Chapter 5.

The meals in the next few weeks went the same. Everyone ignored me they sat down at the table as far away from me as they could. People where whispering when I walked by. The only things people say to me are insults.

The first time I saw Harry, Ron and Ginny again was after two weeks into the new term. I was on my way to get some breakfast when Dean Thomas insulted me. I turned around to see him, Ginny, Harry and Ron sitting together enjoying their breakfast. Harry was watching me, looking concerned but he didn't say anything. Ron looked at me as if I could go crazy any moment, draw my wand and kill everyone in the room. He has his wand next to his plate.
'Is there anything you want, Traitor? He asked me every word showed how angry he was and how much he hated me.
'Are you OK?' a small voice asked me. I looked to Ginny, her face was getting red but still she remained looking at me. Oh, how I wished I would tell them what was going on. Before I could answer Ginny Ron stood up staring down at his sister.
'How can you ask such a thing to her, she is a traitor, of course she is doing fine, she managed to do her job. You haven't forgotten last year, have you?'
I turned around without saying anything, Harry was still observing me but it hurt to be standing there while I couldn't tell them how sorry I was.
'I haven't forgotten last year, Ronald. Last year she was our friend. And maybe you can forget that she was. But I still see her, I see how much pain she is having. And I don't know about you but I hate to see it, I don't want to be a monster just like you .'
I had to smile, I was so thankful to Ginny even though I'm still the traitor in her eyes she did stick up for me.

In classes I was quiet, didn't raise my hand anymore. I just didn't want to be in the picture. I just wanted to vanish into the walls and never be seen until this whole stupid war is over.

Remarks were made where ever I went. I couldn't concentrate on schoolwork. In the library people were watching me, calling me names just loud enough for me to hear.

Two months into the term I walked to the Gryffindor Tower when I felt my left arm sting. I groaned, couldn't the stupid snake faced man manage to be on his own for once. He had called on us almost every two days. I started running down to the hall. Right when I rounded the last corner I bumped into someone. With a loud echoing sound I saw books and paper fall.
'I'm so sorry, I should have watched where…' I kneeled down to pick up the books.
'Don't touch that,' I heard an all too familiar voice say. But it was already too late. Pictures of Goblets, Swords and potions where scattered all over the floor.
The voice that was so familiar belonged to none other than Harry Potter. I saw one page with a small handwriting on it. I touched the word that I had written on it months ago. Horcrux. Another page in my handwriting told places where horcruxes might be hidden. I picked the last few books up and stood up straight.
'Here,' I slowly said while pushing the papers and books into Harry's arms.
'You are going to tell him, aren't you?' Harry eyed me, scared. I didn't answer just looked straight at him. I just wish I could tell him that I wouldn't. I wish I was able to help him figure things out.

Then another sting hit my arm. I groaned in pain but didn't want to show it. I started walking past Harry without saying another thing. If I didn't want to show how much pain I felt right there I had to ignore him and hurry up. I quickly walked out of the castle. When I was close to the gate I stopped and draw my want. I saw two people in cloaks. I heard them whisper in the dark and cold night. I stepped behind a tree and listened carefully. I couldn't hear anything so as silent as I could I tried to get closer.
'Come on Harry, we have to go before anyone notices us.' I heard Ron's voice. He sounded worried and scared.
'Yeah your right it's just… I had that feeling.'
'Ooh please, you have to get over her, she betrayed us Harry, betrayed you. She is not coming back.'
'I know it's just that my feeling and intuition is mostly right,' Harry said hesitant.
'Come on, We have to hurry now, we'll talk when we are there, someone is coming from the castle.' Ron whispered.

I looked over my shoulder and indeed I saw a small light coming from the entrance of the castle. I turned back to Harry and Ron but saw that they had just apparated.

'Miss Granger, If you still want to be the smartest witch of your age I would recommend you to go to the Dark Lord right now.' And icy snare sounded behind me. I turned around and looked straight into the dark cold black eyes of Severus Snape. I shivered.
'You better have a good excuse, because he send me to look for you.. He wants us all present at the meeting tonight.'
'Well come on then. Let's not make the man wait any longer,' I heard Snape sigh behind me. He muttered something under his breath. Something that sounded very familiar to. "Typical"

'Miss Granger,' His voice was even more horrible than Snape's eyes. I shivered again when I walked into the throne room. 'Glad you could make it.'
'I'm sorry for being late my Lord,' I kneeled down in front of him. Looking up a bit just in time to see him raise his wand at me and send a horrible curse which I hate so much. I didn't want to scream, didn't want him to know that his punishment hurt. I bit my tongue but just when I was about to scream the curse was lifted and I could breath normally again. My heart was beating in my throat.
'I think that will be enough for tonight, next time don't be late, miss Granger.' I could hear the laugh in his voice without even looking up.
I stared into his red eyes. I was afraid that he might have seen how much I hate him, I much I loath him and despise him. Quickly I stood up and too my place in line next to Snape. Trying to catch my breath.

'Now Let's continue with our meeting, shall we.'