We talked for a long time. Taking refuge in the space where huge windows once were we spoke to each other softly and confidently.
"I mean, I want to explore this, it makes me feel....er..."
"Alive," I said finishing her sentence.
"Yea, exactly, but no matter what it can never be more, you have caused me so much pain in my life, your the reason why my dad is dead, and your father was the reason why my mom is dead, and I will never ever in my life be able to forgive you fir that. You took everything away from me, and I think that's why I hate you so much, but now everything has changed, that kiss, it was...well im not sure, but it has tormented me for months. I hate myself for it. Red Mist, I can never forgive you, and never trust you." her words stung me, the coldness of her voice always did
"I know I can never gain your trust, and I know that I cant be forgiven for what...I've done.. it was never really meant to be like this." I choked on my words.
We were silent for a long time, privately grieving our losses. I saw a tear drop from her cheek onto her lap, and I admit I let a few go to. We were lost souls in this fucked up world, she watched over this city while I destroyed it. We were constantly working against each other, two opposing forces, we weren't meant to be together forever, but maybe we were meant to be together now.
I looked over at her, and she looked at me, I put my hand on hers and smiled as tears ran down my cheeks.
"I know that none of this is what you want it to be. If both of us could we wouldn't be who we are today, but sometimes you have to take advantage of the moment, because, well sometimes its the only thing you have, you make me feel like a real person, not like Red Mist, the asshole super villain, but like Chr-" I stopped dead in my tracks, I almost said my name.
"No!," he hissed. "Don't, I cant let this get personal like that. Strictly business." her voice seemed to skip a beat.
"OK." I said back, I felt like a child.
"What would my father think." she whispered to herself.
"What would mine?" I whispered back.
We both hesitated.
"That doesn't matter." she said "What matters is what we want...even if it is self destructive. But I'm still just not sure about all of this... I guess."
I grimaced at the term, we all had some kind of self destructive nature, and this was just a way to play it out. I pulled my body closer to hers, but I was careful not to touch her. Here in this moment she seemed so fragile, so vulnerable, I knew that I was one of the few to ever see her like this.
"Listen, I understand if you change your mind, if you want to just end this now, its not a big deal, I just thought you felt the same way I did." I felt like shit, and wanted to just get up and walk off.
But she surprised me, she reached her hand to mine, and everything else happened in slow motion to me. She lifted her face, I could see all the subtle little twitches in her face as she brought her it close, she closed her eyes, and licked her lips, her hair moved with her, its curls, and rough texture were like a vision, I could barely control myself. In an instant something clicked in my head, and our lips touched again.
This time is was different, it was better. I felt a jolt of energy fly down my spine, and I pulled her as close to me as I could. Her body fit perfectly into mine. And at that moment I felt whole. I reached my hand up to her hair and tangled it in the purple strands, my other hand migrated down to her hip, my urges were becoming less and less innocent with every bit sized kiss that slipped from her mouth. In an instant she was on the hard concrete, and I was above her, my hands manipulated her body closer and closer, her back arched every time she gasped for air. I kissed her neck, and she dug her fingernails into my back.
My hands were in the small of her back. I pulled her closer and closer, until her chest was pressed tightly against mine. I could feel the lacing of her corset, and I struggled with it, finally I pulled it apart enough to feel her bare back against my fingertips.
"Oh Chris," she moaned out.
My body went crazy when she said my name, I devoured her mouth, my hands traveled where they shouldn't, I couldn't think. I knew there were repercussions to this, but I pushed them from my mind...for the time being.