You guys have to understand that Kyle's isn't really thinking with his heart, just his mind. And he's about to have a couple of big problems lol. so heads up. As for Brooke, well, she's just being Brooke lol. Aaron, i'm not sure when i'll put him back in, he may not be mentioned until the final game. He's not really needed, i have some other ideas lol. I realized when i was going over Kyle's conversation with Nathan, that Nathan kinda sounded like a girl lol. He's been with Haley too long lol.
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Brooke had heard alot of things in her life time. Comments about how much of a slut she was, or hot hot she was. Then there were more heartbreaking, life changing thing. Like when Peyton told her she still had feelings for Lucas, or when Lucas said he wanted to be with her right when she was leaving for California. One of the most heartbreaking was when Lucas told her he had HCM, and that he lied about it. Then there was the time when Lucas said that they weren't like Camilla and Whitey, and that they weren't gonna work out. So some of them have worked in her favor, and some just completely put her heart in a blender.
Because I love you.
Now that had it's upsides and it's downsides. Upside was that he finally told her, and it made her happy to know that, so she wasn't the only one with the feelings. But then there were downsides, and boyy were they down. Kyle wanted to stay away from her because he loved her? Two hours later and Brooke still couldn't fully understand what he meant by that. But either way, it hurt just the same.
Which led her to her bed, staring up at the ceiling. It took her a few minutes to feel her legs after Kyle had left. Then she had run to her car and sped off. She nearly got into an accident, her vision was so blurry. But she made it home, barely. She considered getting reacquainted with her famliiar friend, imported Belvedere. But she declined the opportunity. Kyle wouldn't have wanted that. So she laid there, oblivious to the world around her. The only thing she felt were tears on her cheeks and the aching in her heart. She didn't hear the knock on her door or Peyton as she entered the room.
She hadn't seen Peyton in a long time. Days, weeks even. Brooke missed her best friend everyday, but once again her pride always got in the way of doing what was right. Peyton somewhat surprised Brooke. She strode into her room, as if nothing happened, and plopped down on Rachel's bed. Brooke looked at Peyton from the corner of her eye, and saw she was looking at her nails, figuring out what to say. There was alot to say, but no words to put them in.
"What no alcohol this time?" Peyton joked, but it came out dumb.
"Nope, no alcohol. I think my stomach could use a rest," Brooke said quietly.
"Yeaa i bet. Look, i just came by to see how you were doing, with all, that," Peyton amphasized.
"I'm guessing you knew?"
"Knew that he had feelings for you, or knew what he was gonna do?"
"Both."
"Both." Peyton stated.
"But seriously, why would he do that Peyton? He knows how much he means to me," Brooke said quietly.
"And you probably mean wayy more to him. Kyle doesn't wear his heart on his sleeve. I guess he thought that things would get messed up."
"Yea i know, but now we can't talk to each other anymore. He kept on telling me to forget about him and just be with Lucas."
"You and i both know that's not what he wants," Peyton smiled.
"Then why say it?" Brooke asked, sitting up.
"Well, if KYle had told you that he wanted to be with you, would you have broken up with Lucas?" Peyton asked, her eyebrows raised.
"I don't know," Brooke said faintly.
"Kyle probably knew you would say that, which is why he told you all those things you didn't wanna hear. He knew you weren't gonna break up with Lucas just like that."
"Well he should've waited," Brooke said stubbornly.
"Don't you think he's waited long enough? It's not easy being in love with your best friend."
"You're right. NOw i know how you felt."
"I was in Kyle's position not too long ago. But i could never be that selfless like he was. And i wasn't really in love with Lucas anyway," Peyton said.
"You weren't?"
"I thoght i was, i know, i always think i am. But i just wasn't feeling it anymore. All the 'romantic feelings' i had for Lucas all of a sudden went away, and i found myself wondering if they ever even existed at all."
"So it's Jake," Brooke stated with a small smile on her face.
"Yeaa it's Jake. I'm not changing my mind this time," Peyton said.
"That's great Peyt. You deserve it."
"And so do you."
"Uhh, i'm not too sure about that. I'm just so confused about what i feel from what's right. Lucas means so much to me, and we're really starting to get to that good place. And with Kyle, i feel so strongly for him, and it's scaryy. I don't know if it's love or lust or what."
"Wanna know what i think?"
"That might help me."
"I don't think Kyle knows this yet, but i think i know what he's doing. Besides me probably, Kyle knows you better than anyone. He knows how you think, what you like, everything. One of the things he knows about you is that you like to test people. The way you tested Lucas. Maybe he's doing that to you."
"Okayy you lost me," Brooke said confused.
"Okayy, remember when you got back from California, and told Lucas you just wanted a friends with benefits relationship? You hooked up with other guys, flirted with them, trying to see if Lucas would just walk away from you. When he didn't, you knew that he was really serious about you. Kyle might be doing the same thing. He's wants to be out of your life, and see if you can live without him, and if you can't, then it's meant to be."
"Do you really think that's what he's doing?"
"I wouldn't put it past him. YOu guys aren't that different than you think," Peyton smirked.
Brooke stared at her for a moment.
"Peyton I --"
"Brooke don't worry about it. Consider it over. Friends?" Peyton asked, holding her arms out.
Brooke smiled and hugged her, "Friends."
"So, just figure out who's more important. Despite what Kyle said, he's always gonna be around."
"I hope you're right," Brooke said hopefully as Peyton left.
Well one good thing came out of this ordeal. Her and Peyton were friends again. They didn't even have to talk about it, it was like a silent agreement that they would forget everything that happened, and be best friends again. And Brooke was glad, she was gonna need Peyton.
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Someone once said 'out of sight out of mind.'
Whoever said that was full of crap in Kyle's book. It had been 24 hours, and Brooke was all he thought about. He was getting into the familiar feelings and moods, ones that he wished he would never experience again.
There were a million reasons why this wasn't good for him. The most important being the game in two days. This was big, probably the biggest game he would ever play in his life. He couldn't be having distractions bothering him because Aaron would know and use it against him. He just couldn't lost to Aaron, it wasn't acceptable.
So he sat in first period, with Brooke right beside him. They had ignored each other as he expected. He didn't except her to talk to him anyway, he just hoped she didn't expect him to say anything. He was a little annoyed that she kept on turning around and giggling at Lucas, but he couldn't say he was surprised. SHe was trying to get a rise out of him. Her perfume also made it's way to him. Every once in awihle he would stare at her from the corner of his eye. She looked beautiful today, but she looked nice everyday. He caught a whiff of her shampoo, today it was vanilla.
It irriated him, everything about her. It made it harder to stay away from her. Technically he wasn't staying away from her, she was in almost every class of his. It made it even worse that he sat either behind or next to her. He was considering switching with someone, it wouldn't be hard. Every male would kill to sit next to Brooke Davis. But that would be too cold.
Last night he couldn't sleep, so he went for a jog. After he came back home, he still couldn't fall asleep, which led him to the Rivercourt, where all he thought abouit was his conversation with Brooke. He didn't even bother to look back when he left, because he knew he could never leave. He got home around 5 and only got at least an hour of sleep. Which led him to get ready earlyy, and skip breakfast. He just wasn't hungry, and food didin't sound appealing to him. That all led him to get to school earlyy, and sit in a secluded spot in the quad. He never did his homework anymore, so he decided to do it.
Then Brooke had showed up in timely fashion, strutting across the courtyard and settling herself at a table. She somewhat acted like nothing had happened, but it was more like she didn't wanna remember what happened. She was with Lucas more than usual, and smiling and laughing alot. Kyle couldn't help but chuckle at her, but at least she was doing what he asked.
Nobody bothered to talk to him about what happened. They already knew he didn't wanna talk about it. Instead he talked to Nathan about the game, the weather, anything else. He asked Haley questions on Calculus, any help he needed in school. With Peyton, there was sarcastic remarks and friendly insults. No one mentioned Brooke or anything that had to do with Brooke, and he wanted it that wayy. Thinking about Brooke was only allowed in his head, not voiced out loud.
As soon as the bell rang Kyle was out of there. He wasn't really looking forward to weightlifting, mostly because Lucas would be there. And he, who had no idea what was going on, would of course be talking about his girlfriend. Kyle just hoped Lucas wouldn't be nosy this time.
Kyle kind of felt bad for Lucas. The guy had no idea what was going on, he thought everything was great. It was great for him, and maybe Brooke, but to him, it was unbearable. He didn't even know how he was coping with it. BUt he rather it be him than anyone else. Kyle felt compelled to tell Lucas, but what good would that do? It would get them nowhere, except downhill, and Brooke needed some stability to fall back on, and if Lucas were to find out, he might not be there.
So he walked into the locker room, preparing to drown out all words that came out of Lucas's mouth.
Too bad he got there too soon.
"It was so funny when me and Brooke tripped over the step this morning going out of her house," Lucas said.
Kyle silently groaned to himself. This was gonna be harder than he thought. He quickly changed and was out of the locker room before he could hear Lucas's plans with Brooke this weekend, after the game. Knowing Brooke, it would be something adventurous, maybe even explicit.
He was in the middle of benchpressing 210, when he heard giggling and the sound of girls enter the weightroom.
"Hey Nate what's going on?"
"It looks like the girls are hanging in here," Nathan replied.
"Is she in here?" Kyle asked, but something told him he already knew the answer.
"Yup," he said shortly.
"Well that's just great. The one class i don't have with her, she's here," Kyle said.
"Just don't worry about it, she's not gonna come around here, plus we're training," Nathan added.
Coach Harrison came out of his office and blew his whistle, "Alright, since out other coach is out today, the girls are gonna be joining us. I know this weightroom isn't very flattering, so we're just gonna be playing basketball out in the gym. And i mean actually playing, not flirting with the girls Mr. Smith. It's blacks versus blues. Hustle!"
They all made their way into the gym, echoes sounding out. Kyle and Nathan both had black shirts on, so they were on the black team along with some other guys. Even though Lucas couldn't play in a game, he could still play a round in gym, which was why he led the blue team. Kyle could see Lucas talking to Brooke, and her laughing at every little thing he said.
"Just ignore it Kyle," Nathan said, already knowing what he was thinking.
"How? Her laugh reverberates across the whole gym."
"Well, try to. And go easyy on Lucas," Nathan said as they got into position.
"Why? Because of his heart?"
"No, because he has the girl who has yours." The ball tipped off and Kyle got the ball and passed it to Nathan. Nate shot it up for an alley oop, which Kyle took and dunked through the net.
"Well, that's one way to take out your aggression," Nathan joked as they made their way across the court. Lucas had the ball and bounced it to Skills, but Kyle stole it, and ran all the way and sunk a three pointer. Kyle didn't look like he cared in the least, it was just a way to get his mind off things. The game went like that for awhile.
The black team were winning, no doubt. Lucas had the ball and was heading over to the 3 point line. Kyle jogged up to guard him, and Lucas went and pushed him away forcefully with his free hand.
"Dude what the hell was that?" KYle yelled, stepping closer to Lucas.
"Chill out man. It was an accident," Lucas said coolly.
"Accident my ass. Look i don't really care if you have a heart condition or not, i'll lay your ass out right now if you wanna go," Kyle whispered to him as Nathan went and got between them.
"Alright guys break it up. Lucas, you really shouldn't have pushed Kyle like that. That's not how to play basketball," Nathan said.
"Whatever, he overreacted anyway," Lucas said as he made his way over to Brooke.
"Let's just go change," Nathan mutterd to Kyle as they walked towards the locker room, oblivious to everybody in the gym who were watching them.
"I seriously think being Brooke's boyfriend is getting to his head," Kyle said as he opened his locker.
"Can't say i disagree with you. But fighting isn't the answer."
"Maybe so, but it shouldn't surprise him one of these days when i knock his lghts out," Kyle mumbles as he put his black polo over his head. Brooke had told him to get that shirt.
"I really hope you don't. I'm in a bad enough position."
"I know and i'm sorry. I'll just keep my distance from him, then we won't have problems," Kyle said as they made their way out of the locker room.
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Brooke was a little bit surprised when she saw Lucas push Kyle on purpose. It wasn't really like him. ANd she knew Kyle was gonna do something to him, thank goodness for Nathan.
Brooke didn't sleep last night. Instead she watched all of grey's anatomy season 1-3 DVDs. She sat there with her ben and jerry's, watching Meredith pine over McDreamy time and time again. Lucas had unexpectedly showed up this morning and offered to ride with her to school. She gratefully excepted, anything to get her mind off of last night.
When she got to school, she could see KYle sitting by himself. She felt sad for about a second before she realized that he broke off their friendship not her. But she couldn't deny how good he looked today in his khaki shorts and black polo, the outfit she suggested for him. English class was anything but English. She was either talking to Lucas, or glancing at Kyle in the corner of her eye. She carely slept last night, but she had make up to cover up the bags under her eyes, Kyle didn't. It was obvious he didn't get much sleep either. Once again, she felt bad for him, but it was quickly replaced by anger once more.
She was excited that her classhad combined with weight training, which meant no physical activity and that Lucas would be there. She then realized Kyle was there. He was benchpressing, and his muscles were looking good. But once again, she stopped herself. Brooke found herself either thinking about how much she missed Kyle, and how much she blamed him for everything. Which was why she felt compelled to approach him at his locker.
She walked up confidentally to him while he was digging through his locker. She smelled his cologne, which made her weak in the knees. BUt not too weak to insult him.
"You know it was stupid how mad you got at Lucas," Brooke mentioned as she opened her locker.
Kyle slightly turned his head in her direction and then back straight ahead, "I'm not even gonna say anything to that."
"Why? Because it's the truth?" Brooke asked, staring straight at him.
"No," Kyle said as he shut his locker, and turned and looked straight at her, "because i know you want me to."
Brooke was a little thrown off by the direct eye contact but quickly recovered, "Well can you blame me? I mean, you tell me you love me and then say that we can't even be friends. ANyone would be mad."
"Maybe, but i don't remember you saying you loved me back. Plus, you were pretty in lovee with Lucas today, so i guess my feelings meant nothing to you."
"Some people can't help who they love," Brooke said harshly, which she quickly regretted.
Kyle looked at her with hurt in his eyes, but were quickly replaced with anger. He got real close to her face.
"Well i guess i'm one of those people," he whispered harshly before brushing past her.
So basically Brooke was screwed. SHe really regretted saying that, she knew what it was liek to have your feelings thrown back at you, and it wans't a good feeling. She was just so, upset, angry, and hurt over what happened. Brooke knew she was in the wrong, and now Kyle would probably never talk to her every again. But how could she possibly move on when he got mad at her for doing what he wanted?
How can he move on when you're approaching him and starting fights?
Okayy maybe she shouldn't have done that. BUt somehow it had been worth it. For the 30 seconds she was in close proximity with him, she felt like she could finally breathe. SHe felt the air leave her lungs as soon as he walked away from her.
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Kyle walked angrily to the courtyard and plopped down at a table.
WHo the hell did she think she was? They were fine ignoring each other, then she had to go and approach him. Hearing what she said could've really been prevented. Kyle honestly thought that she meant it too. He pulled out his calculus book when he saw Rachel sit down across from him.
"So i heard you almost kicked Lucas's ass," Rachel said as she sat down.
"Yeaa well, he had it coming," Kyle said, smiling a little.
"I'll bet. What's with the long face?"
"I think you know," Kyle smirked.
"Oh. That," Rachel said awkwardly.
"Yes. That."
"What happened this time?"
"She basically threw my feelings back in my face. Oh and the fact that she started the fight with me in the first place."
"Brooke doesn't mean half the malicious things she says, but i do."
"I'm pretty sure she meant it," Kyle mumbled.
"No she didn't, you should know, you know her."
"You know Rachel, i really don't think i know her at all."