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Riiiinnnnngggg, ding, diiiiinnnnnngggg, diiiiiiiiinnnnnnnn… WHAMMMMMM! I wake up to slamming my alarm clock and realize its Thursday. School is over. It's summer. I'm officially a senior. I 'dress my best' and I call Alice so see what she is going to wear. She decided jeans and a tank top. And I chose dark blue short shorts, with the pocket hanging out, and a sexy silky silver tank top, that goes down in a deep-v showing a perfect amount of cleavage. This is definitely a head turner.
With James at my side and Seth on Alice's we have heads turned when we walk into the school. With James as my boyfriend, I must say, I've become popular. I've become everything that I've ever wanted. I dress the part, and I've always looked the part. But now it is just complete. I don't remember what James said but it made me laugh. During my laugh I tucked my head down into his body and I ran into Edward, completely having a full on collusion. My whole body rammed into his pushing him back and I forward causing me to fall right on top of him. "Fuck, I'm so sorry; I didn't see where I was going." I ran on and on about how sorry I was when I realized I was still on top of him. And he was staring right at my chest.
"It's fine, don't worry about it." He says still staring at me, but finally turning his eyes towards my face. I get up and he follows.
"I'd be fine with a beautiful girl falling on me any day." He whispers seductively into my ear. Making me melt inside. I smile and nod, apologize again. And I am pulled away by James's grasp. He doesn't say anything but he has a smirk on his face. Something is not right. I was just on top of another guy and he chooses to not say anything. What the hell is up with that!
James takes me to a surprise place. He never said where he was going to take me, but he said I had to wear blind folds. I feel the car come to a stop and he tugs off the blind fold. It's the beach, the first place that I and he met. I cannot believe he took me here. We stop off and we sit in the sand and watch the dark blue wave's crash feet away us.
"Do you still love him?" He asks.
"Excuse me?" I ask puzzled.
"Edward, do you still love him? I know you did, do you still?" He doesn't sound mad; his eyes show no sign of anger.
"I do. But everyday it is less and less, every kiss it's less. You're making me get over him James." I say truthfully.
"Okay, thank you for telling the truth. So let's make that less now." And he kisses me, just like he always does. Slow, and ingeniously.
His tongue slides across my bottom lip and I open my mouth just a little bit for an entrance, and we are quickly gliding our tongue over one and other. He tastes like peppermint. I move over and I am straddling his waist. I push him down so I am on top of him he grabs my ass and is firmly squeezing. We continue making out as he goes to slide his fingers inside of my shorts we hear the police coming our way.
The police did not say anything more than what we already knew. No sex at a public place. And he instructed us to go home. Damn cop, I'm pretty sure I could have lost my virginity right there I wouldn't have minded it either.
A month passes, and we hangout every day, Saturday is date night and we go out with Alice and Seth. This summer is like nothing before. I've never had a summer romance but I'm glad I've had this one. One month, until senior year, I'm beyond excited. Excited to be out of here, to be gone, to be free, and to be what I've always wanted.
James has come over a few times, for dinner. And I've gone to his house much more. I love it there, everything about it is beautiful. He is lucky he is so good looking or his house would make him look like shit. But it doesn't. I've stayed at his house a few times, only reaching about third base. Yes, oral.
"Are you sure about this guy?" My mom asks.
"Yes, it's not like Edward would ever go for me. I guess I'm kind of lucky James wants me mom."
"Do not have that type of attitude you are beautiful. And if Edward does not see them than he can fuck off because he is missing out not you. You got that? If this is how James is making you feel, you tell me right now!" I've never had my mom yell at me before. She's always so calm and relaxed.
"Mom, I'm not trying to have an attitude. James makes me feel wanted, and loved. Edward, well I still love Edward I'll never stop loving him. Although he has said all of two sentences to me 'can I use your crayons' and 'I'd let a pretty lady fall on me any day' yeah trust me mom. I don't think he'll ever want me. He'll never love me. So I'm settling for James. I won't be able to love him like I do. But I like James, a lot mom; I'm just trying to see how far we can take things."
"Are you sure you're not just covering up feeling wanted, and loved with feeling popular. You always told me when you were younger that was all you ever wanted. And now you're dating someone who can give you that and you don't love him. Has he told you he loves you?"
"No, not yet. I'm sure he will though."
"What are you going to say then? You are sure as hell not going to lie to this boy and say it back now. You tell him the truth. I raised you better."
"Yeah, he knows I still love Edward. But it's less than what it was before I started dating him. I told him we talked about it."
"No boy in this world would stay with a girl if she loved another guy. You need to understand this. You're still young. I can tell you love Edward as much as you did in Kindergarten. Your eyes still shimmer when you say his name. That's how I felt about your dad. I miss him a lot. Not a day goes by that I do not think of him."
"Mom, we all miss him. Dad was great, he was kind, generous, always put me and you first. He was gone too soon."
"I know, I still have nightmares of waking up and seeing him lying there, lifeless."
"You have me. I know you miss him; I know every day it gets harder for you without him. I'll never leave you mom. I love you so much. And do not think for once second that I don't. I cannot imagine how hard it is for you. Doing this all alone."
"Its fine honey, I'll be okay. But damn, twelve years. That's a long time, we've come a long way don't you think?"
"Yes, but you're the one that got us here." My mom smiles and nods, gives me a hug and a kiss on the cheek before going to bed.
"You have to do it" Alice says. "I can't, he'll hate me. I can't live with James hating me." Alice moans. "You're going to have to dump James sooner or later. You can't just pretend to love him." I nodded in agreement. "How? It's been such a long time; I don't think I can do it." Alice slaps my face, I could feel my cheek throbbing in pain. "If you don't do it I will. You're a lying bitch who can't stand up and say the truth when her boyfriend says 'I love you' and you say it back not meaning it. You can't just lie about that." She screamed at me. "It just came out." I say innocently. "Yeah well I'm to just let something slip out of my mouth to James in a few minutes." It's my turn to moan now. I turn around and walk towards James. As I look in astonishment he's with Edward. "James, I lied. I don't love you. I shouldn't have said it back. I'm sorry." His face looks broken, and shocked. "I know. I could tell you didn't mean it. Do you still love him?" He turns towards Edward. His voice was cold as ice as his words slide off of his tongue. Edwards face is a cross between confusion and anger. I don't reply to James and I tuck my head down and begin walk away when I run into something hard. I jerk my head up and it's Edward.
"Oh my fucking gosh." What in the hell. I need Alice.
"Hello?" Alice asks. Her voice is sharp and raspy.
"Al, oh my god I'm so glad you answered." I explain to her the conversation with my mom and my dream.
"I don't think that's just connivance. I think it's a sign telling you to break up with him."
"There's a week until summer ends. I can't break up with him now. I still like him a lot."
"But you don't love him"
"Right."
"See, you should love him. He's your boyfriend. You'll never love him like you do Edward."
"Exactly what my mom said."
"If you want give it a while, let the idea jump around in your head. Just, make the right decision okay."
"I will. And thanks. Hey congratulations about you and Seth. You two are so cute."
"Thanks. And things will get better."
"Excatually what my mom said, not too long ago."
"Great minds think alike."
"I assume they do. I'll let you go back to sleep. Thanks Al."
"Anytime girl."
As my eye lids grow heavier my eyes roll back. I can't seem to stay awake and think about what happened. My thoughts are all turned back to how much I need sleep. I fell asleep to the first day I met Edward.
Wake up in the morning feeling like P-Diddy, grab my glasses I'm out the door I'm gonna hit the city, before I leave brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack. 'Cause when I leave for the night I aint commin back.
"Hey, honey get the fuck up! You only have an hour and a half to get ready for you senior year!" My mom screams!
"Ugh!" I roll over in my bed and sit up. I get to work. I look in the mirror. My hair is a mess. I slept with it wet last night. Yeah not doing that again! My eyes look like I got enough sleep with little purple underneath. Nothing a little make-up cannot fix. I get to work on my hair.
I brush out the tangles. Getting the comb stuck in my hair a few times. Yes, this shit is that bad! And I turn on my curler.
"Hey mom, loose or tight curls?" I yell.
"Loose, they look better!"
I touch the curler to see if it is warm yet and I begin curling my hair. I hold for 30 seconds and then release. Over and over and over again. Once I'm finished with my hair I bump up my bangs. I apply little mascara and eye liner on the top barely noticeable. And a creamy colored eye shadow. I look great, I must say. I've changed a lot over the summer.
My face is tanner; damn my whole body is tanner. My face is skinnier; due to getting older. My breasts are finally a C! Ha. And I look older more mature all around.
I dress in a black dress, with tinny pink yellow and white flowers. And a black belt that clips in the front to go over. Black heels, and a few bracelets and necklaces. I've also begun to dress more girly. Instead of my usual jeans and a jacket or shorts and a tank. I've gone up a few steps.
I can drive now. My mom got me a car a few days ago. It's a red Z350 it's so cute and tiny I love it. Alice loves it too. Probably because she's tiny and it's tiny they go perfectly together. So we decide to drive to school in my car.
We pull up to an empty car spot and we sit outside and lean against it for a few minutes and talk about stupid shit we did over the summer. As we were talking you can hear the rumble of another Z but it's black. She; whomever she is parks right by us. As the engine ends a beautiful blonde comes out.
She has long bleach blonde hair. It's wavy. She's wearing a leather jacket. And an outfit similar to mine. "Are you guy's senior's by chance?"
"Ha, yes we are." Al and I say in unison.
"Woo okay good. Hi I'm Rosalie. I just moved here."
"Nice to meet you, I'm Bella and this is Alice."
We spend the next few minutes talking and getting to know each other and we compare schedules. We have all of our classes together. I think this is the beginning of a wonderful friend ship.
"So, are there any sexy guys here?" Rose asks.
"Hell yes! There's James, but Bella is dating him. There's Edward who Bella is in love with, and Seth, me and him are dating but we haven't gone out in a while so I don't know where we stand. And there's the rest of the football team." Alice says.
"Who's that?" Rose says pointing to the car driving into the school. It's a H2, Hummer 2 whatever you want to call it. That's Edwards's car.
"Uh, Edward." I say choking out the name.
"Any brothers?"
"Oh fuck, Bella, I forgot to tell you Edward's brothers are moving in with him. I guess his dad Carlisle had just adopted two new sons. Same age as all of us. I think their names are Casper, and Rennet or something like that." Alice says.
"Holy" Alice says
"Fucking" I say
"Shit!" Rose finishes off.
"EMMETT!" Rose screams and runs into Emmett's arms.
"What the fuck?" I say, Alice and I stare at each other confused more than ever.
"Casper, or whatever he is, oh my, he's mine. But Seth."
"Hey, do you love the boy?"
"Not anymore!" Alice grabs my arm and turns into the hyperactive little girl she use to be.
"Hello, I'm Alice." Alice says all high pitched and bell like.
"I'm Jasper, nice to meet you." Jasper is cute. He has long dark blonde hair. He's small kind of like Alice but still a lot taller. He's very toned. He's pale, paler than most people in Washington. He's perfect for Alice, well looks wise.
"Oh, Emmett, this is Alice, and Bella. Emmett and I went to the same school back in Chicago until Edwards's dad adopted him. We broke up because of the move. But I think that's about to change." Emmett is cute too. He's big, not fat but tall and very, very muscular. He has short very short brown hair. He too is very pale.
"Edward never told me there were such beautiful girls here." Emmett's voice is deep and playful. He hits Edwards shoulder. Making Edward wince in pain.
"Yeah, well Bella has a boyfriend so I didn't think you'd care." Why does Edward always say James's name like he's some scary vampire or something?
"Jasper hold on, I'll be right back. Bella get your ass over here."
"What?" I ask.
"Seth, he's about to get dumped. I think I'm in love."
"Al, you just met the guy."
"Gravity cannot be responsible for falling in love. Love at first sight."
"Fuck you Alice."
"Edward, now James should be dumped too."
"Shut it now!"
"Bella, can I talk to you?" Edward says, almost regretting saying the words.
"Uh, y-y-y-yes." Damn, he always makes me stutter.
""I'm so sorry about James." He says.
"Excuse me?"
"He told you right?" He says confused.
"No, I have no idea what you are talking about."
"Forget I said anything then."His words are sharp, anger is filled within them.
"Uh, Al, Rose I'll meet up with you guys later." I yell.
"Where is she going?" Alice asks.
"Probably to find James."
I could feel Edwards's eyes at my back. I walk down the strip of cars like it's run way.
"Bella." James says.
"What's wrong? What did you not tell me?" I scream, I'm pissed. And if he cannot tell he is fucking idiotic.
"I've been meaning to talk to you!" He says calmly.
"But you didn't! And I had to find out by Edward that you told him something you didn't tell me!" I scream louder.
"Bella, baby calm down."
"Do not tell me to calm down James! Tell me what it is whatever you need to tell me now!" I scream as loud as I possibly can. At this point there are people surrounding our fight.
"Not now, not with people around."
"No! Now!" My words are razor sharp, coming out of my mouth as if my words are food poison.
"I'm moving! There happy? I'm moving. Today." James screams his words and there are gasps from the crowd.
I can feel tears forming at my eyes and they begin to roll violently down my tanned face. I can taste the salt water form puddles on my face. I'm sobbing. I cannot control my emotions at this point. James raps his arms around me and holds me and lets me cry.
"I meant to tell you. I just didn't know how to say it. I didn't want it to be like this."
"W-w-where are y-y-o-o-you m-m-mo-moving too?" I cry out not able to sound right.
"Florida."
At that point my sobs because stronger.
"Baby I'm so sorry." James says I can see the tears swell up in his eyes. I regain myself and I stop crying.
"Do not call me that! If you haven't already figured it out. Were over!" I start screaming again. He runs after me and pulls on my waist but Alice is by my side pulling me on. Alice tries to comfert me. But nothing is working.
"Alice, I do love him. I'm not in love but I love him. And he's gone."
"I know, I know. It's okay baby girl." Rose rushes over to where me and Alice are. And Alice tells her what happened. Alice tells her to go back over to Emmett and the boys. I can hear the boys tell her to say what the hell had just happened. But she won't say anything. Thank you Rose.
The bell rings. And Alice Rose and I walk to our class. We stop by the bathroom to check my makeup and fix the clown that I now look like. As we go to find our classes I find out I have Biology by myself. Fucking great. I walk into my Bio class. And just my luck. The only open sit is right next to Edward.
I walk slowly, my breathing is uneven and short, and as I approach the table I can hear the sound of a chair scooting away. It's Edward moving away from me. I sit down and I get my supplies out. I look over towards him without moving my head; he looks as if he is in pain. He is grasping the table and his jaw is clenched. Showing his facial features just a little bit more than usual.
80 minutes, it's okay Bella. You can do this. Everything will be okay. As soon as the bell rings Edward grabs all of his shit and he's out of the class room as soon as possible. What the hell is his problem? I don't smell bad. Something is wrong with that man.
"Rose. Why did you move here?" Alice asks kindly.
"My dad remarried. And she lives here. So he 'took one for the team' and decided to move."
"And you had no idea Emmett was here?" I ask.
"No, he and I talked very little up until now. But I'm glad things are back to normal. I miss him so much, and the things he can do with his…"
"STOP!" Alice and I yell in unison. While we laugh hysterically.
"Jasper is cute. I want him. Like in my bed." Alice whispers. Causing me and Rose to laugh even more.
"What about Seth?"
"Fuck Seth. The boy broke up with me the minute I looked at Jazz. And he texted it too."
"What a little fucking pussy!" Rose screams out loud. Getting rude glances from Lauren and Jessica.
"What the fuck is your problem?" Rose is intimidating; she just looks like someone you do not want to mess with. Her jaw is tight, and her face looks as if she could kill. She gorgeous.
"Actually no, I don't have a problem. But maybe you should not be talking about 'pussy's' that way. I mean, you're probably a lesbian so no need to dis on your home girls." Jessica replies sounding like the bitch that she is.
Rose jumps across that table and right in front of Jessica; her face is inches away from hers. Jessica looks as if she just shit her pants. Her body is shaking with fear. Whhhaaammm! Rose slaps Jessica; the noise is sickly sharp sounding. "If you ever talk about me that like that again, I will pumble your ass so damn hard you won't remember what your pussy looks like. You hear me?" Rose is screaming, as loud as ever. Jessica's face is red, with a five finger mark on her right cheek. She nods in response and Alice and I cannot help but laugh at the situation.
"She's a little bitch now isn't she?" Says Rose.
"Always has been, always will." I end laughing.
"Take a seat, class is ready. I'm…" That's all I heard until I was not listening all I could think about was Edward. I want to talk to him about what his issue is because what happened in Bio. Was just not right, and disrespectful. It wouldn't be for today's earlier problems with me and James could it?
"Do you mind if we sit by Em?" Rose asks, hoping we'll say yes.
"Just as long as he is by Jasper I'm fine with it."
"Yeah sure let's go." I say not wanting to tell them about how I will bitch fit at Edward because of his prickness.
Lunch was awkward to say the least. It only got worse when James came to talk to me. As James approaches our table Edward stiffens up in his seat. "Bella can we talk?"
Edward
Stupid fucking prick of an ass whole James. How could he not have to man in him to talk to Bella about him moving before he fucking told me! As I heard Bella and him fight I couldn't help but want to take the prick up to a tree and punch his fucking face in the tree. No one should treat a girl like that.
Although I've had my fair share of girls, after Jessica Stanley I'm done. The chick was sick!
"Edward, I've missed you so much this summer, we haven't hung out sense the party. What happened baby?" Jessica says trying to sound sexy but it sounds whore-like.
"Let's see Jessica. You're nasty fucking Gonorrhea was in my mouth. That's what the fuck happened."
She runs off, embarrassed. Bella runs back over here with Alice in her arm crying. Now the prick is about to get his shit rocked.
I knew about Em and Rose, the man told me everything. So I figure that they will be dating soon. And I think Jasper has a thing for the short tiny girl with the black hair who looks pixy like. And Bella. Bella is everything any guy would loud to have. She beautiful, smart, funny, kind. I've been in love with Isabella Swan sense kindergarten. I went up to her trying to be the smooth cool guy that I attempted to be and asked her with some swag if I could 'borrow your crayons' she said yes and that day I kissed her on the cheek.
I can't talk to her without being a nerves wreck and with everything going on now it would not be a good time to say anything about my love for her, how it keeps me awake at night, how she is always on my mind, I have dreamed about her every night sense kindergarten.
I walk to Bio. I need to stop thinking about her and James. I choose a table all alone so I can have time to think. As I begin to think about other things she walks in. The most beautiful girl I've ever seen. Her eyes grow wide as she realizes my table is the only one empty. She's walking way too slow for this type of and environment. And I scoot my chair over to avoid her. Fuck, I'm a prick too.
I could smell her, the smell of strawberries and mango fill the air around me. I hold onto the table to keep myself from jumping on her and sticking my aching dick into her tight vagina.
One more hour, and then you can leave.
I grab my things as quickly as I possibly could and I rush out of class. Going instantly to my next class.
For lunch, I spent the time staring at Bella through the corner of my eyes, her head is slightly down so I'm sure that she has no idea that I am looking at her. As her head jerks up my eyes move across the room. Until I find James getting up out of his chair and he moves towards our table. What is he thinking? I hope that he knows that I want to kick his ass right now. "Bella can we talk?" He asks her.
"I think we already talked before James." Bella replies, holding back tears in her eyes. She's in pain, she's hurting. I want to hold her, and tell her I love her unconditionally. But I can't. I won't hurt her. She's nothing like Jessica and her slut gang. James goes to grab her arm and yanks her up off of her seat. I can't decide whether or not I should punch him right there or wait until no one is looking.
"I told you we are over. I don't care if you're sorry. Sorry does not make things better!" And baby Bella is screaming again.
"Hey! Let me talk! I let you talk, now you let me talk now, and stop being a little bitch!" James screams.
"James, I've had enough of you! Do not call me, email me, or text me, I will never write back to you. I never want to see your disturbing face ever again. Get the fuck out of my face before we make a bigger scene." Bella says and they both turn away and Bella is walking back to the table until James says.
"Stupid whore." I heard James mutter underneath his breath. Bella heard him and she turns around as if she just got her hair pulled. She walks over to James's table where he sits and bends down. With the cute little ass of her sticking out in the air. And slaps him. So hard every one's eyes go directly back to them.
"Fuck. You." Bella says in his ear and walks back over here.
"Bella, I was going to go hit the mother fucker in the face. But Rose said you know how to handle things." Em says.
"Ha, it's fine Emmett, but thanks. I think I handled it pretty damn good." Everyone laughs but me. And her eyes meet mine. She's pissed, holding back tears that form in her eyes. I can't help but mouth. 'I'm sorry' and that's all the prick has for the day. She mouths 'its fine' and then lunch is over.
It's not fine, for the rest of the day she is walking around school with her head down. Her soft curls surround her tan face that shines in the sun. Her blue eyes sparkle in the day and shine at night. She's everything I've ever wanted. Everything I've ever wanted to hold onto to, to kiss, to make love too. Esme would just love her. I know it.
But I'm not for her. I'm too much of a 'player' or 'hommie hopper' whatever you want to call it. I'm the popular jock guy. The guy girls would love to just see my dick. One too many sexual partners and everything I've wanted to give Bella is gone. I can't give her what she deserves.
"Hey mom." I say, trying to hide the sadness in my voice.
"Hey baby boy. How was your first day?"
"I'm not in Kindergarten. But it was good I guess."
"Anything happen?"
"Rose moved here, so Em is pretty happy about that. And Jazz has this thing for Alice."
"And what about you? Who do you like?"
"No one. I need to go do laundry." I walk away upstairs as my mom calls out my name.
"I knew from the minute you said 'hey' that something was wrong. Now you can tell me about it now or you can be a wimp and cry about it all night." Mom's just have to know fucking everything. I am not about to tell her that her son, on the football, 4.0 student cannot have a relationship with a girl he loves.
"Nothing." I say and continue walking.
"It's Isabella Swan now isn't it?"
"Mom that was f…" She cuts me off in mid sentence.
"Forever ago I know, you don't think I can't see the shimmer in your eyes as you speak about her. You use to come home for five years and all you would talk about was that girl. How pretty she is, what she wore to school that day, how beautiful she is going to turn out to be. Love like that doesn't just go away son. It stays. Now you do something about it, or you will regret it."
"Thanks mom." She's right. I've been ranting on and on inside of my head or to my fucking mother about some girl that I do not have enough balls to go up to and tell her that I like her. Well damn, it's not like I'm just going to say. 'Bella, I love you.' I have to ease into it. Talk to her more. Take her out on a date.
I'll start tomorrow.
"Bro. Wake the fuck up!" Emmett's voice is strained. He's full of confusion and anger.
"What time is it?" My voice is as raspy as hell.
"It's 7!" I jerk my body up as if I was possessed. I throw the blankets over my body and run to turn the shower on.
I usually take my time in the shower but not today. Today is the day I begin to get Bella to be my girl. The shower is hot, I shampoo and condition quickly. And I can feel the steam all over my body as I get out. The huge window against the wall is fogged. So I decide to get dressed. I choose True Religion dark wash jeans, and a dark gray sweater and my signature leather jacket. I run my fingers through my hair a few times and then again with a little bit of gel to give it the 'I don't give a fuck' look. When I really do.
By now it is 7:15 and time to go. "Let's go!" I yell, hearing the footsteps of Jazz and Em. I jump into the front seat of my gay ass Volvo. And turn up the music to rap. "What took you so long?" Jazz asks in a frustrated tone. "I was sleeping." I saw looking straight ahead in a hurry to get to school to see Bella.
"No fucking shit. But why did you not wake up?" Emmett screams, more mad than Jasper. I don't see the fucking problem! I just woke up late big deal!
"Shut the fuck up. I didn't do anything wrong!"
"You woke up late, we almost missed school! And I'm fucking asking Rose to be my girlfriend again! I need to get to that motherfucking school!" He always makes it so damn easy! Emmett can get anything and everything that he fucking wants. Any girl, every sport, good grades. The dude has everything. I have nothing. Well, I get good grades, I do football. But without Bella I still feel like I have nothing. I sound like some teenage girl!
I pull up into the parking lot at school. And I see Bella's red Z350 in the spot in front of ours. Emmett gets out, and runs over to Rose's black Z right by Bella's and picks her up in his arms and swings her around. I can hear his voice deepen into Rose's ear as he probably asks her to date him again. And she squeals like a little girl if she saw that Robert Pattinson guy.
Jasper makes his way towards Alice and they probably talk about stupid shit. As I just stand there like the cool fucking guy girls think I am. And I lean up against the side of my car. My cold exterior is nothing like the inside. And I hear tiny heals make their way over to me. Their Bella's.
"We need to talk." Her voice is serious. I turn my gaze to look into her eyes. She's annoyed; her face shows that she's hurt.
"Okay."
"What the hell was up with you yesterday in Bio? You had no reason to look like you were in pain yesterday. What did I do?" She sounds like she is about to cry. I take a step towards her and I decide I need to show her who I use to be. The little boy who fell in love with her when she kissed me on the cheek.
"I'm sorry for my reactions. I was out of line. I wasn't planning on acting that way today. I don't know why I did what I did. I hope you can find it in your best interest to forgive me." She looks beautiful. She's wearing dark blue flare jeans and a gray sweater that cuts down into a deep-v making me wanting to grope her there. We match, it's kind of cute.
"Thank you." She says and turns away I could see your cheeks rise in a smile.
"Anything for a pretty girl." I say raising my voice at the words of pretty. Her head turns around quickly and she bats her eyes at me. She's so fucking cute.
The day goes my slowly. I am anxious for Bio. I don't know what I should do. I want to talk to her, but I have no Idea what to say. I'm in Language Arts right now, so I have like ten minutes until I have to leave. You saw her, the way she looked at you when you said the pretty girl thing. You'll be fine. Just a little more to wait for.
My head was down so I could barely hear the class get all of their shit and leave. I look up and realize that everyone was gone and I get all of my things and leave, being the last person to go.
I walked into Bio, and I prepare myself for the worst. But I see that Bella has already taken her spot at our table. I walk a little bit faster than she did yesterday probably looking like a dumb fuck. And I take my spot next to her. I turned my head to face hers, and I smile crookedly.
"Hello." I said, not quite sure if she wanted to talk to me. But when her sweet voice says "Hi" I smile to my ears.
"I know we talked about yesterday already but I can't explain how sorry I am if I hurt you in any way. I would not want to hurt you ever Bella."
"Edward, I wasn't hurt. I just wanted to know what happened. More confused I would say."
"Well, sorry for making you confused."
"Can I ask you something?" She asks, hope is gleaming in her gorgeous blue eyes.
"Sure." I say trying to hide back a stutter.
"Do you want me to move seats, I can…" I cut her off not wanting to hear her finish her sentence.
"Of course I do not. I want you to sit by me for the rest of the year. Bella your spot is right next to me." I say, my voice had a hint of anger. And her expression was shocked.
"Okay, I'll stay," I nod, and listen to what the teacher has to say until I feel like I could not hold it in any longer. I tune into what Mr. Banner is saying when he says there is a partner project with the person next to you. We get to choose our topic but it has to be about Genes.
I turn to go look at Bella and she is already looking at me.
"Would you like to come over today so we can talk about the project?" I ask hoping that she will say yes.
"I'd love to… But my car is here…"
"I can take you to my house we can do the project, and then when we are done we can come back and get your car. If that is okay with you?"
"Yes, it's fine. Meet me by the gym okay?"
"Okay. I'll see you at lunch." She walks away and murmurs "I guess I will."