Disclaimer: I do not own CSI, only in my dreams :(

A/N: I'm sorry meant to have this yesterday but I feel asleep lol, I don't have a beta so all mistakes are my own. Thank you to all my readers, I hope to hear from you and what you think, it is really important to me, so I guess I am begging for reviews, I love to read them and answer them. Also, I want to give special thanks to for giving me ideas and helping me with the some what phone smut, I really appreciate it a lot.

Chapter. 12

Lockers Take A Beating

Sara is in the locker room organizing her locker for the 3rd time, Nick steps in noticing her at her locker. 'Here is my chance, she only organizes her locker when she is deep in thought, maybe she'll be open to talk to me.'

"Hey girl, you doing okay?" Sara looks at Nick then back down at the entomology book that Grissom gave to her, she the throws the book into her locker and kicks it shut.

"I'm fine Nick, what can I do for you?"

"Umm, I was actually going to ask you if there was anything I can do for you, you know I am a really good listener?" She lets out a sigh.

"There is nothing I need from you and I really don't need to talk to you, much less want to talk to anybody else about my problems, I am fine, just need to clear my head." Nick looks down at the ground after the hurtful blow he just received. 'She use to always talk to me about anything and everything, that really hurt. Maybe trying to get her to open up was the wrong thing to do?'

"Nick?" He looks up but doesn't meet her eyes.

"Yes?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be mean and rude to you, your a great big brother, and best friend but I'm just not ready to talk, when I am it will be after I speak to Gil, and don't take any offense to it, if your not the one I talk to."

"Okay, but just know that I am here for you, I want you to see you happy, not angry, hurt, and sad."

"Thanks Nicky, but Gil makes me happy, it's just that I'm so in love with him that it feels like a emotional roller-coaster, but I guess that's what love is." They both laugh.

"Well I'm going to go beat Greg in this football game, see you when your done beating up the things in your locker?"

"Yea, just got a few more things to throw in there." They laugh together, then Nick walks out the door. Sara opens her locker back up and throws her purse inside, then slams it shut again, and starts to punch it a few times. Catherine steps inside the locker room and watches Sara. A couple minutes later Sara's phone goes off, she checks her pants pockets and comes up with nothing. 'Dammit where the hell did I put my cell phone?' She looks around the locker room, trying to figure out where her cell phone is ringing from.

"Umm Sara, I think you should check your locker, someone important might be calling." Catherine let out a small chuckle as Sara jumped up from the bench in surprise. Sara sits back on the bench and opens her locker back up just as her phone stops ringing.

"Thank you Cath." Sara picks up her phone and checks the missed call.

"So, was I right, someone important?"

"I guess that would depend on who you consider is important. I just missed a call from Gil, I guess I will call him back later, was there something you needed?"

"No, Nick told me you were in here beating up lockers, so I thought I would just come by and make sure mine was out of harms way." They both laugh, while Catherine moves and sits down on the bench beside Sara and examines the lockers. Grissom's old locker looks like it had taken a beating from hell and back, and Sara's looked like it took the same amount of damage.

"So, may I ask what did the lockers do to deserve this kind of beating?" Sara gave Catherine a small smile.

"They looked at me the wrong way." Catherine shakes her head at Sara's sarcasm.

"I'm sorry Catherine, it's just that it reminded me of Gil and all of a sudden a lot of anger went through me and I figured beating the shit out of his locker was better than breaking everything that reminds me of him around here."

"And why your locker?"

"Well, you see once you start it's really hard to stop, I was just about to move on to someone else's locker but my hand really hurts, so I think I need to wash the blood off and put a bandage on, then admit defeat, I may have won the fight, but the lockers without a doubt have won the war." They both start laughing again, Catherine takes Sara's right hand and examines the damage.

"Sara, I think you might need stitches, God I would hate to imagine what Grissom would look like if he was here in your line of fire."

"Well, I think if he was here you wouldn't be seeing him, I can hide a body really well, at least I hope I can." Another round of laughing takes over, as Catherine leads Sara to the sink to clean off the blood on her hands. After washing Sara's hand up, Catherine goes to her locker and takes out a first aid kit.

"Well it's a good thing you didn't go after my locker."

Catherine bandaged up Sara's hand and they both sat back down on the bench without saying a word to each other. After 20 minutes of no talking, just staring at the floor and lockers, Catherine put her hand on Sara's knee.

"Sara call Gil back, and I will be in my office if you want or need anything at all."

"Thanks Catherine, I own you." Catherine pats Sara on the knee and gets up walking towards the door.

"You don't owe me yet, and just keep in mind that I won't forget to collect. Call Gil and I will talk to you soon."

Catherine walks out, Sara looks around and suddenly feels very sick, she jumps and runs to the bathroom stalls, where she throws up. 'Nerves, it's just nerves, or maybe stress, it could be stress caused by the anger I'm having which is messing with my nerve about talking to Gil, yea that has to be it, right?' Just then her phone ringing snaps her back to reality. She flushes the toilet and goes to the sink, where she washes out her mouth and cleans her face. She then drys off with a paper towel and goes back to the bench and picks up her phone and reads the text message.

'Hey honey, give me a call when you can, I'm free for the next three hours but afterward you wont be able to reach me until your tomorrow. Love Gil'

'Hey, I'll call you in 10 minutes, got to get something to settle my stomach.'

'You feeling sick?'

'No just my stomach is upset might have been something I ate, talk to you soon.'

'Okay love you'

Sara put her phone back down on the bench and open up her locker and takes out a bottle pepdobismo to help with settle her stomach. She takes a dose of it and put it back in her locker. 'I'm getting tired of being sick and pepdo really doesn't taste good at all!' She sits back on the bench and opens her phone and calls Grissom.

"Hey honey I was hoping you wouldn't forget to call."

"How could I forget, everyone and there mother keeps asking about you and how I am doing, they seriously need something new to gossip about, then maybe they won't focus me anymore." Sara could hear Grissom laughing.

"Gilbert Grissom! This is not funny, it feels like my personal life is under a dam microscope, your so lucky your in Paris or it would be worse for you!"

"Sorry honey but it is a little funny, how is your stomach doing?"

"Better once I threw up and took some pepdobismo, so are you ready to talk?"

"I'm glad to hear your feeling better and yes I guess I am ready to talk, where do I start?"

"How about why her? Why did you keep it going? Why did you lie about it?"

"Okay, I guess that's a good place to start, why her? um... well the first time like I said before I didn't mean to call her, your name is right before hers' and I didn't look at the screen, when I pressed the talk button, but after that I just wanted to feel needed, I guess I liked the attention that I got, and for the record I didn't want it to be her, I wanted you, your the only I want and will ever want, I love you so much Sara, and the reason I never told you about the phone calls was because I felt guilty, ashamed, but most of all I didn't want to hurt you."

"Gil, you should have been honest with me, it hurt more finding out the way I did, then if you would have told me. True it still would have hurt but...but right now I don't feel like I can trust you to tell me if something like this happens again...Gil why did you leave me that night to talk to Sofia? You say I'm the one you want but I was yours for the taking and you left me for Sofia to do or talk about God knows what..Why?" Sara could hear Grissom put his glasses down and let out a big sigh.

"It isn't important why I left or what we talked about, but that's all we did was talk. I love you Sara, not her." Sara punches her locker out of frustration.

"So am I not important? Are my wants not important? What about my needs are they not important too? Because I want to know why and I NEED to know why."

"Sara your the most important thing in my life, just trust me, it is not important, I do care about your wants and needs but it isn't something you need to know...." Sara looks down to her lap where right hand is balled up into a fist, bleeding again.

"Gil, I have to go and beat up a few more lockers, don't bother to call me tonight, call me tomorrow, since I won't answer my phone until I'm off shift, by then you will be busy with whatever your going to be doing."

"Sara please try to trust me, it's not...." Sara cuts him off.

"Something I need to know? But you don't seem to understand that I need to know, so I am going to hang up now before I can't control my words, I love you, I love you so much, and I will talk to you tomorrow."

With that she hangs up, putting her phone in her pants pocket. After cleaning and redressing her wound on her hand, she heads to Catherine's office. On her way she passes the break room and saw that Nick and Greg were playing their football game, from the sounds of it, it seemed like Greg was wining.

"Take that Mr. Stokes, who's losing now?"

"Your just lucky, I'm going easy on you." Sara steps into the break room.

"Hey guys is Catherine in her office?" Nick stops playing and looked at Sara.
"Yea that's where she said she would be, Sar are you okay?" Sara looks from Nick to Greg, noticing that Greg wasn't paying attention to their conversation because he was still playing the game.

"Yea I'm fine, just needed to talk with her about a cold case that caught my eye." Sara looks down at her shoes. 'I'm getting sick of lieing, that could be a reason for the stress which could explain why I keep throwing up, right? I think I heard about a few people from days and swing are out with a stomach bug, maybe I caught it?' Nicks voice brought her back from her thoughts.

"Do you need any help with that case? We aren't doing anything important, we could help."

"No, that's okay, Cath and I can handle it, besides Greg's beating you pretty badly now." Nick turns back to the TV to see Greg still playing.

"Greg, that's so not fair, your cheating!"

"Am not, you didn't pause the game, so its fair game to keep playing."

"I was distracted."

"Yea and I thank Sara for that." Sara and Greg laugh at Nick's misfortune.

"Well you guys have fun, I'm going to go talk to Catherine."
Sara turns and leaves out of the break room and starts to walk towards Catherine's office. Catherine's door was closed again, so Sara knocks. She hears some papers being moved around and Catherine slamming something down on her desk.

"Come in." Sara opens the door and walked in closing it behind her.

"Tough shift?"

"No, slow shift, I can't find anything to do!"

"Well, are you still up for talking?" Catherine sits up in her seat and smiles really big.

"You bet, do you want to talk here or do you want to go out and get some coffee?"

"Coffee, and I don't think I want the guys trying to overhear our conversation."

"Good point. Well I'm going to go and get my purse and I'll meet you by my car?"

"Okay." Catherine gets up and walks to the locker room as Sara heads to the parking lot.

Meanwhile in Paris

"Jim, it's Grissom, do you have time to talk?"

"Yea sure, what's going on?"

"I just got off the phone with Sara, it seems like every time I talk or when she wants to talk I always put my foot in my mouth. I just don't understand her." Brass was laughing on the other end of the phone.

"I'm sorry I don't mean to laugh but you do know that by the time your little trip is over your going to be a dead man, right? If she doesn't kill you, I will."

"Jim, I never said this was just a trip and call me a optimistic but I am hoping for the best."

"Okay Gil, what did you do or say this time to upset her, maybe I can help you with your stupidity?"

"Well I called her but she didn't answer, so then I sent her a text message, and she text me back, then about 10 minutes later she called me back, and we started talking, it was going really good until she brought up the last night we had in Paris, where I left her in the bedroom to go and talk to Sofia, I told Sara that what Sofia and I talked about was not important, but she sees it differently, I just don't know what I can say or do to get her to trust me, when I tell her that it's not something she needs to know or needs to worry about." Grissom hears Brass sigh and shuffle papers around.

"Gil, with all due respect, your the stupidest smart person I know, your trying to regain her trust right?"

"Yea."

"Well, your not doing a good job at it, listen it may not seem or be that important to you, but it's important to your wife and you not telling her probably makes it seem like lieing and hiding things from her."

"I'm not hiding anything from her Jim, she is being so impossible about this, why the hell is it so dam important to her?"

"She's not being impossible, listen because I am only going to say this once, it's important for her to know because if you tell her, then it's giving her some security that if something again that she can trust you to tell her, but if you don't tell her then how is she going to trust you to be honest with her about everything, if she can't trust you then she is going to protect her heart at all costs, even if it means letting go of you." Both lines went silent for a few minutes.

"Gil?"

"Yea?"

"Get some sleep and think about what I said, and make sure you are prepared to do a lot of talking and groveling when you see her."

"Okay, I'll see you soon."

"You bet." Brass hangs up and Grissom got ready to get some sleep because he only has 2 hours before his flight.

At The Coffee Shop

Sara got the two cups of coffee as Catherine paid for them, they sat down at a table outside not wanting to miss out on the perfect weather that Vegas was having and sat in silence for a few minutes. 'I know I shouldn't push Sara to talk since this time it was her who wanted to talk but maybe she just needs a little push.'

"So what did Gil do this time?" 'There not too pushy but straight to the point.' Sara looked up from her coffee cup, but when she met Catherine's eyes, Catherine could see the the tears that threaten to fall.

"Um.. what makes you think he did something?" Catherine had to hold back her laughter. 'Sometimes you Sara, are a bad liar.'

"Your eyes gave you away this time, so spill it." Sara's eyes moved back down to her coffee.

"Why are men so blind, thoughtless and just plain assholes?" Catherine moved her seat closer to Sara and placed her hand on top of Sara's right hand that was on the table.

"Sara, Grissom is the stupidest smart person when it comes to anything personal related, you know this. You have to give him a play by play so that he can understand." Sara removes her hand from Catherine's and places it on the side of her head.

"That's just it, I did give him a play by play, I told him that I needed to know why he left me for Sofia that last night in Paris, that I needed to know what they talked about, he said it wasn't important, I told him that it was important for him to tell me, but all he said was that it's not important. Cath how am I suppose to trust him after all of this, him lieing, him denying it, him hiding it, until he finally admits it, then I had to force him to tell me everything but he isn't telling me everything, but I know that I would be able to start trusting him again but he's not telling me everything, what doesn't he want me to know, what else is he hiding?"

"Sara, I can't give you those answers, but I can give you my support, I agree with you, it may not be important to him but it is clear that it is important to you and your marriage. Maybe Brass can knock some sense into him." Sara's head snaps up to look at Catherine with wide eyes.

"No! Catherine you can't tell Brass, they are best friends, I just need sometime to think of a better way to explain to Gil why it's so dam important for me to know, I told him to call me tomorrow, so by then I should be more calm and ready to explain this better." Catherine lets out a sigh of frustration.

"Okay I won't tell Brass, besides Brass would probably fly to Paris and kick his ass if you didn't do it yourself." They both chuckle.

"Cath please don't talk to Gil either, I don't want him to think that I'm truing you guys against him or making all of you chose sides just because we're fighting." Sara gets up and throws her empty coffee cup away and walks back to the table and hugs Catherine, which shocks her. Catherine and Sara have never really been very close and this was the first time that Sara has given a hug to Catherine as if they have been best friends for years.

"I'm going to head back to the lab to take some more medicine for my stomach, my stomach is starting to upset again, see you back there?" Catherine still in shock looks at Sara.

"Yea I'll see you there in a while, I'm going to get the guys a real cup of coffee, but Sara, if your feeling sick you can go home, its a slow night and shift is almost over."

"Alright, I guess I will see you later than." Sara continues to walk to the lab as Catherine orders 3 more cups of coffee to go. After she gets the coffee Catherine sits back down at the table and writes their conversation down in her notebook, hoping that Sara went home so that she could round everybody up for another meeting of the minds.

2 hours later on Grissom's Flight

Grissom's seat is the window seat, he leans the seat back and puts on head phones, not so that he could watch the movie they had playing but because he wanted to drain out all the talking that was going on between the passengers next to him. About half an hour into the flight Grissom falls into a deep sleep of memories.

Grissom picks up his phone and calls Sara, after the 3rd ring it goes to voice mail, so he shuts his phone and opens it back up, fumbling with the keys he scrolls to find Sara's name again, he quickly hits the talk button. On the 2nd ring the other end was answered with a excited voice.

"Hello?"

"Hey babe, it's me, don't say anything just listen and do what I tell you, okay?" There was a small moment of silence on the other end.

"Okay." Gil took his engorged cock into his hand and started to stroke himself.

"Right now I'm so hard, I'm stroking my cock, imagining that it's your delicate hand, I can see you stroking my shaft as I continue to get harder from your touch, I want you to start rubbing your clit, and imagine that it's my tongue teasing you, I want to slide your finger inside your we folds, and start to pump in and out of you, imagine that it is my cock hitting you in all the right places, that only I hit in you." Gil can hear moaning from the other end of the phone and it makes him start pumping himself quickly and hard.

"I want you to slide another finger inside you pussy and keep them moving inside of yourself but take you other hand and start rubbing your breast slow and gentle, I'm pumping my rock hard cock and tighten my grip, I can feel your mouth on the head, your tongue slowly licking, then your mouth closing on my head slowly sucking driving me crazy.. then I pick you up and enter you fast and hard, being in you makes me feel complete..." Grunts, groaning, and moaning was all that could be heard on both ends of the phone. The Grissom screams his release.

"Sara!Ohhh God Sara!"

"Grissom, oh feels so good!" Grissom suddenly drops his phone. 'OMG, that's not Sara, shit what have I done? Could have sworn I called Sara, what am I going to do now?' Gil picks his phone up and sees that it is Sofia's name on the screen.

"Grissom? Are you there?"

"I'm so sorry Sofia, I could have sworn that I called Sara, I'm...I..Oh my God what have I done?"

"Griss, it's okay, I understand, but just so you know it was great, I mean more than great and any time you need release I am here, you can always call me."

"Sofia, please, I'm sorry but this can't and won't happen again. I love Sara, only Sara, but this..this was a accident. Hope we can just forget about this and move on?"

"Well I don't think you or I can forget about this, it was a good release that we both needed, I know you will be calling again when you need it and can't get it from you wife." Sofia hung up before Grissom had a chance to say anything else.

Then his dream took him to that night in Paris with Sara, when he was on the phone with Sofia.

"Gil, I have some great news for you!"

"Your going to stop calling me?" He said with a hopeful voice.

"Umm..No, I'm going to Paris in a month and I plan on us getting together." Grissom sighs with frustration.

"Sofia! There isn't nor will there ever be a us, I love Sara and Sara only.."

"Then what was I to you? Someone to fill a line on the phone? I know that I'm more to you than that, I know because the last time you said and I quote 'I love you' end quote, the last time, you need me, just you wait your mind is going to change."

"Sofia, your fucking dreaming, I don't need you, I never will, the only person I need is setting in the next room waiting for me to come in there and make love to her until she can't see straight!"

"Then why are you on the phone with me, and not in there with your wife? Maybe it's because you don't want her, you want what you can't have, me...but next month I promise you can fuck me until the sun comes up, I will blow your mind." Grissom sighs and shakes his head in disbelief. 'This bitch is crazy!'

"You just don't get it! The only person who can blow my mind is Sara, and you will never compare or measure up to her!" With that he slams his phone shut.

Grissom wakes up from his dream to find a young woman gently shaking him to wake up.

"Excuse me sir?....Sir?... Sir, the plane has landed."

"Oh, I'm sorry." Grissom gets up and moves into the aisle.

"That's okay, you look like you could use the rest but I didn't want the plane to leave with you still on it, you might find yourself somewhere you don't want to be."

"Thank you, there is no where I rather be than here in Vegas, I'm here to surprise my wife." They walk off the plane.

"Well, I hope your wife loves her surprise."

"Me too, and thank you once again for waking me up."

"No problem." The woman meets up with her family. Grissom hears a familiar voice calling his name he turns around to see not only Jim but also.....

A/N 2: So who do you think came with Jim? Chapter 13 should be up later on today. So anybody want to take a guess on how Sara will react to seeing Grissom? Make up or make Grissom suffer a little longer? What to do, what to do? Suggestions?