Chapter 4.
That week passed so fast that I couldn't believe it was Friday when Nathan told me after closing the store "Are we going out tomorrow?" and I just nodded, I went home so excited, Saturday was gonna be the greatest day ever.
I woke up at four in the morning, I wasn't gonna be able to sleep anymore so I went to the kitchen and grabbed a soda, I sat on the couch and turned on the TV, I began to zap without paying attention to the TV, I was too nervous about what was gonna happen later, I began to fall asleep almost right away.
I opened my eyes and saw it was nine pm, I got ready to go out with Nathan, and for some reason I fell like it was going to be a real date, I knew I was growing too many hopes but it felt that way.
The road to the store (where we agreed to gather) felt shorter than ever, I saw Nathan on the parking lot but his car wasn't there, that was weird, I parked close to where he was and got out of the car.
"Where's your car?" I asked.
"I left it at home" he said smiling.
"Why?" I said.
"'Cuz I knew you would come in yours" he said, and we both laughed.
"Are you ready to go?" I said feeling a bit more comfortably.
"Sure" he said getting into the car.
I drove to a coffee shop on the other side of town, he saw me with a confused look on his face when I parked there.
"What's the matter?" I asked
"Nothing" he said "I just love this place but I didn't think anyone else knew it"
"Well, I know it because my friend Randi works in here" I admitted "but the place is great"
"I know" he smirked.
We went inside and I saw Randi cleaning a table for two, right on time, it was a corner table, I told Nathan that we should sit there because it was empty and clean already and he agreed.
I was with Nathan in a coffee shop, we were sitting next to each other and it was almost night, we were laughing so hard for a joke he told me, this was a real date, well, almost a real date, something was missing for this to be real, suddenly, without notice he gave me a kiss, it was soft, his breath over me was mesmerizing, first he moved his lips against mine very softly but then he began to get inpatient, then he pulled away and went outside of the coffee shop, I followed him.
"Where are you going?" I asked him.
"I just needed some air" he said.
"Are you ok?" I said because his face was burning in red, he seemed so lovely.
"Yeah, I'm fine" he said.
"Then tell me, what just happened in there?" I said trying to figure out why he kissed me.
"I don't know" he said " I got carried away"
"That's it?" I asked a little confused.
"Here's the thing Michael" he said "I'm gay, you might not understand it, that's it"
"Really" I asked surprised.
"What do you mean? Don't you wanna knock me down?"
"Why would I wanna do that?" I said almost laughing.
"Ok this is awkward" he said "can I ask you something?"
"Sure, anything" I said without thinking about it.
"Michael, are you gay?" he asked.
"Yes, I am gay" I answered almost laughing "why do you think I didn't knock you down when you kissed me"
"Oh no" he said.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Look, Michael" he said "the thing is that I like you, but I can't be with you"
"Why" I asked hurt.
"It's not you, for real, it's just that I kind of have a couple right now" he said, he sounded ashamed.
I wasn't sure about what I was supposed to do, so I ran to my car without even saying goodbye, I drove home crying all the way, I felt like a stupid, I knew it was too good to be truth, I knew I was gonna end up like this, crying for him and feeling like and idiot for letting myself feel something for him.