A/N Hope everyone had a good New Years. Sorry took so long to post this so here u go enjoy… and as always I don't own Twilight or the characters just having fun with them…

Chapter 7

Knock….Knock…Knock….

I opened my eyes the sun was shining thru the French doors, I looked around and realized I was on my couch. Damn I thought last night was just a dream. Ugh…

Knock….Knock….Knock….

What the hell, who could be here at, I looked around to my clock hanging on the wall, 8:00 in the morning.

Knock…. Kno…. "I'm coming " I yelled

I opened the door to a very happy, smiling Alice.

"Alice, what the hell, why are you here?"

"well hello to you to sunshine, who pissed in your corn flakes?"

"Sorry" I mumbled as she pushed her way in my door.

"Damn Bella, did you sleep on your couch?"

"Yeah I guess I fell asleep reading" I said as I picked up my book from the floor infront on my couch.

"Bella get your scrawny ass in the shower, were going out for a day of shopping and fun."

"Come on Alice its to early for this shit, I just want to sleep, as you can see I didn't sleep to well on my couch so my beds calling, you can show your self out"

Somehow I knew it wasn't going to be that easy.

"Oh no little lady go get in the shower, I ma making coffee, then we are going to go" Alice said while she was digging around in my kitchen cabinets for my coffee. How can someone so little be so damn bossy, its beyond me.

"Come on Al I just wanted to stay in today and do absolutely nothing till time for me to go work at Em's tonight."

"Well see you need to go shopping, you need some new clothes to were at the bar, you cant vey well go in your scrubs, which by the way why are you still in them?"

"I don't know I just didn't change when I got home, obviously I didn't plan on sleeping on my couch, so it would seem I didn't change to go to bed, duh"

"Go Bella, get in the shower before I kick your ass."

"Ok miss BOSSY ASS, fine but not because you told me to, GOT IT."

"Yeah yeah just go." She said laughing

I drug my tired ass into my nice roomy shower.

The hot water pounding down on my shoulders and neck felt so good. My mind couldn't help but wonder to the dream I had about Edward. It felt so real his lips and those piercing green eyes I love so much looking down at me with lust in them. I started thinking back to the past week, we talked and really about nothing in particular just talked, he was so easy to talk to I never felt nervous or like I was anything but an equal person. But I knew that wasn't true I wasn't an equal to him. I had so much shit in my past to deal with I didn't ever want to bring anyone else down with my baggage. Could I still have those feelings I had all those years ago for him? I kept asking myself that question and the only answer I kept getting was yes, I still was completely and utterly in love with this man. But so much has changed and I wasn't the same shy, innocent girl I was back then. He wasn't the same either, he was more confident and wasn't the nerdy guy he was in school. But that smile, oh that wonderful panty dropping crooked smile he had was the same. I could feel the goose bumps on my arms just thinking about it. UGH… But I had to keep reminding myself he was just a friend, and that's all he would ever be. No matter what I wanted, I needed his friendship, now more than ever. I would have to love him from a distance like I always had.

All to soon the water started running cooler, so reluctantly I stepped out and dried off to get ready for a day of shopping, oh joy.

"Damn Bell, I thought you fell asleep in there I was about to come drag your ass out here." Alice said as I walked into the kitchen, where she was sitting at the bar with her phone in her hands.

"Coffee Ally, I need it bad" I said laughing.

"Well you are defiantly are not a morning person are you grumpy pants?"

I couldn't help but laugh with her, there was always something about her that made my life complete, and until now I hadn't realized just how much I had missed her.

"Hey Al, why don't we call Rose see if she wants to go to?"

"One step ahead of you chick, she should be here in a few minuets." She said smiling.

After 2 cups of strong coffee, Rose came in and we left my apartment and headed to the dreaded mall.

About 4 hours later and 10 stores I finally talked the like bossy bitch into getting some lunch, she wasn't happy but finally gave into me and we went to TGI Fridays. We were sitting at a table talking about the things we still had to by, when Rose suddenly changed the subject.

"Bella, was the a special someone in Phoenix that you dated?" I finished my bite of salad and looked at her.

"No, not really , I mean I dated but never really wanted a relationship with anyone. I went on dates and hung out with a guy who was a real good friend his name was Andrew, but no real boyfriends of anything like that. Why?"

I looked up to Rose and Al, and their faces were unreadable, they looked at each other and then back to me.

"What, do I have something on my face or something hanging out of my nose, cause so help me if I have something hanging out of my nose you will pay" I wiped at me face and nose with my napkin.

"No, no you don't well I just figured you had possibly met someone else while you lived there and hell Bella I don't know I was just wondering, you know never mind you know how I am." She finished as she took a bit of her salad.

"No, Rose I got it, it just kind of thru me for a second, I mean yeah I would have loved to find the perfect man and have that perfect life you know big house, nice car, 2.5 kids and a wonderful husband to come home to at the end of the day hell even a dog in there somewhere, but I just don't think I was ever meant for that. In Phoenix I would through myself into my classes then when I was through with that I did the same with work. I just never really found the one you know what I mean.?" I finished not really looking up from my salad. " Also I don't really trust men anymore, so it will not be easy for me to have that kind of life."

"Bella, I'm sorry for what happened, but you deserve to be happy and have the life you want you know." Rose said as she reached over and rubbed my arm.

And of coarse Alice chose that moment to put her two cents in.

"Rose you know , Bell here was in love with my brother when we were kids, of coarse he was an idiot back then, not the same guy he is today." I just looked at her with my mouth hanging open catching flies and she had that no it all smirk on her face.

"Really" Rose said dragging out the ly a little to long, and of coarse the same smirk playing on her red lips.

"Ok, come on can we not talk about this PLEASE AL, I was young and stupid and because of that I lost his friendship. If I had just kept my big stupid mouth shut, you know never mind your not going to listen to anything I say so go on laugh it up get it all out of your systems."

"Alice what dose she mean if she had kept her mouth shut, what happened" Rose asked

"Well she told Edward she loved him the day of his graduation and he was a fool, he blew it and from what I gather didn't feel the same, anyway we didn't see much of Bell here that summer." She looked sad and deep in thought when I looked up at her, "Anyway that was the summer when she hooked up with James the fucker." Now she just looked pissed off.

"Can we please not go there?, I don't want to go there today and don't we have more shopping to do, I know I could use some more shoes." I winked at Al so she knew I wasn't mad at her. She smiled.

They both let it drop, and we went back to shopping.

Before I knew it, it was almost 4:30. We made it back to my place and they helped me carry my 6 bags of clothes, shoes and lotions and shampoos from Bath and Body works up to my apartment. I was wore out.

They decided to head out and promised to come see me hard at work later at the bar. I locked the door and took off my shoes and made it to my room to catch a nap. I didn't even get the covers thrown back before I feel asleep sideways on my bed.

It was about 8:15 when I woke up, the room was dark.

I drug my butt back to the shower to refresh and started getting ready for my night of drunks. I pulled my hair back in a low ponytail, and dressed in one of my new outfits. It was by far one of my favorites, a pair of black skinny jeans, a fitted red v neck Aero top, and the new boots I had bought today. I put on some makeup and made my eyes look smoky. I grabbed my coach purse, and was out the door by 9:45.

It was a busy night, a lot of people had come out to let loose after a long week of working. I seen several people I had went to school with. Em was working right beside me and it felt real nice. I had missed him. We were always close growing up and I know how upset he had been at me for never confiding in him. He was always my protector and I loved him dearly.

The night wore on and it was full of laughs and fun. Rose and Alice were true to their word and showed up around 11. The came up to the bar and chatted with me till Jasper showed up and they got a table.

It was nearing midnight and the bar was still going strong I had several shots in me before Em was nice enough to share a secret with me so I didn't have to drink every shot bought for me. I was finishing pouring a beer for a customer when I heard that familiar velvety voice, I looked up and was met by those green eyes and that crooked smile of the man I had dreamed about the night before.

"Hello Bella" and I was done my heart skipped a beat and I was lost in those eyes.

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