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CHAPTER 14
MIKAN
Lonely Hearts Club was not so lonely last night, or atleast after Kaname Sonoh, vocalist of the worldwide punk-rock sensation, Digitally Manipulated, sang his heart out (for the first time, he claimed) for Technicolor Doll's Mikan Sakura.
Oh god. Just reading the first sentence of the feature article, makes me feel like jumping, screaming, or whatever. It's weird. I don't know if I should be happy or what. I don't know what to feel.
It was on Yahoo!'s featured stories on the web, every newspaper's entertainment section and a video on the TV, and it was on the radio's talks. And every hour, a Digitally Manipulated song and a Technicolor Doll song was played in a row. I'm starting to think this was a publicity stunt.
I turned off every media involved material of mine and grabbed my guitar and plugged it in the radio, since I still haven't bought myself a home amplifier.
I don't know but for some reason. I don't think of him that way. But I don't know what I feel towards him anyway.
My fingers were then playing a melody in it's own. And words were suddenly popping up in my head. I immediately grabbed my notebook filled with songs that I composed and wrote it all down.
I then called my band mates and headed towards our studio, which we haven't really used much, these past few weeks.
"What is it Mikan?" They asked me as they entered.
"I have a new song." I said.
"FOR KANAME?" They asked in unison. I nodded and they squealed.
"Let us hear it!"
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"Hey Kaname!" I said over the mike. We totally got over that incident on our ride home. And it felt like as if nothing happened, except that it was on the news.
"Last night was really…" The crowd held their breath as I searched for the right words to say.
"Surprising." I said and laughed when he did. The crowd joined in.
"Now, in return, I have a surprise for you too." I said. And then we started to play.
"I had no choice but to hear you" I smiled as I saw him smile from the bar.
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it
You treat me like Im a princess
Im not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
Tsubasa pushed him to the front row, I laughed mentally. I watched them with a smile on my face as Tsubasa said something impatiently as Kaname just smiled at him, which annoyed Tsubasa more.
Youve already won me over in spite of me
Dont be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldnt help it
Its all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
Youre so much braver than I gave you credit for
Thats not lip service
Youve already won me over in spite of me
Dont be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldnt help it
Its all your fault
Couples then started to dance to my song. I wonder why. I looked at Kaname and he was looking back with a smile.
You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience
Youre the best listener that Ive ever met
Youre my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long
Ive never felt this healthy before
Ive never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now
Youve already won me over in spite of me
Dont be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldnt help it
Its all your fault
Youve already won me over in spite of me
Dont be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldnt help it
Its all your fault
"KANAME! KANAME! KANAME!" The crowd chanted as they gather around him as I pack up my things.
"I-ah. I want to thank Ms. Mikan for that wonderful song." Kaname started off and the crowd went silent. I turned to look at him.
"I really loved it." He said as he looked at me with a smile. "Thank you." He said as he walked towards me.
"Thanks for calling me Holly." I said with a smile.
"Pleasure." He said as he placed his arm over my shoulders. "Should we go?" He asked.
"But I wanna see Still Fire again!" I protested as we sat on the bar. "Okay." He agreed with a smile.
I then looked for Still Fire's members. I saw Koko and Kitsuneme on stage, setting up their effects. Mochu was behind the drum set and placing spare drumsticks. I searched for Ruka and Natsume.
"Ruka-pyon!" I screamed as I saw Ruka about to go up stage. "Kaname, wait." I told the man beside me as I went towards Ruka. "Sakura." He said while tuning his bass.
"I'll make this quick! Good luck Ruka-pyon!" I said as I smiled at him. "T-thanks." He muttered.
"Anyway, have you seen Na-" As I glanced around, I saw Natsume at the darkest corner of the club, talking, whispering to a boy with grey hair, about thirteen years old, wearing dark skinny jeans, purple Supras and purple shirt and a girl with dark hair, dressed in a black skinny leather pants and a tank top that shows her navel. I also Noticed that she was wearing white suede boots with no heels and a fur on it's top opening. She looks like a model. She looks like "Is that… YUKI AOI?!" I exclaimed.
I studied them. It was like Natsume was a completely different person. His gestures were different. His eyes were soft towards her. And Yuki Aoi was like him. They are intimate.
"Oh! Right! So she must've been Natsume's girlfriend." I concluded. "NO!" Ruka denied. "They are-" just as he was about to say something, Natsume came and told him, "Let's go."
"Good luck Natsume!" I shouted to him. I then immediately returned back to Kaname.
"Hey Kaname, let's join the mosh pit!" I said while dragging him as Natsume started to chant on the mike.
We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
I glanced around and I saw Yuki Aoi and the boy, on the front row, holding a bottle of beer, cheering for Natsume. How sweet. I sighed.
We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep,
As soon as the band began playing, the crowd began to jump around. Kaname and I joined them, totally forgetting about Natsume and Yuki Aoi.
'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep,
Natsume began screaming.
'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
I refuse! I refuse!
I refuse to close my eyes
With that, everyone really jumped and jumped. Some go on stage and jump to the crowd.
I have loved, and I have lost
I have turned, and I have tossed
I have listened, and I have watched
I've gave into this for long enough
I have lost, and I have loved
Sleep has stolen far too much
So don't close your eyes, not just yet
Sleep is just a cousin of death
"Really, they're much better than we are." Kaname said loudly in my ears. We laughed together. "I've got to admit that too." I said.
I've said it before, and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive then you're better off dead
I've said it before, and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive then you're better off...
(Dead)
I've said it before, and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive then you're better off dead
I've said it before, and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive then you're better off dead
I have loved, and I have lost
I have turned, and I have tossed
I have listened, and I have watched
I've gave into this for long enough
I have lost, and I have loved
Sleep has stolen far too much
So don't close your eyes, not just yet
Sleep is just a cousin of death
"So throw your diamonds in the sky," As Natsume raised his hands over his head and clapped, everyone joined him, clapping their hands raised over their heads.
"we'll stay…"
"gold forever" everyone in the club screamed with him, raising their fist in the air, pounding on it.
So throw your diamonds in the sky, we'll stay gold forever
I can promise you one thing: death will take us all
I can promise you one thing: you will die alone
Really, I wish I could have seen last night's performance! This is great! They're great! Natsume kept on screaming and screaming. Very hardcore! Kaname is also enjoying this too.
We're all going to hell, we may as well go out in style
Death is a promise, and your life is a fuckin' lie
As Kitsuneme adlibbed, Natsume rudely grabbed Yuki Aoi's beer and drank it in a straight gulp.
We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep, 'cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest, 'til we're all fucking dead
I refuse! I refuse!
I refuse to close my eyes
A couple more songs followed that, all with Natsume screaming. And I began to think, as I jumped to their songs, that maybe, this was his way of showing how he felt. He was never a vocal person. He does not show his emotions. Clearly not to everyone. I wonder what happened to his past? Why this angry melodies and screaming?
As my feet and arms hurt from the jumping and clapping, I asked Kaname if we could sit on the bar. He agreed with a nod and his usual smile as he led me to the bar, his hands pushing my shoulder from behind me.
"They're great aren't they?" He said as he took the seat next to me.
"Yes. But if you listen closely, you can hear his anguish, hatred, and frustrations. All his bad emotions." I said as I looked at Kaname and thought of how he can easily smile while Natsume always have this mysterious aura around him. Always with himself. I wonder what happened to him that Ruka needed to be with him.
"He's a mysterious guy…" I whispered unexpectedly.
"Well, he's the son of Kaoro Igarashi." He said. I looked at him, shocked.
"Kaoro Igarashi? That super popular actress who died of over dose on heroin?" I asked him. Surprise filled me.
"Mhm… And only from that, you can see that probably he didn't grow up in such a happy environment." He said softly as he played with the ornament on the bar counter. "Though I'm not really in the position to say those things." He said as he smiled at me, as if to say, "l don't know him much to talk about him."
"SAKURA!" I heard someone scream my name. I realized that Still Fire was already done playing.
"SAKURA! There you are!" I searched and found out it was Ruka who was calling me. "How did we do?" he asked as he sat himself on my other side, wiping a sweat from his cheeks.
"You were great! I swear if I haven't gotten tired and all, I would be still be jumping until your set finished!" I unintentionally blabbed on.
"Thank you." He said with a laugh.
"Look at Yuki Aoi and Natsume." I suddenly said as I saw them talking on a corner again. Yuki Aoi's skin was shining with sweat and body glitters. She looks so hot. I mean she and Natsume are really meant to be. Both are perfect.
Yuki Aoi is this Hollywood resident model-actress-host that is very popular worldwide. Slim, with a 34 B chest. Slender hips. Hot. Perfect for Natsume. I can't beat that.
And why would I want to beat that?
Suddenly, I cursed myself for being so normal looking. I sighed as I looked down and examined what I was wearing: black skinny jeans, and a slightly fitted light blue shirt that reaches up to my hips, with it's sleeves folded. Oh and my Vans. Too plain.
"Something wrong?" Ruka asked me. "It's just that Yuki Aoi is so… hot." I said not bothering to look up, unable to contain my misery.
"Well…" Ruka started off, "You're also hot."
My head jolted up. Did he just-
"RUKA SAID THAT MIKAN IS HOT!" I heard Koko and Kitsuneme shout in unison. Suddenly, my band mates, other members of Still Fire and Digitally Manipulated, and some other people, gathered around us.
"That's the first time Ruka ever said that!" I looked for the unfamiliar voice. "You must really like her Ruka!" It was a girl, and as she said these, she walked towards us. It was Yuki Aoi. I only managed to gawk at her.
Silence as the crowd looked at our reaction.
"I-I-I-" Ruka broke it with his stammering, face red, probably of humility, who would ever like me?
"N-n-no! Hhhee.. H-he c-an't possi- I mean- come- oh- come on!" I finally stood up from the rotating stool of the bar. Up on my feet, I said, "He can't possibly like me right?!? I mean who on their right mind would?" I explained.
"I would!" Kaname exclaimed happily has he playfully nudged my head. "Wha- wha-" I stammered as I looked at everyone. Mostly the crowd was laughing. Hotaru was taking pictures (how could she!) Yuu was smiling. My band mates and Still Fire were leading the teasing uproar. Tsubasa, Misaki and Yuri were cheering Kaname with their hands clenched high in the air. I looked at Ruka. His eyes were wide. Yuki Aoi had this smug smiling face. Natsume was… scary.
"SO!" Tsubasa said as he stood on the counter, making it his little stage. "RAISE YOUR HANDS IN THE AIR IF YOU LIKE MIKAN SAKURA!" he screamed as he waved his hand in the air. Surprisingly, many followed.
"TSUBASA!" I said, frustrated.
Kaname suddenly joined Tsubasa on the counter, both arms raised.
"So, those guys raising their hands, let's convince her she's worth liking." Kaname said.
"Everyone of those raised hands, do you agree that Mikan is hot?!" Tsubasa shouted over them.
"YEAH!"
"THEN REPEAT AFTER ME! SAY: MIKAN, YOU'RE SO HOT!" Tsubasa screamed.
"MIKAN YOU'RE SO HOT!"
"He-
"WE LOVE MIKAN!" Tsubasa screamed.
"WE LOVE MIKAN!"
"Hope that's enough proof for you." Kaname said with a smile as he sat on the counter.
"Well- it was forced and-"
"You want us to do it again?" Tsubasa said, getting ready to scream. "HE-"
"NO!"
"Good! Ruka-pyon should have done it with us, right Kaname?" Tsubasa asked as he nudged Kaname.
"What the he- w-why should I join you?" Ruka said.
Oh, of course he disagrees. I examined myself again with a sigh.
"Oh no Ruka-pyon! You made Mikan sad!" Kaname said. I smiled at him.
"It's alright Kaname, I know I'm ugly." I said.
"Now Ruka-pyon. Look what you've done!" Tsubasa said as he nudged Ruka's head. "Hey, you-!"
"Ruka-pyon… tsk tsk. How does Mikan look anyway? I find her pretty. Right, Kaname?" Tsubasa said. "Right!" Kaname replied enthusiastically. "How do you find Mikan, Ruka-pyon?"
"I-I-" I smiled at him, urging him to go on. "I-I-"
"You?" Yuki Aoi urged.
"P-reee-tyyyy…" He said slowly. My lips smiled and I ran and hugged him unexpectedly. "AIIYAA!"
"Aw thanks Ruka-pyon!" I said as I looked up at his face. "Sa-Sa-Sakura!" He stammered.
RUKA
This is so… unexplainable. There are no words to describe this moment. Sakura in my arms makes my heart beat faster. It feels like the oxygen in the room was sucked out. I can't breathe. I can't move. I can't think properly. I can't hear anything. I can't see anything, only her. My mind is acting on it's own. It willed to wrap my arms around her, returning her affectionate gesture. Suddenly, there was a lump on my throat. I can't talk, as much as I want to tell her to get off against my will, I can't.
"That's enough." I was pulled out of my own little universe as Natsume pushed Mikan off of me.
"Na-Natsume!" I said, shocked.
"Stop stammering. You're looking like a fool." He whispered so quietly, only I heard it.
"Thanks." I muttered.
"Get away from him, polka dots." He said as he stared at her, features and gestured void of emotions. But I know that behind all that cold actions, is something bigger. That's just the way Natsume is.
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SONGS:
Head Over Feet by Alanis Morissette (Mikan)
Diamonds Aren't Forever by Bring Me The Horizon (Natsume)
I feel like I'm promoting some bands… haha… but please, DO LISTEN TO THEM WHILE READING MY FIC! It give magic… or so I think…