REWRITTEN
When Edward left Bella felt as if there was nothing for her to live for anymore. She felt empty. She even looked empty. For months she ignored her friends and Charlie. For months it seemed as if she wasn't the one going through day-to-day activities. And then, Jake came into the picture.
Jacob pieced Bella back together after during her darkest days and never thought any differently of her. And Bella had been thankful for that ever since. It almost seemed as if something in the back of her mind said that she had to repay Jake somehow. She still hadn't been able to figure it out.
But when Bella did find out that Jake was a werewolf nothing changed. The only thing that changed was how Bella would feel once she was changed. When Edward changed her, her and Jake would be mortal enemies. Jake would be coming after all of them, her family.
"He'll be coming after us…" The tone of Bella's voice when she spoke that sentence was shocking. It sounded like she was disgusted. She shook her head, trying to rid the thoughts of why she would be disgusted at the thought of her soon-to-be family.
Bella turned back towards the window when she felt a cold, strong pair of hands wrap around her. Even though it was her fiancé, she couldn't stop herself from wishing that those hands were the big, warm ones of Jacob.
The minute that Bella had thought of Jacob a strange, strong pulling started in her chest. It felt like her heart was almost pulling out of her chest. She held her breath, hoping that Edward wouldn't hear the change in her heartbeat. She couldn't truly describe it without sounding crazy but, it almost felt as if her heart had stopped for a moment and began beating with someone else's. The more she thought about, the more the pulling became stronger and harder to deal with.
"Bella, love, are you okay?" Edward asked in that melodious velvety voice, alarmed as he spun Bella around in his arms to face him. Worry visible on his usually emotionless face.
Bella was disgusted, again. She couldn't pin-point what she was disgusted about right then and there but she knew it had something to do with Edward. And she couldn't figure out why she was disgusted with her fiancé.
Bella's thoughts immediately went back to Jacob and the pulling was back, even stronger. She was so confused. All she could think about was wishing that she was in Jacob's arms instead of Edward's. The more her thoughts were set on Jacob, the stronger the pulling on her heart became.
"Ed-Edward. I-I need to go home." Bella said as her voice began to shake a little. The pulling was making it hard for her to function. All that she knew was that she needed to get out of that house, and fast. She started trying to wiggle herself out of Edward's arms.
"Bella, love, you are home." Edward said, tightening his grip just a bit. The conviction in his voice almost sounded as if Bella was his property.
Bella tried once again to pry herself out of Edward's arms but his grip just got tighter. Bella knew she had to lie. It was the only thing she could do.
"Ed-Edward! Stop!" Bella spoke, trying to make her voice sound like she was breathless. "I-I can't breathe! You're crushing me!" And with that, Edward let go and took a cautious step back.
Bella took that as her only chance and started clumsily collecting her stuff. "I'm going to go." She placed her hand on the doorknob. "And don't come over tonight."
Bella was sure that her words had hurt Edward but for some reason, she didn't care. She didn't care one bit that she told her fiancé to basically stay away from her. The pulling in her chest had finally calmed down and it was finally tolerable.
Bella laid down in her bed fully prepared to get a full nights of sleep without any interruptions.
But, 2 hours later she still laid there awake. The pulling at her heart came back and she found herself getting into her truck and she was driving to La Push. It was almost as if she was possessed. It was 12:30 in the middle of the night and she was out driving to Jake's house.
She pulled her truck into the Blacks' driveway and before she could even cut the ignition Jake was running out the door. He had a big goofy grin on his face and Bella felt a grin growing on her face also.
Bella ran up to him and wrapped her arms around him. "I'm sorry, Jake. I'm so so sorry. I'm so sorry."
Before Jake had time to react, Bella's tears were drenching his shirt. He pulled her in closer to his body and just hugged her. "It's okay, Bella. It's all okay."
It was as if Jake knew what Bella was talking about without either of them saying anything about it.
Bella looked up at Jake and the pulling came back but very discretely. She placed her hand over her chest and looked over at Jake to see him doing the same thing.
"Jake, I have to go take care of something. Can I come back or should I not?" Bella asked, hoping he'd say it was okay for her to come back. She truthfully didn't want to wait till tomorrow.
"Of course you can come back. I'll be out here when you get here." Jake mumbled as he squeezed Bella once more.
"I'll see you soon then." Bella said as she pulled away from the warm hug. Immediately she wished she hadn't as the brisk winter air hit her. She got into her car, locking eyes with Jake the whole time until she had to turn and focus on the street.
Bella pulled up to the Cullen's house. On the ride there she had prepared what she was going to say to Edward. She parked her truck and went over the speech in her head.
"Edward, I'm not quite ready to give up all the people that I'm going to give up when I'm changed. Can we postpone the wedding? I don't want to be changed just yet. I know that we promised I'd be changed when got to our honeymoon location but…"
Bella sighed and got out of the truck and walked up towards the house. She swung open the door, expected to be smothered by Edward but she wasn't. She opened her eyes and looked around the house. It was empty. There was nothing inside. Just a wide open, huge house. She walked throughout the house, hoping to find Edward waiting in one of the bedrooms but when she got up to his room, she saw a little post-it note attached to the doorframe. It read;
Bella,
Go to your dog. I know you want to. Don't worry about me. Because I don't care about you anymore. Have fun with your animal.
Edward.
With confusion written all over her face, Bella yelled out hoping that at least one of the Cullen's were still there to explain. She got nothing back. She ran out to her truck and started driving back to Jake's.
"What's he talking about? 'Go to your dog'?" Realization hit and Bella knew Edward had meant Jake. She didn't get it. She didn't get what Edward meant by 'I know you want to.' She thought about that little post-it note the whole way there and before she knew it she was pulling in Jake's driveway.
Jake ran outside, a hand to his chest and made his way towards Bella. He immediately enveloped her in one of his signature bear hugs.
Even though Bella wasn't sure she wanted to be with Edward anymore, it still hurt her.
She gripped onto Jake's shirt and dug her head into his chest. "Damn it, Jake. Why aren't I good enough? What. Is. Wrong. With. Me?"
It only took a second for Jake to realize what Bella meant. His grip on Bella got tighter and his jaw clenched. "That leech left you again, didn't he?" He started shaking. All over.
Bella unwound herself from Jake's arms and stepped back to look at him. She had never seen him this angry before. His face was redder than she'd ever seen it. His hands were balled into fists so tight that his knuckles were white and he was shaking all over.
Bella knew what she was about to do was dangerous but she knew she had to try. She stepped forward and put a hand on either side of Jake's face. Just holding them there. It didn't work right away but Jake was visibly calming down. The redness in his face was gone and he had let his fists go. He looked down into Bella's eyes and the shaking stopped completely.
"I'm so sorry, Bella. I can't believe I just did that. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." Jake said as he took a step back from Bella.
Bella, a bit hurt took another step towards him and wrapped her arms around him again.
Jake hesitated a bit, but he leaned down and placed a small kiss on Bella's lips. And to his surprise, she kissed him back.
Hi there. (:
I had horrible writer's block on this story. So, I'm rewriting it. It's really going to be the exact same as before but with a few changes.
There will be no point of views and some of the events happened a bit differently than when I first put this out. So can you guys please go back to Chapter 1 and re-read it? (if you want to. of course.)
I'm sorry if you guys are mad at me for re-writing/deleting this but I wanted to give you guys my all in my writing and I didn't feel like I did that with the previous chapters.
Anyway, review please?