Avoiding Voldemort or Not
Author- LilyHeartsJames
Disclaimer- The day pigs fly will be the day I created Harry Potter. Fat chance…
Dedication- I dedicate this to Danny Potter, who died a hero in trying to make the world a better place. R.I.P
Notes- Ahem. Silence. Cough. Silence continues. Er… sorry for the long wait… I gave you a pretty sad chapter, we lost someone who a lot of people looked up to, and it took me a while to get back to you. I'm sorry for that. I would give you the usual excuse of; 'being busy', 'having things to do', 'taking dog to the vets', 'updating Love Me or Hate Me', 'Had my sister's birthday party', 'haven't spent much time on the computer', 'being watching my One Tree Hill DVDs'… Somehow I don't think you'd be bothered to read them so I won't go into a longer detail. However to make it up to you here's the next chapter.
Also thanks to the reviewers, you're comments made me happy. ♥
Chapter 10-
You don't realize how strong a person really is until you see them at their weakest moment. Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. While we are mourning the loss of our friend, others are rejoicing to meet him behind the veil. Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.
I guess that's how death works. It doesn't matter if we're ready or not, it just happens.
It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew. Missing someone gets easier everyday. Because even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other it is one day closer to the next time you will.
- Three Days Later
'Lily? Sweetheart are you alright?' Jane Evans asked as she stood outside her daughter's bedroom.
'Fine' Lily muttered as she continuously looked around her room.
Mrs. Evans opened the door and walked in, sitting on the end of Lily's bed.
She looked at her, feeling like telling her it would be okay, but somehow she couldn't bring herself to say it.
'How… how are you feeling?'
Lily shrugged. 'Like crap'
Her mother sighed. 'You know Dan wouldn't want to see you like this'
'He wouldn't be able to see me so what's the point?'
'How is James?'
Lily shrugged again. 'I haven't seen him yet'
'You should go see him. Have you talked to Sirius… or Heather?'
Lily shook her head.
'Why don't you go over there and see James? I'm sure he'd like it'
'I wanna be alone right now' Lily replied softly.
Mrs. Evans sighed.
'It'll be okay Lily, it will'
She stood up and left the room, heading downstairs.
'I just want to get out so bad! And plus I don't even know if James and my dad are okay. I'm worried about them'
'They're fine; remember we're all going to get out together. Nothing will happen to any of us, I promise'
'You can't promise that Dan. You just can't'
Lily closed her eyes tightly, wishing the memories would just go away.
Lily sat up and turned on her radio, hoping to get distracted.
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces but to you
This means nothing, nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, yeah
I pictured I could bring you back
I pictured I could turn back time
Cuz I can't let go
I just can't find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can't find my way
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces but to you
This means nothing, nothing at all
I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold onto you
I just can't let you go
Lily turned off the radio and laid back down on her bed, tears stinging her cheeks.
It wasn't fair, why did Danny have to go?
Danny, who was so strong, brave and caring…
It didn't make sense.
He was like a second father to her, someone she could go to with all her problems… her worries and her fears.
But now it just seemed as if it was from another person's life, anyone's but hers.
There was a knock on the door but she didn't answer it.
'Lily? Honey can I come in?'
Lily ignored her father's pleading voice, just wanting to be alone.
The door opened and he walked in.
'Oh sweetie, come here' Lily didn't want to but her father sat on her bed and pulled her into a hug anyway.
'Tell me how you're feeling. You're mother and I are worried about you'
Lily didn't say anything, just pulled away.
'How about we go and get some ice-cream and talk'
'How about a raincheck?' Lily said finally after thinking it over.
Her father sighed.
'Well if you're sure. Let me know if you change you're mind'
Lily nodded and he stood up to leave, but paused at the door.
'Lily… Danny may not be here, but he's still in you're heart. And I know that he would want you to be happy. And he's proud of you'
Lily looked at her father and nodded.
'Thanks' she whispered softly and he closed the door.
Lily got up and walked over to her drawer and opened it, pulling out a photo album of Petunia's wedding.
There were a lot of pictures of Petunia and Vernon and there were a few of her and James and Remus sitting down at the bar.
There was even one of her making her speech for Petunia and another of the first annual father/daughter dance.
She sighed, as she flipped the page and froze, her heart stopping for a second.
There was a picture of her and Danny when he had danced with her because her own father had ignored her.
'Hey Lily come dance with me'
'But I'm not you're daughter'
'You're close to it'
…
'I really appreciate this Danny, I really do'
'I'd do this anytime Lils; you know I care about you. You're like the daughter I never had, and wish I had'
'You're a great person, you're the one I'd turn to for advice and if I just needed to talk. I just wish my dad was like that'
'Hey, you're dad doesn't know what he's missing out on'
'Thank you Danny, you're an important person in my life. I dunno what I'd do without you'
'I know Lils, and you know I'll always be here for you right? Through thick and thin'
…
Through thick and thin.
Well where was he now?
Lily sighed as she threw the album onto the floor, not wanting to see any more pictures.
She laid back down and closed her eyes, and eventually she fell asleep.
-
Sirius Black was still in denial and shock. He kept thinking that Danny would come waltzing in through the door, claiming that it had been a joke, or a misunderstanding. Maybe Danny was really still alive but needed to enter the Witness Protection Program and Moody just pretended he was dead to protect him… he'd seen stuff like that all the time and just when the family seemed to be getting their head around the fact that they'd lost someone they'd come back into their lives. But surely the whole family would have to be involved.
Sirius's stomach grumbled but he ignored it. He had done so for the past three days.
And now he was really, really hungry but he couldn't bring himself to eat.
Sirius and Danny had this midnight meeting thing in the kitchen. Sirius would wake up during the night craving food, and Danny would be having a coffee, and worrying about something. That was usually the time when Danny was worried. About his family's safety, Death Eater raids or anything really. During the day he'd just act normal but when night came he grew serious.
Sirius usually liked looking at the photos on his walls, but at the moment he couldn't bring himself to do that. There were too many of Danny.
Sirius rolled over onto his side, looking at the other side of his room.
This wouldn't have been his room if it wasn't for Danny, Heather and James. His real family.
- Flashback
A sixteen year old Sirius thumped on the door loudly, hoping, praying that someone would answer.
The front light came on and the door was swung open and Danny stood there in his pajamas and his wand pointing directly at Sirius's heart.
'Sirius? What the hell are you doing here?'
'I was hoping to stand outside you're front door all night' Sirius replied dryly.
'Come on in mate. No, no I'll get the trunk you just get you're scrawny arse in here, I mean not that I notice or anything' Sirius smiled and allowed Danny to drag his trunk in as he carried his broomstick over his shoulder.
Danny closed the lounge room door and sat Sirius's trunk next to it.
'Now are you gonna tell me what's going on?'
Sirius paused for a minute, wondering what to say.
'I… I ran away. I had to get out of there Danny. They were going to give me over to him, and I couldn't take it so-'
'I understand. Now listen to me I… How the HELL did you get that bruise? Sirius did he hit you?'
Sirius looked away.
'Yes. But I hit him back'
Danny shook his head sadly.
'Come on. I'll fix you up and you can tell me what happened'
-
'So did you use any magic at all?' Danny asked a few minutes later when he had repaired Sirius's bruise.
'Yeah kind of'
'Explain "kind of"… please'
'I had to open my window and pack my trunk quickly. Oh and I had to lock my door and make my trunk lighter'
'And that's it? You didn't stun them or-'
'No. I promise that's all I swear'
Danny nodded. 'Well I'll have to inform the Ministry of you're situation but in the mean time you can stay in the spare bedroom'
'Thanks Danny. I can find another place after awhile and-'
'Don't be stupid. You're here now, and I won't turn you away for a second. I'll latch onto you're legs and you'll have to drag me with you'
Sirius smiled.
'I really appreciate this'
'Stop getting all mushy and go get some sleep. It's awfully late, did you really fly all the way or catch the Knight Bus and pretend you did so all the girls would think it was impressive'
'Nah only for you Danny'
They laughed and Sirius walked down the hall.
'Night Danny. And thanks again'
'Don't mention it. Besides, what're family for?'
Sirius grinned back at him as he made his way into the guest room and shut the door.
As soon as it shut Danny's smile faded from his face and instead a very worried look replaced it.
He grabbed Sirius's broom and took it outside and put it in the broom shed, all the while wondering what would happen to Sirius.
Sirius watched Danny from his window and sighed before slumping back onto the bed and falling fast asleep.
- End of flashback
Sirius sighed as he sat up and looked around the room.
He couldn't take it anymore and walked over to the door and opened it, and after shutting it quietly he tiptoed down to Danny and Heather's room and pressed his ear to the door and heard the unmistakable noise of sobbing.
He closed his eyes and leaned against it, remembering a time when Sirius had had a nightmare about a giant fluffy white rabbit chasing after him. He had ran into their room and jumped in the middle and stayed there for the rest of the night and took up so much room that Danny ended up sleeping on the floor. Of course this was awhile ago…
He walked away and stopped by James's room and pressed his ear to his mate's door but this time heard nothing but silence.
Sirius walked down the stairs and out the back door and Apparated away…
-
James had been thinking all night and truthfully he couldn't sleep.
He was afraid that if he did he would re-enter a nightmare and he wouldn't be able to wake up.
Although he kept thinking he was in one anyway.
James kept remembering how father's last words to him. It wasn't hard really.
'I'll see you at home James. I'm going to help. You look after you're mother alright?'
James shook his head, trying to get rid of the image that had flashed across his mind.
He had thought his father was coming home. His dad had said that he would see him when he got home. But he never did.
He never came home.
James couldn't get the feeling of thinking his father knew it was going to be the last time he'd ever see his son again. But then again, Danny always said that before going off to fight. He always told James to look after his mum and James would promise to do so.
But now that moment seemed as if it happened years and years ago, instead of three nights.
James wanted to believe his father would come barging in and jumping on his bed and making him wake up but somehow he just couldn't make himself think that that would happen again. Because it wouldn't and it wouldn't be healthy to hope such things.
'Everything happens for a reason right?'
'Right you are dear' his mirror in the corner of his room replied and eventually he closed his eyes and went to sleep.
-
'Sirius what's going on?' a tired Becky said groggily as Sirius climbed through her window.
He shrugged as she pulled him into a tight hug.
'I've been worried about you' she whispered softly.
He nodded, and sat on the end of her bed.
'I had to get out of there. I'm sorry to wake you-'
'It's okay. I'm actually glad you came. I was going to come by and see you in the morning. All of you actually and even Lily. She hasn't been answering any mail lately'
'I don't think anyone would really, especially not after what happened. What's the time anyway?' Sirius asked hoping to avoid anymore talk about the situation with Danny.
'12 exact' she replied looking at her bedside clock.
Sirius felt a knot tighten in his stomach. He would have gone downstairs to have his midnight feast and chat with Danny right about now.
'Hey Sirius do you wanna spend the night? You don't wanna go back there and I wouldn't be able to sleep because I'd be too worried about you' Becky told him softly and he looked at her and smiled.
'Thanks Becks. I'll sleep on the fl-'
'Don't be stupid' she said and got back into bed patting the spot next to her. Sirius hesitated before hopping in next to her and pulling the blanket over them both.
They lay there in silence for awhile until-
'Everything will be okay won't it?' Sirius asked softly.
Becky didn't know what to say.
'I hope so' she said finally.
'Goodnight Becky. And thanks again'
'Night Sirius'
They rolled over, and one by one they fell asleep.
-
Remus walked into his bedroom and stopped by the door, watching Emm sleep.
He had just been in the kitchen drinking a cup of hot chocolate.
This one time when Remus had gone over to visit James and Sirius in their sixth year (Sirius had been staying the night) Remus got up and went downstairs for a drink of water and came upon Sirius and Danny talking and eating. Remus sat down with them and Danny suggested having some hot chocolate so he got up and made some and it was the best hot chocolate Remus Lupin had ever tasted in his entire life.
And from then on it became a kind of ritual, whenever Remus was over Sirius, Danny and he would sit around and sip hot chocolate and just talk.
Even though Remus often begged Danny to tell him how he made them taste so good Danny replied with; 'A magician never reveals his tricks' and it was left at that.
Right now Remus was craving some of that hot chocolate.
He sighed as he walked over to his side of the bed and sat down on it and looked outside the window.
It wasn't full moon for another couple of days, and then he'd have to go to his parent's house to transform.
He shivered at the thought of leaving Emm here all alone. But it had to be done, she couldn't go with him it was too dangerous.
He lay back down on his bed and looked at the ceiling, wishing he could have some of the hot chocolate Danny used to make.
But Remus knew he'd never taste it again, and what was even more hurtful was the fact that he'd never see the 'magician' who used to make it ever again. Remus missed Danny. They were pretty close and Danny had seemed excited about Remus and Emm getting engaged. Danny had even told everyone at Petunia's reception and a few congratulated him.
Yes, he would miss Danny, a lot. But he knew there were other people who would really, really miss the man everyone had come to love and care for. The man people respected, and liked. The man who had survived so much.
-
Sirius rolled over and checked Becky's clock.
It read 10 am and he groaned.
'What's up?' Becky asked as she swung around to face him on her rotating chair that had come with her computer.
'Nothing. Just really tired that's all. How long have you been awake?'
Becky smiled as she turned back to her computer screen and typed something in.
'Awhile. I thought you could use the sleep in'
'Thanks'
'So I was thinking. Do you wanna go get some breakfast at the café down the road? And maybe we could go for a walk around town'
Sirius shrugged. 'Sounds good' his stomach rumbled and they laughed.
'Well I'm going to get dressed. If you want you can go home ad get dressed and come back here'
Sirius shrugged once more. 'Okay. I'll see you soon'
He stood up and Apparated away.
Becky stood staring at the spot he had just left and sighed.
-
'Lily!'
Lily rolled over and pulled her head underneath her beloved doona.
'Lily wake up!'
She groaned and snuggled down further as the door opened.
'You have a visitor'
Lily sat up, frowning.
'Who?'
'She wouldn't say but she said for you to get dressed. She's taking you somewhere'
Lily's frown deepened. 'Thanks mum'.
She got up and grabbed her army shorts that Sirius had given her and a red t-shirt.
She decided to plait her hair and then looked in the mirror.
She didn't look too bad. She grabbed her flip-flops and hurried down the stairs two at a time.
When she reached the bottom her jaw dropped.
'Carly? What are you doing here?'
Carly Wade smiled at her.
'Come on. I'm taking you somewhere'
'Why?'
'Don't ask questions. Come on' Carly walked over to the door and opened it, smiling. She walked out and Lily looked at her parents.
'Just make sure she doesn't have a shovel and some rope in the back of her car' her dad said with a small smile.
Lily nodded and told them she'd see them later and followed in Carly's foot steps and shut the front door.
She walked over to Carly's Aquarius Blue Volkswagen Convertible and stopped in front of it. She leaned over and looked in the back.
'What are you doing?' Carly asked from the front seat.
'Just checking for a shovel and some rope. Oh and a hack saw'
'Found any yet?' Carly replied smiling.
Lily shook her head. 'I guess it's safe to ride with you then… unless of course they're in the boot'
Carly laughed. 'You're funny now get in' Lily got into the passenger's side and they backed down the driveway, feeling more curious by the second.
-
'Remus are you okay?' Emm asked later on that morning.
'Huh? Oh yeah I'm fine'
Emm frowned as she walked over and sat next to him on the couch.
'You look worried. Is it because you're transformations coming up?'
'Oh damn! I was real close to getting away with it wasn't I?' he asked and she chuckled.
'Not really. You want to tell me what's on you're mind?'
'Danny I guess. It's just really, really weird. I mean, Danny was one of the best Aurors. How could he just… die?'
Emm shrugged. 'I don't know. I'm not sure how he died exactly'
Remus sighed. 'And plus I'm worried about James and Sirius. Oh and Lily and Heather. I think I'll go see them. Wanna come with?'
Emm nodded. 'I'll just grab my jacket'
Remus stood up and walked over into the small kitchen and grabbed The Daily Prophet and looked at the front page.
It was a picture of the street where the Death Eaters had attacked. There were people running everywhere, fear evident on their faces. Remus's eye caught someone, and he looked at it closer. It was Danny. He was fighting someone and there were tonnes of people running around in black cloaks with masks but there were even more Muggles.
Remus read the headline which said; Death Eaters Raid Muggle Street in London! Remus sighed as he leafed through the paper and came across and big picture of Danny and Moody at a banquet the Ministry had had a year ago.
The caption above it read; Auror Killed in Act of Heroism… Remus frowned and read over it, but all it said was that Danny had died and that he was taken hostage but it didn't say anything about how Danny had died. Remus chucked the paper back onto the counter.
'Emm! Have you got you're jacket yet?'
'Yeah I'm coming! I just had to put on some shoes' she walked out of the bedroom and smiled.
'Come on, we'll walk. It's not that far'
Remus nodded. 'Sure okay. I don't mind walking'
Together they set off down the path, hand in hand.
-
'Okay so, how is James?' Becky asked once they'd given their orders to the waitress.
'I don't know. He doesn't leave his room. I tried talking to him once but he just ignored me. And Heather's pretty much the same, except she cries'
Becky sighed. 'What about Lily?'
Sirius shrugged. 'She hasn't come around, and I haven't gone over to see her yet. I was thinking about doing that today. She's probably stuck in her room thinking or whatever'
Becky watched him closely. 'You know, you seem to be taking it better from what I heard. Emm told me Remus came to see you and she said you didn't say much'
Sirius shrugged yet again. 'I guess Danny would rather me be happy then sad'
Becky nodded. 'You're a good guy Sirius. Danny would be proud of you'
Sirius smiled at her and Becky gasped.
Sirius looked around in alarm.
'What?'
'Is that a smile? Is Sirius Black actually smiling?'
Sirius stuck his tongue out at her. 'Funny'
'You know I missed you're smile'
He looked her in the eye. 'Why?'
'Because it's contagious'
'Okay so should I feel insulted, or disgusted that you missed a smile that's contagious?'
Becky laughed. 'No! I mean… whenever I see you smile, I wanna smile too even if I'm upset or mad. I missed it'
'Okay so it's contagious in a good way. Crazy'
Becky smiled at him and he just winked.
-
'Okay since you don't have the tools to kill me with you at this moment I'm taking a guess and I'd say that they're waiting for me at wherever it is you're taking me to'
Carly shook her head as she parked the car outside of the mall.
'You're going to kill me here?' Lily asked as she got out.
'No. I'm just taking you shopping'
'Wait' Carly turned to look at her.
'I don't get this. Why are you being weirdly nice to me all of a sudden?'
Carly thought for a moment, wondering what to say.
'Okay, since I haven't given you any reason in the past to trust me I don't blame you for being curious'.
'You forgot strongly suspicious'
Carly smiled.
'I was thinking, that maybe if you want to we could have a truce'
Lily frowned at her.
'A truce? You and me?'
'Well I don't see anyone else around here, do you?'
Lily grinned but then she stared at her, growing even more suspicious.
'What's the catch?'
'No catch'
'No humiliating me, no trying to kill me…?'
'Nope. Just… friends. Hanging out'
Lily contemplated her words for a minute.
'And from what I hear, you could use a friend'
Lily sighed. 'Well okay. But if this is boring I'm going home'
'Trust me, this won't be boring' Carly smirked and Lily frowned.
'You do realize that sounds completely odd when you're telling me to trust you right?'
'I thought we were friends'
Lily shrugged. 'Just had to point that out'
'Yeah I'm sure you did. Come on, I'm pretty sure standing around here would class as "boring" in many ways'
'Okay, let's go'
The two walked off in the direction of the entrance, feeling weird that the two were actually getting along.
-
'Are Lily's parents insane or did they just tell us that Lily Evans is hanging out with Carly Wade?'
Remus shrugged. 'Who knows? Maybe the death of Danny unhinged them or something'
Emm shook her head. 'I just don't get it! It doesn't make sense! Why would Lily hang out with her sworn enemy?'
'You do remember James was her sworn enemy until they got it on right?' Emm laughed at Remus who smiled as they walked over to the back door of the Potter's house.
'Yeah I know but… Carly? There are tonnes of other people Lily could hang out with. It just really doesn't make sense'
'Not everything does. And I'm pretty sure you're parents will say the same when we tell them that their daughter married a werewolf'
'Oh don't remind me! You're mum and dad weren't too happy were they?'
'I have a slight suspicion that you're will be worse'
Emm sighed.
'Well here's to hoping we can get James to talk'
'Hopefully'
They walked inside and hurried up the stairs. They reached their friend's room and knocked on it three times but there was no answer.
'James? It's Emm and Remus. Can we come in?'
If Remus hadn't known James well he would have said he was "out" but he knew him better then that.
'Maybe he wanted some fresh air'
'Or maybe he's ignoring us' Remus told her before opening the room.
James was lying on his bed staring at the ceiling.
Remus and Emm walked in, looking around the room.
'Whoa, I knew I should have brought my camera' Remus said trying to lighten the mood.
If James had heard him he made no effort to sow he had.
'Hi James. We just wanted to see how you are' Emm said crawling onto the bed and sat next to him.
James spared her a glance.
'Fine'
His voice was hoarse, and even Remus could tell that James had lost the use of it considering he hadn't uttered a word to him the other day.
'You know, a lot of people say that but nine times out of ten they don't really mean it' Emm said in a soft voice.
'I don't remember calling a shrink' James snapped and Emm closed her eyes briefly.
'I just want to talk to you, see how you are' she replied and he rolled his eyes.
'Well I already told you. I'm fine'
'Prongs-'
'Close the door on you're way out' James said interrupting his friend. Remus nodded.
'C'mon Emm. Let's go. We'll see you later mate' the door closed and James sighed.
It wasn't easy pushing everyone out of his life, especially when he wanted just one person to make it all better.
-
'So, do you mean to say that you're ditching me to go baby-sit for a couple of snot-rags?' Sirius asked as he and Becky walked towards his house a few hours later.
'No I mean to say that I took on this job so I could earn some easy pocket money'
He grinned. 'Poor you. Maybe you should put a sleeping spell over them and then run away with me, and then come back just in time for the parents and they won't know a thing'
'Right and what am I supposed to say if they come home early, which they hinted they might?'
'Just say you hung the washing for them'
'And if I didn't?'
'Just make a quick escape'
Becky laughed and sighed.
'I'm gonna be worried about you Sirius'
'Why? It's not like I'm going to rob a bank or anything'
Becky chuckled. 'This coming from a Marauder? Sounds a little scary. Maybe I'm right to worry'
Sirius sighed. 'Alright. How about, I come see you tomorrow?'
'Oh… no late night appearances outside my window?'
'Nope not tonight. I think I'll brave the nightmares'
Becky smiled at him as she stopped in front of his house.
'If you need anything, anything at all-'
'I'll be sure to go to you first'
Becky sighed. 'Well okay. Truthfully I hate leaving you here on your own'
'I'm not alone, there's James and Heather…'
'Hmpf sure. Well you know where I live'
'Alright, bye Becky. Thanks for well… everything'
'No problem. Anytime' she hugged him tightly before giving him another concerned look and Apparating back home.
Sirius sighed.
He was on his own now…
-
'Oh my gosh Lily! You so totally need to wear mini-skirts more often! They show off you're legs and you look great!' Carly said grinning.
Lily looked at herself in the mirror.
'I'm not sure…'
'Trust me, it's worth the buy. And besides you always wear those army shorts and jeans. I think James might like this'
Lily stiffened and Carly froze.
'Is everything okay Lily?' she asked softly.
Lily nodded. 'Yeah! Everything is… fine'
'Oh no. Tell what's on you're mind'
Lily sighed and they sat down but she sprang back up.
'I'll get changed and tell you at the same time' she said going back into the change room.
Lily sighed. 'I haven't seen him since the night we found out about… well Danny'
Carly's eyes widened as Lily walked out holding the skirt and passing it to the sales lady and giving her a sincere smile.
'Why not? Everything's okay right?'
Lily turned around and sighed.
'I don't know. I just… haven't been in the mood to see anyone lately. But then you showed up and practically forced me to come so…'
'Not having fun?' Carly asked with a smile as she grabbed a red halter neck top and walked into the changing room Lily had just left.
'It is fun… just odd'
'Okay you've being saying that for the past hour! Yeah it's odd, but you'll get over it' she said as she came back out and looked in the mirror.
Lily smiled. 'That looks great on you… you should buy it'
'Only if you buy that mini-skirt…'
'Nuh uh. No way'
'Oh come on!'
'I wear jeans and army patterned shorts Carly'
'Evans… it's a denim skirt'
Lily groaned. 'Okay but only if you stop badgering me about it!'
'Yay! Oh my god this is definitely the shirt for you'
Lily laughed as Carly pulled out a shirt that would cover one of her shoulders. It had an island print on it and it looked pretty cool.
'Go try this with that skirt'
'Okay then. Only if you try out that fairy costume'
'Deal' Lily burst into laughter as Carly gabbed it.
'What? Anything to get you into those awesome clothes that will look totally super awesome on you'
Lily shrugged and ran into the changing room, forcing her to go into the next one.
-
'I feel so tired… and worried. About James. And not just James but Lily too' Emm said as she laid down onto the bed and Remus stood there with his hands on his hips.
'James will come through. And Lily. Hell they all will. They're strong. The lot of them'
Emm nodded and sat up.
'Okay so why did you get up in the middle of the night?'
Remus sighed and sat on the bed too and she wrapped her arms around his neck.
'I was drinking hot chocolate. But I just couldn't get it the way Danny makes it. I've tried and tried again but… every time I try it just slips further and further away… almost like Danny was meant to be the only one to make it'.
Emm nodded slowly. 'How about we go out and get tea? I'm not in the mood to make anything'
'Alright. C'mon Mrs. Vance-Lupin. Off to the fast food shop we go'
Emm grinned as Remus grabbed a jacket out of his cupboard and turned back around.
'Well what are you waiting for? C'mon let's go!'
Emm got up and followed him out of the room.
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'Well, well. If it isn't James David Potter lying around in his room doing nothing except stare at the ceiling. And thinking. Which in my opinion of having knowing you for years is actually quite unnerving because I was pretty sure you didn't know how to think. Clearly I was wrong'
James sighed.
'What do you want Sirius?'
'Nothing. I just wanted to-'
'See how I was doing? Well get in line'
Sirius frowned at the bitterness in his best friend's voice.
'Alright what's up? You know people only check on you to see how you're doing'
'Whatever. As far as I'm concerned you're all wasting you're time'
'I stayed at Becky's last night. I couldn't sleep. Hope that's okay with you' Sirius said sitting on the bed.
James crossed his arms.
'Whatever. I don't care. You can do whatever you want it doesn't worry me'
'Are you going to tell me or make me guess?'
James shrugged.
'It's because Lily hasn't dropped by to see you isn't it?'
James sat up and glared at Sirius.
'No it's not about that. Frankly it's none of you're business'
'Well Lily's hurting to so maybe that's why she hasn't come to see you'
'Right now I don't give a damn'
His best friend sighed as he watched James glower at him.
'I think you do'
'Whatever. Close the door when you leave'
Sirius stood up and walked over to the mentioned door.
'James don't push away the people you care about. We're all here. All you have to do is say something and they'll come and help you through this. And I'm right down the hall. You do remember where my room is right?'
James rolled over and faced his back to Sirius who sighed.
'See you later' he said and shut the door and went to his own room, opening it and sitting down on his bed, looking around at all four walls bearing pictures… memories.
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'Lily! You're home later then expected. Did you have fun?' her mother asked as she entered her house carrying shopping bags.
'Surprisingly yes' she replied as she headed for the stairs.
'Didn't kill you then?' her father asked this time.
Lily turned to look at him.
'Surprisingly no'
And with that she turned and hurried up the stairs and shut herself in her room.
'At least she's talking more' Mr. Evans told his wife who was looking at the spot where Lily had just been standing with worry etched on to her face.
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Lily took her new clothes out and looked at them smiling. They were different, and new. She folded them and put them into her cupboard when there was a knock on the door. She sighed as she went and opened it, expecting her parents but instead saw Sirius leaning in the door way.
'Sirius' she said softly as he pulled her into a tight friendly hug.
'How are you Lils?' he asked as he went and sat on her chair and she closed the door.
'I'm fine'
Sirius stared at her. 'You know that word is getting a bit worn out. That's what I've been saying lately too'
Lily nodded and sat on her bed. Sirius turned his to the side, contemplating on something.
'What?'
'Why haven't you visited?'
Lily sighed and put her head in her hands.
When she looked up, she saw he had an intense look in his eyes.
'Because I'm afraid that if I go back there I'll be bombarded with memories. But I get them here too so…'
'Well then it must be something other then memories you're avoiding if you still get them here'
'Sirius…'
'Lily he needs you. He's not communicating with anyone. And I know he misses you, he's just in a really dark place right now'
'Join the club' Lily muttered and he couldn't help but smile.
'Did you go shopping?' he asked gesturing towards the bags lying on her floor.
'Um yeah I did… with Carly'
Sirius looked puzzled.
'Carly… Carly the one who kissed James, Carly?'
'Yeah the same Carly that wanted a truce between us. And took me shopping'
'Lily-'
'Look if it helps I checked for killing utensils… and there weren't any hence the fact I'm still alive and talking to you'
Sirius sighed. 'You believed her?'
'Yeah. I did. I do'
'You know what she's like… it might be a trick'
Lily stared at him.
'I don't think so'
'Just be really careful. I know what she's like and-'
'Maybe you should give her the benefit of the doubt like I did. And I found a friend in her who took me away from the pain. But then as soon as she dropped me here I felt the sharp pain all over again'
Sirius couldn't help but realize she didn't use the word "home".
'You still miss Hogwarts?'
'Not as much as I miss Danny' she replied solemnly.
'Look I didn't come here to lecture you or anything. I just wanted to see you, I needed to. I've missed you'
'I missed you too, buddy' Lily replied and patted the bed beside her and he sat there.
'Tell me how you've really being feeling' he said softly as he sat back against the wall and Lily crawled over and sat next to him.
'Scared… and alone. More alone then ever. And for awhile I forgot that. But then it just hit me like a stack of bricks as soon as I got back…'
A tear slipped down her cheek and Sirius wiped it away.
'It'll be okay, I promise'
'That's what Danny did. He promised me we'd all get out, together. And he isn't here'
'Lils-'
'You can't promise that Sirius, you just can't'.
He sighed.
'You want me to stay here with you tonight?'
Lily nodded. 'I'd love to feel safe for a night'
He smiled and pulled her into a hug.
'We are going to get through this. Together. I promise you, little sis'
She smiled as tears fell thick and fast down her face, and as much as he didn't want to Sirius even let a single lone tear escape.
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A/N; Okay! So, this was a pretty sad chapter, mixing different emotions but the next one will be pretty hard too. As much as it kills to have had Danny die at least he's still living on through them. And they have memories and stuff so… um yeah.
Alright I just wanted to thank you guys so much for reading and reviewing last chapter. It really meant a lot to me. Actually all reviews mean a lot to me so… yeah.
So I hope you tune in to the next one and once again sorry to the lateness. I guess I had a bit off Writer's Block. I've been thinking this chapter through my head and each time I thought about it, the thoughts sounded stupid so I eventually forced myself to try a little harder for you guys. Because you earned it.
Also another sad thing. I've got school coming up real soon. And that means erm… school really. I probably won't up date as often as I usually do, and since I'll get homework and assignments and stuff it'll be hard. But I'll try to get the next chapter up real soon, promise.
♥ LilyHeartsJames XOXOXO
PS; I have my firstest ever One Tree Hill fic put up so if any of you are OTH fans or you just want to check it out, it's in my profile and it's called Blood Brothers; It's about the fishing trip Lucas went on with Keith and Karen and he hooks his thumb and Keith and he become blood brothers.
So if you guys could check it out I'd really appreciate it and any comment is welcome! ♥ Thanks a bunch! ♥
PPS; In chapter nine when McGonagall first entered the office I accidentally had her call Voldemort by his name. Very sorry about that but I temporarily forgot about it until I saw it just recently and thought; 'Oh Sh!t' and decided to explain here. How about we just pretend she called him; 'You-Know-Who' or 'He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named', which ever you prefer.