22 february 2010,

hi guys,

yes it is been long since i last updated this but finally i did it!

The reason why it has been so long is because school took all my time I did my final exams last year ( and past thank the gods) Now i'm in a new school for nursing. So that took all my time but i meanwhile I haven't been sitting still. I wrote the whole story down on paper so I only have to typ it in and update it here. It will take some time thought because I am still busy but'I'll try to do it as quickly as i can.

I hope you all enjoy this chapter, let me know :)

xxx

Desiree

p.s. I hope I spelled everything right but i'm not sure.

'Two days.'

Those two simple words.. so simple.. so forgettable.. but I couldn't get them out of my head.

I don't know if I was afraid or just worried... I felt numb.. Ron, Harry, Ginny and Neville were worried about me. They observed me and were constantly asking me how I was doing and why I was so distant. I always answered with the same lame excuse. '.. I'm just studying too hard I think. Ron, Ginny and Neville got that lie but Harry looked suspicious but thank the gods he didn't continue on the subject.

Those two days where nerve wrecking. I wasn't the only one who was worried. Snape looked worried too, he seemed tired and it looks like he didn't sleep much.

He had told me about the plan. Deatheaters would attack Hogwarts right after Dumbledore and Harry would leave. The Deatheaters would have to kidnap Harry and bring him to the Dark Lord. Harry could not be killed but every other person that would come in the way was supposed to be get rid of. The morning of the attack I was quite and pale. Ginny looked really worried from across the table. Before she could say anything about it to me Harry walked in and sat beside me.

'I have a meeting with Dumbledore tonight,' he said so that only I could hear him.

My eyes met his green ones, my mind spinning. It couldn't be that Harry would have a meeting with Dumbledore, he would leave tonight. He had to leave tonight! Harry was still waiting on my response so I quickly nodded to him with a small smile. He nodded too and turned his head to the table.

I instead turned my head to the head table. I looked straight in Snape's black eyes and got the hint immediately. After I finished showing him what Harry had told me his face went blank. He didn't know it either I could tell. Dumbledore hadn't told him about it. He stood up from the table and walked out of the great hall followed by Dumbledore's gaze.

The day went by to quickly. It got night too fast. It was a Saturday so there were no classes and because it was May most of the other students were outside by the lake. Harry and Ron played the chess the whole day while Ginny and I sat by a window doing some chitchats about cute guys she saw in Hogsmeade the last time we were allowed to go there. I was jealous she had all the time to check out boys.. she didn't had to hide what she truly was doing. We went to dinner early. Snape was there too he had made eye contact with me and saying that there were no changes in the plan.

I sat next to Harry who was excited about his meeting with Dumbledore. He didn't talk or ate much. He quietly listened the conversation between Ginny and Ron about which quiditch team was the best. I did the same. I quietly ate my dinner I knew I had to eat otherwise I wouldn't be strong enough for the battle. Ginny and Ron barely touched their food but to different reasons, instead of quietly talking and snapping they started to raise their voices. A few people started to listen to the, now turned into, fight.

'Oi, come on, this is not important enough to fight about guys,' I said while raising up from the table. 'Let's go back to our dorm.' Both Ginny and Ron looked at me like they were about to snap at me but they thought the better of it when they saw my face.

Back in the Gryffindor tower, Harry and Ron went back to their Chess game and I started to do some homework. I looked at my watch a few times. I couldn't concentrate on my school work. I was still thinking about a way to keep my secret and not have to show all the other people that I'm working for the Dark Lord. I watched Harry stand up say something Ron. He turned to walk out of the room but he saw me watching him and walked over to me.

'I have this strange feeling that something is going to happen,' he whispered. I tried to keep my face as normal as possible and not shout an whole explanation what was going to happen tonight. I wanted to tell it so badly.

'Nothing will happen tonight Harry, trust me.' I cursed myself for saying that now I will hurt him even more because I told him he could trust me.

'But still, this strange feeling, it normally is true and my intuition is never wrong,' he looked desperate. I took his hand in mine, I saw Ginny move a bit.

'Harry, nothing bad will happen, it is just a meeting with Dumbledore.'

'I know. But… say something bad will happen tonight…,' he waited thinking about how to bring it. His eyes went to Ginny for a second before he turned back to look at me. 'Say something will happen, can I trust that you will take care of Ginny?'

I was taken back by his question. Should I say I can. I know that would make the whole situation ever worse.

'Yes.. I will do everything that is in my power to protect her, Harry.'

He nodded and then turned around and walked out of the room. Ginny looked suspiciously to me, jealous. I ignored it and went back to the book in my lap, pretending to read it.

I hissed. The first sign of the upcoming battle was there. The dark mark on my arm started to sting.

Ginny looked up. 'What is it, Hermione?'

'Nothing.. nothing,'I stuttered trying not to let the pain hear through my voice.

Ginny shrugged and stood up.

'Let go to bed,' I nodded and walked after her up the stairs. I didn't change but just lay down on the bed, listening to my roommates who didn't go to bed long after I got in bed.

I waited for them to be asleep. How I did it I don't know but I fell asleep while listening to the even breaths of my roommates.

'WAKE UP,' someone screamed while pushing the door open. 'DEAHTEATERS ARE IN THE CASTLE.'

I woke up abruptly, sleep drunk I got out of my bed, hearing people scream around me. Lavender run around in the room getting her travel coat and put it on. Mumbling something about going home as fast as she could. Everyone was gone within a few minutes not even caring if I was coming or not.

I quickly duck under my bed to get my robe and mask. I fell on my bed when there was a huge shake, I heard screams coming from downstairs. The fight had already started. At rapid speed I put on my coat and mask and ran down stairs. In the common room there where only a few people, mostly first years. They screamed when they saw me coming downstairs thinking I came from up there. They didn't recognize me. A few older people tried to curse me as a ran by but I could easily block all of them. The portrait swung open and I ran on, not listening to the cursing from the fat lady.

I ran by fighting people, trying to ignore them I had a mission try and find Harry try to protect him when I could. Voldemorts mission for me was easy: kill.

When I reached the top of the stairs I saw everything going by fast. Spell thrown everywhere trying to hit the other not caring who it was. In the far end of the hall I saw the doors to the dungeons open and Snape running. He stopped to take in the chaos in front of him. He looked up and saw me standing on top of the stairs. With a quick glance we both nodded knowing that it was time. I ran down the stairs my mask fell off with the speed I made, but I didn't care I was stunned to see Snape, instead of going to fight too he ran past me, running up the stairs. That wasn't the plan! He had to help fighting. I thought for a second to run up the stairs as well but then thought the better of it. I looked around, people where still fighting. I wanted to help to fight on the light side. But I was stunned, people even younger than me where fighting for their lives and the only thing I was doing was betraying them.

In the corner of my eye I saw something red coming my way, I turned around and tried to jump aside to seeing the curse was about to hit me. I couldn't get away in time the spell hit my left arm. The clothes around it shattered to pieces a few cuts in my arm started to bleed. I looked around to see who send the curse than I saw Remus Lupin, he stood a few feet away from me, stunned to see me. In the deatheater robe. He started to apologize but then he saw something that made him angry. He saw the dark mark on my left arm, the clothes that kept everyone from seeing it where gone.

'No, not you,' he paused. Anger building up. He raised his wand, I jumped away to avoid being hit by the spell, my cap fell off everyone could see me now. Lupin was about to send another curse at me but he was stopped my a scream of McGonagall.

'Remus stop it!,' a few other Order members looked our way. 'Stop it, that's Hermione.' McGonagall screamed .

'I know,' Lupin grumbled. 'Look at her left arm.' But before anyone else could look at it we heard another scream.

'RUN, DRACO, RUN,' everyone looked around to see three people run from the stairs. Draco and Snape in front followed closely by a very angry Harry Potter.

'COME HERE YOU COWARD,' he screamed while running out of the hall. I took the moment and cursed Remus Lupin. God I hated to see him fall backward. I only paralyzed him but I did hurt him.

I didn't stay I ran after the three people who went outside. Seeing more people fighting but I didn't pay attention to them. Further on the ground I could see three people running for their lives.

I followed them I was faster. Draco and Snape where almost at the gates. I jumped over a few stunned and wounded bodies. I saw Harry raising his wand and knew that Snape couldn't avoid that one. Snape looked at me. I raised my wand too, faster than Harry.'

'EXPELLIARMUS!,' I screamed before Harry could finish his curse. He looked around I ran by and turned around grabbing his wand and threw it back to him. Snape and Draco had already apparated

He looked stunned. Then he started screaming.

'WHY DID YOU DO THAT?'He yelled. 'WHY FOR GODSACK DID YOU PROTECT THEM AND LET THEM GO?'

I fell my dark mark sting, everyone was called back, than I saw the mark above the astronomy tower. But before I could ask who died. Harry said something I would hear in my dreams for the rest of the weeks.

'No,' His eyes rested on my arm where the mark moved slightly, It was the most painful no I heard anyone say it cut right through me. 'No, not you.'

I quickly turned around ran out of the gates and apparated, seeing harry who stood there alone and hurt.