No guys, i haven't disappeared or died. I just had a huge writers block for this and it took a bit of a backseat. Sorry! In case you'd forgotten, which is more than likely, so i put the last bit of the previous chapter here for you. Enjoy!

"No neither of you understand how it's been, first you're dead Jenny, and Ziva you know how bad that was for all of us, and then you leave Zee, it was hell. Gibb's may as well not exist, he sits he watches, but he doesn't respond, McGee is quieter than he was when he started NCIS, Abbey, hell she's not Abbey any more, no more loud music, her hair is down all the time, no lipstick, and she stares at pictures of Jenny and you all day, and me, well my heart broke every day you didn't walk out that elevator smiling at me." He finished, tears welling up in his eyes.

"So don't tell me you understand, or that you're sorry. I know why you did it, and I know you had no choice, but you weren't there for three months sat at a desk being fucking useless and not knowing what to do."

Tears were falling down Ziva's face, and Tony sat down on her bed, calm again and wiping the tears off her face, "I know you had to do it, and I'm sorry, it was just really, really bad without you. Both of you. I love you Zee, that's why it hurts so much," he whispered.

"But Jenny, I'm serious, you need to tell Gibbs, he needs you."

"How bad is it?"

"No Gibb's slaps, no jokes, not even a hint of a smile since your "death" he loves you."

That last comment took her by surprise.

"And I'm pretty sure you love him too."

Chapter 12

Tears shimmered in Jenny's eyes.

She couldn't bring herself to look either of them in the eye.

Ziva was looking at Jenny; calm, tranquil but expectant, and Tony was looking at Ziva, like he still couldn't believe she was there.

"Jenny?" She whispered quietly.

A tear finally escaped, and ran down her pale, delicate skin.

She just nodded, and that was all she had to do.

They both understood, and Ziva sighed, "You have to call him."

"You've changed your mind." Jenny said, a hint of accusation lacing her voice.

"I love Tony. Over three years, over three years that is how long I didn't tell him I loved him. It has been so much longer for you two, and it kills you to not tell them - you know that as well as I do." She said quietly.

Tony took Ziva's hand, a comforting gesture, "Ziva's right, the longer you don't tell him the more you'll hurt."

"He has to know you are alive, at least give him that." Ziva said.

"If I call him, I put his life in danger. Is that really what you want?"

"Of course not,"

"He'll come looking for me, and knowing Jethro he will find me and that won't do anyone any good."

"Jenny-"

"He could die, I can't be the one responsible for putting his life in danger, you have to understand that."

"Is it not better to put his life in danger – this is Gibbs, and give him something to live for?" Ziva asked her quietly.

"I couldn't live with my self if anything happened."

"He would rather know." Tony said.

"Do you think I don't know that? Of course I do, that doesn't mean I should tell him. He would be doing exactly the same for me. Do you have any idea how much persuasion it took me to get Ziva to call you Tony? If it was you in my position, and Ziva the one who was potentially in danger, her life was at risk, what would you do?"

Tony tightened his grip on Ziva's hand, but couldn't bring himself to answer.

"Exactly," she said, "You would do everything in your power to protect her."

"If it were me in Gibbs shoes I would want to know." Ziva said, "But Tony would not call me,"

Tony started to protest, "If you thought it would put me in danger, you wouldn't." She said smiling at him lovingly. "But, I still think you should call him."

"I call him, he's dead." She said.

"That's not true Jen," Ziva said quietly.

"It would make him as good as,"

"Gibbs can take care of himself," Tony said.

"If you do not call him, I will." Ziva said quietly.

"Ziva," she said, her eyes pleading.

"He needs to know,"

"I'm going for a walk," Jenny said sighing.

"Jen," Ziva said,

"Relax I won't be long, I, I need to clear my head and work out what I'm going to say. Please Ziva; I can't just ring him up right now." She searched her eyes, "I'm not going to run, if that's what you're worried about. And it'll give you two some time to talk,"

"Fine," Ziva said, looking over at Tony who nodded.

A few minutes later Jenny was gone out of the hospital room, and Ziva was in the middle of another check up from another nurse, when Tony's phone began to ring.

"Pick it up," Ziva said.

"Dinozzo," Tony said into his phone, and his eyes grew wide. Ziva looked at him curiously,

"Boss…. I can explain."

Please review! I really am sorry for not UDing. I have the next chapter already written...

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