DISCLAIMER: DO I HAVE TO DO THIS IN WHOLE THE CHAPTERS? OF COURSE I DONT WON TWILIGHT, BUT I WOULD GKADKY DO...LOL
Chapter 2
THE END
The two days before was the most painful and horrible in my life… first, I decided to `broke up´ with my love, my Bella; then, as my plan was ignore her; I began to do it even though I still care. Every now and then I turn around and look at her but she never notice that "she need to thought that I don't care anymore"…
Went to my car, embrace myself and face my fate. As I drive through her house –after deliver the package- set a speech for her and at one point I realize: "this is useless, she won't believe me, I have to lie for hours and even then, she wouldn't believe that I don't love her any more,- here, I get in to her home, up to her room and in a very childish act, I collect all the things in her room that can reminded her myself and hid them under her floorboard, I knew this was wrong, but, the truth be told, I want to leave something from me with her though, she'll never know, I will promise her a no reminders forgiveness- her faith in me won't let her believe me, she would remind me all the times that I told her how much I love her"; this was a complication I didn't see before and it will destroy me, I wouldn't been able to bare it and I will surrender and give up to my strength and stay. I heard her truck arriving and I convince myself to do it, and told me "you have to convince her, if you don't do it she will end up her human life as soon as she can" I can't allow it. I get out of the car and go for her, took her bag pack and put it back to the truck
-Come for a walk with me- I suggested in an unemotional voice, taking that soft and sweet hand of hers. She don't answer me but I was about to lose my grip so I needed to do it now. I pulled her along toward the east side of the yard, where the forest encroached. We'd gone only a few steps into the trees when I stopped. We were barely on the trail so she could see the house and don't get lost. I leaned against a tree and stared at her.
-Okay, let's talk- sounded braver than she seems. I took a deep breath and begin to my lies.
I realize that I was not paying attention to our conversation 'till I said the words that definitely would broke her sweet heart….
"Bella, I don't want you to come with me"- each word burn in my mouth like acid unwillingly getting out, always staring her face to make sure that the words sink in, but never looking into her eyes.
"You… don't… want me?"
"No" this was the biggest lie I have said in my life; I will always want this beautiful, lovely, sweet girl. She stares into my eyes and I embrace myself and stare back.
"Well, that changes things" now she sound calm and I was surprised by that. I studied her face and I realize that she actually didn't understand what I jus say. There I have something to say, it was important to me I want to make her one last gift, even if she don't notice, but it was burning in my chest. I look away from her, because I let go for a moment my façade…
"Of course, I'll always love you… in a way" in every way that it could be in the world; she will always be my love, my only love "But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm… tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human" this was painfully true, I'm not human and that's why I can't stay with her "I've let this go on much too long, and I'm sorry for that" she'll never knew how sorry I was and not for loving her, I could never be sorry for that; but because I hurt her over and over again for my selfishness, for mi desire for be with her, because if from the beginning I had stayed away from her she won't have to deal with this.
"Don't" her voice was just a whisper now as she realizes what I meant "Don't do this" and all I can do was stared at her and regret of every amount of her pain, pain that was my fault. Now that she understands what I'm saying I have to give the final blow…
"You're not good for me, Bella" "ah, what a lie, she will always be too good for me, to precious, to lovely"
"If… that's what you want" I just can nod, I can't find my voice. Then I realize that I have to make sure myself that she would be safe without me, that she will be careful…
"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much" as I said the words I lose my façade and the pain and despair run all over my face, but I catch up my grip, well almost…
"Anything" she vowed
Now I completely lose my strength, I have to make sure that she will try to stay safe, with no harm in her beautiful person. I stare deep in to her eyes with all the intensity I was able for, just to make sure…
"Don't do anything reckless or stupid" I ordered, putting all mi hope and faith in this thought "Do you understand what I'm saying?"
She nodded and put back my mask again as I continue…
"I'm thinking of Charlie, of course. He needs you. Take care of yourself" for him- "for me sweetheart, my precious love…"
"I will" she whispered. And I relax a little, hoping that her father love and care made this job, my job for me.
"And I'll make you a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed" this promise settled in to my heart with ache, and I hope for her own good that this happen; that it will be as if I never existed, never in to her precious live.
"Don't worry. You're human; your memory is no more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind" yes, from her kind
"And your memories?" She asks.
"Well" I hesitated for a short second "I won't forget. But my kind… we're very easily distracted" "I will never ever forger this few months with the most beautiful thing that cross my life. And I will always thank fate for given me the chance to fall in love for this awesome person, and that she loves me back, it's more than I can ask for" I become to walk away leaving there the reason of my existence, my whole world
"That's everything, I suppose. We won't bother you again" as I walk away I heard her say in a very low, weak voice
"Alice isn't coming back" I look back at her and shook my head, always watching her face
"No. They're all gone. I stayed behind to tell you goodbye"
"Alice is gone?"
"She wanted to say goodbye, but I convinced her that a clean break would be better for you. Goodbye, Bella" I was almost dying as I said these words
"Wait!" She bent her arms to me and this was more than I can stand, I took her wrist and put them each side of her body. I lean down and press, one last time, my lips against the hot skin of her beautiful face, in her forehead, her eyes close.
"Take care of yourself" I breathed, take a last sight of my love and ran away…