Chapter 10:

Secret Weapon-

Sara is on the floor in front of her couch talking on the phone with Catherine.

"No Catherine I don't feel like talking..." She rolled her eyes at the phone as if Catherine could see. "I was just calling to tell you that I'm not coming in tonight, I am going to use the last to days of my leave...." She rolled her eyes again. "I'm sorry I know that I told you that I would come in tonight..." Catherine cuts her off again. "Well Ecklie can go and shove it up his ass, just tell him I have jet lag or something..." The pounding on her front door caught her attention and she was no longer listening to what Catherine was saying. 'Please I wish, no I hope, no I pray, yes I pray that it is Gil.' She moves toward the door. "Hey Cath my food is here I got to go...Bye...Yes I will see you in two days." She closes her phone and puts it on the kitchen counter then opens the door with a big smile but it soon fades as she see that it is not Grissom. 'Shit not him!' She looks up and down at the man standing before her.

"Brass? What are you doing here, is there something you need?"

"Well I came by to check up on you, last time I saw you was when we drop you off yesterday."

"I'm fine Jim, you could have found that out over the phone so why are you really here?"

"Just want to talk to you face to face, can I come in?"

She steps out of the way and opens the door wider allowing him to come in. Brass makes his way to the kitchen and sits down on a bar stool. Before closing her door she again looks from side to side but can't find what or who she was hoping to find, she shuts the door trying to hide her disappointment but Brass notices it. She then goes into the kitchen and gets to coffee cups out of the cabinet from above the sink, she then pours coffee into the two cups and hands one to Brass and sits down on a bar stool next to him. Brass takes a sip of his coffee then puts the cup down and looks at Sara. She puts her cup down without taking a drink of it and gives Brass a small smile. 'Oh no he has that look, I bet I'm going to get a long speech before he decides to leave.'

"So Sara how is everything going?"

"I'm fine, everything is fine." Brass tilts his head and gives her a half smile. 'She's not fine, why does she always say she is fine. She misses him, maybe I can talk her into calling him.'

"If your fine and everything is fine then why were you drinking on the plane and why haven't you talked to Gil, you said that you two are in a fight?"

She picks up her cup and takes a sip of coffee. 'Dammit, he isn't going to leave until he gets some answers maybe I can give him answer just not all the details, that may buy me sometime to get my mind stright.' She puts her cup back down on the counter and glares at him.

"I don't want to talk about it, especially not with you."

"Why not? You've always talked to me."

"Because your his closest friend, I'm not going to discuss him or what he has done or how I feel about it because it's all going to get back to him one way or another."

"Listen Sara, I maybe his closest friend but your like a daughter to me, and if he has done something to hurt you I would like to know what it is so I can tell him why I am going to kick his ass." They both laugh a little from the last statement. As the laughter stops, Sara looks away from Brass suddenly finding the floor very interesting. 'I hope he just drops it and leaves.' He takes another sip of his coffee, sets it back down and looks at her.

"So are you going to tell me what the fight was about, and why you aren't talking to him?"

She looks at her cup and finishes what it left of the coffee and ignores Brass as she gets up and puts her empty cup in the kitchen sink. Brass sighs with irritation.

"Fine don't tell me why, I'll just beat it out of him later, but at least call him, you did say in your note you left him that you would call!" She slowly turns to look at him.

"I'm sorry but I don't think I can talk with him just yet, I'm really angry and really hurt. I know that I would say thing that I would regret and so would he, I think I need to calm down so more, I need more time."

"Sara, stop thinking, you two need to work this out, words will definitely be said, but maybe they need to be said, and after everything is said and done that's when the anger won't be so unbearable. Holding everything in is not good for either of you or for your marriage. These words need to be said so the both of you know what is really going on in each others head, communication..."

Sara sits back down on the bar stool but only stars at her lap refusing to make eye contact with Brass, he leans over and lifts her head so that their eyes meet.

"Sara communication is the key to all relationships and it will help trust me." Sara wipes at her tears as they fell from her eyes.
"But I don't want to hurt him, Jim as much as he has hurt me before and during our relationship I can't help but love him, but this...what he has done...this feels like he has picked up a knife and cut my heart into a bunch of little pieces and I can't put them back together, I don't know if there is anything left of my heart, but I do know that I love him always have and always will, no matter what."

"I know Sara and he loves you just as much if not more." She starts to laugh as she wipes away some more tears.

"If he loves me like I love him or more, then please explain why he would cheat on me? Because I love him so much I would never as much as dream of anyone but him, let alone cheating on him, I just..I just don't understand and it makes me angry. Am I not good enough for him anymore? Did he get bored with me? Did he...." Jim can't take it anymore and cuts her off.

"I don't have the answers to these questions for you only he does, Sara you have to stop thinking like this, you know the he loves you with every beat of heart and with every breath he takes, just like you love him with every beat of your heart and with every breath you take. Yes he has hurt you in the past and this maybe the worst pain that he has put you through. You say that you are angry, you say that your hurt, and you have every right to be, but you also say that you need time, you say you need space, and he has given that too you, but maybe that's not what you need anymore. You open the door in hopes that it is him, you look outside hoping to find him, Sara if you don't tell him that you want him or need him here then he is not going to be here."

"Maybe I was waiting on a delivery or looking for the newspaper, and what makes you think I want him or need him here? Besides he is busy, he wouldn't leave his students to come see me, like always I would have to go to him."

Brass puts his arm around her shoulder and gives her a comforting hug.

"Sara the newspaper is on the coffee table. Your appearance tells me that you miss him, your words try to cover up that fact that you want him, and last but not least your eyes tell so much, most of all they say you need him they plead to see him. Maybe if you actually talk with him and ask him to come maybe he would. Have you ever asked him to come instead of you always going to him?" She sighs.

"Yes we have talked about it, he said that he couldn't leave his students, or his research, so I would have to come to him, whenever I could."

Brass picks up her cell phone from the counter and hands it to her.

"Sara call him you both need it. He's not going to come here unless you tell him to and you and I both know that he isn't going to call you, because you told him not to."

"Jim, would you mind staying with me while I make this phone call?"

"Sure, I'll be here for support as long as you need me." They smile at each other.

Sara opens her phone and hits the number one which is Grissom's speed dial. Grissom picks up his phone off of the nightstand as soon as it rang. He looks down at his phone and was shocked to see his wife's name on the screen. He opened his phone but waited for her to start the conversation, but she said nothing.

"Sara? Are you there honey?"

"Yes Gil, I'm here." There was silence again until Gil spoke.

"I didn't expect you to call but I'm so glad you did baby."

She let out a big deep sigh which made him wounder why she had called. She did not make a single sound or comment. Dead silence was all that went through the phone. All that could be heard was their breathing, Brass nudged Sara to get her to talk but it was Grissom that made yet another attempt to talk.

"Sara is something wrong? Did you call so that we could talk?" She shifts in her seat.

"Gil, I'm sorry I can't do this, I just really needed to hear your voice, but I'm not ready to talk about what happened between us."

She hears him throw something, it sounded like on of his bugs that she had framed for him, she could hear the glass shattering. He was losing his control of his anger and he knew it.

"Then why the hell did you call Sara?! To rip another hole in my heart, just like the one you left when you left this note and your dam ring here?"

She pounded her fist on the kitchen counter in frustration. She let out a quite, soft moan from the pain in her right hand. 'Note to self, do not punch kitchen counter, it hurts..A LOT!'

"No Gil! I called because I needed hear your voice, I needed to make sure you were okay, but most of all I needed to see you but your not here and you never will be, you will always be there and I will always be here, I guess I can understand why you cheated..."

"Hold on, stop right there Sara, for one your hearing me now, you now know that I am okay, and as for seeing me you have pictures of me that you can look at. Two I will always be here for you, I just wish I could say the same for you. And last but not least we need to talk about the cheating thing..." A few tears escaped from her eyes and were now falling down her face, she didn't bother to wipe them away, she didn't care if anybody thought she was weak, for when it came to Gilbert Grissom she has always been weak for him. She tried to remain calm because she didn't want to fight anymore with him.

"Gil, please don't lie to me again, my heart can't take it anymore, I feel so used, torn apart and broken." She could hear him sigh and it sounded like he was crying.

"Sara I know I've hurt you in the past and you forgave me and I don't want to hurt you anymore, the truth is going to hurt you a lot, honey, but you don't want me to protect you from it so here is the truth. Yes I did cheat on you but not in the full sense of the word, it was never physical, I swear, and it only happened about three or four times, the first time was an accident. I was trying to call you, I was going out of my mind not being able to make love to you whenever I wanted to, not being able to talk to you, not being able to hear you scream my name from pleasure, so when I hit the talk button, I automatically started sex talk when the phone was answered, I thought I called your cell..Not her's.."

Sara cuts him off, trying to choke back the tears and emotions, so that she could hear the truth that he was giving. 'This is what I wanted, right?'

"Who...Who's cell phone?" It took him a moment to say the name to her.

"Sofia's phone...I'm so sorry honey, I didn't know it was her until she climaxed, after hearing her call my name, I was angry, ashamed, but most of all I was hating myself, because it wasn't you."

He let out a deep breath preparing himself for the bombs to be dropped, but they didn't come, there was no sound on the other end of the phone.

"Sara are you still there?"

'Oh no she hung up on me. Shit I knew this would be too hard and too much on her...' Her words stopped his thoughts.

"I understand that it was an accident and that you were thinking of me and at the time you thought it was me. But..."

She let out a sigh and leaned forward on the bar stool trying to stay calm and to gather herself. Gil shifts in his seat. 'Oh God here comes the bombs.'

"But the other times...those...those weren't accidents were they?"

"No."

"Were you thinking of her while she got you off or were you thinking of me? You know..I don''t even know if it even matters because either way she was the one who got you off!"

He sat there in shock of her question. 'How could you even ask me that, of course I was thinking of you, Sara, you only. I can't stop thinking of you, your my one and only.'

"Sara honey, I was thinking of only you, your all I think about, when I couldn't get a hold of you that's when I would call her. I would imagine your voice instead of her's, I would imagine your body, your face, your lips, your smile, that gap in your teeth, your breasts, your hair, your perfect ass, the way your mouth pleasures me when you go down on me, how tight you are when I enter you, the way you feel when your body clamps down on me when you orgasm, the way in you, in your mouth, in your arms, and the way you feel in my arms, I imagined your legs, your long sexy legs around me, Sara your my one and only, I can't stop thinking about you, I love you."

'Silence nothing but silence, why won't she say something, anything?'

"Sara?"

"I'm here just...processing."

"Oh...you okay?"

"I'm getting there."

"Are we...okay?"

"I don't know Gil, the fact is I still don't understand why you called her?! I understand you couldn't get a hold of me but why her?!"

"I don't know."

"Yes you do, think about it and when you find out the answer in that big head of yours call me back! I would love to know the reason!"

Before Grissom could say anything she hung up. 'Great, she hung up on me, but at least she said I could call her, seems like progress to me. Did she say she needed to see me? I've got somethings I need to think about but I think I got an idea for a nice surprise that she would love.' Sara slams her phone back down on the counter then turns to Brass who is blushing. 'Shit, I wounder if he heard everything Gil said, dammit I need a cold shower and I am feeling a little embarrassed now.'

"Are you happy now Jim?"

"A little just look at it this way, at least you kept you promise to him, you said that you would call him and you did."

"Yea I did and I also got him to tell me the truth, it hurt, it hurt real bad Jim."

She put her head in her hands and started crying. Brass put his arms around her to comfort her.

"I know it hurts Sara, but at least now you know the truth, at least now it is not speculation, and now the two of you can start to clear the air and work through this, and you were, for the most part, civil towards him." She looks at him with anger flowing through her eyes.

"For the most part? When was I not civil, Jim?!" He leans back in his stool and puts both hands up in the air.

"You mean besides right now?"

She starts to laugh at Brass's actions but he had a reason for acting this way. 'Catherine said she might get defensive or hostile, she told me to keep my distance or Sara could and mos likely would lash out. Just protecting myself, I don't feel like having to explain to the hospital that I got my ass kick by a tough as nails woman, who would be in the waiting room. I would be come a joke.' Sara looks at him as he dropped his hands into his lap and looked back to her with a raised eyebrow waiting for her to reply.

"Alright I deserve that little jab, I guess I really wasn't civil at the end of the phone call before I hung up on him, am I right?"

Brass still kept his hands in his lap, unsure if she was still angry or not.

"Yea that's right."

"I just got angry, he told me the truth, but then says he doesn't know why he called her, he knows why! You know..he didn't have to call her, he could have used his imagination or his memories, God knows he has a lot of them. He didn't need to have someone on the phone or someone with him to satisfy himself, but he choose her and I want to know why!"

She started to cry uncontrollably, so Brass puts his arms around her and held her until she was so exhausted from crying that she had to sleep. He helped her into bed and tucked her in like he would do with his own daughter, then kissed her on her forehead and left. He made sure to lock the door behind him before he went to his car and drove back to the lab. He stayed in his car in the lab parking lot writing down all his notes in his pocket notebook, just like Greg had done earlier. When he was done he put his pocket notebook back in his jacket pocket and headed into the lab in search of the gang. He found them all in the break room drinking coffee and discussing the problems of the two sweethearts.

"Hey guys, sounds like a bunch of gossip in here." Brass chuckles as they all became very quiet. Catherine shoots straight up with a million questions flowing through her brain, but only two came out.

"What happened? Is our plan in motion?"

"Operation Tinker Bell is in effect, Operation Peter Pan will start in..." He looks down at his watch. "ETA 2 ½ hours, so looks like we should get some breakfast before shifts starts."

Greg starts laughing even more and Brass raises a eyebrow in his direction then turns back to Catherine.

"So, who came up with the operation names?"

Nick and Greg both look at Catherine, Brass looks at them, then back at Catherine.

"Fine it was me, so you all can stop staring at me. I got the names from Lindsay, Peter Pan was one of her favorite movies when she was younger." They all start laughing, then Greg turns to Brass.

"Brass I'm going to need your notes, you did take notes right? I need to put them with the others in the fake file." Greg reaches out to Brass, but all he gets is a raised eyebrow from the detective.

"Oh..yea...I almost forgot...what? Did you think I forgot to take notes?" Brass reaches into his jacket and takes out his pocket notebook and gives it to Greg. Greg took the notes and placed them with the others.

"No Brass I just wanted to make sure we got them for the file." They all looked at Brass but his focus never left Greg, it looked like a show down was going to take place. Brass got sarcastic as Greg got defensive.

"Sure you did Greg."

"I did."

They all start walking out leaving Greg in the break room, they got out the door and he follows them trying to convince them of his point of view.

"You guys really I just wanted to make sure the notes got into the file, don't you believe me?" Catherine turns around.

"Stop crying about Greg, Brass forgives you, right?" She turns to Brass who is trying to keep a straight face.

"No, he acted like I've never taken notes before, can you believe him? I always take notes!"

They all turn around and start walking again, but then Brass turns around feeling sorry for the youngest member in the gang.

"Come on Greg, I was just messing around with you, how about I buy breakfast for all of you, instead of Catherine it was her turn?" Greg laughs.

"I'm down with that." They all make there way to the diner for breakfast before shift.

A/N: I'm so sorry it's been awhile since I posted, I will have another chapter posted tomorrow night. Hope you like this, and at least now the two geeks have talked, there will be a happy ending, but first both Grissom and Sara have to have some words with Sofia, maybe a little fight between the Sara and Sofia...just a thought. Leave a comment would love to hear what you think, and any suggestions are welcome.

Take care,

Daphne