Overview: Andrea must make a very important choice that could affect the entire universe while dealing with the fact that Adam continues to show no signs of improvement (You actually get to see the softer, more vulnerable side of Andrea in this chapter) not to mention that the other rangers haven't woken up yet.
Note: My inspiration for this chapter came from 4 different songs: "Paperthin Hymn" by Anberlin and "Nothing I Won't Give" by Vic Mignogna(I happen to have those 2 songs stuck in my head which I blame on J and Sensei!![lol inside joke between my friends and I also, "What I've Done" & "In Pieces" by Linkin Park. This is broken down into several parts; each part will have some lyrics from those songs that I just listed.
A/N: told from Andrea's point of view
Special thanks to: Momo for being my beta reader and everyone who has left me reviews(sorry I'm such a newbie at this)
Disclaimer: I do not own Power Rangers but I did create the character Andrea Baker. Also I don't own any of the songs listed.
Quick note: "people speaking" -Location-. "Zedd speaking" "Zordon speaking" -thoughts-(cause FF is evil and kept killing my brackets) and flashbacks are listed as such. Lyrics are listed in italics before each section
A/N#2: I should mention that a butterfly kick is obviously a martial arts move and if you have seen the PRiS ep "Always a Chance" it's the spinning kick that Adam does when he saves Carlos from the LizWizard.
Chapter 9: Painful Choices and Pieces of a Heart
Part 1: Decision
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands
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I thought you said forever
Over and over
The sleepless night become bitter oblivion
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These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints of violence become my only friends
-The Central Chamber of the Command Center-
"You realize the possible effects this decision has on everything" Zordon tells me.
-Hell you think I wanted this- "I have no other choice because it is my damn fault the Rangers are all out of commission and besides someone has to protect earth." --
"This is merely the power of the phoenix Ninjetti spirit animal"
I sigh and roll my eyes -don't you think I don't already know that Zordon- but I respond with: "Yes I realize that Zordon but I am able throw fireballs so that has got to count for something".
August evenings
Bring solemn warnings
To remember to kiss the ones you love goodnight
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You never know what simple days may bring
Laugh and love, live, free and sing
Just then the alarm goes off and the viewing globe reveals that Zedd has unleashed yet another set of Tengas onto Angel Grove. -Damn now I know why my friends always look almost dead at school the day after there have been relentless monster attacks on the city-. I flinch as my thoughts once again drift to Adam and my friends.
Part 2: Regret
Telling me to go
But hands beg me to stay
Your lips say that you love
But your eyes say that you hate
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There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
What you build you lay to waste
There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got's what you didn't take
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So I…I wont be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces
And you… you will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets
Don't lie
-Angel Grove Park-
The Tengas have flown off but have been replaced with Goldar who is holding a mirror. –what the hell does Zedd have up his sleeve this time??-
"What do you want you over-grown baboon and what's with the mirror?"
"This, orange ranger, is the Mirror of Regret" Goldar responds laughing evilly
-Mirror of Regret? Where the hell have I heard that name before?-
"First off I'm not the orange ranger; in fact I'm not a Power Ranger at all. Second off, what the hell is the Mirror of Regret?" –Shit! Wait isn't that what Rocky told me that Goldar used to make Adam lose confidence and doubt himself one time?-
You promise me the sky
Then toss me like a stone
You wrap me in your arms
And chill me to the bone
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There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got's what you didn't take
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So I…I wont be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces
And you… you will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets
Don't lie
"Tell Zedd that I said that when you play with fire you will get burned!" I shout as I do a butterfly kick and shatter the Mirror of Regret.
Part 3: Promise
Haunted by the past,
A nightmare that seems so unreal.
Wish that I could turn back time,
And spare the pain that we both feel.
-Medical Bay of the Command Center-
I quietly sit down beside Adam's bed and sigh as I gently brush some of his soft, black curls away from his face; I have to admit that he is cute. -Sometimes I find it hard to believe that he is my brother much less my twin brother. Sure there is the almost eerie physical resemblance we have to each other but when it comes to personality Adam and I are complete opposites. Where he is soft-spoken I am loud, where he is shy and cautious I am brash and unnerving, where he is gentle and open hearted I am cynical and closed off. While he has already accepted me as his sister and has come to love me like we have grown up together I still struggle with the fact that he is my brother and not just some friend– I sigh again and check his vitals and my heart skips a beat. –No wonder he looked like he was just peacefully sleeping! Oh my god! His vital signs have stabilized and even improved!- I contemplate running out and telling Zordon the good news but since its 1AM not to mention I shouldn't even be here I decide against it.
I promise you,
There is nothing I won't give,
To see this through,
Return the soul to where it lives.
I promise you,
I'd go everywhere I've been,
To find a way,
To make atonement for my sin.
And see...
See your smiling face again.
I gently lean close to him and whisper these words into his ear, "Earlier when I was under Zedd's control, I heard you say these words to me. "I'm your brother and I know and love you"
Even though we have spent 15 years of our lives apart from each other, you still accepted me as your sister and loved me as if we had grown up together. Because of this I promise that no matter what it takes I will set things right again. I will fight until I no longer have breath in my lungs if that's what it takes; I will get you back my dear brother."
I gently kiss him on the cheek and take his hand in mine and suddenly I'm alarmed because his hands feel icy cold. I relax a little; it's not the chill of death that is the reason his hands are so cold, because his vital signs are very strong, no the reason why is because the poor guy is lying under the damn air vent.
"You poor thing looks like I'm going to have to find a way to get you warmed up now don't I?" I smile and look around the room and an idea pops into my head.
Part 4: Reconciliation
In this farewell,
There's no blood,
There's no alibi.
'Cause I've drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come,
And wash away… What I've Done.
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.
-Somewhere Outside Angel Grove-
I look back once more at the structure that was the Command Center, outlined by the morning sun, sitting atop the hill. –Don't you worry about me Adam cause this is a journey that I must take on my own. But remember that I love you my brother-. I turned and continued walking because I knew that the others would wake up soon and discover the gifts. My way of saying thank you for their friendship, and the black and green blanket I had tucked around Adam and the note that I had pinned to it.
For what I've Done
I start again,
And whatever pain may come.
Today this ends,
I'm forgiving what I've done.
I am deciding to take a little break from this story because I've now got 9 chapters up so it wouldn't hurt. Plus too I need to get my ass to my Physc class more cause I'm gonna end up failing that class and that's really bad if I do. So you probably wont hear from me for a while.
However I do have a deviation from this story that I have written called You Never Know Till You Try which is an Adam/Rocky slash (Please don't kill me!).