Sorry i haven't updated in awhile. I've just been suffereing from writer's blockk, and the fact that i've been so busy with school. I just needed a few days to clear my head a little bit.
I don't really know if i wanna have Brooke and KYle together, them not be together for awhile, or have them together in secret. I don't wanna put then together just now because then there wouldn't really be much left for the storyy. So i'm just thinking about what i'm gonna do there.
Another problem i'm having is what to do with Brooke and Lucas. I likee them but i don't know if i want them together. I don't wanna make Lucas the bad guy in this story, because that's far from his actual personality, it might as well be an OC, which i don't wanna do.
ENJOY AND REVIEW
And if you have any suggestions or comments let me know !
OTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTH
5 days. 120 hours. 47 minutes.
It's been 5 days, 120 hours, and 47 minutes and Kyle still hasn't woken up. After about the 3rd day, everyone started getting worried.
Sure, Brooke had seen and heard about things like this before. People not waking up until later on or something, but you never really have that much confidence until it happens to you. Until you're waiting for someone you love to wake up. Then it's a whole other playing field.
She didn't like to visit him when there were other people seeing him also. It almost didn't seem right. So she would wait until they left, sometimes until it was late at night, to sneak in and be with him. HIs scars had healed pretty good, concussion was gone by now, and his arm was starting to unswell. Yess, his stomach was still wrapped, but he was healing. All she needed was for him to wake up.
Brooke had never been in a hospital bed before, she hadn't even been in an accident, ever. But she always wondered what it would be likee to be in a coma, or something like it. Could you hear the things around you? Or did you just remain in a black pit until you saw the littlest of sunlight? It was times like these that Brooke wished she was in a coma, as horrible as it seems.
No, she hadn't broken up with Lucas yet. It just didn't seem like an issue, like it was important. She had distanced herself from him lately. She said it was because she was "worrying" about Kyle, which she was, but not in the friendly way that Lucas thought.
It was wrong. The whole situation was wrong. And the more she kept on telling herself that, the more wrong it seemed. But she didn't really care if it was wrong or not. Yes, she was hurting Lucas, but there's always this ache in her heart, whenever she kisses Lucas, or tells him she loves him over hte phone. Likee Lucas wasn't the one she should be doing these things with, but with the boy in the hospital bed. Which was why she came to his room, every night.
Sometimes she felt stupid, like she was talking to nothing. But there were other times, when she knew he was listening, or he was close to her somehow. You could say she sensed him. While at the hospital she talked to him about everything. School, cheerleading, Peyton, Lucas, Haley, Nathan, just mostly how everyone was doing, plus her own personal intakes. Then there were times where she'd run out of the important stuff, and fill him in on the newest commecials that were on tv, or how the school changed wednesdays to soup and salad day, which was a big mistake on the school committee's part. The soup was mushy and the salad was just, eww.
The doctors said things like these took time, that you couldn't rush it. But everyone was starting to wanna rush it. Including herself. Basically, if Kyle didn't come out of this soon, he would probably never. Scary thought, but Brooke wasn't gonna let it get to her. She wasn't gonna give up, as exaggerated as it sounded.
She was a walking zombie at school. She felt like the was barely there. She would be with Lucas most of the time, and she acted fine, but she couldn't wait until late at night when she could go be with Kyle again. Lately that seemed to be all she ever thought about. Unfortunately, Lucas was starting to catch on. He wasn't a stupid guy, he knew something was wrong. SHe just didn't know if he misinterpreted it or not.
But Brooke couldn't keep on thinking about petty things like that.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
As much as Kyle wanted to wake up, he just couldn't.
He couldn't explain it, or even understand it himself. He either was too tired, or he just couldn't do it. Listening to everyone talk to him was nicee, but he really needed to wake up, for everyone's sake. His dad was getting reckless, he was pretty sure Peyton had covered his hospital room with drawings for him, and Brooke was rambling. Brooke never rambled unless she was nervous, or beating around the bush. In this case she was nervous.
It wasn't that he didn't care about all the things hse said, but usually when someone's unconscious, you're supposed to say comforting, encouraging things. Not things about the school lunch, or the fact that you haven't broken up with your boyfrined yet. At first it was irritating as hell, Brooke was supposed to have broken up with Lucas 4 days ago.
In some way Kyle knew it was gonna happen. Breaking up is hard to do, and Brooke knew that. Or maybe it was because he was in the hospital, she didn't have time to break up with Lucas. BUt as much as he liked to believe that, he knew it wasn't true. She just simply chose to not do it. In a way Kyle was kind of glad. It made things alot more easier for him.
Kyle didn't wanna wake up for one reason and one reason only. He would have to break Brooke's heart. He didn't want to, but he had to. He wasn't clueless, he knew someone had tried to kill him, he had the battle wounds to prove it. It killed him that he would have to tell Brooke that they couldn't have anything together, but even harder when he had to explain why.
Well the things is Brooke, I'm part of a mob family and i have to take over the business with my cousins, so there is no us. I'll leave you alone while you sweep up the pieces of your heart, I'll even buy you some superglue to try to fix it.
That wasn't exactly where he wanted to go in the conversation. The one he had in mind had alot of crying, and yelling. This definitely wasn't gonna be easy. Brooke was about the most complex person he's ever met. Everything about Brooke is complicated, confusing, difficult.
SHe would probably never wanna talk to him ever again.
She might even marry Lucas, have a big ass wedding, and have broody little boys and cheery girls running around everywhere. Just thinking about it broke Kyle's heart. Thinking about Brooke with any guy just got his blood boiling.
He imagined himself watching the perfect little family, so happy together. Eventually he would probably see himself in that situation.
BUt it was better that way than her being dead.
Kyle was starting to understand what his uncle meant by sacrifices.
And to him this was the biggest one of all.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"So i didn't see you after school today," Lucas mentioned as he and Brooke hung out in his room.
"Oh sorry, i just went over to see Kyle real quick," Brooke dismissed.
Lucas looked at her curiously. This wasn't the first time Brooke had bailed on him the past few days.
He gave her the first two days to settle down, but now it was getting riduculous for him. Kyle's accident had scared Brooke pretty good, but the doctor's said he was gonna be fine. But Brooke being the pessimist, always came to the hospital and sat with him for hours before leaving.
Lucas didn't actually know how he could've put up with this. He loved Brooke, but sometimes he didn't think she loved him. SUre, there were times when they would be the happiest couple in the world, but right after their time together, Brooke was off to the hospital again, spending time with another guy.
"Oh,well you know i could've went with you."
"I know, but i just wanted to see him by myself for awhile."
"I'm sure there's people watching for him, you don't have to be there every single day."
"Lucas what's your problem?" Brooke snapped.
"I don't have a problem. I just thoght you'd wanna spend more time with me," Lucas said defiantely.
"What does it look like we're doing now? I hang out with you every single day."
"Yeaa, me and KYle." he mumbled.
"Okay Lucas Kyle is my friend. He's hurt and unconscious in the hospital. IF Haley was in that position, wouldn't you be there everyday too?"
"Yes, but i would always put you first!"
"Likee hell you would. We all know Peyton would've been the first person you called."
"I thought we were over this already! Brooke i'm sorry about the whole Peyton thing. I can't take it back, even though i wish i could. I can't believe you're bringing this all back up again."
"And i can't believe you want me to neglect my best friend who's in the hospital."
"I'm not asking that of you. I just think you should spend more time outside the hospital. Kyle has alot of people there with him, you don't have to be there the whole time. He has his dad, his uncle, Nathan, Haley, the basketball team. Hell, he's got Tree Hill looking out for him," Lucas said sarcastically.
"Ohhh okay. So this is about your jealousy towards Kyle. Omg Lucas, i can't believe you. You're just mad because Kyle took your spot on the team and because Nate actually wants to hang out with him instead of you!"
"I'm not jealouis of Kyle. I don't threaten people, i'm not in some sort of illegal trouble, and i sure as hell don't abandon the people that care about me!"
"Kyle didn't abandon anybody! ANd at least he doesn't cheat on his girlfriends!"
"Oh so Kyle's the better man now! If he's so better than me than why are you still here?" Lucas yelled.
"You know i'm so over your macho jealous attitude. Talk to me when you're not an asshole. But i realize that may take some time," Brooke said before leaving.
Lucas ran a hand through his hair. How the hell did they end up fighting?
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Nathan walked through the familiar doors to the hospital. He could've lived here for all the times he's been in and out. Sometimes the patient, other times the worried husband or son.
But this time he was just a worried friend.
He turned the corner and saw Brooke sitting in the waiting room, and she didn't look so good. Her eyes were closed and her head was tilted back, like she was trying to breathe or something.
Nathan cautiously approached her.
"Hey Brooke, are you okayy?"
Brooke looked up.
"Ehh i guess so. Wait. No i'm not okayy."
"You wanna talk ahout it?" NAthan asked, sitting down next to her.
"It's nothing really. It's just that me and Lucas got into a fight. We said some things."
"What was the fight about?"
Brooke looked around, "Basically it was about Kyle."
His eyebrow rose, "What about KYle?"
SHe shrugged, "I don't know. He wanted me to stop visiting KYle so much, and i got kinda mad."
"Then why are you still with him. We all know that you're in love with Kyle, just break it off with him?"
"I know this is gonna sound really stupid, but i really don't know why i'm with Lucas. I mean, yeaa he's great, but i'm already made up my mind about wanting to be with Kyle. I choose him. I just don't wanna have to break up with Lucas. He's already jealous of Kyle as it is."
"Yeaa i understnad that you don't wanna hurt Lucas, but you're gonna hurt him wayy more if you keep your feelings from him."
"I get what you're saying. Believe me, i have tried to do it so manyy times the past few days. But i just can't bring myself to say it. It's like i want to, but then iremember how much it hurt when Lucas broke up with me the frist time, and it sucks."
"Brooke i can't tell you what to do, but i know you'll do the right thing." Nathan smiled and patted her leg.
When he entered the hallway leading to Kyle's room, Nathan shook his head and chuckled to himself. He honestly felt bad for Brooke. The situation she was in was anything but simple. She wasn't stuck btwn two guys she had feelings for, she just couldn't bring herself to hurt one. She was a train wreck waiting to happen. He just hoped she knew it, or someone stopped her before disaster really struck.
After being in the hospital alot for the past couple of years, Nathan kinda got over the fright and the glumness it had about it. All hospitals were basically the same. The old medicine smell, pepople in scrubs, disgusting food. Kyle was lucky he was getting fed through IV, he didn't think anyone could stomach the casserole surpise.
The sound of KYle's heart monitor became more louder and clear as Nathan entered the room. Cards, flowers, and balloons were everywhere. Peyton was filling up half the wall with her skteches. SOme joyful, some depressing. Nathan pulled up a chair and sat down next to Kyle's bed. He was looking better. All everyone needed was for him to wake up.
"I know you've probably heard this alot this week, but you really need to wake up man. Brooke's a disaster, if only you could see her now. I know about the whole thing where Brooke's supposed to break up with Lucas thing. You must be kinda frustrated right now with her. But she's trying, she just feels bad about having to do this to him. She would feel alot beter if you were to wake up, it would encourage her more. Listen, don't think she doesn't wanna be with you, because she does, she's just lost in doing what's right and what she wants. I think you know a thing or two about that. And there's this other thing. Dudee, you were shot. And im pretty sure it wasn't some random thing. Someone did this to you on purpose didn't they? I really wish you would've told me about it earlier, maybe i could've helped you. But anyway, Haley sends her love. She's been officially sentenced to bed rest, so she can't come see you. But she's getting so big, i can't wait until the baby comes. So you better be there for it." Nathan turned around and saw Brooke standing at the door.
"Well, you have another visitor, so i'll let her take over. Wake up soon man. It's only a matter of time before i beat your ass on the court."
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"So i know you're kinda mad at me. I can't really blame you. YOu being in the hospital doesn't mean i should'nt have broken up with Lucas, i know. It's not fair to you, to be like this, while i'm still with Lucas. I just can't imagine having to break up with him, even thogh i want to. At one point, i wasn't even planning on doing it. I was gonna back out. BUt when i really thought about it, i wouldn't be happy. I would be absolutely miserable. Because whenever i'm away from you, i'm miserable and not happy. We haven't even dated yet, and i already feel like this. I need you here to tell me im doing the right thing, that this will all pass, and that we'll be happy for once. You have to wake up Kyle. Because if you don't, then i don't know if i'll ever be able to break up with Lucas without feelings guilty about it."
In the midst of her clammy hands and tear stained face, she felt his hand squeeze hers. Brooke quickly lifted her head, and watched in amazement, as Kyle continued to squeeze her hand.
"Omg. Come on Kyle, wake up. Just open those eyes i love so much," Brooke said as she stood up and bent over him.
She watched him as he mouthed the words 'water.' Brooke quickly filled a cup with ice water and brought it to his lips.
After he was done, his eyes started to open. Those hazel eyes that Brooke had longed to see all week. His eyes began to wander around the room, around all the get well balloons and cards surrounding the outskirts, before closing his eyes again tightly, his brow furrowed.
"Kyle, can you say something?" Brooke asked.
"Ouch."
Brooke laughed, "Well i would think so. You suffered from some head trauma."
"More like i got hit in the head with a frying pan."
"Instead of a frying pan try a head on concrete."
"Yeaa, that sounds about right," KYle mumbled.
"Hold on, I"m gonna go get a doctor for you," Brooke said as she stood up. Before she could move, Kyle grabbed her arm.
"Wait, there's something i have to tell you."
"Kyle can't it wait, im just gonna get the doctor to check you out--"
"No it can't." KYle said with pleading eyes.
"Whats wrong? Is this about your accident?"
He nodded.
"Do you remember anything? LIkee who hit you?"
"No, not that. It's about who shot me, and why."
"It was probably a mistake Kyle. I mean, they could've mistaken you for someone else and--"
"No, they didn't. They were trying to kill me."
"You're scaring me. Kyle, are you in trouble?" BRooke asked, afraid to know the answer.
"More than you know Brooke. More than you know. Which is why, we can't be together," Kyle said quietly.
Brooke didn't know what heartbreak was until now