Stumble
Chapter Nineteen
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– And I feel a weakness coming on –
I couldn't believe I was back there. But he'd told me he would protect me, wouldn't let me do anything stupid. But could he protect me from himself? At the moment, it didn't seem like it. Granted, I was enjoying myself more this time than I ever had before...
But it was wrong all the same.
Dallas kissed my neck lightly. I didn't know he could be this gentle. But it was wrong, I had to keep reminding myself.
I opened my eyes. "Dallas, stop it," I whispered. I barely heard myself and was slightly amazed when he pulled away from me.
"What?" he asked, looking down at me.
"I can't do this," I told him.
He got of me and sat on the edge of his bed. We were in his room at Buck's. "Why not?"
I leaned my head back into his pillow and closed my eyes. I took a deep breath before answering. "I've been with a lot of guys, you know that. And because of it, sex doesn't mean anything to me anymore." I looked up at him to see him giving me an intense stare. "I want my first time with you to mean something, Dallas. I don't wanna just have sex with you, I wanna make love to you. And I can't do that right now."
He looked down at his mattress and nodded his head. "Okay."
I smiled softly. Sitting up, I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned my head against his shoulder. I felt his arms wrap themselves around my back, as he lay his head on my shoulder.
I needed to know I could trust him.