So...here is the real first chapter... enjoy. Ps: thanks for the reviews. 3 will always be enough for me to continue a story :D.

I have to put things clear now. That story will not end officially as a CxOC story. I still have to think about it so please don't think somthing like this, I didn't even decide. Just read it and discovers it more at each chapter...

Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN TDI 'kay?

It hasn't been a long since I left the science class and Derrick; the French new student. Even if just had just met a day ago, I was feeling a connection between us. The connection I never had before. I was still feeling his green eyes looking at me like no one ever did before. At that moment, when he touched my hand, I knew I wanted him. Forever. But more hours were passing, more I was feeling like a betrayer. A betrayer to myself.

Then, here I was, lying on Duncan's bed. Not naked, still dressed but not for a long time since we were making out. But his kisses, that were once making me shiver, didn't light up anything in me. It was like making out with a wall. There were no sparkles flying.

"I―I can't do that." I admitted, while straightening myself on the bed.

"Why?! It was getting good."Snorted Duncan, looking confused.

I glared at him, silent. He wasn't saying anything either. I was deeply thinking; what was he thinking about us? Was I as important for him that he was for me? Did he really love me?

"Duncan, when we had sex for the first time, did you feel anything?"

He straightened up and caught my arm.

"Of course, I felt something the first time, babe. I always feel something."

He slowly leaned in and crushed his lips against mine. They were soft and sweet, as the first time, but what he told me wasn't enough. I pulled my head back and stared profoundly in his deep ocean blue eyes.

"Duncan, do you want me?"

He put his lips on my neck and softly kissed at several times.

"Yes, I do. More than ever."

He was convincing and really attractive but I had one more question to ask him. I moved back again and took his head in my hands so he couldn't move it and just look me in the eyes.

"Do you love me?"

He wasn't saying anything; he was just glaring at me blankly. The punk's eyes began to soften as I was putting my hands down on the blanket. After a long sigh, he bowed down, looking at my hands.

"I thought I had been clear on that point."

A long tear slid down my cheeks and my vision was sooner blurred down by a stream of water. I knew what it meant. I always knew it but I couldn't face it. I was just a game. His favourite game. I got off the bed with that thought haunting me.

"Look Court, I'm sorry you thought so. I didn't want to hurt you."Duncan apologized.

My hand was already on the handle of his door and my coat put on. I turned back my heels and gave him a withering look. I wanted to cry, surely, but I wanted to strike him too.

"And what did you think when you took up my virginity last Christmas? That I was the kind of girl who would be easy and would forget really fast?" I paused, trying to breathe.

"I thought there was something between us. I thought you would really love me. I thought that if I give this, it would be worth it. I thought you were the one. Obviously, I was wrong."I screamed out my lungs.

I paused again to sob a little louder.

"You know what Duncan; I am not keeping the 'personal slut' label that you gave me. Forget me."

I furiously shut the door behind me. I went down the stairwell and walked swiftly through the hallway. I just wanted to scream. I wanted to scream how such a moron I was. Worse than that, I wanted to die and to start over. How could I have been that stupid? I was almost out when Duncan jumped down the stairs, running like a crazy. He got in front of me, not letting me leave that damn place.

"Why do you make a scene? You knew what you were in from the beginning! Don't try to make me feel guilty or anything."

I stared at him with rage in the eyes. It was enough. It was really over. I wasn't gonna let him tell me what I should think or no.

"Yes, you're right. I knew what I was in from the beginning and now, I understand this was a mistake. We were a mistake. I was dumb and now I know that fist of all, you were treating me like a 'pleasure machine' and then, you're just bullshit to me. Get the hell out of my way."

He moved to the left, leaving me the time to open the door and step outside. He kept looking at me while I was going out the house, letting the cool wind of the New Jersey's springy climate.

"You're doin' a big mistake, Princess."

I turned my head, eyes still puffy but my head still standing fearlessly.

"The biggest mistake I did was to come here. Sometimes, we learn from what we do wrong."

I walked on the sidewalk, still wondering why I gave a chance to that stupid idiot.

Then I saw him, walking on the sidewalk at the other side of the street. Derrick was there. Even if I just wanted cry, I ran across the street and jumped in front of him.

"Courtney, what are you doing here?"He asked, surprised.

Without thinking, I told him everything. What happened with Duncan; my feelings, the fight, how I was dumb...

He didn't say anything. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. His arms were warm and comforting.

"Parfois, les mots font mal mais tout peut toujours s'arranger. Tu verras."

I didn't understand anything of what he was saying but I felt confident. Like if I knew everything would be alright. We stayed in the middle of the sidewalk for minutes. I wanted this moment to last forever.

"Do you want to go out with me tomorrow night? Maybe it will make you feel better... Juste toi et moi."

I looked up to see his beautiful eyes staring at me lovingly. I didn't hesitate.

"Yes, juste toi et moi."I said, with a bad french accent.

He kissed my forehead and hugged me tighter.

Yep, this is the chapter. If I've got time, the next one will come on Friday. See ya!