Chapter 3

Christmas went fast. Too fast for Jades liking for she dreaded going back to Hogwarts. It was her safe haven from her parents and she needed it now more than ever. She could not get disowned, she would have no where to go and it was Christmas and freezing. No, she could not leave. She could not even go with Severus because if she did she would end up getting the man killed. That was the last thing she wanted. Jade wanted to keep her dream alive. Even if it didn't become life, it would give her a reason to live.

Christmas at the Avery's from beginning to end was strained. She chucked their presents at them. Something she would never forget was that they had thrown the Cruciatus curse at her, causing her unimaginable pain. She didn't want to feel again that was for sure. She had lay there for the rest of the day in a heap, not being able to get up. When she finally was able, she overheard a conversation she wished she wouldn't have.

"And is she powerful?" asked an amused angry hissing voice. She wondered who it was leaning against the door. She was a natural occlumens so he didn't know she was there.

"Yes my Lord very powerful. She will be a great heir," said her mother's voice causing her jaw to drop. That was her mother talking about her as if she were proud! She had always wanted this and here it was.

"Good I will have her presented to me when school is finished. I've already got some new recruits. She will bow before the almighty Lord Voldemort and receive my mark proudly or you will suffer the consequences," hissed the Dark Lord.

Jade's eyes widened. Lord Voldemort was here in her house! Her parents were followers! Them coming home shaking made sense now! They wanted her to hurt people? To kill Muggleborns? 'Are they in sane?' She would not touch anyone, no way. If they thought she was going to get that mark they were up a Gump hole.

"Yes my lord she will," said her father.

"And have you found a husband for her?" hissed Voldemort curiously. He would have liked her for himself but he wanted powerful followers. So he needed to get his powerful followers together.

"Yes my lord, we chose Nathan Nott. He is powerful and ruthless and will be a good husband for Jade," said Jade's father.

Jade's eyes widened in horror. The guy who had always been feeling her up was going to be her husband? The guy she kept pushing away even when he told her that she was his? 'Oh gods!'

"And is she a virgin?" asked Voldemort. He knew that pure wife's make the bond more powerful. Meaning he was more powerful and had more control over her.

"Yes my Lord. We put spells on her to make her not interested in anyone. We will take them off on her wedding night so Nathan will become more powerful, making more powerful followers for you," said the woman.

"Good, remember if she doesn't come willingly then you will know all about it. You have produced me a powerful witch, very good. However, I won't have you going around as if you own the place anymore. I have more followers now," hissed Voldemort with a smirk.

"Yes my Lord," said Jade's mother shakily.

"Good then," said their Lord before there was a pop, signaling that someone had apparated out of there. Jade shakily walked into another room. No wonder her father said he would kill Severus, he was a bloody Death Eater. He probably does it as a hobby. Tears slid down her face. There was no way out now.

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She met Severus on the Hogwarts express. He locked the door and warded it before turning to Jade and kissing her. What he had not told her was that he was a Death Eater and was going to spy on him for Dumbledore. His father had forced him to take the mark. A part of him had wanted to meet the man, but when he had it had not turned out to be what he had expected. It was then he decided to spy on the man.

He also knew that Jade's parents were Death Eaters and Severus also knew that he had a higher rank than the Avery's because he was a Potions Master. He was even higher than his father. Severus took off her top.

Jade was in two minds. She didn't want these feelings wise, but also knew her feelings were being tampered with.

She knew that if she was not a virgin then maybe the man would get less control over her. What was she complaining about? She was having Sex with the man of her dreams even if she would have to tell him she didn't want to be with him. One thing was for sure. She was going to enjoy it while it lasted. She knew Nathan was ruthless and would hurt her for turning down his advances.

Severus pulled up her skirt and took off her bra. He kissed his way down her neck. He had raped people and had made people who had not wanted Sex to enjoy it. He knew what he was doing and was determined to let Jade enjoy it. Jade was bucking up towards Severus within minutes gasping when she felt Severus bite and suck at her nipples. She was not used to the feeling. Severus then pulled Jade's knickers down before kissing her again. Coming back up breathless, he positioned himself at her entrance.

She was beautiful and Severus could not keep his hands or dick for that matter, to himself. He slowly worked his way in. Merlin he was in heaven! She was tight and snug, the others had never been as tight as this. Jade nearly cried out at the burn she felt as Severus entered her, but as soon as it came it was gone. The feeling of being filled was amazing. Wiggling to get the feeling, she also wanted the feeling to go away. It only seemed to be making it worse. 'Stupid potions.'

Severus then began moving in and out of her, which was even better. He felt himself harden and thicken. God it was amazing! He could feel his climax coming on. Groaning he kept thrusting in. As Jade groaned, moaned and screamed he thrust in before pushing as far in as he could get into her tightness and emptying his load into her. He collapsed beside her. She was sweaty, her black hair was tangled and she was breathing heavily. She could not believe how this had felt. The charms were either weakening or she had somehow removed them because she had after a while wanted Sex with this man.

Severus stayed awake humming from the after math however Jade fell asleep. Severus felt more powerful than he had when he had woken up. That he didn't understand, but it didn't bother him much. He didn't tell anyone.

Jade seemed distant at the welcoming feast and he wondered what was wrong with her. She didn't want to talk to him or anything. Severus didn't understand it at all! She had wanted the sex so he knew it was not that. Merlin he just didn't understand. With a sigh he walked to her dorms. He knew he could not get up the stairs so he levitated himself up there. He was going to get an answer from her no matter what.

Knocking, he went right in immediately locking and silencing the place. He turned to look at her and saw that she looked terrible. Her hair was all over the place and her eyes were rimmed in red as though she had been crying.

"What is the matter Jade? You ignore me at the welcoming feast then give me the cold shoulder tonight. What's the matter?" he asked, scared she knew he was a Death Eater.

"I can't be with you," said Jade softly fighting against the tears that were threatening to pour down her face.

"What? Why?" he asked sounding hurt, which was no where near as hurt as they both truly felt at that statement.

"Because I can't love you," said Jade looking away before telling him to "Leave now." She waited till the door clicked shut before huddling on her bed and crying her heart out. She was crying so hard that she ended up getting the hiccups and her nose ran. She was a down right mess.

Severus soon left heart broken that the girl he loved had said she didn't love him. If he had been thinking properly he would have realized she said cant love you not I don't love you. There was a big difference. The truth was as plain as day and he refused to see it. She could not love him, she would rather him be alive and hating her than dead loving her. She could live with her dreams. Her dreams where Severus and their children were.

After that Severus honestly didn't know what side he was on. He knew it was wrong, but he began enjoying killing people, taking his frustrations out on someone. It was better than keeping it locked in. Even more so when it was announced that Nathan Nott and her were going to wed. If he had not been such a bitter man he would have realized the shine that used to be in her eyes was gone, replaced with dead hollowness of what used to be herself.

Jade was forced to endure Nathan's hands all over her, kissing her. They didn't go further than that. She knew what he wanted, but he was nice to her. She had to give him that. He gave her chocolates and flowers. That was it. She was forced to have pure blood bride's maids, people she didn't even know like Narcissa Malfoy and Bella Black soon to be Lestrange.

Jade was dressed in the nicest dress she had ever been in and didn't even think about the one she was marrying. All she could think about was Severus. She really wanted to run for it, but there was nothing she could do. She would be killed and that was the last thing she wanted.

"Do you Jade Avery take Nathan Nott to be your lawfully wedded husband?" asked the priest who happened to be Pat Parkinson. The wife of a Death Eater. Whether she was marked or not was not known.