleep"
Becky shrugged.
"I can take care of that" she said and ran into the lounge room and yelled; "FIRE! GET YOU'RE ARSE INTO THE KITCHEN THERE'S A FIRE!"
Sirius, who had being snoring away snorted, jumped up and ran to where he was told, asking; "Where's the fire? Call 911"
Lily and Emm laughed at him and he looked around as Becky walked in.
"Weirdo" she muttered causing James to snort with laughter.
But Lily could smell smoke.
And this time, it wasn't a false alarm.
Her eyes widened and Emm saw this.
"Lily?" she asked, feeling scared.
"FIRE! GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!" Lily yelled trying to push Sirius, Emm and Becky towards the door.
Sirius laughed. "I'm not falling for that again!"
"Sirius you dodo there is a FIRE!"
"Whatever Lily! I know you're trying to trick me but I'm not going to-"
"SIRIUS! GET YOU'RE FUCKING ARSE OUT OF THIS FUCKING HOUSE NOW!" Lily yelled and he turned around and shrugged.
But he caught sight of the fire, which James was trying to put out.
Sirius screamed girlishly and ran, dragging Emm and Becky with him screaming; "BAIL! BAIL!"
Lily and James stayed in the house trying to put it out.
"Where's the bloody fire extinguisher?" Lily asked frantically as she ran around the kitchen looking for it when it was right in front of her nose.
"Here!" James yelled and grabbed it, just as Lily did and they began to fight over it.
"I'm putting it out!" James said tugging it towards him.
"You don't know how to use the bloody thing you tosser! Let me do it!" Lily said tugging it her way.
"No, I will!" James said, pulling it back.
"I will!" Lily said pulling it back towards her.
James pressed the button, spraying her and she screamed and aimed the nozzle thingy at him and white foam stuff came out getting him in the face.
They waved it around, trying to get the fire but getting everything else instead, including themselves when they finally aimed it right and put it out successfully.
When it went out, Lily breathed a sigh of relief and James and her put the extinguisher back.
When James looked at Lily her burst out laughing.
"What?" Lily asked glaring at him.
'Look at you're face!" James said continuing to laugh and they raced upstairs to bathroom and looked in the mirror and they both burst out laughing.
"Look at yours!" she said pointing and they slid down onto the floor, laughing their heads off.
When they stopped laughing they glanced at each other.
James smiled at her, sending her heart flip-flopping.
He suddenly leaned in, and just as he was about to kiss her-
"JAMES! LILY! Where are you's?" Emm screamed and they heard running and they both stood up.
Becky and Sirius banged the door open, Sirius slipping on some of the foam that had dripped onto the floor and went sliding smack dab onto the opposite wall.
Emm was standing beside Becky and they stared at the two who were laughing at Sirius and at their faces.
"What the HELL happened?" said a voice behind Emm and Becky.
Lily's smiled slid off her face as her father stood there, frowning at them, hands on his hips.
Lily and James glanced at each other, and then they heard Lily's mother scream.
"MY KITCHEN! LILIAN JANE EVANS! WHAT DID YOU DO?"
Lily glanced at James, who also looked guilty.
-
"Bye Lils! We'll see you later, promise" Emm said as she and Becky left the house. Lily nodded. "Bye" she said and waved, Becky winking at her and following Emm. When they reached the end cul-de-sac they turned and waved. And she waved back and then they were gone.
"Lily!"
She turned and went back into the kitchen where James and Sirius were helping clean up. Lily joined them, none of them speaking until they were finished. Mrs. Evans was watching them carefully and Mr. Evans was drinking a cup of coffee in the lounge room.
Lily sighed and chucked the cloth in the sink.
"This is useless" she said turning to her mother.
Her mother sighed. "Lily, you made this mess now you clean it, useless or not"
"She didn't make the mess. I did" James said facing her mother.
Her mum raised her eyebrows.
"I'm sure you did"
"Well, actually I helped but-"
"We both did it mum. Bu trust me, we were trying to put out the fire and-"
"James you told me you could cook" Mrs. Evans said ignoring her daughter.
"I can, I just wasn't paying attention" he said looking at the floor.
Mrs. Evans groaned. "Well-"
"I've got it!" Sirius said standing up.
"What?" Lily, James and Mrs. Evans asked looking at him excitedly.
"Well, you know we could always use magic" he explained as if it was obvious.
"Sirius you dodo that's a fantastic idea!" Lily said happily and grabbed her wand from the table.
She flicked it, said "Scourgify" and the kitchen was spotless.
Her mum smiled. "I am so glad that my daughter is a witch"
Lily grinned, "Sirius thought of it mum, I just acted on it"
Her mother nodded.
"Can we go now?" Sirius asked pleadingly.
Mrs. Evans chuckled. "Of course. Lily, be home soon"
"Promise" Lily replied and grabbed her present that Becky and Emm had left and the three left to go next door.
-
"Come on Lils! Open the bloody thing already" Sirius whined and Lily laughed.
"Yeah, do it" James added.
Lily shook her head and opened it slowly and deliberately.
"Oh bloody hell woman" James said grumpily and Sirius grabbed it and ripped the paper off of it.
He gasped.
It was a light blue photo album.
"Wow" Lily said taking it from him and on it read; "Happy 18th Birthday Lily!"
She grinned and opened it, and on the front page it said; "Last year at Hogwarts"
There was a photo of the castle. It was taken out in the grounds. Lily sighed. She missed it so much.
She turned the page again and it said; "Head Boy and Girl"
James and Lily's school photo was underneath it, both smiling happily and their badges polished and resting neatly on their chests. James' hair was its usual untidiness and Lily's was in a braid.
Lily couldn't think why she used to wear it in braids and plaits. Now she just wore pony tails.
When she turned the page again, she saw the words; "Friends Forever"
Lily, Becky and Emm were sitting in arm chairs by the fire, laughing and Emm was reading.
Remus had taken that photo, and underneath that one was Lily and Sirius playing thumb wars. Next to that one was Lily and Remus; he'd taken that one himself. Lily was grinning and so was Remus, although Lily noticed he looked tired.
Next was her and James, he had his arm around her and she was resting her head on his shoulder. She remembered that was when they were just friends, and in the background she saw Carly watching them, a venomous look on her face.
She turned a few pages, and found a picture of her running up and hugging James after he won the Quidditch match. This was the only moving picture.
When she turned the page again she saw Becky and Emm, their arms linked and walking off to breakfast, Lily and Remus walking after them and talking. James and Sirius were walking just behind her and Remus and James' hand was stretched out towards Lily's hair. She remembered that was when he'd been pulling her hair that day. Peter had taken that photo.
After that, was the picture of her and James dancing at the ball, both of them smiling.
And then underneath that was when James had come up and parked his butt on her lap because Alice had taken his seat. Then there was the one of them kissing underneath the mistletoe. She could see Dumbledore in the background, his arm raised and realized that that was when he was drunk and was chanting; "Snog, snog, snog" like everyone else.
And then she saw it. Carly's face. It was priceless, it was angry. But most of all it was hurt.
And for the first time in her life, she sympathized Carly.
"Lily?" James asked softly.
"Yeah?"
"Are you okay?" Sirius asked before James could.
Lily nodded. "Fine" she said turning the page.
"Graduation" she muttered, reading from the page.
It was a photo of her saying her speech, the last speech she'd ever made at Hogwarts.
Flashback-
"And now we have Miss. Lily Evans, our Head Girl for this year and her speech" Dumbledore said smiling. Everyone began clapping, and Lily made her way nervously towards the stage that had been put in the grounds.
Lily got up on the stage, and turned. She stared at everyone in front of her, the teachers were in the front row, and her friends were up the back.
Lily opened her mouth, and then closed it.
She was feeling nervous. She opened it again, and again she closed it.
All the words that she'd been practicing the night before left her mind completely, leaving her blank. She couldn't remember what she needed to say.
"C'mon Lily!" yelled a familiar voice and Lily looked at the person, and saw jet black messy hair standing up down the back. She grinned and he gave her the thumbs up.
Lily sighed, and began.
"When I started this year, it came with a lot of surprising outcomes. Firstly, I befriended an enemy, so I guess what they say about keeping you're friends close, but you're enemy's closer is true. I wanted this year to turn out differently, way differently but I guess nothing turns out the way that you want it to because you can't always get what you want"
She paused, trying to think.
"I… I remember when I first came to this school. I was shy, I was nervous, and even more I was afraid. I was so afraid of not being accepted and not being good enough. I come, from a Muggle family and when I found out that I was a witch, my whole life changed. The sister that I'd been friendly with for years turned on me, I wasn't who I thought I was and I was, for the first time in my life, alone. But when I got on the train, I sat with a group of people, and I didn't talk to anyone the whole ride. Because I was scared that people would find out that I didn't know as much as they would. But I met some people when we got on the boats and there was this boy. A boy with untamable hair and he wore glasses. And he looked innocent and I thought he seemed like a nice kid. Well, that changed when he pushed me in the freezing lake and shocked my hand with an electric hand shocker thingy. And his name was James Potter."
Everyone laughed, including James. Remus leaned over and whispered; "its lovely going down memory lane isn't it?"
James chuckled. "Very"
"These two girls helped me, they pulled me back into the boat and they made sure I was warm. And from that night on, we formed this connection. We'd look after each other, and make sure that we were all okay. And from that night on, the little boy that pushed me into the lake became someone who I didn't like, all because he played a joke. And because sometimes he could be an arse"
Everyone laughed again, and McGonagall frowned but saw Dumbledore chuckling to himself and sighed.
"We hated each other, and we went out of way to make each other feel uncomfortable. And we found annoying each other pretty funny. And who could forget the million trips to the Hospital Wing? I never would have thought I'd end up caring for this boy, and if anyone told me that we would be really good friends then I would have made sure they got checked out by Madame Pomfrey"
There was more laughter and Becky glanced at Sirius and saw him watching her. He winked and she rolled her eyes and turned back to Lily.
"But, during the summer before our last year, James moved in next door to me, with his best mate. And I thought it would be the worst summer ever, and I'm pretty sure he did too" James nodded truthfully and Lily smiled. "But, it wasn't. It was the best summer because I found a friend in him. He was caring and honest, something that I didn't know. Because I used to think he was this arrogant bullying toerag. But he wasn't. He was nice, and kind and a really, really caring person who would do anything for the people he cares about. And what was even more weird was that both our mothers actually tried to get us together. But we spent the summer as friends. And this year, when we first got on the train everyone stared at us and for a while I forgot why and actually asked James why the hell they were all staring and whispering and he told me it was because we used to hate each other and now we were friends"
Lily sighed. "This year was pretty unexpected. James Potter, getting Head Boy was unexpected" (Sirius stood up and said; "Here, Here!" and James thumped him on the back making people laugh, including Lily) "Um, us ending up as friends was pretty er, unexpected" ("I totally agree" Sirius and Becky said in unison. They cracked up laughing.) "But what was really unexpected, was seeing Professor Dumbledore drunk at the Christmas party, and seeing Filch's office filled with Barbie Dolls and he's still probably looking for the culprit".
Everyone cheered at those parts and James laughed.
Filch looked scandalized.
"And even more unexpected, I ended up doing the very thing I would have swore I would never, ever do. Something that I would've slapped myself for last year. I fell for James Potter, and I don't regret it"
So many people cheered this time, and there were few wolf-whistles and James was grinning widely.
"So congratulations to all of you. Thank you to the teacher's who've had to put up with us for the entire seven years we've been here, mostly the Marauders, thanks to the students who've had to put up with so much, and thanks to my friends, who've been there for me. And I say this with much, much regret. Where all leaving tomorrow, I'm leaving my home. So, I'd like to wish everyone good luck. Good luck to Professor Dumbledore, with running this school and I hope no body takes Sirius' lead and spikes the punch, Good luck to the teachers with teaching the other students. And good luck to Mr. Filch, with looking for the culprit who stuffed all those Barbie Dolls in his office and mostly, good luck to all of you, seventh years and I hope you achieve the goals you've set out to do. And keep you're dreams alive. Thank you, and good luck!" Lily waved as every single person waved and cheered and screamed. Sirius decided it would be fun to let off a tonne of Filibuster fireworks and they all whizzed and fizzed in the air. Everybody laughed, and threw their hats into the air and Lily left the stage and ran over to her friends.
She hugged Becky and Emm, whose face was wet, and then she hugged Remus who was holding a bar of chocolate and then Peter. He was grinning and Lily smiled. "Sorry I haven't always been there Lily, I've only hung out with you for the past few months"
"I don't care Peter. You're my friend and that's all that matters" he grinned and hugged Emm.
Remus was eating his chocolate and Becky had her arm around him and was begging him to give her some, and Sirius was still letting off fireworks.
"Don't want a detention do you Black?"
Sirius jumped up and turned and when he saw Lily he laughed.
"Lily you bumface I thought you were McGonagall!"
"Excuse me Mr. Black? It's Professor McGonagall to you" said a stern voice behind him.
He turned and saluted. "Rightio Professor! I'm so sorry! And may I say you look absolutely stunning?"
"Save it for the ladies Mr. Black" she said and walked off.
Lily grinned and hugged him tightly. "Aw, Sirius who knew you'd have the hots for McGonagall?"
"Shut it Evans" he growled and she chuckled and he walked off to set off more fireworks.
"And where's my hug?" asked a voice behind her. She smiled and turned to face James who was standing there with his arms crossed and tapping his foot on the ground.
"Oh, well I forgot about you" Lily lied and he shook his head. "Yeah right, as if you could ever forget about me! I mean I am so sexy and lovable and hot and gorgeous"
"Yeah, and modest too"
He chuckled and Lily pulled him into a big bear hug.
"I love you, Evans" he said kissing her head.
"I love you too… Potter" he grinned and kissed her softly, his lips burning tastefully against hers…
-End of flashback.
Lily opened her eyes, and James was frowning at her.
"Lily, are you sure you're alright?"
"I'm fine Potter, absolutely fine"
He nodded and watched her close her photo album.
"Uh, I'd better get back you know I promised mum I'd be home for lunch so I'll see you guys later"
She got up and walked out of the door quickly, and James glanced at Sirius.
"Go after her dude" Sirius said and James nodded and ran out. Lily was already at the door, and he slid down the banister.
"Lily!" he yelled and she turned around and looked at him.
"What?" she asked her hand on the door.
He hurried over to her. "Don't go… stay"
Lily shook her head. "I'm sorry but I-"
She was cut off as James leaned down and pressed his lips against hers and she pulled him closer.
She was leaning against the front door when Danny walked into the lounge room.
"Hey James what do you want for… Holy cow! Oh, ah sorry" he turned and walked back into the kitchen as fast as he could and Lily moved away from James.
"I have to go" she said softly and opened the door and hurried out but James followed.
"Lily! Lily stop!" But Lily kept going until James grabbed her arm and turned her around to face him.
"Let me go!" she said trying to pull away but he wouldn't let go of her arm.
"I'm sorry okay? I don't know what else to say!"
"There's nothing for you to say James! You lied to me! Why would you do that? You kissed her!"
"No, that is not true! She kissed me!"
"Yeah well you weren't pushing her away were you?"
"She shocked me Lily! If Remus or Sirius kissed you would you kiss them back?"
"That's beside the point! Besides they wouldn't kiss me!"
"I didn't think Carly would kiss me either but what did she do? She kissed me"
"Look, I don't care! What I'm really pissed about is the fact that you lied to me! You lied to me James!"
"And you know why? Because I regretted sleeping with her! I was waiting for a person that I was in love with but she tricked me into it! She told me we were in love, and I believed her! But I know now that we weren't okay? Because I didn't feel half the things I feel for you when I was with Carly"
"And how do I know that you're not lying to me again?"
"Because I love you Lily! Whenever I'm around you I feel I'm the luckiest guy in the world. My heart beats faster and slower, when I'm with you and when I'm not with you. When I'm away from you I can't wait until I see you again! You're on my mind day in and day out; you're the last thing I think of at night before I go to sleep and the first thing I think of when I wake up. I'm in love with you Lils, and I can't change that"
Lily glared at him for a moment, her heart softening.
"Yeah? Well why don't you prove it to me?"
"How Lily? How can I prove it? I just told you that I love you and you're telling me to prove it? What do you want me to do?"
"The same as what everyone wants! I want you to show me you love me! I want you to promise to be there for me when I need you; I need to hear you promise me that you won't ever lie to me again! And I want you to fight for me!"
Lily turned and walked off and went inside her house.
James sighed and ran a hand through his hair distractedly.
If Lily wanted him to show her he loves her, he will. If Lily wants him to promise her he'll be there for her when she needs him, he will. If Lily needs him to promise to never lie to her again, he will.
If Lily wants him to fight for her… he will.
He won't go down without a fight.
A/N: Okay I've noticed that I haven't updated in a while. Well I won't lie to you, I wanted to give Love Me or Hate Me it's still an Obsession a fair start and I have. And also there's been school and normal home problems.
I have two assignments to do and ones due on the 11th of December and the other's dude on the 4th of December. So I'll try guys, I'll try.
Please check out Love Me or Hate Me it's still an Obsession and A Summer Vacation Plus the Marauders Equals Chaos and Avoiding Potter or Not and please leave some reviews! Just go to my profile and you'll find them. Thank you!
Hoping for reviews, hoping to see you all next chapter,
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