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Authors Note: Thanks for the reviews. I had decided that I wouldn't wait for reviews, because if I did then I would lose interest and I wouldn't finish this lovely story. In fact, quite a few of the chapters had already been written up before I even posted the first one on Fanfiction. Get the goal in mind, or else I would be just as blind.
P.S. There is a chunk of this chapter, that you fanfiction folks can find on mediaminer just look me up as LookAtMe and the story name is the same or go to my profile for the url.
Love
Chapter Six:China
It had been two weeks since he had made his mistake, the mistake of letting his growing feelings show when she was still quite vulnerable. Now she was off in China with him and yet he couldn't stop thinking about her, even when he was working. He tried to bury himself in his work, to take his mind off of her, she was probably having a good time, enjoying the company of the man that she secretly but knowingly loved. To him this wasn't a revelation that he had just made, in fact he had painfully pushed away the small but significant feelings he had felt for her when he was still married to Sango, before she...
Then when he had been able to move on without taking any unnecessary steps back, he had let his feelings resurface in his mind, although by then Kagome had already become engaged to Kouga, but still had not discontinued the relationship that she had with Inuyasha. Now he wanted to kick himself, everytime he was brave enough to make a move his heart would be crushed. And he just wanted to scream out to her I LOVE YOU. So badly he wants to be there for her, and he's enjoying this chance to be apart of an unborn child's life again. When Sango had been alive and pregnant he spent a lot of time at work, trying to become more and more financially stable so they could give the baby anything and everything it would ever want.
For a year after Sango's death he had stayed in contact with Kohaku, but recently he had flown out of the states to do some schooling abroad, and he would tell him of what he was feeling and how he felt guilty. But it was nice to know that Kohaku did not get mad at him for trying to move on, he actually told him that he should make a move but he was never able to.
"What now?" He asked himself out loud, while running his hands through his hair. He then looked over at the clock and realized that he really needed to start getting ready for work, he had an hour before he had to be there. Once Kagome had left for China with Inuyasha, Miroku had burried his head into this new opportunity. His job now was to try and close a deal with Naraku, the president of Wendoma.
It wasn't as easy as he had thought it was going to be. This Naraku, was almost impossible to get a hold of, and when you were able to speak to him he was quite rude. As a matter of fact, he didn't really understand why his boss wanted to work side by side with this man in the first place, he was a real pain in the arse. Then again he had to admit, the man was a freaking genius, even if he didn't have proper manners.
China
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin you to beg me
Kagome was more or less, screaming/singing in the shower. Inuyasha had been keeping her so busy, that she needed to unwind and taking a shower was perfect. Yet she still had so much energy and this was all she could think of doing.
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt
I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me
She heard some movement outside of the bathroom door and she knew that Inuyasha was back from his trip downstairs. She knew that he was going to be joining her, and sure enough he opened the door. Though she didn't care, she kept screaming out the words to her hearts content.
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you crying
Feelin all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin
Inuyasha had quickly undressed and hopped into the shower to join Kagome, he was smiling at her while she stopped to giggle at her own actions, then she again began to sing.
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin you to be me
I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me.
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin
She didn't get to finish the phrase before Inuyasha had grabbed her and pulled her close and began kissing her, she couldn't help but let her hands roam all over his body, he was so toned and he felt so tense, but not nearly as tense as he had been feeling when they first arrived. Though before her thoughts could wander much further away from the situation at hand, Inuyasha had pushed her body against the wall of the shower, ravishing her body with kisses.
Kagome woke up to a dark room, with Inuyasha's head lying on her chest, and carefully she removed him from her body and rolled out of the bed to stand. Standing there she put her hands on her stomach. It had been two weeks since she had just up and left without a word to Miorku except saying that she was going to China with Inuyasha because she just needed some time away. By now she was six weeks along and still hadn't been to the doctor, she knew that she would have to go as soon as she got back. Though right there she had realized that something was wrong, rubbing her belly while staring at Inuyasha...she could just tell that her stomach had grown over the past two weeks, this was very strange. She instantly went to the bathroom to look at her stomach. Looking at the mirror she could see a small bulge where a once flat tummy used to be. She was shocked to say the least, from what she read she shouldn't start showing, well at least looking pregnant until she was almost thirteen weeks, and that was six weeks away.
She kept rubbing her belly and thinking, she was scared and she had no one to talk to about it here. Though Inuyasha and Kikyo were separated, and from the way Inuyasha had been talking to her, he was going to be filing for a divorce when they got back, she didn't want to tell him that she was carrying his first child.
"Oh no..." Quickly she shut the bathroom door and stuck her head into the toilet and released vomit. Though this time, it was different. It just kept coming and coming.
Kagome spent twenty to thirty minutes throwing up back to back into that toilet. And she thought to herself, I can't do this by myself. She began to sob to herself and at that moment she just wanted to curl up into a ball and fall asleep, but she knew she couldn't. She flushed the toilet for the last time, and exited the bathroom, heading back to the bed.
She crawled into the bed after she had grabbed a baggy t-shirt to cover her noticeably protruding belly. When she was under the covers and closing her eyes to go back to sleep, Inuyasha had crawled closer to her and wrapped his arms around her and began to whisper into her ear.
"I love you Kagome."
There it was, the words that she had wanted to hear for as long as she could remember but oddly enough it did nothing for her. And it dawned on her, that she didn't want him the way she had thought she had.
"But I don't love you." There she said it, and it was completley quiet. Inuyasha sat up in bed and turned the lamp on that was on the night stand and stared at her.
"What?"
"I've realized Inuyasha I don't love you, I though I did, I truley thought I did. There was no reason in my mind that could justify my relationship with you even though you were married to my sister Kikyo, except that I was in love with you. But I'm not, I just now realized that I'm not."
Inuyasha couldn't stand to hear what he was hearing.
"Don't be mad at me, you know that Kikyo will still take you back, there is still time. You love her and don't deny it. And I think it's your love for her that you're trying to redirect towards me, simply because you're hurt. And I guarantee you that Kikyo, she loves you so much, she probably hates herself right now for everything. I want you to come back to America with me tomorrow, and work things out with Kikyo."
"I'm not going back, not tomorrow at least. You can go, but I'm not going."
Kagome sat there staring at Inuyasha, and now that she knew for a fact that she wasn't in love with Inuyasha, she wasn't sure what she was going to do now.
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Miroku was reading the What To Expect When You're Expecting book that Kagome had been reading, she had left it here when she went to China because she didn't want Inuyasha to possibly find anything that indicated her pregnancy. He was just flipping through, he knew that she was at only six weeks now but he was looking ahead into the second trimester. He couldn't help but laugh at the image of Kagome at twenty weeks, when she would be having trouble getting out of bed, because he was sure by then she would be quite big even if she is normally a quite skinny girl.
He was still laughing when he heard the phone ring.
"Hello." He picked the phone up after the first two rings.
"Miroku, it's me, I'm coming home tomorrow."
"But, why?"
"Inuyasha told me that he loved me, and I realized I didn't love him back, and I told him. Then I told him that I felt that he should be trying to work it out with Kikyo. So to avoid the akwardness, I'm coming home early, I was going to wait for tomorrow, but he found me a red eye flight that leaves in an hour. Don't worry about coming to get me from the airport, I'll take a cab back to the house."
Miroku didn't even get to say anything before she had hung up the phone.
He had spoke to Kikyo after Inuyasha and Kagome had left and she had told him that she had stopped taking her pills because when Inuyasha got back, she had planned on getting him to come home to her with the thought of starting a family. He had wanted to tell Kagome about it, but she had hung up before he had gotten the chance to. But he was quite excited that she was coming back home, he wanted to apologize for his action, for he hadn't been able to apologize before she left.
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A/N: I know it's short but I didn't know what else to add, it just seemed right, right where it's at now.