Chapter 16… Finally!
Disclaimer: Jk Rowling is the genius who created it. I'm just the crazy obsessed fan!
Dedication: Hmmm… the people who had to wait for a long time for this. SORRY!
Notes: Okay so I said I'd update soon. If it wasn't for school and assignments I would have. Honestly it isn't my fault. Sort of. And plus I was kinda lazy and had a bit of writer's block. But whatever, I'm back now so let's just skip to the part where you read the actual chapter and not my excuses for the delay.
Thanks to those who read, reviewed and waited.
MAKE SURE TO READ THE BIT AT THE END OF THE CHAPTER. VERY IMPORTANT!!
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It was raining. Thankfully. It hadn't rained in awhile. And Lily Evans loved the rain.
She would sit at her window, and watch the droplets of water fall and hit the window, the ground…
This was what she was doing now.
She looked down at her stomach which was slowly growing.
She was four months pregnant already, how time had flown by so fast.
She looked up at the sound of knocking and she absentmindedly stroked her tummy softly.
"Come in" she called and Carly Wade walked in, smiling.
"Hey mum" she said jokingly and Lily rolled her eyes.
"Hi. What're you doing here?"
Carly sat on her bed and looked around the room before answering.
"I came to see you, duh"
Lily shook her head.
"Something wrong?"
Carly looked up and met Lily's sparkling emerald eyes.
"Sirius is still holding onto photos of his ex-girlfriend"
Lily stood up and walked over to her bed.
"You mean his ex-girlfriend as in one of my best friends?"
Carly nodded and Lily sat down beside her and sighed.
"What Sirius had with Becky was… special to him. Becky was his first long term relationship, Carly. And they're friends. Maybe he's only holding onto them because they're still friends" Lily told her and Carly shrugged.
"Maybe… maybe not"
Lily sighed and lay back on her bed.
"Have you talked to him about it?"
Carly blushed, which looked odd to Lily. Since when did Carly blush?
"Well… we don't exactly talk if that's what you mean"
Lily groaned.
"Ew, I just pictured the two of you-"
"No not that! We haven't… well we haven't even had sex yet"
"Oh… and is that a bad thing?"
Carly smirked and sighed.
"Well it is to me… I want to, I'm just not sure he wants to"
"Why do you think that is?"
"Becky was the last girl he's been with right?"
"Carly-"
"And I know he still likes her. I can feel it. I just know it"
"Well why don't you ask him about that?"
"Because I'm afraid of what the answer might be"
Lily sat up and pulled Carly into a hug.
"I'm sure Sirius cares about you. But Becky was there for him a lot when Danny died… Becky is always there for him"
Carly nodded and pulled away.
"Look at me… I'm being stupid"
Lily shook her head. "Not really… just confused and scared"
Carly smiled.
"Have you seen James today?"
Lily shook her head, frowning.
"Why?"
"I saw him in Diagon Alley… he was with a girl"
Lily frowned deeply.
"Maybe it was-"
"It wasn't his mum, Becky, Emm or your mum for that matter, and since it wasn't you because you haven't seen him today, maybe-"
"Maybe she's just a friend"
Carly shook her head. "It didn't look like it… she had straight blonde hair and they hugged and he kissed her cheek"
Lily rolled her eyes.
"Are you trying to say James is cheating on me?"
Carly sighed. "I don't want to, but it looks that way"
Lily sighed this time.
"I suppose you would know" Lily told her smirking.
Carly slapped her leg and Lily laughed.
"That is not funny"
"You're right, it's hilarious"
Carly stuck her tongue out at her.
"Look, all I'm saying is that you should ask him about her"
"I trust him Carly… James wouldn't cheat on me"
Carly nodded. "If that's what you want to believe. I'm gonna go. I have to go get ready; my mum's taking me to visit my cousins"
Lily smiled. "Okay well have fun"
"I'll see you later" Carly said and got up and left.
Lily waved and continued smiling until Carly closed the door and her smiled faded.
James wasn't cheating on her, was he?
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Sirius walked into the kitchen and grabbed out a bottle of blue powerade. He had just got back in from flying and was feeling pretty thirsty. He opened the fridge back up just as he was about to drink his drink and noticed for the first time that Danny's chocolate cheesecake was gone.
Someone had thrown it out, unless they decided to eat the off cheesecake.
Sirius shuddered at the thought of someone eating it.
"Hey Padfoot" James said walking down the stairs and entering the kitchen.
Sirius looked up and nodded, frowning.
"What's up?" James asked as he grabbed the Nutella and a spoon.
Sirius shook his head and said; "did you throw out Danny's cheesecake?"
James raised an eyebrow and shook his head.
"No, why?"
"Because it's gone. Did you eat it?"
James snorted. "It was off, and plus it was dad's"
Sirius nodded. "Heather must've thrown it out"
"To tell you the truth, I'm kind of relieved. That cheesecake really started to smell"
Sirius looked up and smirked at him.
"Like your arm pits?"
James laughed. "No like your crack"
Sirius rolled his eyes.
"I've told you to stop sniffing my butt Prongs, obviously you just can't keep away"
James chuckled. "Number one, ew. Number two, dude that's just grose and number three, I aint ever smelling another person's bum"
Sirius grinned. "Sure… now"
James sighed and sat down on the stool by the bench.
"Hey Padfoot, can I ask you a question?"
Sirius nodded. "Other then that one? Sure"
"Do you think it's bad that Lily's pregnant?"
Sirius smiled.
"Nope. What other fatty would I tease if she wasn't?"
"Shut it Padfoot, she's not fat"
Sirius laughed his usual bark like laugh.
"Dude, I don't know why you keep denying it. You're gonna have the chubbiest baby ever"
"Shut up! I am not! Lily's only four months along idiot"
"I know. But it's better if I exaggerate"
"Wow, I never imagined you'd admit that you exaggerate Padfoot"
Sirius smiled and said; "So Emm told me Becky's like, trying to get one of her songs published"
"Becky sings?" James asked frowning.
Sirius nodded. "That's what Emm told me"
"Hmmm… Becky Taylor, my cousin the singer. I never imagined it"
Sirius smiled and leaned against the bench.
"Yeah Emm told me she has a really good voice but no one has wanted to publish her song yet"
James nodded. "That sucks"
Sirius suddenly changed the conversation, leaving James shocked.
"So where were you this morning?"
"Huh? Oh yeah I went into Diagon Alley"
Sirius frowned at him.
"Why?"
James shrugged.
"I had to get something back from a friend that's all"
Sirius nodded, but he knew that there was more to the story and James wasn't telling him the complete truth.
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"Remus… I was just thinking. About how we aren't going to have kids"
Remus looked up from the newspaper he was reading and frowned.
"What about it?" he asked quickly.
Emm didn't want to bring it up; she knew how hurt he was about not having kids. He wanted them; he just wouldn't risk them turning into Werewolves.
"Maybe… maybe we could… adopt"
Remus' head snapped upwards to see her face and he knew she was serious about the matter.
"A-adopt?"
Emm nodded. "That way we can have a kid but they won't have… you know…"
Remus looked back down at his paper and pretended to be reading it.
"Remus? Tell me what you think"
"I'm not sure that would be a good idea"
Emm frowned. "Why not?"
"Nobody in their right mind is going to let a Werewolf adopt children"
He got up and walked over to the door.
"Remus, I'm sorry I just-"
The door slammed and she sighed.
"I just wanted to know what you thought" she finished the sentence and picked up the paper and saw an article about Werewolves.
She frowned at it and her eyes flicked over the lines quickly.
"Werewolves should not be given the chance to have children at all" says spokesperson Regina Atwood, a Children Rights worker from the Ministry. "They should not be given the chance to contaminate innocent children's lives with the horrible disease. They don't ask for it, nor do they want it and the entire Wizarding world surely doesn't want it"
When spoken to Bobby Lang, the Head of Department for the Rights and Safety for Wizarding and Muggle Children, it was to be reported that Werewolves are not allowed to either have their own or adopt due to the risky circumstances. They say that by having their own 'young' as Werewolf cubs are often referred to, they will have a 95 percent chance of giving the disease to their young. If adopting, the child would be put at risk with living with one and are at the very high risk of being bitten and contaminating the world further.
"Werewolves are disgusting, horrible creatures who go around killing people left right and center and we won't have anymore" Atwood added.
Mr. Lang then said; "A registered Werewolf who goes by the name of Remus Lupin recently married a pureblood non Werewolf a few months ago. Our workers and I are working very hard to push the ban of Werewolves not being allowed to marry anyone. They have already been banned from having and adopting children and we do not want to put anyone at risk"
The werewolf Remus Lupin who was bitten by Fenrir Greyback as a child recently eloped with Emmaline Vance. Vance's parents are saying that she is just a silly little girl who made a mistake of marrying Lupin. They also said that Lupin must have somehow tricked Vance into marrying him and they cannot believe their daughter would go and do such a dangerous thing and-
Emm looked up from the paper and she wiped away a few tears. How could these people be so cruel to her husband? Remus didn't choose to be a Werewolf, it wasn't his fault. He was bitten at a young age and didn't deserve what had happened to him. He was a good person with a loving heart. She didn't know how people like that could treat Remus and other Werewolves as if they didn't have a right to fall in love, get married and have children.
She had to do something about this for her husband's sake.
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Becky sighed as she walked down the road grumbling.
Had she just made a mistake?
"Becky!"
Becky turned and saw Remus heading towards her and she smiled and waved.
"Hey Remus"
"What are you up to?" he asked as he fell into step with her.
Becky shrugged. "Nowhere" she said truthfully.
She wasn't sure if she meant her music career or her destination.
"Emm told me about the whole music thing, it sucks that no ones taking your song at the moment"
Becky shrugged yet again. "There are worse things in life"
No kidding, Remus thought moodily.
"What's wrong with you? Full moon coming up?"
Remus chuckled. "No… not really"
"Did you see the Daily Prophet this morning then?"
Remus turned his head so sharply that his neck cracked.
He rubbed it and said; "Yeah. You saw it too huh?"
"Yep. Then I threw it out and canceled my subscription"
Remus grinned and shook his head.
"Thank you"
"I didn't do it for you. I did it because they didn't have the right chocolate mud cake recipe. They bloody never do"
"Oh…"
"I'm kidding Remus. Of course I canceled because of what they wrote. But the mud cake recipe is just added to the problem"
He sighed as they walked along and she knew something else was up.
"Care to tell me what else is on your mind Lupin?"
Remus knew he couldn't get past her with secrets.
"This morning Emm suggested adopting… before she read the Prophet"
Becky groaned. "Maybe we should do a Carly and grab out the old Torch and Pitchfork"
He laughed and shook his head.
"Emm wants us to have a family… but how can we? I'm not risking giving our child what I've got and we can't adopt because they're banning Werewolves from that oh and apparently I somehow manipulated and forced Emm to marry me"
"Her parents aren't very accepting. When they found out I was James Potter's cousin they went ballistic and tried to force Emm to stop being friends with me. Didn't work though"
"Was that because James and Sirius pranked Emm in first year?"
"Uhuh. She found out in our third and Emm told her it happened ages ago and said they should let it go because she had"
"She loves her parents thought. And it's my entire fault that they don't talk to her and that Emm won't get the life she wanted"
Becky groaned and stopped, grabbing Remus' arm.
"Come on. In here, I want a coffee"
Remus followed Becky into the small café and sat down at a booth. A waitress came waddling up and asked to take their orders and then stared at Remus.
Her eyes widened in fear and Remus looked away quickly, feeling ashamed.
"Don't be ashamed Remus. And stop string at him, its rude"
The waitress blushed and cleared her throat and took their orders and waddled away.
"It's not your fault Remus John Lupin. You didn't make her parents stop talking to her that was their choice. And Emm wants to be with you. She loves you and that's all that matters"
Remus smiled appreciatively at her and she smiled back.
"Thanks Becky"
"No problem"
The waitress came back with their coffees and they sat there in silence for awhile just drinking until Remus asked; "You went to see a record label guy to see if he'd take your song right?"
Becky sighed and then nodded.
"Yeah I did"
"They didn't want it did they?"
Becky smiled sadly.
"Nope"
"Something will come through, I know it"
Becky nodded and smiled.
"You want to hear my song?"
Remus grinned. "Sure"
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"So I was wondering when you'd come around" Sirius said looking up from his bed as Carly walked in and sat on it. He sat up a little bit and smiled at her.
"I need to ask you something" Carly told him and he nodded.
"Sure go ahead"
Carly sighed and closed her eyes but opened them again.
"I feel like I have the right to know"
Sirius frowned at her, feeling confused.
"I don't understand. Right to know what?"
"I
want to know if, you love me"
Sirius stared at her, unsure of
what to say.
"I need to know" she said softly.
Sirius looked over at the wall of the picture of Becky and Carly did too.
He looked back at her and opened and closed his mouth.
"Because if its Becky you love then I guess I could live with that" she told him, her voice cracking just a little bit.
"What's going on Carly? Why are you asking me that?"
"I just… need to know if it's me that you want. If it's me that you love, that's all"
Sirius sighed and put his head in his hands before looking back up at her.
"Carly, you're a great person. You're caring, and you never used to be like that and-"
"Sirius just say what you want to say and stop hiding your heart"
Sirius stared at her before shaking his head.
"I'm sorry, Carly. I am, I just…"
Carly nodded and stood up, backing away.
"It's ok. I understand… I think" she whispered and turned to leave.
"Carly wait"
Carly turned to look at him, a tiny flicker of hope rising up inside of her.
"I really am sorry"
Carly sighed and closed her eyes.
"Just so you know… I do love you. But I understand Sirius, I do. I'll get over it"
She closed his door and walked down the stairs and hurried outside. She ran over to Lily's house and knocked on her front door.
Mr. Evans answered it and allowed her to come in.
She ran up the stairs and knocked on Lily's door before being told to come in.
Becky was sitting on Lily's bean bag chair and Emm was lying on her bed. Lily was sitting on the floor sorting through cd's.
"Oh… I'm sorry I just thought… Well I didn't know you guys would be here so I'll just go"
Carly turned to leave but Lily called out her name.
"Carly, stay with us"
Carly froze, debating whether she should.
"Tell us what's wrong" Emm told her and Carly turned and walked back over and sat on the bed.
"Sirius and I broke up"
Lily looked up from her cd collection and dropped a case my accident.
"What?" she asked, confused.
"He doesn't want me" she said and glanced at Becky before looking away.
Becky sat there staring at Carly, wondering why she had looked at her like that. Almost as if she blamed her for their break up. But she didn't do anything. It wasn't her fault… was it?
"I really liked him… he was the one guy that I really liked… but I guess it was stupid of me to like him. He's Sirius Black after all"
Lily sighed and took hold of her hand.
"He cares about you, he has to"
Carly shook her head.
"He doesn't want me"
Becky looked out the window feeling awkward.
"This one time I wanted it to be special… the first time it wasn't just about sex and the first time where I actually cared about the guy I was with… But in the end it turned out the same. Hurting someone, which is something I do. You could even say it's my style"
Lily shook her head.
"Carly-"
"I swear Lily if you say I didn't hurt anyone I will slap you"
"Actually I was just going to ask if you wanted to stay for awhile" Lily told her and Carly sighed.
"I am such an idiot, thinking he cared about me"
"Hey, don't think like that. You're not stupid Carly" Emm told her and pulled her into a tight friendly hug.
Becky grabbed an Oreo biscuit and bit into it and Lily put on a cd by Maroon 5- She Will Be loved.
Carly looked up and smiled at Lily who smiled back.
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on you corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
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"Hi James" the blonde said with a smile.
He grinned at her and hugged her tightly.
"Hey Alex"
She pulled away and sighed.
"You sure you want to do this?"
He smirked. "Of course"
She took his hand and glanced around and then pulled him into her shop…
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Sirius sat staring at the photo of Becky and him and frowned. After they had broken up they had gotten close again. But when Sirius started dating Carly Becky had distanced herself from him. He started dating Carly to make Becky jealous but found Carly was actually a nice person now and that maybe she could help him get his mind of Becky.
But obviously he hadn't gotten rid of Becky.
"She's got that new bloke anyway" he muttered to himself.
"Who are you talking about?"
Sirius whipped around and saw Heather leaning on her doorframe and she was smiling fondly at him.
"Oh nothing" he replied and Heather looked a bit hurt but tried to hide it.
She went and sat on his bed and sighed.
"I saw Carly go home before. She wasn't here for long"
"Yeah she left"
Heather nodded.
"Why?"
Sirius shrugged. "No reason really. She just wanted to go home"
"Sirius I know you. I know when you're lying. And I thought we were close? We used to tell each other everything"
Sirius sighed and looked at her.
"She broke up with me because she realized I'm not over Becky"
Heather looked at Sirius with raised eyebrows.
"I take it she was pretty upset, she looked like she was about to cry"
Sirius groaned and lay back on his bed and stared at the ceiling.
"Chicks are so flipping complicated…!"
Heather chuckled and sighed.
"Why don't you tell Becky how you feel?"
Sirius sat up and shook his head.
"No way. She doesn't feel the same way"
"I think she does. I've seen the way she looks at you"
Sirius smiled.
"So do you really think she likes me?"
Heather shrugged. "Why don't you find out for yourself?"
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Sirius walked along the footpath towards Becky's house. She had been at Lily's before but had left shortly after. He knew this because he had asked Lily where she was.
And to make it worse Carly was there.
He had just smiled at her and she tried her best to smile back and then he said goodbye and left.
And then he ended up at Becky's house.
He walked over to her window and looked in and saw Becky with Robbie sitting on her bed making out.
Sirius' heart crushed into a million tiny pieces and he stepped back and leant against the wall.
His heart was breaking, it was aching…
He wanted Becky.
He loved Becky.
He was too late…
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"Are you sure about this?" Alex asked and James nodded.
"Positive"
"But what about-"
"Lily can't no. It's just our little secret"
Alex sighed. "Well ok, if you insist"
James walked over to the door.
"Thanks for everything Alex, I needed this. After everything that happened… well I just want to make things right"
Alex nodded and hugged him.
"I know. And you deserve to"
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Remus walked into the bedroom and saw Emm lying in bed staring at the ceiling.
As soon as she heard Remus' footsteps she sat up and gave him a worried look.
"I was afraid you wouldn't come home"
Remus leant against the doorway smiling at her.
"I just had to clear my head. I'm sorry"
Emm shook her head softly.
"Don't be. It's not your fault"
Remus shrugged.
"If you don't want any of this anymore then you can just say so and I can leave. I can go live with James and Sirius and-"
"You'll do no such thing"
Remus stared at Emm, feeling slightly shocked.
"But you want kids Emm and I don't want to hold you back from your dreams"
Emm shook her head.
"I don't care about that. I love you, and sure, I want kids. But if having kids means giving up you then I'll never live with that. Because you mean more to me then anyone and anything else in the world Remus John Lupin"
Remus grinned and walked over and sat down on the bed and pulled her into a tight hug.
"I love you too"
She smiled happily as he changed out of his clothes and remained in only his boxers and got back into bed beside her. He lay back down and wrapped an arm around her shoulders and sighed.
"I'm not going anywhere" Emm whispered and Remus kissed her shoulder gratefully.
--
"James where are we going?"
James grinned as he pulled Lily into a restaurant and over to a man with a list.
"Hi. James Potter, table for two"
The man checked his list and looked back up and nodded.
"Right this way, sir"
The man took James and Lily over to a table which had a card that said; "RESERVED" and he picked it up and said; "Enjoy" and turned and walked off.
James pulled a chair out from the table and beckoned Lily over and she sat down and he went around the other side and sat down himself.
They picked up the menus and Lily said; "James this is really nice and everything, but… why are we here?"
James shrugged and looked away.
"No reason…"
Lily stared at him but he wouldn't look at her and she began to feel a bit uneasy.
What if what Carly had said was true?
Of course its not. James wouldn't do that to you.
James read over the menu and said; "I reckon I might get the chicken schnitzel"
Lily smiled at him and nodded.
"I think I'll get that too"
"Copy cat" he replied and she poked her tongue out at him.
"May I take your orders?" a waitress asked with a slight smiled and James nodded.
"Uh, two chicken schnitzels and… a white wine?"
Lily nodded in agreement and James turned to the waitress. "White it is"
She jotted that down and asked for desert and Lily grinned.
"Chocolate cheesecake?" James asked and Lily nodded eagerly.
The waitress jotted that down too and said; "It will be a twenty minute wait on the food"
James nodded and thanked her and she turned and left.
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"That was really nice James" Lily said awhile later as she set her spoon back onto her plate and sat back.
James grinned at his pregnant girlfriend and nodded.
"Yeah it was wasn't it?"
Lily nodded and suddenly sat straighter in her chair.
"James… there's something I want to ask you"
James straightened up himself and frowned at the sudden seriousness of her voice.
"What's up?"
"Carly came to see me this morning… she said she saw you in Diagon Alley, with a girl"
James nodded. "I was"
"Who is she?" Lily asked curiously.
"Her name is Alex and she's just a friend"
"Carly said that… you hugged her and then kissed her cheek"
James looked at Lily properly and saw a slight fear in her eyes and he sighed.
"Lily, Alex is just a family friend. I've known her for years"
Lily nodded. "Carly thinks you're cheating on me and I don't want to believe that but… I just, don't know what to think"
James sighed and shook his head.
"Lily I love you. And only you okay?"
Lily nodded but still seemed a little unsure.
"Why were you in Diagon Alley?"
James looked a bit annoyed and stood up.
"I had to get something that I sold to Alex ages ago, a few days after my dad died"
Lily frowned and James walked over to her and pulled something out of his pocket.
"I was going to wait, until after dinner but since you want to know why I was there…"
James suddenly kneeled onto one knee and opened a small deep green box and Lily gaped at him, her jaw left wide open.
"Oh my god" she murmured and James grinned at her.
"Marry me Evans"
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A/N: (Hides behind chair from torch and pitchforks)
I'M
SORRY!
But it's what I want to do.
And um… for the bad news…
Since my dad moved out he's been paying the phone and computer bill and uh… he's decided he can't keep doing it due to money issues and my mum won't pay it either due to money issues so that leaves only one thing.
The phone and computer are being switched off.
And as much as I don't like it there's nothing I can do.
So I won't be updating for a while, most likely a long time.
But I want to take this chance to thank you guys for reading and reviewing and also staying with me for the whole journey no matter how long you had to wait.
And I'm really sorry about this inconvenience but it's not my fault.
But if and when the computer comes back on I'll post another chapter for AVON and James and the Baby Sitter.
Thanks to all who've stuck with me, you're all amazing!
always and forever, LilyHeartsJames
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