Sorry that i haven't updated in like a week and a half i think ? I've just been pretty busy, enjoying summer and doing some summe reading for school. Bleh. Actually i've been working on this chapter for a couple of days. I planned on finishing it in a couple of hours but it extended to like 4 days lol. I was in a rut, not really knowing what to start off with. There was so much i wanted to write about and just alot of things were jumbled in my brain i dind't know how to sort them out. So as the days passed i added stuff on until i couldn't take it anymore and finished it tonight lol. It's probably one of my favorite chapters in this story.
I don't really focuse on Kyle in this chapter because he's kind of been the main man in all the other chapters right ? And plus, this is Brooke's heart that's breaking lol. So it's basically all on her and the people around her like Peyton and Nathan. Brooke has talks with both of them and it's kinda sweet to see them all talking and being good friends, not like they have inthe show. I always thought that Brooke and Nathan kinda had the same evolvement going on, but they never had this bond togehter, which i have in my fic. Warning before you read, some of the stuf that Brooke says might not make much sense, just telling you ahead of time. But you'll kind of get it if you think about it. Brooke's feelings are really raw and something that i think a real person in this situation would feel.
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When you're faced with telling the truth, it's kinda hard to actually say it, to explain everything without sounding completely broken. Sometimes there's not words for the truth, and other times there's not enough. In this case there were no words. Sure a random stranger could probably explain it all with no emotional attachment, and that would be that. But right now KYle was seriously thinking about just telling her something different, something that she wouldn't feel so betrayed and hurt about. He could make up anything in the world, and he was pretty sure she would believe him one hundred percent, because she trusted him. Which was exactly why he couldn't, simply because she trusted him to tell her eveyrthing. Right now he knew that there was no way out of this, things just had to be all out in the open for things to get remotely better. But from where KYle was right now, that seemed a longshot away.
Looking in Brooke's eyes, it was like she already knew it was something bad. IN a way it was a good thing, so maybe she would be prepared a little. But not even Kyle could prepare himself for what had happened the past week. At first he didn't know where the heck to start, it seemed like everything was jumbled up in his brain, just waiting to finally get out. There was so much to say but not enough words it seemed. And Brooke continued to look at him, trying to figure it all out on her own. He wished she could, that way there was no need to talk, no need for words. He could just leave and be done with it, but unfortunately Brooke wasn't a mindreader.
It occurred to him several times in the week that Brooke wouldn't believe him, which was a big possibility. Whne Brooke didn't like something she heard, she tended to tune it out and not believe it and sometimes run from it, rather than face the truth. Which would make it even harder to tell her, because he would go on and on, and she woudn't believe it. But when she finally accepted it, was the worst thing ever.
She stayed quiet, waiting for him to continue. Kyle led her over to the edge of her bed and grabbing a chair and sitting down in it right across from her. He wasn't sure how he was gonna do this, he just had to. He gently grabbed her hands before looking at her once again.
"Okay what i'm about to tell you is completely true. And you have to believe everything i'm saying, alright?" He said softly.
Brooke just nodded, reluctantly, but she nodded.
"Do you not wanna know ?"
"I want to, but i don't want it to come between us, like i know it will," Brooke said quietly.
"Look i don't wanna lie to you, it could very well affect us, whatever we are. But i don't wanna keep this from you because you need to know. I've been holding it off, but now i can't because you are so much more important to me, and i shouldn't be hiding this from you. Whatever you decide after this is up to you, because you can be mad at me and hate me forever but i'm always gonna be here if you need me," KYle explained.
"Is it really that bad?" Brooke asked, hoping he was over exaggerating.
"I wish it wasn't. And you know me, i don't sugar coat things."
"Alright, you can tell me," Brooke sighed.
There was no turning back from this point on. Brooke would believe what he was saying, and never want to speak to him again. He never thought that loving someone would come with a price, but it was Brooke, so Kyle would say anything. This anything just happened to be something horrible. He leaned his elbows on his knees, pointing the bridge of his nose with his index and thumb. This would be a very grueling and long explaination, Kyle had no idea where to start. So, choosing his words carefully, he began.
"Okay, well you know how i told you about the organization back when i was in the hospital?" he asked.
With all the chaos and everything, Brooke didn't really remember that whole day at all. Maybe she had blocked it out of her mind or something, but it hadn't been on her mind at all, ever since he told her. It was like once that was done, all these other situations started coming up to the point where it wasn't even something she thought about a little. Like it was erased from her mind. But now hearing KYle mention it, it came rushing back to her like a wave. Apart of her was hoping it was a dream.
"Yeaa, so much has happened since then," Brooke commented quietly.
"YOu're right. After the accident, things kinda went back to normal. Everything was fine, no one was trying to contact me, it was like the accident had never happened, and from the looks of it would never happen again. Brooke you would never believe how much i love you and want you to be safe, and that's exactly why i wanted to be as far away from you as possible, so you woudn't get hurt. I know i've told you before but you seriously have no idea how brutal and how dangerous it is. There would be a guy that doesn't know anything about you except that it's his job to take you down, and make you stay down. And all because they're scared for themselves. And things weren't as normal as i thought," Kyle said regrettably.
That's when things would get messy, Brooke thought. Well for one thing she knew that it had to do with the whole mob thing, which didn't make her feel any better. At first she didn't remember him ever telling her about it, but like before, so much had changed since that time. SHe didn't even consider anything else at the time, she just wanted to know why Kyle was pushing her away. Brooke didn't even bother to guess why. But things were starting to make sense. Everything was being seen alot more clearly.
"Go on," Brooke urged, not wanting him to stop, fearful that if he didn't, she would never know the truth she so desperately wanted.
"You're accident, happened and it was my fault Brooke. Someone must've saw us together or something and found out about you, and it's my fault because i tried to stay away from you but i couldn't, and that's why you got ran over. They were trying to get to me, to weaken me. Gosh, i couldn't even go to your room the first hours cause i couldn't bear to see you like that. Then my uncle and cousin came to the hospital and we had a talk with the man that did this to you, Lorenzo's his name. It was him that sent someone to run you over, so he could get a rise out of me. But that wasn't all. He wanted an all out war that night. And he said that i had to do it or else he would continue to hurt the people i care about, so, i agreed to it. That's when i went to your room and talked to you because i wasn't sure if i was gonnna have a chance again. I spent the last three hours memorizing every single thing i needed to know so that i would come back. Then the shooting happened and it was scary as hell, but everything worked out. It was all done and you were alright, that was all that mattered to me," KYle finished, waiting for her reaction.
It all didn't process clearly to Brooke until 5 seconds later. Her accident wasn't an accident. It was purposely planned and performed by Kyle's enemies, people that wanted to bring him down. It was like a reality slap in the face.
She sprung from her seat on the bed and paced the room, running her hands through her hair, everything rushing back to her in just seconds. To anybody else they probably wouldn't been that mad, just maybe upset. BUt Brooke Davis never reacted in the way normal people do. She was hurt, disgusted, lots of things. It was hard to believe that someone she loved so much caused her to become hospitalized because of his family and his choices. Harsh, but it was true.
"Brooke, say something," Kyle pleaded.
She knew he was sorry, she didn't even have to look at his face to see it. But frankly she didn't want to. Brooke didn't want to me mad at him, she wanted anything but that, but she couldn't help but feel the anger bubbling up within her. It came out of nowhere, and right now she really didn't want Kyle being on the receiving end. But there was no prevention for that.
"Honestly ? I don't know what to say to you. Can, can you just go Kyle ?" Brooke asked, back facing him as she over looked her window.
"Brooke .."
"Please KYle, just leave," Brooke insisted, refusing to turn around.
"I know it doesn't mean much to you now, but i never meant to hurt you," Kyle said quietly before leaving.
Closing the door behind him, Kyle had never felt so numb. He saw Peyton in the waiting room like before, except this time away from her sketches, like she was waiting for him or something. But he couldn't be annoyed by that, Brooke would want someone to talk to, and if anyone it should be Peyton.
"How'd it go?" Peyton asked, standing up and walking over to him.
He shrugged, "She didn't yell. But right now i don't know what's worse."
"I should go talk to her."
"That would be a good idea," Kyle said before walking towards the elevator.
As Peyton watched him go, her heart broke for the two of them. Loving somebody didn't come easy, but for those two it seemed as hard a a Calculus exam. Peyton would continue to wait the hope that they got their break soon. So, taking a deep breathe, Peyton headed over to Brooke's room. Kyle might've told the truth, but it was Peyton who would help seep through it.
-
As Nathan watched the ball soar into the net, he couldn't help but wonder what was going on with Kyle at the moment. He was probably still talking to Brooke. He hoped that things would work out for them, mainly because it was something Nathan had been waiting for ever since he could remember. Living in Tree Hill was like a soap opera, and Brooke and Kyle were his favorite characters. But from what the happening now, he wasn't sure they would "find their way." And if they did, it would take alot of work and help from friends, and that's where Nathan came in. He had tried his best to push the two together. Sure, that might not be the best way, but it worked didn't it ? It wouldn't worked sooner and maybe even lasted if it wasn't for Kyle. If that whole mob thing didn't even exist, then things would be better. They would be together, and everything would be good, like it was suppsed to be. But the forces weren't with them this time around, and it would take work to get them together.
With all the chaos and everyone else's problems going on, Nathan hadn't really had time to think of the baby. Sounds selfish of course, but it was a relief to not be worrying about his problems and his fears. For the past couple of weeks all he had to think about was everyone else's. Kyle's, Brooke's, hell even Peyton's, but never once his own or Haley's, because they're fears were the same. Haley was getting bigger by the minute, which only meant that it wouldn't be long before the baby popped out. Just thinking about it made Nathan want to faint. It was nice having his problems put on hold for a little bit, but now that things were being resolved, it brought him back to his world.
He had told people before, but being a father was just wayy out of what he'd imagined. Not only that but he was scared, and just tweaked that he was gonna be some horrible father that never did right by their family, and pushed his child into a life it didn't want, more or less like Dan. Nathan could tell himself over and over again that he wouldn't be like that, and so could everybody else, but you never know until you actually have to make decisions not only for himself, but for his kid. So he could be selfish, and benefit himself, or take the right way and do what he thought was best. It occurred to him several times that maybe Dan pushed Nathan into basketball, because he thought it was what was best for him. But later on he quickly demolished that idea. If anything Nathan was just trying to make his dad look better. BUt either way you look at it, Dan Scott was a selfish ass, and you couldn't say anything to make it remotely better.
To him, there was no better way to deal with this except just take it when it comes. He's played hundreds of games in his lifetime, some that would make most people puke, but Nathan never let himself get that nervous. He guessed it's different with your own child because just thinking about it made him wanna pass out. He was sure things would be alright because he had Haley and his family and friends to support them, but the process of getting to the birth just sucked. He was just glad that Haley hadn't been that hormonal.
He was brought out of his thoughts by his cell phone ringing. Peyton. Lord would only know what she wanted.
"Yeah ?" Nathan asked.
"Well that's polite," Peyton said.
"Whatever, you'll get over it. So whats up ?"
"Uhh well Kyle kinda told Brooke already."
"That can't be good," Nathan said, exhaling.
"Nope."
"So, did she yell or anything ?"
"No, that's what worries me."
"So she didn't yell, did she talk to him ?"
"Probably, but not that much. I didn't hear anything from the waiting room."
"Wow."
"I know."
"Well you might wanna go in and talk to her," Nathan suggested.
"I was just about to. BUt i don't know, you might want to too."
"Why me?"
"Because you knew about this too. And if she's gonna yell at me for not telling her, you should be here too. Plus, once upon a time Brooke was your best friend."
"Alright, i'm on my way. And i'm not gonna be the one to tell her all about it," he pointed out.
"Why not ? You knew about it before everyone else. I just found out the entire thing last week !"
"What's the use of you there if you're not gonna do anything ?"
"Uhh i don't know maybe becuase i'm a girl and Brooke is very emotional right now."
"So that's all you're good for," Nathan said, walking towards his car.
"Screw you."
"Haley might be a little mad..."
"Whatever ! I'll see you."
"Bye."
It was kinda hard to believe that him and Peyton used to ever date. They were horrible together. BUt they knew how to piss each other off. That would never change and Nathan was thankful for that. Now he had to head to the hospital and try to contribute to getting Brooke to understand the whole situation. Right from the beginning Nathan knew that nothing good could come of this. Brooke was upset and hurt at the moment, and who knew when she would be over it, or if she would be over it. No doubt Nathan would have his work out for him. Kyle had done alot for him, and Nathan never really repayed him. It was the least he could do. And Peyton was right, him and Brooke used to be really close. But high school got in the way, among other things, and it would be awesome if they could get back to that. But it wasn't going to be easy, that was for sure.
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But i never meant to hurt you.
Brooke wondered when she would ever stop hearing that. She figured with her new start with Lucas, she would never have to hear that from him, and she didn't. She heard it from Kyle, someone she never thought would hurt her. Someone she thought would never lie to her or keep things from her. Someone she loved, but she wondered how she felt about him now. This second she didn't feel anything, she felt numb. It had been a occurring feeling the past couple of years, but never this strong. It was like she saw her heart breaking, but yet she didn't feel or hear anything.
She had to admit, that was a shocker, she didn't except it at all. She was thinking anything but that, in fact, nothing even protained to what it actually was. It was hard to grasp the fact that KYle had actuall used a gun and shot people. Brooke pictured Kyle playing in the NBA, with his sweatband visible on his head. NOt shooting bullets with no regard. She didn't want to think of him as a killer or anything like that, but it was like she was thinking about a completely different person now. And she wasn't sure how she should feel right now, but all she thought about was the accident. For awhile she thought it was just that, an accident, but now she knew the truth. And she didn't know if she should've let Kyle tell her in the first place.
After finding that piece of information out, everything suddenly became clearer to her. Nathan and Peyton had been acting weird ever since she had woken up, only staying in the room with her for 5 minutes before leaving abruptly at the mention of Kyle. Brooke cupped her hands over her face and nose. It was like she had just found the answers to a test or something. But she didn't have that triumphant feelings rushing through her veins, there was nothing. Even the the little bulge at the back of Kyle's shirt that night, came back to her. At first she had thought it was just her eyes adjusting to the light, but it was the exact thing she thought it was. A gun.
She heard the door open, but refused to turn around. It definitely wasn't Kyle, because he knew better than to come back right now. Lucky for her it was Peyton, in her concert tee and skinny jeans, dressed like the loner she was. But to Brooke, she saw her best friend, the one that could tell when something was wrong with her. She wasn't getting out of this.
"Hey B.Davis," Peyton said quietly, standing awkwardly, with her hands in her pockets.
Normally Peyton wouldn't have been this nervous to talk to Brooke about her feelings and all, she never had been. But this was wayy out there. It wasn't about love triangles or rumours around school, not even about high school. It was serious crap. As much as she didn't want to say it, Kyle had put Brooke in danger, whether he meant to or not. And this was something that Peyton or Brooke weren't familiar with, at all. Well, there's always a first time for everything, Peyton thought to herself.
"Did you know?" was all Brooke said, back still facing the room.
Peyton sighed, "Yeaa, he told me the night of your accident."
"Peyton !!!" Brooke yelled, spinning around.
"I'm sorry okay ! I told him to tell you, and he said he would, but he couldn't tell you then. So i said i would keep his secret as long as he would tell you eventually," Peyton explained.
Brooke sighed before plopping down on the chair that Kyle recently occupied. She knew she couldn't be mad at Peyton for that. She wanted to, but Peyton was Peyton. Her best friend. P.Sawyer, Goldilocks. They had had a interesting year, but they were still there for each other whenever. And this was a good time for that.
"I'm sorry Peyt."
"Don't be sorry. Just talk to me," Peyton said, sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I don't know. I feel like i shouldn't be mad at him, but then i feel mad and angry and upset and pissed. And i don't even know if i have a right to," Brooke mumbled.
"Well, if you feel all those things you probably do have a right to. I mean, i would be too if something like this happened to me. I know right now you feel like you've been betrayed in some way by him. That he's hurt you intentionally."
"Yup."
"BUt that's your head talking to you Brooke. You're angry at him because he hurt you, probably not intentionally, but he did. BUt your heart can never hate him for wanting to protect you. And that's why you feel guilty because you're mad at him right now."
"I understand what you're saying, and i agree with you, but i just can't break through this wall i put in front of him now. He said that he never meant to hurt me,'" Brooke recited sarcastically.
"Oooh, not the best phrase," Peyton winced. "Okay, so he's just a little stupid, all guys are. And i bet if he knew what those words meant to you, he wouldn't have said them."
"I really wish he hadn't, because now it makes me wonder if Lucas is gonna hurt me now."
"You can't expect either of them not to mess up every once in awhile. Both of them are gonna make mistakes, and you're gonna have to accept it and forgive them. But that's better than running away, or shutting them out when they do screw up."
"I'm not afraid of Kyle or Lucas screwing up, i mean, come on, that's inevitable. But what if they screw up bad ? Kinda like what Kyle just told me, or when you and Lucas cheated on me ? Sorry."
Peyton flinched. She would be the first one to admit that it was a big mistake to hook up with Lucas when he was with Brooke. It was stupid and she was stupid and they were all stupid. But she would always feel guilty for what she put Brooke through.
"It's okay. Well, i guess that's up to you. WHich one do you love enough to forgive their bad mistakes?" And Peyton really hoped Brooke knew the answer this time.
Honestly, Brooke didn't have a clue what the hell she should think, or do. Everything was up in the air, but it was overlapping and crashing into one another. She was lost and so was her mind and her heart. She couldn't figure out which one was right and which one was just telling her what she wanted to hear. It was obvious she was gonna get nothing done. Peyton was help, but she didn't actuall have experience in this whole situation. As harsh as it sounded, Peyton didn't really have experience in this sort of matter, actually she had only had like one long term relationship. Jake never stuck around long enough and Lucas and her ended after like a month, the long term being Nathan. And we all know that was a sham from the get go.
"So should i add that to my list of W's?" Brooke asked, pulling out of their heart to heart.
"Yeaa you really should. Have you even figured out those questions?" Peyton asked.
"Actually i just finsihed them the day of of my 'accident.' And it took me like, a whole week."
"Takes the energy out of ya huh ?"
"Surprisingly yeaa. I mean, they're just questions. But you really have to backtrack to figure them out," Brooke laughed.
"Yup. So, what were the answers?"
"I wish i knew. I was in the library before i left school, and i had finally figured out the questions, and had the last one answered. So i picked up my bag and left, then i had the accident. I really don't remember which one i picked. I don't even know where i put them."
"So that's why you were so eager to go home," Peyton smirked.
"Ehh yea sort of. I mean, i don't even know where i stashed them. There's the obvious places, but i wouldn't put them just anywhere," Brooke shrugged.
"You really don't remember anything before the accident?"
"Honestly no. I mean i remember seeing the car, and i remember feeling it hit me, and the pain. BUt i don't remember everything before--"
Both girls looked toward the door. Brooke half wanted Lucas to be behind it, so it wouldn't be Kyle. But she also wished it was Kyle, so they could work things out, if she was ready.
"Hey Nate," Peyton greeted. Thank goodness for Nathan. After talking to Brooke, she realized that Brooke didn't believe a thing she was saying. Sure, it was nice listening to a friend about this stuff, but Peyton really hadn't experienced anything like what Brooke was explaining. She understood it, but it didn't mean that she had advice for it. So all she could do was nod her head and agree. This was something that Nathan did know about. Whether he knew it or not, he would end up helping Brooke more than anyone.
Brooke just game him a small smile. Peyton might've not known that long, but who knows how long Nathan as in the know about this.
"Hey guys. Umm Peyton would you mind if maybe i took Brooke home? Well, if it's okay with you Brooke?" Nathan asked cautiously.
Brooke shrugged, "Sure."
Peyton stood up, "Alright, well i'll stop by tomorrow."
"Actually, would you wanna have a sleepover tonight or something?" Brooke asked.
"Umm, what about Rachel?"
"She's gonna be out of town for the day," Brooke said, which was true. She was at a spa in Charleston.
"Sure. I'll come over around, 8-ish?"
"Sounds good."
"Alrihgt. I'll bring the music."
"See ya."
Nathan mumbled a bye before Peyton had left. Actually being alone with Brooke kinda made him nervous. He was sure that Brooke and Peyton were friends again, obviously. He wasn't sure if he would have the same result. Nathan had knew more about it than anyone else, and he had kept it to himself. He and Brooke haven't been close in awhile, so there was no telling what would happen.
"So, you ready to go?" Nathan asked, breaking the silence.
"Yup," Brooke replied, grabbing her duffel bag and slinging it over her shoulder.
-
There had been no words spoken since leaving Brooke's hospital room, and Nathan didn't know if he was supposed to talk or if it was Brooke. Nathan wasn't reallly a great talker, he never liked talking about his feelings, or having a heart to heart conversation. It wasn't his thing, but he did it anyway. But now he didn't know what to say. Brooke remained mute, not saying anything either, which was a big shock if you knew Brooke Davis. Passing Karen's Cafe, Nathan knew he had to say something.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" Nathan asked, eyes on the road.
"There's nothing to say. I don't even know what to say," Brooke shrugged.
"I'm sorry that i didn't tell you. I've known about this thing with Kyle for awhile. And i knew he should've told you everything, i told him that. But he just didn't want to hurt you. He would get in danger and do whatever he could, just to make sure that you were safe."
"I know. Which is why i can't figure out why i'm so mad at him. I mean, i'm mad, but i don't know if i should be this mad," Brooke explained.
"Something tells me i can help you with that," Nathan suggested, parking at the Rivercourt.
"Uhh thanks but i'm pretty sure Hales wasn't part of some mafia that almost killed you," Brooke said sarcastically.
"Ha funny. Just get out of the car," Nathan said, opening his car door.
Brooke got out of the car and walked towards the bench, where Nathan was already seated at. She didn't know if it was the painkillers, but she really didn't see how talking to Nathan could help her see things clearly at the moment. He was one of the two people that knew about this and never said anything, and just let her believe that the whole mob thing was a safe thing to do, no danger overhead. How could he possibly make her feel better? Plus, so far he hadn't said anything.
"So is this how you're helping me? By bringing me to the Rivercourt?"
"Actually no. I was just admiring the view," Nathan said, causing Brooke to roll her eyes.
"Alright sorry. So i said i could help you, so here i am."
"Go on.."
"Well remember when Haley came back from the tour the night of the dealership fire?" Nathan asked.
"Yup, the same night i left too."
"Yeaa, and that was also the night before i left for High Flyers. I was pumped and ready to spend my summer dedicated to basketball, just leave Haley and her memories behind for a ltitle bit. Then, i went to get one more bag from my car to bring into the house, and Haley was there. She looked so lost. She told me she wanted to come home. I was listening to what she was saying, but i just couldn't connect anymore. I felt empty, like i was looking at a stranger. I was angry, and hurt, and i just didn't wanna deal with it all. So, i ran away, hoping that Haley would be long gone by the time i got back. But she wasn't, and she wasn't gonna go anywhere. I spent so long being mad at her for leaving me, for hurting me in the worst way possible. I felt like there was no more Nathan and Haley. There wasn't a marriage or a relationship, we were nothing."
"That's a good story, but what does it have to do with my situation now?"
"Well it's like yours in the simply fact that you're angry. When Haley left me, i was mad because she left me behind, like i was nothing to her. She took off her wedding ring, acted like a couple with Chris, she had her whole life as a singer planned, and it was like i wasn't even apart of it at all. You're mad that Kyle put you in that amount of danger, and that he put himself in that amount of danger. Also the fact that he didn't tell you about it made you upset. I know it's not the same situation, but Kyle kept it a secret because he loved you and didn't want to disappoint or hurt you. He was involved in a war, one that he very well could've died in, because he wanted everyone around him to be safe, and to get back to you. Haley came back because loved me, not because her career tanked or she wasn't making enough money, but because she loved me and none of it was worth it. And i couldn't be mad at her for that, just like you can't be mad at Kyle for wanting to protect you."
"Does the feeling ever go away?"
"Depends which one," Nathan smiled.
"I can't explain it. I wanna be able to forgive him and just forget it all, but just the fact that he could've died because of me pisses me off. Like he can't do that, no one can be that selfless. And after he left all i could think about was all the other times i've been hurt. And i realized that Kyle's only hurt me once. I can't believe he would be so selfless and brave like that, so much that i can't stand it," Brooke explained.
"You hate that you love him," Nathan stated.
"What?" Brooke asked, not understanding.
"You hate that you love him," Nathan repeated. "He's all these things that you thought you would never find. You hate that you need him so much. He's brave, good looking, courageous, loving, all those things that you love. And you can't stand it because you can't think of one thing wrong with him. And then he tells you something like this, he messed up in some way, and you're brought back down and you realize that no matter what he does, he's still perfect to you."
Who would've thought Nathan Scott could give people insight ? Mostly it was Nathan who took it, not gave it out. Everything he was saying made sense, and it was in her heart all along, there was just too many things tangled up. NO matter how much Kyle screwed up, she wasn't gonna think any less of him. Brooke hated wanting Kyle and needing him all the time just to get through the day. It was obnoxious and frustrating because she felt like one of those girls that depended on a guy to live. But she loved it anyway.
"How do you know so much about that ?"
"I feel it when i'm with Haley. Believe me Brooke i've screwed up alot in my lifetime, alot more now that we're getting older. But everytime i screwed up, whether it be in a basketball game or outside the court, she was always there to bring me back down to reality. And in reality, i had a supportive wife who would always be there for me, and really that's all i ever needed."
"How about when Haley screws up ?"
"Actually that's not often," Nathan laughed. "She always says it was her biggest mistake ever when she went on tour, but i think she's just saying that. But hey, maybe it is. BUt i can't think any less of Haley, or be angry at her forever. Sure, she messed up in whatever way, and i'll be pissed and angry, but she's my wife and i love her. And Haley's not perfect, but to me she is and just because she made a mistake, doesn't mean she isn't perfect for admitting it."
"I have to say Nathan you can be very helpful when you wanna be. I'd never thought you'd be helping me with my problems."
"Me neither. Remember when we used to rule the school ? Everything was in perfect order and the way we thought it should be?"
"And then you got jealous because Peyton liked Lucas more than you."
"Haha very funny. But yeaa, i think it all worked out, even Kyle leaving and then coming back. Although i do wish we were friends even after he left."
"Same here. I guess we just lost our way or something. But here we are now," Brooke shrugged.
"Here we are. And we better stay this way. I'd hate to have to tell Kyle that he's the glue that holds you and I together," Nathan laughed.
"Oh yeaa he'll get a kick out of that. We wont' hear the end of it."
"No we wont."
"Well you better take me home. I have to look through my stuff and see if Rachel stole anything. She may be my friend, but that doesn't mean i trust her," Brooke smirked as she climbed into the car.
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Brooke was really glad she had a talk with Nathan. It was like old times, except they were older and had alot mroe bigger problems. Nathan had grown up alot in the past 2 years, and ther was Haley to thank for that but also himself. Hopefully that wouldn't be the last of their talks.
"Well here ya go," Nathan said, pulling into her and Rachel's driveway.
"Thanks for the ride, and the other thing," Brooke said, giving him a one armed hug.
"You sure you don't want me to help you in?"
"Nate i have one broken rib and a sprained wrist, not crippled," Brooke joked.
"Alright. So when will you be back in school ?"
"Hopefully tomorrow or the day after. I don't even wanna think about how much work i have to do," she shuddered.
"Can't be that bad. We only have like a month and a half left of school right?"
"Hope so."
Brooke closed the car door and turned to leave, before leaning against the closed door again.
"Nathan, i know you're tweaked about the baby coming, but you're gonna be fine," Brooke said genuinely.
Nathan nodded, "You're the first person i've believed."
"Well good. I like to be remembered," she smirked before walking up to the door.
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Setting her stuff down, Brooke took a look around the room. Nothing had really changed since she had last been there. Everything was in it's right place, nothing missing or different. Brooke just couldn't figure out where she had put the questions at. Sure she had her moments, but Brooke wasn't stupid, she wouldn't put it just anywhere. It had to be around her room somwhere, or in her bookbag. One way or another she was gonna find that list of questions and answers, because she had finally came to the stunning conclusion. If only she could remember it.