I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING TWLIGHT… Although I wish I did :(
Bella
James is gone. Out of my life. Out of state out of mind. I guess you could say that only if he was out of my mind. I still think about him. He made me feel real. Like I was someone who was someone if you know what I mean. He made me feel like I belonged here in this hell whole. It doesn't help that Edward has chosen to talk to me now. When I was with James he helped me forget about my love for Edward but now that he's gone Edward is there. He's still all that I want all that I need and everything that I've ever dreamed of. But I know he would never love me as I do him.
The dreams have reappeared. I the ones where I see Edward and he's there with me. It feels almost as if he is in the same room that I am in. But they are every day one. I awake by saying his name, and then he's gone. Until I see him in reality. I still am amazed that he didn't want me to leave his side in Bio. Just because he was being a little fucking prick the other day he still wanted me to sit by him. And he said he'd see me at lunch. And now that its lunch and we are talking he suggested that we might as well walk there together. I mean what's the harm of that.
Edward and I walked side by side through the crowds earning glares from Jessica and her sluts. I know that was suspected but for just two minutes of walking by Edward all attention was turned towards me. This was all that I wanted last year. Was to be noticed and to be looked at the way people look at the popular girls I assume you would call them. But it's not all that great. Yes sure it's good to have all eyes on you. But not the negative attention.
All of the stares and glares are from Edward's past. This is more than you would care to count. But that does still not stop me from love this man uncontionally. "Why is everyone looking at us?" I asked wanting answers and not sure knowing why everyone was looking at me was weird. When I was with James I got smiles but never did I get a glare. Well besides from Edward.
"Maybe it's the fact that you're walking next to the sexiest man in school." He says being just as full of himself he was in Kindergarten. I am shocked hiss parents have never questioned his cockiness.
"Or maybe it's the fat that I'm walking next to the cockiest man in school." I say nudging him gently but still playfully.
"Bella, Bella, Bella; I am a lot of things. But if you were me, you'd be cocky too. I'm not surprised you're cocky. You're beautiful you should be flaunting your shit fucking everywhere!" He says just loud enough for the people that are by the entrance of the lunch room doors to hear.
"My oh my, Mr. Cullen you are smooth with your words." I say smiling as I decide to walk ahead of him swinging my hips more than I should have for the conversation we are having. He catches up to me and pulls my waist down to slow me to his speed.
"Now what is it that you're doing now Swan?" He asks flirtatiously with his crooked smile arching out of his lips.
"I believe that I am 'flaunting my shit' as you said I should do." I end laughing loudly once again getting glares from Jessica. "What the fuck are you looking at?" I asked her knowing her response already would be silent because of Rose and I being friends.
"Now by flaunting your shit does not mean shaking your good." Edward whispers in my ear, making me ache down in my privates. I shiver; his chest is right up against my back.
"I didn't know Cullen's didn't like a little show. I'll stop…" I begin to say before he says "I never said to stop there Swan." Making us both laugh in response and we walk back to the new table of ours.
"When did you two start to talk?" Jasper asks. And by that comment he gets a hit in the arm by Alice who tells him to be nice and to not talk that way to us. I laughed because she seems so serious about his comment. I was about to talk when Edwards does.
"We were best friends in Elementary school but we grew apart. We have Bio now; Bella is coming to our house today to work on a project." Rose looks towards Emmett and he just shakes his head smiling. I crook my head to the side not knowing what is going on. I never know what the hell is going on.
"Well in that case. You should just stay for dinner." Emmett says, while Rose cuddles up against Em's lean body.
"Edward never asked me too and I don't want to be rude." I want to go. But I want Edward to ask me, not his brother.
"Bella, would you please stay for dinner at my house tonight?" Edward asks, smiling the whole time. I nodded not wanting to show him that I am about to shit my pants in excitement. I would have never thought that a year ago I would be having dinner at Edward's house.
"Rose, Alice do you two want to come over?" Edward asks being a complete gentleman.
"I'm going out with Jazz tonight actually." Alice says, I drop my jaw. I'm shocked. I knew it was going to happen but this soon?
"And Em is taking me out to dinner as well." Rose says, kissing Emmett on the lips. The way they are around another how they act towards one another is nothing close to awkward. They look so comfortable. And the way they kiss is like they were meant to be together. If only that was how Edward and I were.
I spent the rest of the day up until gym, thinking about today. Being with Edward is nothing that I am use too. I haven't talked to him at all sense last year. And only then he would say things if I ran into him or if I was taking shots at a party. But he still showed no sign of even being tenuously interested in me.
"What do you think you're doing with Eddie?" Jessica asks with her slut crew by her side. With Alice by mine I'm surprised she came to talk to me. Alice may be tiny but the bitch is fierce.
"The name is Edward. And we are friends. And last time I checked, I could've asked you the same thing a year ago." I say getting closer to her.
"You're not his type. Don't even try. He will never be interested in a virgin like you." She says inching towards me this time. I walk towards her not stopping until I am two inches away from her.
"I'd rather be a virgin that a cock sucking whore fucking slut like you Jessica!" I say spitting her name at her. She wipes the spit off of her face. She's aggregated. She goes to pull my hair but I slap the bitch so damn hard she falls to the floor. Lauren and whoever is by her side asking if she is okay.
"Oh and Jessica, if you ever ask about me and Edward again. I'll be sure to do much worse next time. You hear me bitch." I ended. It's not a question. I already know that she heard me.
The rest of gym was boring as hell. And Alice and I just talked about Jasper the whole time. I found out that he asked her out. He kissed her after lunch today and that his lips are really soft. Oh I forgot that she said she is really comfortable around him. She asks me about Edward and that's just a different story.
"I love him Alice. I mean I really do love him. I have for like twelve years. And even with loving him for that long. After James. I'm still hurting. I feel like he has ruined it for any guy that I am meant to be with. My heart hurts, it's as if I got stabbed and my heart is trying to be repaired. I'd do anything for Edward. But I still need help with myself before anything with him." I could feel tears forming in my eyes. I close them trying to fight back everything that I am feeling. But all that I see is the image of James at the lunch table after I slapped him. I can't help but feel like I'm empty. I need to feel whole again.
"Bella, I will do anything that it takes for you and Edward to be together. I know that I am soul mates with Jasper. I know that it seems quick. But you can't deny love at first sight I knew from the moment I saw him. And you knew from the moment you kissed Edward years ago. I'll help you be you again. I won't stop until you are with him. Do not cry over James. Because he was not worth it in the long run." Alice is so sincere. I am amazed that she and I are still best friends with everything her and I have been trough. I love her, she's my sister. And I'd do anything for his as she would for me. I hug her tightly telling her that I don't know what I'd do without her; I really don't know what I'd do without her.
And with that the bell rings. I walk slowly to the locker room getting dressed while I collect my thoughts. I thought that I could play 'hard to get' but I'd rather just show him me. Who I really am. If he doesn't like it then he can go fuck with some other girl. As Alice and I walk outside I feel the cold air touch my skin. I shiver from the contact and I look down at my feet. Wrong day to wear flip flops. I move my hands up and down my arms to keep me from shivering more and I finally look up and I see Edward walking towards me.
He walks with a 'swag' that only he could pull off. He walks swiftly behind me and pulls his leather jacket over his body. And puts it over my shoulders. I turn to look towards him. And he nods and we walk off towards his car. His car is comfortable. Black leather seats, which heat up making my ass warm ha-ha. He goes to turn on the radio and it's my all time favorite song!
I don't bother to ask Edward if I could sing along. I and he use to sing to each other when we were little. We are both really talented singers. I don't know if he still sings. But I think that I am about to find out!
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
I sometimes feel like this song was written for me. I don't know why. But I always feel like some part of this song resembles my life.
How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears.
And I can be so insincere,
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!
How many days disappear?
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
Edward's angelic voice is right along with me. He sings with the vocals of the song while I sing an octave higher. His voice is magical, as if angels are ringing in my ear.
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
The blend of our two voices together is a sound to hear. They match perfectly. As he sings along I stare into his eyes and he does the same that I am.
How many lovers would stay?
Just to put up with this shit day after day!
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!
How do we get there today?
When we're walking too far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say!
I can't help but smile at the look of his face. He seems so happy, so energetic; I haven't seen him like this in a long time. We may not have talked but I always read his face, always payed attention to his every move.
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
I just wish that he would love me back. But for now, I'm happy with how things are right now.
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her-
We laugh as we continue singing. He fixes his head towards the road and bobs his head along to the tune.
This is the story of a girl;
Her pretty face she hid from the world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
This is the story of a - girl!
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
When she smiles.
"I never knew you kept on singing. I remember how we use to put on little shows for each other. You would put on a little tiara and a pink feather boa and dance around and sing." We start laughing until it hurts. I remembered the memory just as well as he did. I can't believe that he still remembers all of this.
"Hey! Don't make me sound like the freak! I didn't think you'd still be as amazing as you use to be. And who could forget your dancing!" I say pointing at him and laughing. "You would hop onto a table and sing and jump and swing around and jump from couch to couch until Esme starting yelling at you to get off." He takes his eyes off of the road and looks into my eyes.
"Fine! We are even Mrs. Swan! Just don't repeat that to Emmett, he would kill me if he found out!" He says being serious but laughing at the same time.
"Okay then Mr. Cullen, just don't give me a reason to and I'll keep quite!" I said as we pull up into the drive way.
I could feel the nerves in my body, butterflies fill up into my stomach and I find it hard to walk. My head is spinning. Why am I so scared? I've been here before. I use to come here all the time so long ago. Well damn, that's probably why; it's been so fucking long! I gather myself up quickly as we reached his door. He pulls the French doors open and I see that he has remodeled.
Compared to Edward's house makes James's look like shit.
The outside is dark, gray stone on the first floor. It curves around in a shape that I do not know how to explain. The house is on a small hill. You see tree's as far as the human eye could possibly see. The second floor is a medium brown log color. It has an area where it comes out into a 90 degree angle towards the trees. And on the third floor is the beautiful gray stone again. The outside is covered by windows. It's very open.
I am most likely looking stupid for just standing there looking at his house but he doesn't try to pull me along he just looks around with me. I look at him and he tugs me along to the inside.
As I walked in I look around again. The floors are wooden and the walls are an egg shell white. Making the house seem a lighter color than it is outside. There is little furniture making it seem very open. To the left there are black couches and a glass table. And a wall separates that from a single white hair in the corner. And to the right is a beautiful black piano.
We walk around towards the left and go up a white stair case. Leading up to his room. Among the walls are pictures. I remember now that Esme is a designer. That would explain the beauty of the house.
The room is a perfect size. It's at the point where the house goes out to a 90 degree angle and stretches out. It's a pearl white with no walls besides the one connected to the rooms around it. Other than that it's all windows. It's gorgeous. He has a white large book shelf with a music sound system in the middle and cd's around and books on the outside. A black leather couch is in the left corner of his room. And a small white book shelf is right by the couch with thick books on each end hanging out. His bed is in the right corner. It's a silky white comforter. The bed is huge! It's a king size bed over powering the room.
I am amazed by how beautiful the room is. It's so open and showing out to the world. But with no neighbor's I guess it does not really matter. He has a large white pillow and seven smaller black pillows in front of the white on.
I sit on the edge of the black leather couch dropping my bag at my side. And look around his room.
"I look just sitting right where you are and look at the stars in the summer." He says. His voice is soft. Sexy.
"It's so open, so beautiful. I'd do the same thing. The stars from my house are not noticeable. I bet you have an amazing view. I've always wanted to look at the stars during summer time and just fall asleep under them." I'm so relaxed. His room is calming. Unlike James's. I just felt uncomfortable for the first hour.
"You can come over anytime in the summer with me, if you'd like." He says his head is down. But I could feel the hint of hope in his gentle deep voice.
"I'd love that Edward." I look around outside and enjoy the view.
I may be feet away from him but I can feel that electrical charge between the two of us. It's an amazing feeling. I can't help but smile to my ears at the feeling that he gives me.
"What's with all the smiling?" Edward asks, confusion written all over his face.
"O-o-o-oh u-u-uh I was j-just thinking about last year at the talent show when I fell on top of you." I laugh at the memory of his starting at my tits.
"And then I said that I'd let a beautiful lady fall on me any day." I nod.
"How do you remember all of this Edward?"
"You don't remember days, you remember memories. That's one of my memories." He says looking down to his feet. He seems so relaxed yet so not in control.
"Why did you always glare at me when I was with James last year?" I ask I've been wanting to know the answer to this for a while now. But I've never thought about asking it.
Edward
""Why did you always glare at me when I was with James last year?" I never expected her to ask this! I didn't ever think she'd remember how I would look at her is disgust for her dating James. I knew she noticed it but never thought she'd ask about it.
What do I say? 'Oh yeah Bella, I've been in love with you for years. So I looked at you that way because I hated James fucking guts for even looking at you that way.' Yes, I'm pretty fucking sure that would not go over very well.
"I u-u-uh. U-u-uhm, I wasn't too fond of James while you were dating him." That is the truth. But I'm leaving a lot out.
"And why is that?" Damn, stop with all the hard questions Bella.
"It's a long story. It's not worth our time." I'd rather talk to her about everything else but this right now. And it is a long story; that I do not want to continue talking about.
"Fine. You've changed your room quite a lot sense I was last here." Her head is down, she looks so insecure. Helpless, I've felt the same way for thirteen years.
"Yes, well that's what happens when you grow older Bella. I can tell that you are still hurting about James." I told her this quietly so she wouldn't feel weaker than she is.
"How? I didn't think that it was this obvious." Bella brings her head up to look into my eyes. Her eyes are puffy. Dark purple circles form underneath her eye lids.
"You're body language. It shows that you're hurting; you try not to think about him. But you can't stop."
"I'm sorry. I don't mean to bring you down or anything. It's just hard. We were together for six months. I can't, I hate being alone." She puts her head back down and re-adjusts herself on the couch. I get up off of the corner of the bed and sit next to her, without touching her.
"Bella, you're never alone. You have Renee, Alice, and Rose. You have… me" She looks up, trying to smile but she can't. As soon as her lips curl they fall right back down into a frown.
She begins to cry. Soft little tears roll down her cheeks. She pulls my leather jacket closer to her body. This is the cutest fucking thing ever. I pull her up into my body and let her cry. Her weeps are gentle, barley escaping her mouth. Her eyes are puffier than before. And her head tucks down farther into my body.
I want to kiss, her tell her everything will okay; that I'm here for her. But she is hurting. I don't want to make her think that I'm ready for some type of a relationship that I am not ready for.
"Sssshhhh. It's okay baby Bella."
Her tears stop rolling down her tan smooth face. I take my hand and rub my fingers gently across her cheek; cleaning up the wetness on her face.
"Thank you." Her head is up, and she finishes cleaning up her tears. We look into each other's eyes for a few moments. She's easy to read. Her emotions are never held in. And that is another reason why I love her.
"Why are you thanking me Bella?"
"For just holding me, waiting to tell me things will be okay. And for making me feel like I have someone to go to besides Alice, and Rose. Thank you."
"I've always been here for you. I never want you to feel this way because of some prick." Her head jerks up even higher for the use of the word. "No guy is worth your tears. Remember that okay?" She nods slowly. And I pull her head into the nook of my neck. It fits perfectly. Almost as if her head was meant to stay there, for the rest of our life.
"Bella, Edward. Dinner is ready!" My mom yelled out, even with her yelling her voice is still soothing.
"Are you okay? We can wait a few minutes." I told her. I don't want her to gown stairs and not be comfortable from the start.
"I'm better now." She pulls my leather jacket off, but puts are tiny little arms into the sleeves. It looks better on her than me. The arms are a little long, but her fingers are still visible. We walk down stairs, and there is my mom and dad. Looking just about as formal as they did last prom.
Esme is beautiful. She has golden medium wavy hair that flows a little past her shoulders. Pale, is taking over the color her skin would usually have.
Carlisle is a handsome man. He has blonde hair and a muscular face. He is also pale. He has the same eyes as my mom. A beautiful golden color that glows.
We made our way down stairs and Esme runs into Bella's arms.
"Bella, it's been so long! You look beautiful!" Bella is beautiful. Any human being would able to see that.
"Thanks Esme! And so are you, you haven't aged a bit!" They laugh and continue the hug.
"Carlisle, you're still as handsome as you use to be!" My dad hugs Bella, just as he use to when we were little; lightly but affectionately.
My mom and dad didn't do anything extrondary. When Bella and I were little we would always order in Chinese food. And my mom, with her knowing my love for Bella knew that this would make her happy.
"Chinese food! Ha-ha, Edward we use to eat this all of the time!" Her voice is effervescent, she seems happy. And I can't help but feel like I have helped her in some way.
"I know I miss eating it with you." I nod towards her and we take a seat across from each other.
Dinner went by with few words spoke. But it's nice to eat in silence sometimes. It felt better knowing that there was no awkwardness in the air either.
"Bella, how have you been? I miss seeing you here every day!"
"I've been good." Bella looks at me and finishes what she was going to say. "I know it's been too long!" I'm not sure why, but she started to laugh a little bit for a few seconds and then continued eating.
Once dinner was over we sat around and started watching The Real World Road Challenges: Fresh Meat 2.
"Edward, it's getting pretty late, you should take Bella home." I glanced at the clock, its 9: 30 pm.
"Okay," I walked Bella back upstairs to get her things and we get in the car.
"Thank you for having me come over." She says as she looks out the window.
"Anytime. We forgot to work on the Bio project. I'm sorry."
"It's fine, do you still want to do it, or just skip?" She asked laughing a little bit.
"We can just skip it. I fucking hate Bio anyways." Her head moves up and down. And I move my gaze off of her face and onto the road. We pull up into her drive way.
"Oh, shit! My car!" Bella say's her voice is full of embarrassment.
"It's fine, I can just pick you up tomorrow morning." I thought about asking for the jacket back. But I want her to wear it to school tomorrow. I want people to know to back the fuck off of her. She will soon be my girl.
"Good night Edward." She smiles up to her ears, her teeth are perfect. Pearly white, and straight. It's dark outside but her smile shows out, and brings in the light.
"Good night Bella." I mutter under my breath as she gets out of the car. I wait a few moments and she waves from her door. That night was a night that I'll remember for the rest of my days.
Bella
He held me. I waited years for him to hold me like he use too. I have dreamed about him holding me and kissing me, telling me how much he loved me. And now my dreams have started to come true. I can't help my smile all the way upstairs. I look into the mirror. I'm wearing his jacket. He has never let any girl wear his jacket for any reason. But he gave it to me. I hear my phone ring and I pick it up.
Wear my jacket 2 school tomorrow; you can give it back 2 me after school. –Edward
Okay, I'll be sure to keep it warm for you ;). –Bella
Ha-ha. I love doing ';)' yes I'm a little flirty. But when it comes to Edward, I'd do anything for him to be mine.
Ha-ha. I'll pick you up at 7: 15. –Edward
I'll see you then. Goodnight. –Bella
Goodnight baby girl. –Edward
I hate nick names, but I'd let Edward call me baby Bell any day. He has no idea what he does to me. With every word, every touch he makes me melt under him. I take off my clothes, and put on lacy blue boy shorts and a black tank top. I put my hair up into a tight pony tail.
I get into my bed pulling the blankets over me. I'm freezing but underneath my warm comfitures I'm hot. My eye lids are heavy. I quickly fell asleep.
I can hear the rush of water crashing onto the shore. I can feel the sand underneath my toes as I wiggle them deeper into the fine sand. I look around me but the sun is so blinding, I fall to my knees. I crash onto the ground and lye there. I feel two big hands gather me up and carry me away. I can feel and hear everything around me but I don't want to wake up. I'm moving fast, but it's not me that's moving. I'm being carried like a baby in the hands of someone who I can't see. But I can hear them. "It's okay, stay here, baby girl." Over and over again, it's Edward. I try so hard to open my eyes. But I can't. I listen inventively to the man I love talk to me. I flutter my eyes. "Bella?" I flutter then again and again until I can finally open them. "Edward!" I gasp out; my breaths are un-even and short.
"Oh Bella, thank god you're okay!" I close my eyes, not being able to keep them open any longer. "Bella, come back to me." I flutter my eyes once again. But nothing is keeping them opening, besides Edward's voice. "Edward, what happened to me?" I choke out. "Oh Bella, just listen to my voice." He stopped talking for a few seconds. "You got carried under by the waves. And you started to drown; I was on my way to the beach when I heard screams. And I ran towards the water and I carried you up." I felt a pair of the softest lips touch mine. And just like Sleeping Beauty, I woke up.
I woke up panting, out of breath, almost as if my oxygen has been cut off. I don't' know why I woke up this way. It's not like I had some scary dream, or that I was being chased by some crazed killer. Edward Cullen kissed me.
I begin to get ready slowly. I pull my sheets over my body. I got chills from the cold air hitting my skin. I rub my fingers through my hair a few times before getting in the shower. The hot contact of the water burns. But it feels amazing. I shampoo slowly, but condition quickly. All the while, I remember and go through last night's events. Edward embracing me, eating Chinese food, singing in the car, telling me to wear his jacket to school tomorrow. Shit. Tomorrow would be today, making today yesterday so I wear his jacket today! Hmm, I wonder what type of bitch fit Jessica is going to pull today.
I hope out of the shower rapping a towel over my hair and drying off. I apply mascara on my top and bottom lashes, just enough to show them and I figure out what I am going to wear today. Okay, the jacket. These jeans… no… perfect! I settle for the same pair of dark blue skinny jeans that make my ass look good and my FMB (fuck me boots). They are black, and settle a few inches below the knee and have a 4 inch heal. And to make things better for Edward. I'll just wear a bra under his jacket.
I shake the towel in my hair as I walk over to the mirror. Plug in my curling iron and comb through my hair. I bend my knees and flip my hair around a few times.
Once I finish curling my hair I pull the head band in and set the curls in their place and hair spray gently. I dress quickly and twirl around in the mirror a few times. I feel like a little girl playing dress up. Only I have bigger tits and I'm more formed. I pull the zipper down just a tad to show a little bit of cleavage. Beeeeeep beeeeeeep! Oh Edward!
I grab my bag and my phone and run to the door. "Bye mom!" I yell out to her, I'm out the door before I hear her reply.
"I see you've worn my jacket like I said." His voice is cold, but yet sweet and kind. I had to adjust in my seat for the instant turn on.
"And I see you look just as handsome as you did yesterday." I say winking to him; he smiles his sexy crooked smile that I love.
"You say that to all the Cullen's now don't you?" He winks back, I laugh making us both laugh hysterically.
"You Cullen's have great genes."
"And so do the Swan's if I may say so myself."
"You already said so, so who am I to stop you?"
"You would be a horrible complement taker, that's who you would be."
"Yes, well. Shut the fuck up Cullen."
"I see that the Swan's are feisty too." Ha-ha, tell me about it buddy! I hit him gently but playfully.
"Hey! Never hit the driver, who knows what I would do!" He looks at me and looks bad to the road.
"You would never do anything to hurt me Edward." I look at his face for a while. And then I go to turn on the radio. Our hands meet just a moment and I felt huge electrical sparks fly though my whole body. Causing my whole body to shake.
"Is everything okay?" He asks. Probably referring to my body twitch ha-ha.
"Yes, everything is perfect." I smile to my ears, and he does the same. We pull up into the parking lot. Right across from where my car was yesterday. Rose is already there and so is Alice, they are by Emmett and Jasper talking. As Edward and I get out of the car, I notice that about half of the school is looking.
I spot Jessica out of the corner of my eye. And as I make my way around with Edward at my side I feel her eyes stabbing daggers in my back. I turn around quickly and flip her off. Edward laughed. As we walk two spots over to where Alice and Rose are everybody's eyes are on us.
"Why is everybody looking at us?" I ask, I doubt that he will know the answer.
"Well Bella, you got out of my car, and you are wearing my jacket. First girl to have her arms be around in it. Oh by the way. It looks sexy on you." Oh. My. Fucking. Hell. I got weak kneed, I almost fell over in response but Edward grabbed my waist pulling me up.
"Be careful, we don't need to have Mike Newton all over you ass."
"Mike Newton? Ugh, the man is crazy!"
"Hell, everyone knows that!" He said a little loudly for Mike being so close.
"Whoa there you two! You got have the school looking at you two!" Emmett yells while he 'fist pounds' Rose.
"They needed something new to look at." Edward says smiling down at my face. I leaned in closer to his body. For the first time in a long time I feel like things between the two of us are normal. It's pretty cold outside for it being late October. I think there is only two more weeks until Halloween.
"Oh yeah. Bella, Alice, boys. There is a Halloween party and my house. And be sure to have on the best outfits you can find. I want to look better than all the other sluts there."
"Baby, you already are sexier than all the other sluts here." Emmett kisses Rose passionately.
"Yeah, I'll be there." I say Alice nods. I heard footsteps behind me and I look around to see who it was. It's Mike Newton. Edward pulls me into his body. And I shiver once again from the sparks flying in my body. I need to get use to this!
With Edward pulling me in, Mike backed off and started his way towards the school. A few minutes later. Edward grabs my waits and pulls me towards the school. And after a few steps he releases his grip. Only once being at his house and the man get's all touchy. I should go over there more often. As we walked side by side the people look and stare more and more. He walked me to my class and instead of kissing like most people our age we look into each other's eyes. I see no sign of regret.
First and second period go by quickly and with Edward walking me to my every class I feel safe. Bio however goes by too quick.
Sorry about getting an F of the project.Edwards hand writing is beautiful. Every word is in the same size, everything he does, say, writes, looks is perfect.
Don't worry about it, I had fun. While mine on the other hand, is plain and boring.
Would you like to come over tonight for dinner again? My mother adores you just as much as she use too.
Oh Edward, I would love too. Would you mind I went home and changed though, I don't want to show up to your house in this.
You look perfect. But yes if you wish, you need your car back anyways I assume.
Why yes I do.
As I was sliding the paper over to him Mr. Banner comes up to our desk. "Anything you two would like to share with the class?" Hmm, let me think… fuck you Mr. Banner.
"No sir."
"I thought so Cullen. Pay attention." And that would end Bio.
Edward waited patiently for me to grab my things to walk out of the hell class. I feel kind of naughty for staring at him the whole class period and thinking about all of the things I would do that man if he would let me. But things don't always go as we wish.
"Instead of u-uhm sitting by Rose and Em, and Jazz and Alice would you care if you sat by me. I get tired of listening to Rose whisper bad things in Em's ear. The girls got a mouth!" Edward always seems to talk straight ahead instead of looking me in the eyes. His exterior is as cold as ice, but I've known him long enough to know that he is really squashy and soft.
"Yes, I would love too. I get sick of hearing Emmett moan when Rose talks to him. I can feel the guy get…" Edward's position changes immediately as I was about to say hard. But I could tell from his sudden movement he was uncomfortable with the topic.
We walked particularly slow for walking to the commons. But I don't mind. Every second counts when you're by Edward. Just by walking with him I feel like I being envied by all of the other girls. But I can't help but feel uneasy at the thought of Jessica Stanley's glare. The bitch might as well be related to damn Devil!
As Edward and I get into the pizza line. Jessica mutter's ever so lightly to Lauren something about 'who does she think she is' Lauren replies 'probably thinks she's the shit.' I am usally so kind to people. Ha-ha. But I cannot stand the sight of two fucking slut's talking about me that way. Especially Jessica.
"Oh god, Jessica will you just give up? Edward is never going to go back to you. Now stop being a pain in everyone's ass and mind your own shit for once!" Edward turns quickly over to face me, he looks awakened, he didn't hear or notice anything that Jessica and Lauren were saying so I mouth 'I'll tell you at the table' and he nods and we continue walking to get our food. Is the only way the girl will shut her fucking mouth is if you call her out? Yeah, well if she keeps this up she'll have three bitches on her ass!
I take my spot next to Edward and Alice looks my away. Her eyes gleam, and she jumps up and down quickly in her seat. Jasper takes his right hand and tries to calm her down before she falls off of her seat.
"Okay, so Emmett and I got our costumes last night and were matching, so we thought that it would be cute if we all were matching. So Bella and Edward, do you two mind dressing up a like?"
"That's a wonderful idea Rose. I have no problem with it, if Bella doesn't."
"It's fine with me. What are you two going to be?" I asked, pointing to Rose and Em.
"Were both going to be cops." Rose and Emmett looked at each other with a look of excitement.
"Alice, do you know what you and Jasper are going as?" Rose asked not taking her eyes off of Emmett's.
"Yes, were going as a 'racer' it's like NASCAR you know." I giggled at the thought of what Jasper was going to wear.
"What about you two?" Rose asks impatiently, pointing at me.
"I've always wanted to be a nurse." I look towards Edward, and his eyes are as wide as a deer in the head lights. I could see more white in his eyes than color. I am shocked that he would be this surprised at what I would like to be for the holiday.
"We can look online tonight at your house okay?" He nods quickly, eagerly. I'm reeeallllyyyy excited now!
The rest of school goes by in a blur. Nothing happened, that made any significence in my day. The car ride to Edward's was the same as yesterday. The only difference was that I dropped my car off at home this time. But I guess that he lied about his parents wanting me to eat dinner with them again he just made an excuse for me to come over. His dumbass didn't figure out that I would have said yes if he just wanted me to come over and do some yard work.
We walked up into his room, side by side. I could feel his touch, although I was still wearing his jacket I could feel the electrical shocks in my body waving, and sending a sign to my brain to get as close as possible. We entered his room and I sat in the same place that I did yesterday. He drops his things on his bed and walks over to the computer in the corner by his bed. I wonder why it's so close. He motions his hands in a way that says 'come here.'
I sat at the corner of his bed, but he gets up so fast I'm confused in as where he is. He sits down right by me and points to the chair. I go into Google and type in "sexy costumes for Halloween"
"Would you mind being a doctor?" I asked, I don't want him to wear something that he doesn't want too.
"Bella, I'd wear anything you want me too." I continued the search and I find this one outfit that I liked.
"Oh Edward its perfect!" Edward jumps off of his spot on the bed to face the screen, but I cover my hand over the costume. His smile goes into a frown, he looks confused, sad, let down; poor baby.
"Why can't I see?" His voice is deep, but has a whiney yet baby tone to it.
"I want you to be surprised. Here, now look for yours." I click the red X button and open up a new internet page for him. He tells me to sit on his bed, and that 'I want you to be surprised.' So I sit with my head on my knees like a good little girl that I'll pretend to be until next Saturday.
Edward spent like 5 minutes on the computer until he said he found what he wanted. He shuts down the computer and takes a sit right next to me.
"I'm sorry." He sounds so sweet, like a little boy, he reminds me of the little boy that he use to be. He use to be so tiny, cute and innocent. Now he's sexy, smart, tall, built, and a sex machine. I want to be the one to tame the beast they call Edward Cullen. But I'm the type of girl Edward would steer clear from.
"What are you sorry for?"
"Last year, when you were dating James, I had no right to look at you and do the things I did. I just feel very protective of you. You were my best friend; I'd feel like it would be my fault if anything happened to you, if any one hurt you. We may have lost touch and stopped talking because I well, changed. But that didn't mean I didn't want to stop caring about you. I couldn't even if you hated me. James wasn't right for you, I wanted to tell you so fucking much, but I couldn't find it in me to have you be mad at me for telling you something. I was just a guy who never talked to you anymore. I should be sorry for many more things, but I'm just an asshole. I could never be happy with myself if you were unhappy." I was amazed; he seemed to have really thought all of this through. I would have never imagined that he would ever apologize for losing touch with me. I couldn't help but smile at the thought of him still caring for me.
"Edward Anthony Cullen. Don't you dare one more time call yourself an asshole. You are a lot of things, you're sweet, you're a prick on occasion, you're a gorgeous young man, you're all girls can ever talk about. But you're not an asshole and if I never hear you say that about you're self one more time, I'll u-uh I'll slap you! Ha-ha. Sorry, no I wouldn't slap you, but I yell at you again. But thank you." He opened his mouth to speak by I gently touched my index finger to his lips to shush him up. I'm not finished yet.
"You know, I would sit in my room, with my mom for hours in 6th grade and just cry about how I lost you; I had no male figure in my life. And I thought that I did something wrong. 7th grade was worse, I would cry every day about how all the girls were all over you, and how I wanted to be one of them but I couldn't because you didn't want me to. 8th grade came around and I started to realize how much of a different person you were. I don't know what happened, but you were a completely different man, it confused me as to how much someone could change. But I got over things."
We sat there for a really long time, staring into each other's eyes, reading what the other one was thinking and feeling. We use to tell each other everything. But we grew apart, we have to re grow and bloom into who we use to be.
"And I'm glad that we are talking again. I'm happier now. I was upset about the whole James thing. But in some way, you've helped me get over everything. I feel like we are getting back to how we use to be."
Edward leaned over and raps his arms around me. His body is cold just like how he appears to be. He tucks his head onto my shoulder, and I rap my little tiny arms around his big body. I rest my head on his shoulder. If I could choose one moment to live over and over again it would defiantly be this one.
"So am I Bella, I feel whole again. You make me feel happier than I have ever been. No matter what, please don't leave." As he spoke his words, I felt a single tear drop out of my dry eyes, and onto his sweater.
"I have nowhere to go Edward." I felt a few more tears drop out of my eyes, making them feel moist. He lets his grasp go and puts his forehead to mine.
Just fucking kidding! I would live this one moment over and over again.