With this chapter i'm skipping ahead about a week, when Brooke gets out of the hospital. Also Kyle has to decide when and how he's gonna tell Brooke that he was the cause of her being run over lol. Finding himself in sticky situations all the time lol. SHould be interesting. Now i know i said this fic was deifnitely a Bryle, but then i realized that Kyle had to tell Brooke everything so that might sidetrack the couple a few chapters, just letting you know. So please don't be too upset, i know you've waited like 37 chapters to see Bryle but Brooke has to be mad at him don't you think ?
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It had been a week since the shoot out and since Brooke's accident. It was also Kyle's last night as a mobster, and he couldn't say he missed it all that much. BUt something he would never forget was the feeling that rushed through him that night. HIs adrenaline was pumping and he felt alive. It was dangerous but just knowing that it was made it all the much better, and fun. Leo and Manny had left two days after, promising that they would keep in touch this time around. Kyle extended an offer of assistance if they ever had another war, that he would be happy to be there once again. They laughed and said yeaa, but Kyle had a feeling he wouldn't ever do that again. He had bonded with them over this whole experience and it taught him alot about repsonsibility and doing what's right, even if you don't like it.
His father was a whole different story. The next day he had came home to see his dad pacing all through the house. Kyle felt kinda bad since his dad didn't know a thing that was going on the whole entire night. So that led to him explaining every single event that happened, then getting a slap on the head. His dad was mad, furious even, but he was glad to have his son be safe. But KYle knew that his dad would never let him forget it. Whenver KYle didn't do what his dad wanted him to do, the guilt card would be brought up. 'You let me wait all night for you to come home, and then i find out that you were in a mob war just 5 minutes from where i was? What kind of son are you?' and then it would all be done.
Kyle's relationship with Brooke had improved by alot since that night also. They weren't anything special because they couldn't, Brooke was stll with Lucas. If it was up to Kyle, they would've been together already, but Lucas was a factor, and also the fact that he still hadn't told Brooke the truth yet. There had been instances when he wanted to so bad, but he would always stop himself. So he went on, being happy with her, knowing that he was the reason she was in the hospital. As much as Peyton and Nathan tried to tell him it wasn't, they weren't fooling anybody. Having Lucas around made things kinda awkward too. Kyle went to the hospital twice a day, and everytime Lucas was there. He didn't want any trouble, but there was definitely tension.
Brushing his teeth, Kyle examined the cut above his eye. He had waited to get it looked at, which caused him to get stitches, it completely sucked. After getting out of the shower, Kyle considered if he should even go to the hospital or not. It wouldn't be very comfortable for all of them to be in the same room with each other and stuff. Even more so since Nathan and Peyton were the only people that knew, and everything else was pretty much in the dark about the whole thing. BUt he knew that Brooke would've wanted him to be there, despite her relationship with Lucas.
He rushed down the stairs wearing khaki shorts and a black polo. His dad was already downstairs, sipping coffee and reading the paper, just like he always did. Despite Kyle's stint, it didn't weaken their relationship in the least bit. His dad was certainly a bit more strict than before, always asking where he was going. BUt lately he didn't even have to ask, he would always get the same answer, the hospital.
"Morning Dad," Kyle greeted, grabbing a poptart.
"Morning, going to the hospital today?"
"Yup, Brooke's being released so i thought i'd stop by."
"Just stop by?" he asked, eyebrows raised.
"Yeaa, and maybe hang out although i doubt it. Lucas is gonna be there."
"Well he is her boyfriend."
Kyle rolled his eyes, "Dad i know that. Me and Brooke were friends first. I shouldn't have to stand back just because Lucas is there."
"I'm just saying Kyle, Brooke has a boyfriend, and with your feelings out in the open... All i'm saying is to watch yourself."
"Trust me that's what i'm doing. Right now we're friends, like before."
"If you say so. Tell Brooke i said get well soon."
"Alright i will."
-
At this point Brooke didn't want anything more than to get out of the hospital. The bed was uncomfortable, the gown was so gross and the fact that people could just come in and out of her room whenever was really starting to get on her nerves. It was nice when everyone came in to see her, but there comes a point where a girl just needs to think, by herself. Not many people knew it, but Brooke Davis had alot on her mind.
First one being her KYle/Lucas situation. SHe'd never thought she would have two guys into her, but sometimes life can surprise you. So far her and Kyle were pretty good friends, despite the fact that they knew they both wanted each other. But Brooke had to give credit to her actual boyfriend. Lucas had been there everyday from the time she woke up to the time she fell asleep. He was so sweet, getting her everything she wanted. Brooke really appreciated it, but she still couldn't decide which guy was more important to her.
With everything that had been going on, she didn't have a chance to talk to Peyton about what she had been feeling. She meant to, but then the accident kinda took her out of it for awhile. Same went for Haley and Rachel, but Brooke didn't want to dump her problems on Haley and Rachel, well Brooke didn't really know where Rachel went most of the time. She hadn't seen her that much before the accident also. And that left Peyton. Only problem was, PEyton was acting kinda weird, like she knew something but didn't know if she should tell. But Brooke wasn't going to look that far into it, if Peyton wanted to tell her, she would.
For the first time in awhile, Brooke couldn't figure Kyle out. From the moment they had met, she had an idea what type of person Kyle was, and knew basically everything about him. But now she felt like even though they were close and stuff, she still didn't know him as much as she thought. It couldn't been from their days of not talking, or maybe he was always like that, but he was off also. Whenever they talked, they just never discussed what had happened, even though they really needed to.
She was in the middle of putting on her make up when she heard her door open, revealing Kyle with a bag in one hand. She watched him until he sat down in the familiar seat right besides her bed. She didn't think she could ever get tired of looking at Kyle. Everyone girl that ever saw Kyle thoguht he was extremely good looking. Funny thing was, as gorgeous as he was, he didn't know it.
"Wow, putting make up on already," Kyle smirked.
"Well you know i have to look good walking out of this hospital."
"You don't have to do a thing then."
Brooke blushed. She'd gotten compliments like that all her life, but when Kyle said it, he actually meant it, which made it a little embarassing.
"Uhm yeaa, i was supposed to be dressed but that bitch is running late with my clothes."
"Rachel?" Kyle laughed.
"Yup. She's been kinda weird lately. I feel like she's not telling me something," Brooke said.
"Really? I'm sure she'll come around and tell you what's going on."
"Yeaa, the thing is it's been going on for months and i'm not sure what to think of it."
"Yeaa. But anyways i brought you some magazines. I'm just gonna go out real quick and if i see Rachel i'll bring your stuff to you," Kyle said quickly getting up.
"Alright thanks," Brooke said.
Looks like Brooke had her proof. She didn't even have to go that much in depth before KYle cracked. Something she wished wasn't true was in fact a reality. Kyle was hiding something from her, and from the way he practically ran out of the room, it was definitely something she wouldn't like. She could only guess what it was.
Guilt can really get the best of people and Kyle was a testament to that. If it wasn't for his mind screaming GO, he probably would've confessed everything to her right then and there. But his brain got the best of him. He just wished that he could tell her and everything would be fine, but he knew that wasn't going to happen.
On his way down the hallway he saw Rachel step out of the elevator with a duffel bag hanging from her shoulder. She looked up at him before walking over.
"Hey, Brooke's pissed cause she doesn't have her clothes," Kyle warned as Rachel approached him.
"Oh yeaa i know. I was running a little late."
"Doing what?"
"Uhh it's nothing. Just something that i had to do," Rachel dismissed.
KYle sighed. It was one thing to have one person lying to Brooke, there were two people. Rachel was hiding something and so was KYle. He wasn't at liberty to tell her right now, but maybe RAchel would cop up whatever she's hiding.
"Rachel, Brooke thinks that you're hiding something from her, and she doesn't know what's going on with you. Can you please tell her whatever it is you're hiding?"
Rachel looked down at her hands, "For the past couple of months i've been taking therapy."
"Therapy?"
"Yeaa counceling. I've messed up alot and i just need to get everything in my life organized. So a couple of times a day i visit my councelor and talk about basically everything."
"A couple of times a day? I thought it was only like a few times a week.."
"Yeaa well i'm pretty screwed up. I have this councelor who has no life, so whenever i need to, there's no problem," Rachel explained.
"I don't get it, why wouldn't you tell Brooke? I mean, it's nothing bad, you're not doing anything wrong. So why not tell her?" KYle asked.
"As hard as it is to imagine, Brooke has alot on her mind. Mainly you and LUcas and what the hell she's gonna do with the two of you. I just didn't want her thinking about me at all."
"I'm sure she appreciates that, but if Brooke thinks you're hiding something, that's making her think about you. It'll make both of you feel alot better."
"You know, something tells me we're not talking about me and Brooke," Rachel said.
Kyle exhaled, "Yeaa well i have some secrets of my own."
"Well, it'll make both of you feel better if you just tell Brooke the truth," Rachel said mockingly as she walked past him towards Brooke's room.
-
As soon as Brooke heard the clacking of heels she knew it was Rachel.
"Okay before you say anything I'm sorry i'm late," RAchel said as soon as she walked in.
"It's okay, i'm not that mad. Although i did have to spend an extra half hour in this grotesque gown, i'll get over it. NOw when are you going to tell me what's going on with you?" Brooke asked, serious face at the ready.
Rachel sighed and sat in the chair next to her, "Alright i knew this was coming."
"Good. So are you going to tell me where you've been the past couple of months? When you're not at school you're at home, and when you aren't there i have no idea where you're at."
"You know that outlet mall a little ways out of town?" Rachel asked.
"Uhh yeaa..." Brooke answered, confused.
"What's right across the street from it?"
"A therapy counceling office. But Rachel what does this have to do--"
"That's where i've bene all this time. I just came to terms with the way i've been living, and i wanted it to stop. So whenever i need to, i drive over there and talk with my councelor about just about everything in my life. It kinda gives me some peace, helps me gather my thoughts and stuff."
"And you'd think i'd be mad at you ...?"
"Noo, it's just that you had so much going on. It was something that i wanted to do on my own, and i didn't want you worrying about me having a breakdown when you were on your way to having one. Look as much as you say you don't you have alot of shit running through your brain at a time."
"Rachel i so do not have alot of things running through my mind right now..."
"Huh let's see. There's your senior president speech at graduation, you volunteered to decorate for prom and budget the whole damn thing, the fact that you're failing Calculus and have been studying till midnight. Oh and there's the little Lucas/Kyle situation. So yeaa you totally don't have alot going on with you right now," Rachel said sarcastically.
"Okay fineee. But you still could've told me about it, even with all these things going on in my life. You wouldn't burden me. If anything it would give me something to look forward to, instead of picking out streamers and find out which guy i wanna be with."
"Kyle's right. I feel better already," Rachel smirked and leaned back in her seat.
"What does Kyle have to do with this?" BRooke asked.
"He kinda convinced me to talk to you about it. A man of many words Kyle is. But something tells me he's hiding something too."
"That's what i've been trying to figure out for a week. I know he's hiding something, but he won't tell me. I kinda tried to lead him on by mentioning you and how you weren't telling me what was going on, and he basically ran out of the room," Brooke explained.
"Whatever it is, can't be that bad can it?"
"I hope not. Right now i don't really care, i just wanna know what it is."
"You think it would affect you're whole decision?"
"I honestly don't know. I mean, i have two really great guys that wanna be with me. Lucas has been so great ever since our talk and he knows me so well. It's like we don't even need words. And so far he hasn't said anything negative to Kyle being here all the time. He really takes care of me."
"And then there's Kyle..."
"Yup, despite the amount of time he's been gone, it's like things never change with us. He gets me and he's able to just make me forget everything, and kinda makes me realize that everything's gonna be okay."
"But..."
"Kyle's always been honest with me no matter what. And now that he's not, i can't help but wonder if whatever it is he's hiding could destroy us" Brooke said quietly.
"That bad huh?" Rachel asked.
"Yup. Apart of me wants to know but the other part just wants it to stay a secret."
"Dont you wanna know what's got him so tweaked?"
"Of course i do, but what if it really does end our relationship? He's really important to me, i wouldn't wanna lose him like that."
"I guess that makes sense. But it's not your decision is it? It's KYle's."
"Exactly," Brooke said, leaning against her pillows.
"Well you know Kyle. He always has to do the right thing," Rachel said.
"That's what i'm afraid of."
-
It wasn't exactly Kyle's intention of leaving the hospital, but he felt like he was suffocating in the stuffy hospital. So he drove and drove, and for some odd reason ended up at the Rivercourt of all places. He didn't have this connection with the Rivercourt like Lucas did, he wasn't there long enough to enjoy it, but it could always give him some sense of calmness or something like that. The river was probably polluted and dirty, with no significance whatsoever, but you could just stare into the green fungus and the weeds and just think for a bit. Too bad somebody already took his idea.
"Hey," Kyle said.
"Hey," Nathan greeted.
"Why are you down here?"
"Just thinking."
"About what?"
"Stuff," Nathan shrugged.
"Ah let me guess, Haley's due date's coming up and you're freaking out," Kyle stated
"You got it. I just don't think i can do it."
"Nathan you're going do great."
"Dudee you don't know that. What if i end up like Dan? Or what if i'm not ready?"
"Nate you kinda HAVE to be ready. And you learned what having a father like Dan can do, you learned from it. Just love Haley and love your baby and everything's gonna be alright. Plus you got alot of people that are gonna be around for your child."
"I know that there's gonna be people around, it's just that life's gonna change so much, not that it hasn't already. I'm not sure if i'm prepared for this," Nathan sighed.
"When you hold that baby in your arms, you'll know you can do it."
"Are you sure you don't have a secret child you haven't been telling us about?" Nathan asked.
"No, no secret child. Though that would be better," Kyle said.
"Ahh let me guess, you still haven't told Brooke what you've been up to for the past 3 months and you're freaking out," Nathna stated mockingly.
"Nope, and everybody i feel the walls closing in and i know that i have to tell her."
"It might not be what you want to do right now, but it'll make you feel better."
"Yeaa i don't think so man. She is going to hate me so much."
"Yeaa she might be pissed at you for awhile. BUt do you think she would be less mad if you told her next week or next month?"
"Noo, it's just that i don't want to disappoint her to make her mad in some way. We're just starting to get back to the way we were, now with the mutual understanding about how we feel. And now when i tell her this she's gonna hate me forever and we'll never be the same."
"That's a risk you're gonna have to take. Hate it say it man but Brooke's gonna find out sooner or later, you're gonna have to tell her. But if she really loves you, she'll forgive you. It might not be so sudden, but she will."
"Okay are we talking about the same Brooke?" Kyle laughed.
"Yeaa we are. Seriously dude, just talk to her and explain everything."
"I guess i should probably tell her now at the hospital," Kyle said walking towards his car.
"Good luck !" Nathan called.
"Thanks."
-
Going through what had happened to him the other week, Kyle didn't think he could ever be more nervous than he was then. Until now when he was standing in the elevator, waiting for the sound, signaling he was on the 4th floor where Brooke was. There he would tell her absolutely everything. Spill his guts. Right now he felt like throwing up.
The first person he saw was Peyton, deeply concentrating on her sketchpad, not noticing the world around her.
"Boo."
"Nice try."
"I wasn't trying. What are you doing here anyway?" Kyle asked, leaning against the wall.
"Visited Brooke for awhile. Now i'm just sitting around here. So what brings you to this sad place of healing?" Peyton asked sarcastically.
"I have to tell Brooke the truth," Kyle said simply.
"You sure you wanna do that?"
"I have to. I can't keep this from her any longer."
"So you're gonna tell her EVERYTHING?"
"Yup, staring from the beginning. I don't want to, but it's best to do it now instead of later."
"She's gonna be pissed..."
"You think i dont' know that? I would give anything to not have to tell her, but she knows something's off, she knows i'm not telling her something."
"Well Brooke loves you, she'll forgive you. You tried eveyrthing you could to keep her safe, even though it went against what you wanted. She can't be mad at you for that," Peyton said sympathetically.
"Yeaa well we all know Brooke Davis is as stubborn as they come."
"If it makes you feel any better, i'll be here when you leave. Maybe i can talk to her, make her see things from your point?"
"That'd be a big help, thanks Peyt," Kyle smiled before walking further down the hall.
He stopped in front of Brooke's room before taking a deep breath. He saw her already dressed, putting on her necklace. For the few seconds he watched her she actually looked happy. He just wished she could be that forever, but he had to tell her that he was the reason she got hurt, it was his fault, basically everything since his grandfather's funeral.
He knocked before entering.
"Hey, I was wondering when you'd come back," she said putting on her earrings.
"Yeaa sorry about that. I was talking to Nathan at the Rivercourt."
"Everything alright?"
"Yeaa, he's just a little nervous about Haley's due date."
"Typical Nathan. That martyr."
"Yeaa, he is."
Brooke turned around and smiled at him before walking to him and wrapping her hands around his middle.
"Hey, everything okay?" He asked, hugging her back.
"Yeaa everything's fine. I just haven't hugged you in awhile," she said into his chest.
KYle smiled. It felt nice having Brooke in his arms. He felt like he was protecting her from everything. She just fit to well to him.
"Your heart's beating really fast," she mumbled.
"Yea well, you do that to me," he said softly.
He felt her smile, which broke his heart even more. He just held her tighter. This would probably be the last time he'd ever get to hug her like this. He didn't want to let her go. He wanted to hold her and not let go. Kyle wanted to protect her from what he was about to say. He couldn't save her from himself, he tried that and it didn't work out. Kyle wanted more than anything to not say anything, to just keep quiet about it, but he knew he couldn't because the weight of it would get him, and if he waited, Brooke would never look at him again. Although she might now even now, at least it was sooner rather than later. He hated sounding so needy and helpless but he never experienced how it felt to have someone slipping away from you, and it was your own fault.
He reluctantly let her go but held onto her hands while looking in the corner of his eye to her duffle bag.
"KYle, are you okay?" she asked innocently. Kyle held her arms and began to run his hands up and down them. He took a deep breath and looked her straight in the eye.
"I have to tell you something that you're really not gonna like."
Brooke didn't even have to know to see if it was bad. All she had to do was look into his guilty, suffering eyes to know just how bad it was.